Twilight visitations: Yesterday morning while in meditation, I was visited upon by a Presence. It appeared first as a flash of light, then as a star, hanging just outside my window. The “star” was filled with the Presence(s) of Knowing and Truth. Then the star began to speak – not in the language of words, but in the language of knowing. Delivering to me what I need to know in this moment – a message I am now being asked to share with the world.
We are here to change the soul and vibration of our world.
I already knew this on some level, and I’m certain you do too. But in this most recent transmission, the fact became even more clear – along with the method.
The method is not about doing. Doing is the work of a dualistic world. Instead, the method is in our BEING. It is by our very presence that the energy of our world is being transmuted from fear into love; separation into union. Simply in being ourselves, the vibration of our world is changing; but even more so when we add intention to our being.
As a “transmitter,” this is my mission and purpose on this plane – to simply BE and Transmit the new vibrations that are needed so desperately in our world.
The same is true for you, in your own unique soul gift, mission and purpose on this plane.
We did not come here to be human. We’ve seen what human beings have done to their world. We are here to be love and in being that love, changing the very fabric of the world, along with what it truly means to be human. While it may not seem so at times, the world is changing simply because of our presence because this is what we came here to do (oops….BE).
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Surrendering is a topic I have written about before as it is the invitation that shows up over and over and over and over in our journey toward the Soul. Whether we are asked to surrender, let go, or we find ourselves in a free-fall, SURRENDER is a persistent theme. This is natural considering that we have been conditioned to believe (and many new age and new thought circles enforce these beliefs) that the circumstances of our lives are somehow in our control. You know the routine – think the right thoughts and you will get what you want, working hard leads to reward, no pain no gain, it is by your efforts that you will be rewarded, your value is dependent upon how hard you work and what you accomplish, yada yada yada. The stream of conditioned thoughts are endless. Throw in our religious conditioning including the misperception of “faith” (believe you will be healed and you will); and the immigrant work ethic and we have a one mell of a hess!
The truth is, very little of what happens in our lives is within our realm of control. (GASP!). We are told that we have free will, but do we really? This is a question I have explored with many of my clients, students and colleagues. It seems that the closer we get to our Soul, the less we are allowed free will. In short, no matter how hard we work, no matter how strongly we believe (or think we believe) no matter how much we strive toward what we think is our Soul’s calling, our Soul’s purpose, our Soul’s mission…..if it is not our Soul’s calling, it will fail. (and sometimes when it is our Soul’s calling it still fails because it is what the Soul intended). And we can know that it is not our Soul’s calling when in spite of all our efforting, belief, “faith,” wishing hoping and dreaming, all we come up with is a bloody forehead from beating our head against the wall.
The Divine path is easy. The effort comes when we are allowing the ego to drive instead of our Soul. The Soul says, “Let Go! I got this.” The ego pleads, “BUT I NEED TO BE IN CONTROL. I need to know what is happening, why it is happening and how. I need to be able to decide, to choose, to see the road ahead and what will happen as the path unfolds so I can make plans.” The Soul says, “Um….no, you don’t. If you saw where I am leading you, you would freak the f-out and say NO! You don’t need to know and you don’t get to know and while you are busy making plans, I am unraveling them for you.” God is kind of an asshole that way – but only because the Divine plan is better than what we could ever imagine, hope or dream of – but NOT from the limited perception of the ego – only from the infinite and expansive wisdom of the Soul. In this the Soul can see the good in suffering, sorrow, betrayal, loss and pain. Even death – especially death – serves the greatest and highest purpose….but to all of this the ego says NO!
Surrender is such a frequent theme because of the ministrations of the ego. The ego wants to be in control and believes that being in control, it is keeping us safe. But at the end of the day, are we ever really safe? Death, as we know, can come at any minute. We can be taking our favorite route to the yoga studio and get hit by a semi. We can be eating all the right foods and thinking all the right thoughts and still get struck down by cancer. We can be enjoying a friendly game of soccer one day and find ourselves in the ICU hooked up to life support the very next day. Life (shit) happens and we have NO CONTROL over it. If it is the intended path of our Soul it will happen no matter what we do to try to “make it happen” or avoid it.
