Posted in About Lauri, God, Oneness with God, Surrender

Only God – The Practice of Radical Self-Reliance

Today’s blog is a deeply personal sharing of a spiritual practice that I have been invited into. It is a practice that has been whispering in my ear for the past several months and only now am I able and willing to accept it.  (Of course I was only willing after being brought to my knees….but that is another story for another day.)

This is a practice of radical self-reliance where I am being invited to release my attachments to all those persons, places, things outside of me where I have sought after guidance, support and love.  In this, there is only one thing left, and that is God.

God and me. Me and God.

As I enter into this practice, I am astonished by all the causes of distraction in my life – all those things I have run to in an attempt to escape the deep pain of everything: loneliness, boredom, isolation, feelings of lack, anxiety, depression, fear, anger, resentment, wrath, lusting after control, the desire for recognition and fame, money, status, power, etc., etc., etc.,.  It’s all there.  And it’s present in everything.  In this practice, I am making a diligent attempt to turn away from each and every one of these distractions so that I can simply be with God.

God and me. Me and God.

In this, I have released every resource I have turned to for guidance. I have let go of everything that promises better days ahead and makes predictions about where we are and where we are headed.  I have let go of the black hole of Facebook except when necessary for personal or professional purposes.  I am continuing to stay away from the fear-based media.  I have ceased making plans, setting agenda, creating itineraries.  I have let go of the compulsive need to frequently check emails hoping for some nicer, brighter news.  In this, all that is left is Me and God In THIS MOMENT.  When I find myself tempted to indulge in these externals, I STOP and turn within to God.

Me and God. God and Me.

As Saints Paul and Augustine both observed, our hearts are ever restless until we rest in God……and rest in God alone. I guess you could say I am testing their theory.

 

 

Posted in Inspiration, Lessons, Surrender

In the Void, Now is All There Is

In this current stage of our consciousness evolution, we are “enjoying” a void state.  For many, myself included, nothing seems to be happening.  It feels as if the universe pressed the PAUSE button and sequestered all awakened beings in a state of suspension where we await the death of our old world and the birth of the new.  In this state there are no answers and all we can do is wait.  In this Void time, all we have is this moment and this moment is now.  Now is scary because it is unfamiliar.  At the same time, remaining in the now is the path to freedom:

No longer trying to make meaning of things.
No longer searching for meaning or understanding.
No more making plans.
No more agendas, itineraries, syllabi.
No more dreams or visions of future realities.
No longer pining or yearning for some other reality (or perceived reality).
Here, there is only THIS MOMENT. 
Before this moment there is nothing.
There is nothing beyond this moment. 
There is only NOW.

If you find yourself struggling with this void time, join me in the NOW.