When I pierce the veil of time and peer across dimensions, it is only Union I know.
Where we were One in heart and mind.
Here we felt safe and our world was made of joy.
Singing the songs of creation.
Making universes with our love.
Then the whole world danced with joy.
We were happy then.
Love holding us together
Until fear tore us apart –
Casting our souls into the Void,
Spitting us out on the other side.
Trembling in our nakedness,
Separate. Alone. Afraid.
Forever cursed to searching for what we once had.
Yearning. Longing. Crying out.
Finding only sorrow in our search.
Temporary distractions and momentary satisfactions.
While holding the excruciating pain of longing in our hand.
Will we ever find our way home to the love we once knew?
I in you and you in me.
One as the Universe intended.
For the past number of years, we have been experiencing the great awakening of human consciousness. This awakening has been given many names and equally as many faces. Some call it the “New Age Movement” (for the record, there is nothing “New” about New Age. It is simply a rediscovery and reclaiming of what Mystics and Prophets have known all along). Others call it Ascension. Still others call it enlightenment. I’m sure there are other names, but we’ll leave it at that. While there have been many positive aspects to this awakening, there is one ENORMOUS DANGER and pitfall which very few acknowledge and even more fall into:
Ascension is NOT the path to our wholeness. Ascension is not the goal. Ascension is not the final outcome. In fact, our human journey toward wholeness – where we are one with our Divine and Human selves – is not complete until we have moved past ascension and are willing to descend into the depths of our own, as well as the world’s darkness. Descending is the profoundly challenging (and yet deeply liberating and rewarding) part of our journey toward wholeness where we come face to face with:
After we ascend and discover the ecstasy of our Union with the Divine (our higher and truest self), we have to bring that Union into embodiment. The only way to embody our true and Divine Self is to let it come through us, bringing us face to face with all of who and what we are that is not in alignment with Love. This is the work of the Shadow Worker and where our true gifts come to light.
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The truth about Descending is that we cannot “LaLa” the darkness away. Neither can we avoid it by escaping into reverie. We don’t change things by thinking the right thoughts, raising our vibration, eating “more highly vibrational foods,” or through thoughts and prayers. We have to do the messy, dirty, sometimes terrifying work of turning away from the light and toward the darkness. This is the DEEP DIVE that has nothing to do with “Dark Night of the Soul” and everything to do with the BIRTH of our Soul. Here, the fragmented and broken parts of our humanness are acknowledged, transformed, and then released so that only Love remains. I will make no bones about this part: the LOVE that we are is not some glittery, flowy, rainbow filled unicorn of light. This is the LOVE that can withstand all that we are, all the world is, and everything life will hand us, without turning tail and running away. This is the Love made up of fierce courage. It is the Love of Mother Kali who cuts away all that is not supportive of our mission and purpose on this plane. On a collective level, it is the Love of the Destroyer that burns down whatever stands in the way of our human evolution – even the Brazilian Rainforest if that is what it takes to
WAKE US UP
But again, here is the trick: We do not arrive at our wholeness through “love and light.” We get there by burning the f’cker down. And the work starts and ends with ourselves!
If we are not willing to do the challenging work of facing and being with our darkness and our greatest fears, then we cannot be a source of Love and support for our dying world. If we do not do this critically important work, choosing instead to escape into Ascension, then we will suffer the consequences.
While Ascending past the illusion of separation and finding our Union with Self is an important first step, avoiding the Descent will paralyze us with this one critical truth:
What we resist will persist!
As a friend of mine once observed, “God is a nag!” I would translate that by saying that our True Self, our Soul is a heartless bitch! She will hound us until our work is done. The harder we work against Her, the more vicious She becomes. Choosing only Ascension, imprisons us in our darkness which then comes out sideways in:
Passive Aggressive and .Bullying Behaviors.
And the king of all demons: DENIAL.