This is perhaps the toughest pill to swallow in our human journey. We are not in control. The Soul will do what the Soul came here to do. Period. Jesus proved this. Jesus came here to be and show love. He came here to show us all how to find peace (the kingdom of God) within. He healed the sick. He gave sight to the blind. He counseled the hurting. He nourished and fed the spiritually hungry. And then he got killed for it. Jesus did everything right. He listened to the calling of his Soul. He did what his Soul asked of him. He was “obedient unto death.” And then he died – a slow and painful death on a cross. And there was NOTHING he could do to stop it – because it was the path his Soul intended. And at the end of it all, Jesus did what we are all invited to do. He surrendered it all unto his Soul, “Into your hands I commend my spirit.” The very same path his mother traveled before him, “Let it be done to me according to your word.”
Complete and total surrender is what the Soul asks of us. To meet each moment of every day with the understanding that what is showing up to meet us is EXACTLY what our Soul has intended for us to experience in this life. We are not to know the whys or the hows, but to simply surrender. This is especially true when we don’t really like what is coming for us – illness, poverty, suffering, pain, disappointment, (perceived) failure, etc. We need to LET IT GO. And when we are human (which we will always be), and we find ourselves struggling and all our efforts seem to be in vain, the invitation is there again – complete and total surrender as the Soul reminds us, “Let go. I got this!” And then, we let Her!
The closer we move toward our Soul’s purpose, the harder the “devil” works against us. I don’t mean the dude in the red tights with horns carrying a pitchfork who is really the Christian appropriation and demonizing of the pagan fertility god. I mean the “devil” that resides within all of us. Another name for this devil is the ego or false self. Or as identified by our Hebrew ancestors – satan, meaning inner adversary, or from the Latin Lucifer, meaning light-bearer.
There is great wisdom in acknowledging this inner adversary as a light-bearer, as it is most often in our darkness where we discover our light. That is, when we have the courage to face the darkness and be present with and in it so that the light can be revealed. For the devil isn’t here to tempt us, though tempted we will be, the devil is here to help us grow.
Growth doesn’t come without challenge or pain. Ask the sunflower or the oak tree what obstacles they had to move through becoming their most fulfilled and fruitful self. The same is true for us. When we awaken from our human slumber and realize that the things “out there” are not providing us with fulfillment, peace or joy, we turn our gaze inward. As we turn that gaze within, we discover all kinds of unhealed wounds from our past, unacknowledged fears, unrealized dreams. If we are courageous, (or if life leaves us with no other option) we then embark upon the deep soul work of bringing all these areas of inner darkness to the light so that they can be healed and transformed, finding within this transformation the treasure in the darkness. This is what brings us toward our soul’s purpose and the life of meaning and fulfillment that we all long for and that our Soul intends for us to experience in this human experiment. It is ultimately the Soul’s longing to be fulfilled that brings us to this task.
The “devil” in this journey is the inner vehicle that brings all of our fears and unhealed wounds to light. It is our job to recognize these fears as they arise and take responsibility for these fears. Most often, these fears arise in us due to outside triggers. Something or someone shows up in our path reflecting our fears. Maybe it is the stack of unpaid bills on your desk. Maybe it is someone seemingly accomplishing something you wish you could do. Perhaps it shows up in an infringement of boundaries, or in the form of rejection. However it shows up, we can know an unhealed wound or unacknowledged fear has been triggered by the reaction we experience in our bodies. Perhaps the hair stands up on the back of your neck, or your belly constricts, or you feel the hot pain of rage boiling up in you.
Whatever that inner reaction might be….DO NOT ACT. Instead, recognize it for what it is – the devil, Lucifer – showing up to reveal to you your unhealed fears.
Then….NAME the fear for what it is – fear of lack, fear of your own insignificance, fear of powerlessness, fear of not being loved, fear of not being able to express your truth, fear of not knowing your truth, fear of being alone. NAME the demon, and it no longer has power over you.
