Posted in world changes

Rallying the Troops

This morning’s blog is for the Sensitives, Lightworkers, Healers, Star children, Indigos, Crystals, Rainbows, Lightwarriors, Changemakers, Intuitives, Teachers, Prophets, Mystics, and anyone else who is listening who has carried within themselves visions for a better world.


Brothers and Sisters, it is time.  It is time to rally the troops – not as a call to arms, but as a call to LOVE.  Today, we stand at the tipping point in our journey through the veil  –  the veil between a world of separation and fear, and the world we long for – one that is rooted in love, governed by attentive listening, loving dialogue, collaboration, consensus and most of all – justice.  The world has grown tired of the evil (meaning unripe) which currently runs our world and longs for something else – a something else which we have all carried in our hearts and in our minds since the day we were born.  It is for this reason we were made – to help usher in the new world.  And at this point in our progression through the veil, enough of us have awakened, enough of the world has grown weary, and the Divine assistance necessary for facilitating and manifesting this shift is now in place that REAL CHANGE can now be accomplished.  But, we don’t get to just sit on our hands waiting for the “powers that be” to do something about our imploding world.  No, we have to get off our butts and PRAY.

PRAY?  Yes… is really that simple.  We all know what the new world is supposed to look and feel like – we have carried it around in our consciousness since the day we were born.  (And if you need a little reminder, watch this video and listen to the song so that you may remember: ).  We have been moved by movies, books, music which portrays this vision.  We have been brought to tears whenever the world shows itself to be anything other than the vision we hold in our hearts.  There is no doubt that we know the kind of world that God intended, and that every human being truly longs for, and there can be no doubt about our call to help make this happen (and if you are still doubting your part…..just try NOT doing it and see what happens).

So….the time is NOW.  It is time to rally the troops in implementing this simple formula for transforming our world:

1) Hold the vision in your heart and mind of a loving, peaceful, collaborative, just world where the needs of all are considered and everything works for the highest good of the all.

2) In whatever form prayer takes for you:  pray that the world will be made new in this vision.  Send love to the world.  Shower the world in love.  Hold the world in love.  And Pray that the hearts and minds of the “wicked” who currently rule the world through fear may be healed and that they may be freed of the fear that rules them through the Divine breath of love.  Imagine the evil (unripe) powers falling away so that love may takes its place.

3) Then share this invitation with EVERYONE you know.  I know you have your circles of like-minded folks….invite them into the prayer circle.  Send this invitation in emails, share it on Facebook, Pinterist, Linkdin, Twitter, wherever you are connected.  Rally the troops in this call to LOVE.

Thank you for responding to the call of your own heart to help bring forth the vision of the new world which you have carried around within you and for playing your part in making our world a better place.


All love,





Posted in Faith, Inspiration, Spiritual Practices

The Spiritual Practice of Endurance

Today’s blog explores the spiritual practice of endurance and the virtue of faith – what to do when our life takes an unexpected and undesired turn.

Unexpected Turns

Sometimes live throws us an unexpected curveball, throwing us not only off our game, but sometimes out of the game entirely.  When this happens, we have no choice but to JUST KEEP WALKING, trusting there is a reason to what might seem like madness.  As I was contemplating today’s blog, the following quote showed up in my email inbox and I thought it couldn’t have shown up at a better time:

Failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy to finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one area where I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realized, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter, and a big idea. And so rock bottom became a solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.
—J. K. Rowling, Harvard commencement address, 2008

WOW!  When everything she had known and come to rely on was stripped from her life, JK Rowling scrutinized her life to uncover what really mattered to her – her daughter and her story (for those who might not know, Harry Potter!).  She did the only thing she could do….she showed up every day to her daughter and to her story.  She endured and she trusted. I bet she wondered on days if she were crazy for pursing a big idea in a pond of a million other big ideas and if anyone would give a damn about HER big idea.  But, in spite of these wonderings, she showed up.  She kept writing. The good news is that someone did give a damn about her big idea and now the rest is herstory!  😉

We’re not all JK Rowling

No, we are not all here to pen the next best selling novel.  But…..each of us are uniquely gifted to reveal love, peace, compassion, justice, mercy, forgiveness, beauty, creative expression, nurturing, service in the world in some way.  God seeks to be known in the world through each and every one of us….and sometimes we have to GET OUT OF OUR OWN WAY in order for God to break through and be made known.  When the world that we have known collapses around our ears, as it did for JK Rowling, we can believe that something amazing is trying to be born.  When everything we have thought ourselves to be falls away, when every hope, dream, vision disappears in a puff of smoke, when we find ourselves on our knees begging for mercy because the world we have been living in has been pulled out from beneath our feet, we can expect that God wants to be made known through us in ways that perhaps we had never before imagined.  The challenge for us, however, is that while we cling to surety and find perceived security in knowing the plan and the outcome, this is not how it works – as JK Rowling can attest.  Instead, we have to stand there naked, stripped of everything we have known and TRUST that something is happening.