When we are stuck in ascension, we are blind to our darkness (oh, we might see it, but we will do everything we can to “La La” it away). We pretend it isn’t there. We avoid anything that might have to do with death, disappointment, failure or inner conflict. We pretend we know ourselves, when we really do not. Our unhealed wounds come out sideways as we spin round and round in the drain of our inability to be completely and wholly accountable to and responsible for ourselves.
The journey if descent is excruciating, but staying in ascension is even worse! How would you like to spend an eternity in the game of pretend? Pretty soon you can no longer remember the lies you have told yourself to stay in the light as your darkness overtakes you.
Here’s the really funny thing about this truth……Jesus knew it, and so did the Kabbalists who were likely his teachers.
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The Divine Masculine is a quality that resides within all of us – whether we identify as man, woman or other. In Western “civilization,” the Divine Masculine has been mostly absent as we have lived under the tyrannical reign of the unholy masculine. The unholy masculine is the corruption of all that was originally intended in the divine masculine and is known by its motivation which is fear, power and control. The unholy masculine takes control and then rules through these motivations, making others subservient to it, creating a hierarchical, patriarchal paradigm which privileges male over female, competition over cooperation, taking over sharing, war over peace, violence over harmony, etc. etc. etc. It is the unholy masculine (along with its hideous partner the unholy feminine) that is destroying our world.
The Divine and Holy Masculine is none of these things and is/was the original way in which human beings were meant to live – in partnership with the other half of our Divine Souls – the Holy Feminine.
The purpose of the Divine Masculine is to defend our Soul. The Soul is the Divine within us which seeks to be known in and through the world. The Soul is the bearer of our unique giftedness and the unique calling we all have to find meaning and fulfillment in our lives, for our own sake and then in service to the betterment of the world. The Soul knows who we are and who we are called to be. But, because we live in a world that does not honor our Soul, the Soul has become vulnerable. Instead, the world around us (that has been created by the Unholy Masculine) tries to tell us who we are and how to live our lives. Every time our Soul – our true calling – tries to make itself known, we are criticized, condemned, judged, even rejected because the Soul cannot be put into a box. Our Soul wants FREEDOM in a world that seeks to imprison us with its fear.
As we begin to listen to the voice of our Soul, a great healing takes place. We begin to see through the lies and manipulations of the unholy masculine (and the unholy feminine). We also begin to see how we have all indulged in and been controlled by the unholy within and outside of us. We come to understand the deep woundedness within us that caused the unholy to emerge in the first place and we work toward healing these wounds. Then, and only then, can the Holy within (that which is our truest nature) begin to emerge.
For people of all genders, this journey begins with the rise of the Divine Feminine. We begin to understand our feminine gifts of receiving and allowing, nurturing and supporting. We become comfortable with our emotions, the ever-shifting sands of the human experience, the light and the darkness that is the human journey. We get to know death, and loss, challenge and hardship and we learn how to be with it all. Finally, we do the deep excavating work of Soul Retrieval – diving deep into our own shadows where we have hidden, stuffed, even rejected the parts of our Soul that we (or our society) would not accept….and we bring them forth into the light. Here, we begin to know who we are, what we need and how we are called to be in the world. Once we get a pretty good handle on this….the Divine Masculine steps in.
The Divine Masculine is the energy within us of provision and protection. The Divine Masculine is the hunter, going out into the world and bringing to us what we need to support the unfolding of our Soul’s purpose. The Divine Feminine tells the Masculine what is needed, and “he” brings it. The Divine Masculine is also the gallant knight who stands at the gate to our Soul defending its unfolding. In this role, the purpose of the Divine Masculine is to set boundaries, to say who and what will be a source of support for our Soul’s mission and purpose and then unapologetically says who or what shall pass through our gate. (This unapologetic nature is something I have long admired in the men and women that I know who possess this trait!)
As divine expressions of the Love that made us all and seeks to be known in and through us, we deserve nothing less than becoming our true Divine nature – masculine and feminine, and ultimately whole.