LOVE that fear. Sit in the discomfort of the fear. Hold it in love. In being with it and holding it, the fear gets what it has always needed, to be acknowledged and loved. And then the fear is transformed and we are now free of that face of our fear.
THANK the fear. Thank Lucifer, the devil, satan, the ego, the false-self, whatever you want to call it, for helping you to grow and helping you to take one step closer to the life you came here to enjoy – one of contentment, joy, fulfillment and love.
The Soul’s fullest expression of love is received;
For it is only in receiving
That one can truly give.
Here, the Soul is fulfilled.
Lauri Ann Lumby’smission is to support you in finding the fulfillment to your Soul’s longing. This fulfillment begins with the radical journey of self-discovery – coming to know every single piece of who you are – your gifts, your shadow, your unhealed wounds and unacknowledged fears and bringing them all into the light of love so that you may learn to love yourself. When we know the LOVE that we are, then we have no choice but to be this LOVE in the world. In being this love, our Soul’s longing is fulfilled. To learn more, call or email Lauri at (920) 230-1313 or email@example.com…or peruse this website for all the ways in which your Soul is supported in its hunger to be fulfilled.
In the past nine months, I have tried everything to be healed of the migraines, panic attacks and then vertigo brought on by a virus that attacked my inner ear. While I have found some relief through a combination of herbal remedies, chiropractics, acupuncture and physical therapy, the symptoms are still keeping me from being as free as I would like to be (specifically, being able to drive on the highway….driving at fast speeds is a HUGE trigger). When twice in as many months, “Hildegard of Bingen” came up for me through my spiritual director, I turned to her for guidance. It seems she was plagued by the same symptoms when she was unable (or unwilling) to share her visions with the world. So, I’m trying the Hildegard of Bingen cure for migraines…..I’m sharing my visions. Here’s the one through which I was given the command to “Be the Magdalene.” This vision came in April of 2014 while participating in a shamanic journey.
The vision begins with me standing inside the well house at the White Spring in Glastonbury, specifically at the shrine within the well house to Gwynn Ap Nudd. At the back of the shrine is a limestone pool in which the flowing waters of the white spring collect on their journey to the other holding pools and eventually out to the collection pools on the street. In the vision, at the back of the shrine is also a circular, iron portal, similar to a manhole cover, marked with the Vescica Pisces. As in other recent visions, I approach the portal and dive into it, which then leads to a long tube, submerged in water. I am swimming away from the shrine and toward the lower world, but as I swim, I find I keep turning back toward the shrine and away from the entrance into the lower world. With each forward stroke, I find myself closer to the portal into the lower world, but then turn back. I am making progress, but not quite reaching the portal into the lower world. On a final approach, a hand reaches into the water from the lower world, grabs my hand and yanks me into the lower world.
I arrive in the lower world, dripping wet, and Jesus stands before me. “You’re not supposed to be here,” I say to him, now wondering if this is really a journey or just my imagination, colored by my Christian fantasies. But Jesus remains. He then leads me through the meadow where the portal enters into the lower world and towards the woods. Once we reach the woods, he leads me to the clearing where mouse (my power animal) waits and then he disappears.
Mouse instructs me to sit beneath a tree in the clearing and wait. As I wait, a parade of animals and spirits present themselves – ones which have all been part of recent journeys – stag, snake, luna moth, bat, goddess and finally raven. Raven is perched on a tree above me and holds in his beak all the parts of me he consumed in the last journey with him. I ask my question, “What do I need to know to more fully live my soul’s purpose?” Raven comes down and piece by piece by piece, puts the pieces he has consumed back on to me, as if reassembling me….but in a different order and in a new and different form. It is like taking all the pieces of a puzzle and putting it together. This is relevant to several discussions I have recently had with spiritual friends about being aware of bits and pieces of my purpose but not knowing how they fit together and that there is something that needs to happen to put it all together.