What to Do in the Meantime

The good news is that there is something we can do while we are standing there naked and working really hard at hoping and trusting.   The one thing we can do is ENDURE.  In other words….show up and keep walking.  JK Rowling had a typewriter, an idea and a coffee shop where she could write her idea.  What is the universe giving you?  Perhaps it is a job to show up to each day.  Perhaps it is a paintbrush and canvas.  Maybe it is a child to hold and friends to support you.  Maybe it is a big idea.  Whatever it is….SHOW UP to that….no matter how hard that might seem on some days.  Show up…show up….show up….and keep showing up.  Breathe.  Pray.  Get mad if you need to, grieve what you have lost…then show up again.  And like a seed that in the darkness mysteriously blossoms, you will find that your own seed too will blossom in time.

Lauri Lumby

Posted in Being Human, Healing, Inspiration

Replacing the Inner Critic with Love

Hi.  My name is Lauri.  I am a perfectionist, driven by my addiction to my inner critic.  I admit that I am powerless over my addiction to rejection and that because of this addiction, my life has become unmanageable.  I believe in a power greater than myself that can restore me to sanity.  I turn this addiction over to the God of my understanding.   And this is when true miracles happen!

The Demons of Self-Rejection and Self-Loathing

All of my life, I have been plagued by a voice that seems to come at me from both directions – both from inside of me and from outside of me.  This is the voice of the Inner Critic – that big, mean, Lauri that stands outside of me wagging the finger of blame and speaking within me eating away at my self worth.  “It is all your fault.  There is something wrong with you.  If you aren’t perfect, people won’t love you.  If you work really hard, you might be loved.  If you aren’t loved, it means you aren’t enough or your efforts weren’t good enough.”  This is the inner critic that for my whole life has told me that there is something wrong with me, that I am not enough and that I am not good enough.  This is the voice that compelled me as a child to embrace the compulsion of perfectionism – I had to be the straight A student, the top achiever, the teacher’s pet, the star, the best…at everything.  This voice served me well in academics where I naturally thrived, but beyond that, that voice was a B.I.T.C.H.  When I couldn’t throw or catch a ball, she said, “I told you there was something wrong with you.”  When I couldn’t draw, “I told you you had no talent.”  When I forgot the second movement of Beethoven’s Pathetique Sonata at my senior recital, “Who told you you could play piano?”  When no one asked me out for prom, “I told you you were ugly.”  When the people around me were hurt, angry, depressed, scared, the voice told me, “It must be your fault….something you’ve done.”  ARGH!  I hate that voice and all the ways she has made me feel like C.R.A.P.

Origin of the Voice?

Psychologists would tell me that this voice of the Inner Critic came about through my childhood – an overly critical or overbearing parent or something like that.  The Enneagram, however, offers a softer and kinder possibility.  The voice of the Inner Critic was something that I was born with.  While the development of its shadow side may have been supported by certain family of origin dynamics, the Inner Critic’s source of origin (according to the Enneagram) is the unique lens I was born with and through which I perceive my world and my life experiences.  Hidden within the voice of the critic is the gift that I was born to share with the world.  The trick is to find healing for the spiritual wound of separation (for more on that, see my book Authentic Freedom – Claiming a Life of Contentment and Joy), so that the shadow side of the gift may soften and relax and the gift may emerge.

Elusive Healing

I have worked for YEARS on trying to heal that wound of separation and quiet the voice of the Inner Critic.  While my perfectionist has relaxed and I am WAY better than I used to be, I have still found myself plagued by that darn Inner voice wagging the finger of blame at me.  With the recent end of a love relationship, that darn Inner Critic has gotten especially loud and annoying.  As I have been moving through the expected faces of grief, the Inner Critic has been beating the crap out of me and on Monday, I finally realized how mean she really is and how much I no longer want her to be a part of  my life.  For the first time, I PRAYED for healing and asked God to take this burden away from me.