Where are you in the journey of being your true Divine Self?
It has been awhile since I have received a message from “beyond.” Well…this week I received TWO. What initiated the reception of both these messages were discussions that arose between myself and several of my colleagues and companions on this journey. These messages will not resonate with everyone, but if they resonate with you, congratulations, thank you and Welcome home! – Love, Lauri
Message One (delivered on 9/12/16):
Congratulations! And Thank you! You have made it to the other side and are now living fully in the 5D/6D – Unity Consciousness/Magical realms. Previous to this, your Soul was in 5D, but your mind and your manifesting powers were in 3D. This was for a purpose – your Soul was doing 5D work in the 3D world. This was for the purpose of opening the gateways between Unity Consciousness and the Dual Consciousness of the 3D world. This is the purpose you have been living since your physical birth on this Earthplane.
Over the course of the past 20 months, your Soul has been reclaiming all parts of yourself and drawing them fully into the 5D/6D world. What this means is that your being has been removed from 3D and you are now fully living in 5D. While you are fully in 5D, you are still interacting with the 3D world….as if it is a movie you are watching. Remember this! What you see “out there” is only a movie. It is not happening to you and does not have an impact on you. You can pray for the 3D world as it continues its path of destruction….but you are not living there. The 3D world is destroying itself and those who are awake and who are awakening are making their way to Unity Consciousness. You are the gatekeepers….as you have already moved fully through that door and are now holding space in the 5D world and anchoring its existence so that others can find their way there. Think of it like you are in your home in 5D and you are holding the door open for those who want to come over. Not everyone will.
As you are finding your way into believing and trusting that you are now living fully in the world of Unity Consciousness and Magic (6D), one of the greatest temptations will be comparison and “competition” (even though I know you don’t really believe in competition anyway). There will be things in the 3D world that will continue to anger you, especially as they relate to your mission, purpose, passion. That which angers you are simply old systems dying – old ways of doing things that are not the way of 5D but which are still the way in 3D. Because you are still interacting with 3D (which you will never not be doing), it will seem as if these systems are relevant to you….BUT THEY ARE NOT. Remember…..your mission and purpose is in 5D and to “visit” 3D to help wake people up and show them the way.
In short….this is what you are to know:
Your Soul has always been in 5D.
Your journey thus far has been about peeling back the layers of 3D illusion so you can REMEMBER the 5D world and live fully there.
Because you have succeeded in this task (congratulations!!!!), those living in the 3D world are beginning to wake up and are journeying toward the world you have always known (in your heart).
Do not get distracted by the illusions of the 3D world or by the actions of people and systems trying to find their way out of 3D.
Your job is to anchor the 5D world and hold the door open for those escaping the duality and moving toward union.
And here is the best news of all…..THE HARD WORK IS OVER. Life, as you have known it has been hard. It has been a challenge to even live (because you have always and only been made to thrive in 5D). Now that you have fully remembered the truth of your 5D nature and peeled back all the layers of 3D illusions, you will feel lighter. Life will take on a new sense of ease. There is no more hard. The only hard will be when you forget your true nature and become momentarily distracted by the 3D world in its death throes and by the 3D people living seemingly 5D lives trying to find their way home.
And finally…..expect the unexpected. Since your 5D mission in the 3D world is complete….you might suddenly find your life changing….changing to reflect your new life living fully in 5D/unity consciousness where things come to be seemingly by magic (6D).