Once I am reassembled, I climb on Raven’s back and we fly from the woods. We fly across open territory toward an old gothic cathedral that stands alone in the middle of a wilderness of wide open fields. The cathedral is dark in appearance, but not scary. It feels ancient, the stones are rough, and a dark, charcoal grey. They are the color of charcoal pencils. We fly into the cathedral and immediately descend. Down, down, down, through a series of ramps and chambers all the way to the bottom where the flight ends in a crypt of sorts. A dark, stone walled room which seems to have an altar, some sacred objects. The place feels close, intimate, sacred and forgotten. It also feels holy….as if something very ancient and sacred is housed in this space. As I’m looking around, I am invited to go toward the back, right corner of the crypt. In a recessed area in the wall, there is a standing skeleton wearing a red cloak. The skeleton is ancient. I am told to step into the skeleton and the cloak. I step into them and we become one. As I step away from the wall, one with the skeleton and cape, I look down and see there is a gold ring on my right index finger.
I ask my question again, “What do I need to know to more fully step into my soul’s purpose?” As I finish asking, a man steps to my side and takes my arm. My sense is that we are a couple – romantic, but also partners in our life’s work. For our purpose to be fulfilled, we have to come together. We leave the tomb through the front door of the cathedral (no need to ascend, we’re just there). We open the doors to a throng of people who enthusiastically receive us with cheers. It is a bright, sunny day filled with light.
From that space, I immediately find myself back in the clearing alone with mouse and I ask, “Ok, now what do I need to do to get there? To make this happen?” I’m still the skeleton woman with the cloak, the image I get is like the Day of the Dead masks and makeup. “Be the Magdalene” is that mouse says to me. Then I am instructed to be with the Magdalene, to feel her energy and feel and think of what it is to be her. I sit in this receiving for a long time…it feels like a transmission, a transference, an immersion. I am the Magdalene and I am becoming more of her.
After awhile, the return drumming begins. I feel myself yanked from the clearing and as I am being pulled toward the return tunnel, I feel the Magdalene drop something into my left palm. When I arrive at the other end of the tunnel in Gwynn’s shrine, I find a rough, raw, faceted garnet in my hand.
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As I recline into reflection on this past week’s (years) galactic events (solar eclipse, equinox, full blood moon lunar eclipse, Wave X, etc.) I am acutely aware of having crossed a major threshold – and the rest of the world with me. Like the people of Who-ville screaming out to Horton, the only being who could hear, the collective “we” chanting/shouting/proclaiming/declaring/celebrating:
We are here! We are here! We are here!
And like the people of Who-ville, I feel as if we have not arrived at some place new, but instead, that the rest of the world finally knows we are here. Rather, the world has finally caught up with what we have known and imagined all along.
But, where exactly are we? My experience of where we are is exactly where we have always been but were unable to see/experience/know/BELIEVE. The place we are IS HOME.
What in the world does that mean? What does it mean to be home? First, what home is NOT!
Speaking only for myself (though I suspect many of you as well), I have known – from a very early age – that I was not born to live in the 3D world (the world of duality), but that I was born to live in a different kind of world – one that for many years I could not name – but I certainly had known. I was confirmed in this knowledge through all the things of the 3D world that made absolutely NO SENSE to me. Things like – fear, power, control, competition, deceit, doing harm to another, violence, hatred, war, prejudice, selfishness, narcissism, abuse, waste, conspicuous consumption, unbridled consumerism, etc. etc. etc.
I was also confirmed in the knowledge that I was not made to live in the 3D world when ALL the ways of manifesting in the 3D world eluded me. NOTHING came to me through the “tried and true” 3D methods for achieving success and every time I tried to do things the way “the experts” say it is done, I FAILED – and I failed miserably – and then I died from the trying – suffering exhaustion, sickness, anxiety, panic and even depression as I tried to fit my 5D (unity-directed) Spirit into a 3D (separation-directed) world. But, the things that I truly needed in my life, those things that were expressly for my Soul’s highest good, all came into my life through no effort on my own but through SHEER MAGIC – along with my ability to hear/see Magic when it showed up and then saying YES to it.