Ask and it Shall Be Given

As I finally collapsed into a helpless heap of frustration and admitted I was powerless over this darn Inner Critic and finally asked for God’s help, miracles began to happen.  Through a series of experiences, I found the Inner Critic began to become quieter.  I re-discovered some meditation tools that helped me to further calm that inner voice and allow myself to remember a deeper state of peace and love.  Then something AMAZING happened – three separate individuals (spiritual teachers) in three separate conversations offered similar advice, “Give love to yourself.  Shower yourself in love.  Tend to your own need for love.”  It wasn’t until the third offering on the third day that I GOT IT.  And this is what I saw:

Standing outside of me was me.  At first the outside me was the Inner Critic, wagging her finger of self-hatred at me.  Then, she suddenly changed.  She lowered her arm, turned to face me, looked into my eyes, embraced me, and loved me.

The Inner Critic was now the Inner Lover.  Holding me.  Loving me.  Supporting me.  Adoring me.  For the first time in my life, I received the love that I so generously and freely give to others.  And that was an amazing thing.

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Spiritual Practices

Word Play/Word Pray

Today’s blog explores the way in which individual words can serve as a source of insight, wisdom, healing, comfort and support and offers a specific meditation/prayer practice using words as the tool.

Word Play

The other day as I was looking for an answer to a specific life-path quandary, I turned to a deck of inspirational cards that I own that focuses on specific words.  The cards are intended to provide a source of focus, reflection and meditation and for me, the word that “showed up” was a surprise.  The word was tending.  Tending?  What the heck does that mean?  Since I didn’t receive an answer right away, I decided to apply a writer’s tool to this word.  I put my pen to paper, and just starting writing about “tending.”  I was shocked and amazed at what came through and it definitely provided for me a greater sense of direction – the thing I had been looking for.  Below, you will find the results of my writing exercise.  But before I bore you with my own drivel, I will invite you to enter into your own Word Play/Word Pray

Word Pray

1) Choose an Action Word.  (Here’s a list to get you started):  Standing  Holding  Energizing  Co-Creating Nurturing Inhabiting Changing Connecting Creating Engaging Focusing Keeping Learning Loving Listening Opening Optimizing Playing Reflecting Releasing Seeing Serving Sharing Tending Waiting Opening Allowing

2) Write to or about the word. Put your pen to paper and just start writing.  Don’t stop writing.  Don’t censor.  Just write write write about the word until there is nothing left to write.

3) Read and Reflect Read what you wrote.  What new insights might have surfaced?  What is this word now saying to you?  How are you being invited to respond?

Now for the drivel:


Tending my soul.  Tending myself.  Attentive focus on ME!  BE HERE NOW.  What do I need?  What does my heart want?  Are my feet planted firmly on the ground?  Can I feel the earth beneath my feet?

Tending.  Tending me.  Preparing the soil.  What do I need to feel safe and secure?  What is it that allows me to breathe?  Some sunshine and water.  Something for nourishment.  Seeds planted. taking root, germinating, growing.  bearing fruit.  A fence to keep out the weeds and the pests.

Tending me with music, melodies, vibrations and sounds that grab my heart.  Songs of praise.  Chants of devotion.  Compositions that confront, challenge, wring us dry, leave us breathless, inspire movement and change.  Arias that make me weep.

Tending me.  Paper and pen.  Lots of paper, bound in leather.  Indigo ink ONLY.  Soul friends with which to share my life, my hopes, dreams, tragedies and triumphs.  And to share theirs in return.

Tending me.  To teach.  To share.  To encourage.  To support.  To love with understanding and compassion.  To allow. To forgive.  Honoring when “yes means yes” and “no means no.”  Allowing myself to be loved, to be held, to be comforted, to be listened to and to be heard.  To be supported.  To be treated with kindness and honored with fidelity.  To be adored and respected and understood.  To be loved for WHO I AM.

Tending me.  Quiet.  Quiet so I can hear.  Quiet so I can see.  Quiet so I can take the time to feel.  Quiet to make sense of it all.  Quiet so I can breathe.

Tending.  Tend.  Tender.  Tenderness.  Tenderly.  Tendency. Attend.  Attending.  Attendance.  Attentive.  Attentiveness.  Attention.  Intention.  Intentional.  Intend.  Intending.  Intended.

Now it’s your turn!

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Discernment, Initiation, Inspiration, Surrender

Ok, Now What?

Today’s blog explores the emptiness that often follows Easter and the times of emptiness we all feel in our own lives.

