I love when the Universe (aka God/dess) gives us exactly what we need. This week, when struggling with particular areas of “stuckness” in my life, three miracles happened. In the first miracle, a crystal was returned to me (that I had forgotten I had lent out) that has miraculous powers to UNSTICK stuck situations. I have used it in the past and shared it with friends, all with spectacular results. The second miracle was that the crystal was returned to me just prior to the August Super Moon (full). The full moon is traditionally a time for meditating and stating intentions around things in our life we would like to let go of or be freed from. Saturday morning, with crystal in hand, I lit a candle and stated my intention to be freed/unstuck from these specific areas of stuckness. As I was meditating, the crystal LITERALLY jumped in my hand. It scared the heck out of me. I told you it was a powerful crystal! The third miracle happened through a life-review. While in yoga, meditating, just going about my day, memories of situations arose in which I had experienced conflict with another human being. Supporting this life review were conversations with my children and a few friends which brought up certain persons of interest, along with memories of how I had felt hurt by these individuals and the grudges I was still holding toward them. This life review went on for one full day and during yoga on Sunday morning, I could not silence the review and the accompanying feelings of resentment. Until somewhere in the middle of a sun salutation, I heard the words, “Love your enemy and pray for them.”
God Always Answers our Prayers
So, here I am thinking the answer to my full moon intention is going to come in physical form, when in fact, what is CAUSING the stuckness that I am perceiving as material is actually spiritual in nature. Specifically, the source of my stuckness is my perfectionistic harboring of resentment. In this, I also became acutely aware of all the situations in my life where I prevent the flow of love toward another human being – toward my abusive neighbor, for example, toward my ex-husband when I harbor negative thoughts, toward others who I perceive as potentially harmful or dangerous, toward those with whom I feel the need to set or maintain certain boundaries, toward those I suspect will reject me, and toward those who have condemned me. In all these situations, I am aware of the inner posturing of defense and a withholding of love. So here, rather quickly I might add, is the fulfillment of my full moon intention. LOVE MY ENEMY and PRAY FOR THEM…..and then I will be unstuck!
Loving my enemy
In the spirit of the command to love my enemy and pray for them, this is exactly what I am doing. When I am aware of the inner constriction that happens when I am defending against a perceived enemy, judging or condemning them, I am shifting my awareness from constricting to holding them in love. When I have negative thoughts, feel hatred or resentment toward another, I turn that around and send them love instead. Additionally, I have been purposefully bringing to mind those with whom I have had conflict and harbored resentment, and I am holding them in love and sending them prayers of love. Interestingly, this very sentiment of loving one’s enemy was expressed by Jesus in is second-to last words on the cross, “Father forgive them, they know not what they are doing.” Only after expressing these sentiments was Jesus ready to surrender himself to death, “Into your hands I commend my spirit.” Is this true for us as well…..is forgiveness the final obstacle to living in oneness with God on this earth? Hmmmm….I wonder.