Which brings me to the discussion of what home IS:
Home is the manifestation of all that we know in our hearts to be true and the fulfillment of our Soul’s deepest inner knowing/desire.
Let me give you some examples:
For my whole entire life, there are certain things I have known to be true.
I have known of a place where all my needs were being abundantly met in a way that allows me to live simply, comfortably, in a place of beauty and safety that makes me feel at home but does not deprives others of this same human right.
I have known that I am uniquely gifted and that my life has meaning and a purpose – both for my own fulfillment and for the sake of the betterment of the world.
I have known that there is nothing (but myself) holding me back from being my most authentic self (except perhaps the Soul’s timing).
I have known that I am here for the purpose of love – to love and to be loved and to enjoy the fruits of BELOVED PARTNERSHIP. I have carried within me a deep knowing of what Beloved Partnership is and what it feels like and I that my Soul would tell me when I was straying from the kind of relationship my Soul was destined to experience.
I have known the inner experience of withholding my truth and that only in expressing my truth would I find freedom.
I have known myself to be my own authority and that my Soul desires for me to know my truth and communicates truth to me through deep inner knowing, dreams, intuition, learning, life experiences, people with whom I come in contact, prayer and my creative imagination.
I have known that I was never alone and that I could not walk this path alone and that I am ultimately One with God in Love.
Finally, I have known in the deepest places of my Soul that the way all of the above comes into being is as if by MAGIC. The manifestation of our Soul’s deepest knowing and desires is meant to be effortless and to be experienced through the greatest of ease – like Samantha Stevens wiggling her cute little nose or waving her gossamer-draped arms in the air – POOF- all we are meant to be will be made real and present in our world.
I know that if you are reading this blog, what has been true for me has also been true for you – for many, many years, your great big SOUL trying to fit into a too-small world. Well……..this time is OVER and the world is finally big enough for your magnificent, glowing, MAGICAL SOUL! You are here! You are here! You are here! Welcome home and bask in the knowledge of your Soul at rest and all the things you need for the sake of your Soul coming to you in magical and miraculous ways! I can’t wait to see all the things our True Home has in store for us! Bibbity! Bobbity! Boo!
If you want to hear more about the new world and practices to help us fully receive the new world, check out yesterday’s Sunday Service HERE.
I met Aimee LaBree Hohn while standing in the lunch line at the Presentation Center in Los Gatos, California while attending my first academic seminar with Sofia University. Aimee looked down at my nametag and asked, “Are you Lumbee Indian?” I was startled at her question as I thought no one but my daydreaming father knew of the legendary disappearing tribe with the characteristic grey eyes. I responded, “No, but my dad wishes we were.” She countered with, “Oh. I have a friend in Minneapolis with the last name Lumby who says they are Lumbee Indian.” Now I was really startled. “If their last name is Lumby, we’re probably related. Is it Scott or Annie?” “No,” she said. “Now I can’t remember his name…..Oh yeah, Patrick.” “Um……” (I could hardly talk now as synchronicity was obviously hard at work) “That’s my brother.” What are the odds of meeting someone 2000 miles from home who not only knows my brother, is dear friends with his wife AND now turns out to be my classmate? Aimee and I have been great friends ever since and as it turns out, soul-sisters. I’m so excited to be sharing Aimee’s wisdom as part of an on-going conversation about anxiety and its role in the unfolding of our Soul and our Soul’s purpose. Thank you dear sister! I love you!
the state of being potential.
Inherent capacity for growth, development, or coming into existence.
Something possessing such capacity.
I am honored to have been asked to share some writing by wonderful Lauri, a classmate, soul-sister, and inspiration. The other day, she sent us a blip from Lauren Gorgo’s website describing anxiety as an energetic mimic of high vibrational energy.
