Posted in Being Human, guilt, Inspiration, shadow work

A Poem for a Time of Waiting

Will This Game Ever Come to an End?

Copyright Lauri Ann Lumby

Sitting in the discomfort of unknowing.

Nervous, edgy, impatient.

Irritated and annoyed by the smallest of thing.

Unable to focus

Or to find anything to hold my interest.

Pacing the room

and the corridors in my mind.

Afraid to exhale –

Not knowing what may come

in allowing myself to breathe.

With nothing else to cling to or to occupy my restless heart,

thoughts become addled with

unfounded guilt and self-doubt.

In the midst of the unknowing

the demons come out to play.

Internal compass spinning

in the vain attempt to locate magnetic north.

Will the roulette wheel ever stop spinning?

Or are we doomed to an eternity of waiting –

always in anticipation of when

the next ax is going to fall.

Posted in detachment, Inspiration, Lessons, world changes

Resting in the Unknown

December 26, 2016, and we are at a powerful place of transition as a culture, as a species, as a world. 2016 is drawing to a close (THANK GOD!), and a new year, a new age, a new world is dawning.

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We just don’t yet know what that new world will look like. We can hazard a few guesses – there will be a multitude of changes and many will choose fear in the face of these changes, especially those changes that bring endings and even death.  But in the midst of what some might call “fearful,” there also exists the promise of magnificent and magical things trying to be born into our world.

As change is our greatest fear as human beings (we fear it even more than death), this is a tenuous time, especially as we grasp after the illusion of surety in the face of cataclysmic change. We want to control the journey.  We want to know what is happening, where we are going and our role in all of this.  We want to know how these changes will affect us.  And we want to know all of it NOW!  We are not a patient species.

The thing is, we don’t get to know! We will only know it as it shows up, and even then, we might only get a glimpse.  We will grasp after labels and the illusion of a final decision, only to have it ripped from our clutches.  So, what are we to do in a time of such enormous change?

NOTHING.

Yep, you heard it right. To quote a Course in Miracles, “We need do nothing.”  There is literally nothing we can, should or ought to be doing EXCEPT resting in the unknown as the old life comes to an end and the seeds of new life begin to find their roots.  Our job is to rest. To wait. To simply be.  Allowing the old to pass from our sight and the new to step forth into its place.  Here, we are resting in the unknown.

And BOY will we be UNCOMFORTABLE! We have been conditioned to be afraid when we are not in control.  We grow restless, impatient, anxious, worried.  When these emotions arise, it is even more critical that we DO NOTHING.  Acting out of fear only brings more fear, so don’t!  Sit with the discomfort.  Be with your restlessness, boredom, anxiousness, worry and fear.  Discipline yourself to BE not Do and as you are busy doing nothing, that which is coming into being will have the room, the space, the freedom (from your controlling hands) and the safety to come into the world on its own.  Much in the same way that a baby comes into the world on its own (when a birth is difficult, it is not the baby that is the problem), so too will the new life that is coming into the world through us.

Rest in the unknown and you will be thrilled at what comes forth – all on its own!