Past Lives

In the old days, when I still worked for the Catholic Church, Easter was IT!  All of the ministries that I was involved in (RCIA, Liturgical Coordinator, Adult Education Coordinator, etc. etc. etc. ) culminated in the Easter celebration and the Easter sacraments (Adult baptism and confirmation).  After being up all night with the Easter Vigil, then celebrating Easter mass on Sunday morning, when all the cleanup was done, I was left with a feeling of, “Ok, now what?”  The pinnacle had been reached.  The greatest celebration of the year was complete. And for the remainder of the school year ( I worked in a campus ministry parish), there was nothing to do except facilitate the mystagogia sessions of the RCIA, which ironically helped new members of the Church with the question, “Ok, now what?”

Disciples too

I think this is how it must have been for Jesus’ closest followers too.  They just completed an intense week of celebration (Palm Sunday), crisis, confusion, they watched their friend and teacher go on trial for a crime he did not commit, found guilty and sentenced to die.  Then, they (ok….really only the women and possibly John) watched him die.  Then, he is raised from the dead!!!?????   a) What the heck!?  and b) NOW WHAT?  How does one make any sense of any of it?  I can only imagine that the time immediately following the resurrection must have been a time of confusion, of waiting and wondering, a time of mystery and asking the question, “Did any of this actually happen or have we just lost our collective minds?”  We also know from scripture that if no one else, at least the Galilean disciples (“the twelve”) were scared to death and probably wondered if they should just go back to the lives they were leading before Jesus showed up and messed it all up.  They had to have been asking the question, “Ok, now what!?”


In the RCIA (Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults), the time immediately following the reception of the Easter sacraments (adult baptism and confirmation), is called the period of Mystagogia (a Greek word that means mystery).  It is a time in the journey of the newly  initiated members of the Catholic Church to explore the question, “Ok, now what?”  Now that they have become fully initiated members of a faith community, how are they supposed to live that out and what impact will this have on their everyday lives?  It is a time of prayer, discernment and waiting – waiting for God’s guidance as to how they are being called to live out their newly claimed faith.

Mystagogia for Everyone

During the nine years that I facilitated the RCIA process, I often thought that every one of us could use a little RCIA in our lives.  In particular, the period of mystagogia seemed like a universal experience.  There are times in each and everyone of our lives where we are faced with the question, “Ok, now what!?”  Times after something really big has just taken place…..times of profound transformation and change…..times of endings and times of new beginnings.  There are many times in our lives when we find ourselves with empty hands, empty minds, blank calendars, devoid of plans or itineraries and we are faced with that gnawing question, “NOW WHAT!?”  For me, that time is RIGHT NOW.  Having just turned over to my editor 47,000 words of a nearly completed manuscript and facing some significant professional challenges and quandaries, while staring at a nearly vacant appointment calendar, I am forced to ask the question, “NOW WHAT?” and I find it ironic that it should occur in direct  correlation with my former, professional bio-rhythms.  Apparently I am still living the Catholic liturgical calendar!  🙂  And all I can do is take guidance in the wisdom of the RCIA and the former rhythms I not only lived but taught and know that all I can do during this period of mystagogia is to LIVE IN THE MYSTERY and trust that in the silence and in the waiting, God will have an answer.

When have you been faced with the question, “Ok, Now What?”

What has marked that time of mystery in your own life?

How have you moved through that process and where did you find guidance and answers?

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Uncategorized

Finding What We Need Within

As we grow spiritually, we are invited to turn our gaze from the outside world and draw it inward…letting go of our temptation to seek fulfillment, peace, love and joy outside of ourselves and remembering that the Source of all that we seek is within. 


Out there….out there…out there

In our human journey, we are continually looking outside of ourselves for the things we need:  direction, guidance, love, fulfillment, satisfaction, peace, joy, abundance, etc.  When we want to know what we should do with our lives, we ask our friends, co-workers, family members, trusted advisors, “What do you think?”  We consult the advise of professionals and experts and even so-called experts, “What do you think?”  We look for the sign along the road, the flashing lights, the lightening bolt, the symbolic animal or coincidence that tell us what we are supposed to be doing.  When we want love, we seek the person outside of us that we think will make us happy.  When we want fulfillment, we seek “the perfect” job.  When we want money, we look outside of us for the thing that will give us what we need.  While there is a time and a place for those things outside of us …. a time when the exterior conditions and experiences and people in our lives do act as a vehicle of Divine guidance, support, fulfillment, love, etc… is the relentless search outside of us that gets us into trouble.