I am a highly anxious person. I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder at the age of 19. My strange little behaviors—like severe rumination about having AIDS at a non-sexually active 12 years old, and confessing to teachers that I had “damaged” school property with my fingernail—while entertaining, didn’t seem so strange anymore. It is a chemical imbalance (if we’re going with that theory). It was my growing spirituality and intuition that helped me garner tools to survive, and I was graced with some pretty powerful experiences that nudged me toward my path today. I bring my story with me every time I meet with a client and feel compassion for the anxious. It would be nice if that was the end of the story. Far from.
My anxiety takes different forms and rears its ugly head at random. Last year I had a sustained full-body panic attack that left me shaking, unable to catch my breath, crying, laughing, and tired for an entire week. This coincided with a trip I was on to a spiritual place during a turning point in my life. This triangulation was not lost on me. The anxiety was spurring me to make decisions, dammit! Make them NOW! Did I do this immediately? No—but that’s another story called “Don’t Be Afraid to Jump!” I’m working on it. Through talking with others, I realize that anxiety seems to be felt by everyone at increased levels lately. Vibrational shift, we’re hearing. This shift seems to be showing up through anxiety that has no obvious cause—more “Who am I and why am I here?” than the usual “I have to speak in front of these 100 people!” So, I reflected on Gorgo’s theory while driving the other day—a major channeling time for me.
I think she’s right. What came through is that anxiety may be a misinterpretation of energy reception; our brains trying to shut out perceived negative energy that is actually telling us specific things for our positive futures. I believe it is potentiality that we are feeling. I felt nervous energy wash over me as I got the following info about this potentiality:
We are given the seeds of change through the ideas we get; the nervous ticklings, the what-ifs. We are channeling! If we want to change jobs, we need to facilitate it. If we want to get healthy, we need to facilitate it. The time is now. Nervous energy holds unhatched and potential action. Our society teaches us to medicate this, not harness it; to see it as disorder and not creative material. When we are unable to process our ideas, or stifle them, we disrupt the flow from our Creator, our Universe. What we process as “fear” is showing us the way to love. Even those “normal” anxious feelings are opening doors. What happens if instead of shutting down we honor the energetic message?
Anais Nin’s quote came to mind: “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
We experience anxiety and pain when we attempt to stifle our blossoming.
External situations cannot control our emotions when we don’t allow them to. We fear the movement into our true purpose only because we are re-aligning and breaking old patterns. I have been experiencing this through shaking, shortness of breath, headaches, breakouts, sickness, anger. How are you experiencing it?
As we move towards and through the process, we must listen. We must remember to break patterns that don’t serve us anymore. For me, it is certain types of food. For others it may be certain behaviors. We dampen our energetic potential through the tools we use to numb ourselves. It anesthetizes energy and ekes away at the health that we need to create our path. When we crave these anesthetics we are craving the comfort of old patterns. Anxiety swells up to remind us. I imagine you can think of your patterns right now—those old fallbacks that seem to comfort us but actually cycle us into non-action. Remember, though, we must also be forgiving. Breaking the patterns can be like a mourning process. We leave behind rituals that do not serve our brighter future. Perhaps they protected us then, but today we let them go. . . Coffee, this is going to be a hard one.
What if there is more to it? Different types of anxiety? Anxiety also:
Propels us to ACT: Notifying us that something is wrong physically or emotionally that needs immediate attention. People, foods, chemicals, and environments affect us. Our bodies put up alarm bells–fight or flight.
Assures us of TRUST: We must allow decisions to flow. We get anxious if we can’t have the answers, NOW! We can’t dictate what will be, we can merely play our part in the Universal plan. This is a physical response to the dualistic ideas of “wrong” and “right” at any given time and anxiety reminds us to live in the grey area of not-knowing. I heard somewhere once that anxiety is our current fear of a previous result. We fear this negative result will play out again but we cannot know what will happen next!
Encourages us to PROTECT: We can pick up negative spiritual energy/entities. We can experience active or imprinted energies that hold current or historic emotions. For example, if I have an earthbound spirit in my area that holds addiction, sadness, or anxiety, I will react to this. Additionally, I will experience the energy of other humans if I don’t protect myself and hold awareness of how others’ emotions are affecting me. Energy is catching.