Message Two (delivered on 9/15/16):
Welcome and congratulations! You have graduated fully from 3D consciousness and from the job you were sent to accomplish in that realm. Now, your 3D person has been fully reunited with your 5D/6D (and beyond) Soul and NOW you are no longer separate, but ONE. In this state of Oneness, of being united within your being where all aspects of your SELF have come home, you can now leave behind the 3D (duality consciousness) tasks and the 5D mission in the 3D world as you are now one with all of the Ascended Masters and are in company with them. With this, your responsibilities and call have changed. No longer are you the “victim” of circumstances trying to crawl your way out of the gravity of the dual existence. Instead, you, with the other Ascended Masters are guiding and supporting humanity in their journey from duality into oneness. The goal of all beings is to find their way home, to find their way to Ascended Mastery. You have done this, now, you are no longer “in it,” instead, you are beyond it guiding, assisting, directing, counseling. It is to you that the 3D human will go as they will be drawn to your light, to your love, to your wholeness. This “coming to” will be manifest on the 3D plane, but even more than that, it will be accessed on a level beyond the material.
Think of it this way….remember when you were a child and you prayed to “God,” the angels and saints for help and guidance? It is now to you that people will pray. They may not know you by name, they may not recognize you by face, but as humanity sends out its prayers for help and guidance, you, along with the Ascended Masters are the answer to those prayers. It is through your intervention that the world is changing from fear into love because you have had the courage to embark on that journey yourself, and with the help of your own guides, teachers, angels, etc. you have made it. Now you are in the position of intercessor.
In addition to being the answer to these prayers, you will be guiding and directing the next stage of human evolution. You will be guiding the world to love, upholding them in love, sending forth waves of love, compassion, understanding and forgiveness to a broken and hungry world. The world LONGS for the love you have come to know. As an Ascended Master, it is your job to SHINE that LOVE upon all the earth, upon all of humanity and upon all of creation.
This is your new job. Welcome to the company of Ascended Masters. You are no longer alone (you were never alone), instead you stand hand in hand with the likes of Jesus of Nazareth, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, St. Germaine, Melchezidek, St. Anna, and all the other Ascended Masters. Welcome home. And Thank you for sharing in this ministry of love.
And on a personal note, it has been working through my own areas of “darkness” – unhealed wounds, fears, the parts of myself I had rejected or judged as imperfect – that has been the most critical in this journey toward wholeness (a journey that continues). It was this work that inspired me to create my new course: “The Dark Goddess in the Bible.” In this course, we give homage to the aspect of the Divine within us that helps us find our way through the darkness in our lives. Check it out:
Beth (Elizabeth) Heuer is a dear friend and a woman I am grateful to have on my team. I have journeyed with Beth, watching on the periphery, as her gifts as a writer have emerged and blossomed. The release of her first book is a birthing of epic proportions and I am honored to support the sharing of her important message, namely, that the effects of an abusive childhood can not only be overcome, but transcended when one applies themselves diligently to the path of recovery. The end result being the restoration of their original and divine nature as healthy, whole and complete. Thank you Beth for sharing your story so others too may also find joy! You can find Beth’s book HERE.
With fierce and courageous honesty, Elizabeth Ruth Heuer creates a new Everyman, or rather, Everywoman. In telling her own story Heuer provides the context for how abuse happens and the dysfunctional thinking and behaviors that arise out of growing up with abuse. In sharing the tools that helped her to heal and to be restored to her original nature as healthy, gifted and whole, Heuer provides hope for all who have suffered the pain and aftermath of childhood physical, emotional, verbal or sexual abuse. Excruciatingly familiar, Healing a Wounded Heart speaks to female and male alike in telling the sadly universal story of childhood dysfunction leading to “a divided life,” and the opportunity, if so chosen, to heal the wounds of past abuse so that one might enjoy the freedom and fulfillment of a whole and unified life.
Elizabeth (Beth) Heuer is the Emeritus Director of Human Resources at the University of Wisconsin Oshkosh, having been instrumental in moving three departments to the strategic level of the institution within higher education. A focus of Heuer’s 42 year professional life was helping others develop, learn, and become more self-reliant and joyful in their lives. Now retired, Elizabeth’s passions include reducing poverty and domestic abuse. As a founding member of the Women Who Care–Greater Oshkosh organization, Heuer hopes to make an immediate and significant impact on the community through building relationships among women, resulting in a community where all people can pursue a healthy and dignified life.
