Posted in Discernment, Inspiration, Mary Magdalene, Order of Melchizedek

Receiving a Vision and Seeing it Through

For many years I have used the Tarot as a source of guidance and support. I do not believe the cards themselves are guiding me, but that the archetypal images are reflecting back to me the deep truths I know in my heart but sometimes cannot see through the intrusions of the mind.  Yesterday morning, at another crossroads in my life, I laid cards.  What came through at once surprised me and affirmed what I have known all along.  I have many times been given a vision of my mission and purpose in this life.  This mission has not changed and is being fulfilled in the timing that can only come from the Divine. As I told a friend on Monday,

“I am very clear on my mission. As the Catholic Church (and other forms of institutional religion) implode upon themselves, I am here as a bridge, a source of comfort and a guide.  I am able to speak the language of the people who will be leaving the Church.  I can be a source of comfort and support for their grief and shock.  I will support them in finding healing from the trauma and break free of co-dependency.  I will provide them with tools in a language with which they are familiar that will empower them in finding their own truth.”

This is the work I have been doing for the past 25 years and the work I will continue to do. In laying cards, this has, once again, been confirmed:

Here were the cards I drew:

The Empress: At the center is the card that represents self. Here, she is the Empress.  The Empress, here represented by St. Helena represents the reception of a vision/mission/purpose and the courage and strength to see it through.  The Empress tells us, “You know what your mission is…..stick with it….be true to your mission….and see it through. In remaining diligent and faithful, it will be fulfilled.

High Priestess: The second card represents the situation we are currently facing. Here, represented by the Magdalene who plays the role of priestess.  The priestess card is all about the inner journey, the esoteric, mystery and intuition. The priestess card presides over the gateway between life and death is able to communicate with “the gods.”  The Priestess tells us to listen to the voice within and act according to its dictates.  She tells us to trust our intuition even (especially) when it makes no logical sense whatsoever.  She reminds me that this is what I am to continue to do for myself, while supporting others in doing the same.

Ten of Staffs: To the right of the two center cards is the card that represents new beginnings and inspiration. Here – the ten of staffs which represent RESURRECTION.  What has died will find new life.  The phoenix will come forth out of the ash.  Considering all the endings and “death” I have experienced in the past many years, I can only take this as a message of great hope and promise, confirming what I have always believed  –  if the Universe is asking so much to come to an end, it must be for the sake of something HUGE.  I welcome whatever that might be.

6 of Cups: At the bottom is the card that presents transition. Connected with the element of fire it represents taking in what is life-giving and letting go of that which no longer serves.  This is the corner of transformation.  As the 6 of cups, this card represents service – specifically service to others.  Here, depicted as Jesus washing the feet of his disciples – a card of humble service and the inversion of hierarchy.  I take this as an invitation to hold true to my commitment and focus on humble service – avoiding the temptations of the ego to place oneself above others as “teacher” or “priest” or “guru” but instead as companion.  We are all on this journey trying to figure our own sh.t out.  If I can help others find themselves in the middle of the debris of our human experience, then I am humbled and grateful to do so.

The Star: The card to the left represents the process of coming into maturity – approaching the fruition of our labors. In the traditional Tarot, this is the Star card, here portrayed by Teresa of Avila in her vision of the interior castle (heaven) and the seven step process of getting there.  This card represents our own ascension (attainment of self-actualization and bringing that into our lived experience.)  It also represents a breakthrough and an opportunity suddenly becoming available.  I’ll take it!

Knight of Swords: The top cards represent the outcome of the journey. The first card, the Knight of Swords, invites us to explore our demons and our attitude toward them.  Are they our enemy and something to be destroyed, or can we find a gentler way of dealing with the perceived obstacles both within and outside of us?  St. George invites me to take the gentle path and to work toward integration and union rather than destruction.  Interestingly this is EXTREMELY relevant at this time in my journey.

Nine of Coins: The final card is the card of true abundance – a spiritual abundance providing material support. It also represents receiving the fruits of our labors. This is the experience I’ve been waiting for….and may it be so!

If you are interested in learning the Tarot from a Christian perspective, check out the Tarot of the Saints by Robert M. Place. The Tarot is also explored in depth in my online Order of Melchizedek Training Program. 

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Posted in Authentic Freedom, Christ Consciousness, church, Faith, Freedom

Fool for Christ

As part of my daily morning ritual, I pull one card from my Gnostic Tarot of the Saints (Robert M. Place).  This morning, I pulled The Fool card, here represented by St. Francis of Assisi – known in some circles as “the fool for Christ.”  I must humbly admit, this appellation fits me to a T!  For all of my life, the past 22 years especially, I have dedicated my every waking (and sleeping) moment to studying, learning, listening to and obeying the guidance of the Divine within me – a connection I found through the example, teachings and guidance of Jesus the man and the Christ that he became, along with the examples set by all the other teachers that I was led to study.  In the eyes of many, my single-minded dedication to this journey and to the mission of the Love that is the Christ, makes me a fool. I have taken many risks to adhere to this journey.  I have made many sacrifices. I have made choices considered “crazy” by some.  With blind faith I leaped from the cliff and have been free-falling every since, ever deeper into the arms of love.

Image credit:  Robert M. Place
Image credit: Robert M. Place

In this love I, like Francis, have been called to “rebuild my church,” and like Francis, my understanding of this call proved to be way too small! Initially, I thought I was being called to reform Catholicism – to bring it back to Jesus’ universal (catholic means universal) message of Love. What I have since learned, is that the call to “rebuild my church” has nothing to do with Catholicism, Christianity or anything that has nothing to do with church in the way we have traditionally thought of church.  Instead, it is simply about being LOVE in a very universal sense:

  • Discovering the Love that is the very nature of who we are.
  • Knowing, believing in and living from that place of Love.
  • Being, expressing and sharing that love.
  • Seeing and engaging with that love that dwells within every single human being and is the very fiber and form of the universe.
  • Understanding that no matter what we believe we are seeing “out there” it is really, only love.

This is the love that Francis and Clare came to know within themselves through their relationship with Christ. This is the love that we all have an opportunity to know, if we only have the eyes to see.  This is a love we can see only through the eyes of innocence, wonder and awe, the eyes of a fool, or as Jesus said, the eyes of a child.

Like just the other day, I beheld the face of love where others may have forgotten to look. I stepped into the local coffee shop for my daily “hug” and as I stepped inside, a baby sitting in a high chair caught my glance. She looked at me.  I looked back at her.  Our eyes locked….and we knew.  Then, she smiled and blew me a kiss.  If that’s not love, I don’t know what is.  And if I have to be a fool in order to see that love….then let it be so.

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