I have been sitting with this information to integrate it. It feels like a truth I forgot. My anxiety is particularly bad in the mornings, but lately I’ve noticed this: I slowly wake with hands subconsciously placed on my 3rd and 4th chakras. . . As if through comforting my body’s “anxious” energy, I am also holding power to facilitate change in my life, creative potential, and the love that flows from all of us as we bring our light and service into the world.
Aimee V. LaBree Hohn is an educator, intuitive counselor, and lover of all things mysterious. She is a student of the paranormal and metaphysical with a background in History and Master’s degrees in Education and Transpersonal Studies (Psychology). She has taught internationally and locally on topics ranging from multicultural education to spirit effects on the human psyche. She utilizes her intuitive gifts, varied studies, and experience to assist others on their paths towards wellness and remembering their spiritual selves. More information about Aimee and her services can be found at www.intuitiveaim.com.
What would happen if we acknowledge some forms of anxiety as a signal that we are indeed on the right path?
Anxiety by the Cartload
Anxiety and fear are part of our everyday lives. Sometimes, anxiety and fear show up as a survival instinct to keep us from harm. Sometimes anxiety appears to alert us to a truth that we have not yet acknowledged. And sometimes, anxiety shows up by the cartload as an unexpected ally – the signal flare that we are indeed on the right path and had better keep going! Today’s blog explores this latter form of fear.
Coyotes and the War of Art
Julie Tallard Johnson in her book, Wheel of Initiation, Julie refers to this kind of fear as the Coyote Trickster. The trickster shows up as anxiety, fear, worry and ridiculous life situations that try to deter us from our chosen path. The stronger the trickster andthe greater the fear, the closer we are to achieving our goal and the greater the goal itself. The arrival of the trickster heralds the goodness of our path and how closely it reflects our highest truth and our soul’s purpose. As Julie points out, our natural inclination is to run from the Coyote, to resist its presence. Instead, we are invited to welcome it as a sign that something really good is about to happen. Author, Steven Pressfield wrote an entire book on the role that fear places in trying to block us from our creative life path. The War of Art is a must-read for anyone who seeks fulfillment in their lives and desires to overcome the blocks to that fulfillment.
Get Behind Me Satan
Satan is a Hebrew word that means obstacle or adversary. While the Western inclination is to place this adversary outside of us, often depicted as the man donning the red morph suit, carrying a pitchfork with horns on his head, the traditional Hebrew perspective would suggest otherwise. Instead, the adversary/obstacle dwells within us in all the fears, worries, anxieties that arise trying to keep us from the path of our highest good. Again, the more persistent or the greater the anxiety, the closer we are to our own path of goodness. Big fear = Big Goodness! The question is, what do we do with Satan/the adversary/obstacle when it arrives?
Just Keep Walking
When we are experiencing anxiety and acknowledge that it might be a herald of something amazing happening, the invitation is to WELCOME it! When we acknowledge the presence of this fear and recognize its higher purpose, it no longer has the power to stop us or to deter us in our path. Instead, we bow to the adversary, acknowledge its presence and its role, thank it for showing up and then say, “GET THEE BEHIND ME!” A story from the Catholic tradition that I appreciate in relation to Satan’s role in heralding the goodness of our path is the story of St. Margaret. As the story goes, Margaret is swallowed up by a demon and undertakes a journey to free herself from the demon’s bowels. Armed with persistence and her sword in hand, (because all good saints carry their own sword!) she fights her way to freedom, slaying the demon along the way. The invitation for us is the same as it was for Margaret: When we find ourself in the demon’s grip, take our sword in hand, face that demon, acknowledge it as a herald of our truth and the amazing things that are about to happen in our lives, slay that demon and then…….CONTINUE ON OUR PATH.
When have you experienced anxiety or fear that are in fact heralds of your path of goodness?
What tools do you use to move through these obstacles and fears?
What is the amazing goodness that is trying to be born in your own life?