Today, we are taking a little break from the midlife, menopause and perimenopause discussion to enjoy the creative gifts of guest blogger, Jay P. Raeder. Jay is a devoted reader of this blog and shared the following magnificent words with me which clearly depict the outcome of his own diligent spiritual practice and attention to his personal journey of healing and wholeness as part of his own midlife journey. I was moved by Jay’s words and asked if he would be willing to share this poem with you. Thank you Jay for sharing your gifts in the world and by inspiring us through your words…and more importantly, by your open, generous and enthusiastic heart!
Circle of Light
Searching for unfolding Self,no longer accepting just a face on a shelf.
Beginning to glimpse twinkling Starlight within,till all its mist’s fading Light ends,where clear Starlight’s shining Amazing Grace surely transcends!
Seeing Light’s inner beauty in sad faces of sighs walking by,smiling lovingly back at them waiting for the winning prize!
The peace of Oneness arises within, without the fearful mind,when it awakens in its ceaseless Circle of Love Light’s lost Wholenessfrom eternities parenthesis of life’s finite knowledge left behind.
New creation’s Personal intimacy of an Impersonal Creator’s love for us has already completed the last Jubilee’s Circle of Light when “The Alpha and Omega” said “It is finished” on the cross and won the Personal fight!
His greatest miracle of love has never diminished! Yet,for this uniquely Personal Love we must lose all-together our old minds darkened blemish.
Learning to think for ourselves we will succeed by the indwelling Holy Spirit of Ones Wholeness Who watched Christ bleed,now Seed to our souls soil Personally if from all separating thinking of ourselves we sever from indeed!
One Love,One Light now filling all creations glory written in our hearts and minds a brand new story!
No more smoke blown in our faces ordered to listen, just more and more Truth’s deeply liberating Starlight’s unfading glisten!
Our truly unique gifts now discovering inner joy unknown,with hearts of flesh ever more so limitlessly grown!
All creations beauty of Wholeness now seen within all,as the Hearts One body,One Earth,One creation never again limits our view of only a life so small!
Misty twinkling star’s scales fall like dust from our inner eyes of the empty Tree of Knowledge’s powerless darkened thinking,never again disguised future,of giving in to just the mind’s scent’s of its fear’s illusion caused overblown lies!
Our Morning Star’s new dawn of day comes over the horizon enlightening “Now’s” priceless beauty,awaiting new glimpses at bay,enjoying the splendor of sweetened’s silence come what may!
In each of “Now’s'” deeply felt moments nothing passes you by in your gaze,its where hindsight loses all of its errors of fate-less fears past illusions and leaving you feeling nothing but ours,and all Creations praise!
So,don’t lose all grip where all believed dross’s crude meaning,and truth,seemingly heartlessly fade from view. In empty broken hearts ground this is where finite knowledge’s nothingness gives birth to the new mornings gentle sparkling dew!
Our hearts most fertile soil “Now” begins, where in New Soils depths and beautiful new roots of nature’s hope of delight’s dwells there,waiting,where patience’s new songs are filling the hills and valleys with joy throughout the air!
Like the luxurious “Lillie’s of the field”, Infinities Seed is sown with ever deepening care of roots which mind can hardly even keep it’s precious ties,yet still come through,”Lilies neither toil nor spin”,to clothe,mind knows not why,because True Creation grows where money cannot buy!
The worlds worries will more and more pass you by, and you may not truly know it for sure,and defy,until every time you see the Light filled smile in the stranger that passes you,and its finally then you’ll truly know why!
Jay P. Raeder
About Jay (in Jay’s own words):
As a guest writer for Lauri,I would like to add something about myself. I am a writer, poet, songwriter, musician, and a photographer. I am delighted to have been asked by Lauri to share this poem I recently wrote, with all her devoted readers. Thank you sincerely.