Big Remedy for Big Trouble

What this relentless outside search does to us is create and solidify an inner terrain of fear, anxiety and worry.  When we are constantly looking outside of ourselves for the answers, direction, fulfillment, validation, etc. we are forgetting that the only true source of peace is our intimate connection with what some might call “God.”  Whether you think of it as “God”, “Higher Power”, “Higher Self”, “True Self”, or some other name, there is a Source of guidance and fulfillment that resides deep within us.  Connecting with this inner Source of peace is how we find contentment, joy, love, guidance and it is in connecting with this inner Source that our lives take on meaning, flow and a sense of effortlessness.  While our outside search may provide some information, it is the inner journey that gives us the truest, surest, most profound guidance and fulfillment.

Coming Home

So, next time you find yourself on that relentless outside search for answers, guidance, fulfillment, money, time, love, etc. and you find the anxiety and worry within you rising in response to this relentless search….STOP.  BREATHE.  PRAY.  Take all the energy that you have been directing outward and point it toward yourself.  Point it toward your own heart, toward that peaceful, loving, joyfilled place within where God dwells.  Then, REST in that peaceful connection that what some might call God and WAIT.  It will be out of this peaceful connection that everything you need will show itself – guidance, abundance, opportunities to nurture and share your gifts, love, empowerment and most importantly….PEACE.

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Discernment, Divine Revelation, Lessons

God will be the Death of Me!

I share today’s blog as a way of illustrating the beginning stages of spiritual discernment – learning to recognize the Divine call in action and learning how to discern the path of our highest good.  While this discernment is nowhere near complete for me, I thought it of value to share the beginning stages for those who may be faced with similar life-direction questions.

The Wake up Call

The other day I’m paying bills and when I look at the respective balances in my savings and checking accounts, my heart dropped to the floor and a feeling of panic filled my body.  Immediately, I went to the fear,  “Dang it! Do I need to go out and get a “real” job?”  I spent the next several hours contemplating all the places that might hire a 18 year veteran of ministry.  How do you transfer ministry skills (spiritual direction, hands-on healing, etc.) to a real job….and could I even find something over minimum wage?  Then I felt the tell-tale shut-down of overwhelm and despair and took a nap.  ARGH!  After my nap, I realized that I had fallen right into my own trap….I had indulged in fear.  Isn’t this the very thing I teach my students and clients NOT to do.  Teacher – back to the drawing board with you!  So, I went directly to the only place I know to find persistent and reliable peace, clarity and comfort…..and that is GOD.

Pray Pray Pray

So, since the bill-paying day, I have been praying my head off.  I have placed the questions before God: What am I supposed to do?  Do you want me to get a “real” job?  Give me direction.  Give me clarity.  And in between my begging and pleading, I have been taking time to journal, meditate, chant, practice yoga.  I know that the answer to the question is not in my little pea brain because if I go there, I will end up choosing something out of fear or panic or desperation.  And, I know that God’s way is always better – more in line with what is in my highest good, somehow involving my gifts and somehow in service to others.  I also know and have seen that God’s plan is always WAY better than what I could have come up with on my own…and that God’s plan leads to fulfillment, freedom, peace, joy.  I also realized in the midst of my prayer that the “wake up” ultimately has NOTHING to do with money and EVERYTHING to do with God inviting me to greater expansion.  I’m just not sure how much more expansion I can take!

A possible answer……and God will be the death of me!

Yesterday I’m at yoga practice and as our teacher invited, I had stated an intention in my heart as we began practice.  My intention:  clarity and direction.  Well….I got WAY more than I bargained for.  I am not yet able to share what showed up for me in practice as I have not yet tested it under the scrutiny of spiritual discernment (determining what is “of God” as opposed to what might be coming from my false-self or ego.) and I will not be making any decisions around what was revealed until sound discernment is accomplished and I am DARN SURE that this is coming from God and not from some other less benevolent place.  What I will say is that what showed up is something that has come back around in my journey of discernment….over and over and over and over….and it is something that I have resisted, then tried in various degrees and various incarnations and ALWAYS met with failure.  So why the heck is this what is showing up yet AGAIN!!!???    And, if it proves to be an authentic call and something that is coming from God……it will REALLY tick me off!  And just so everyone knows that it is ok to initially say “no” to God (if this is coming from God) and that we do still have free will……this was exactly my initial response to the possibility of this “guidance and direction.”  NO NO NO  No Way.  No How.  You must be out of your dang mind!  God, you will be the death of me if this is really what you want me to do.  I’ve already done this WAY too many times….and it has always failed?  Why would this be any different?  I don’t want to do this!  Why can’t you give someone else the hard jobs for once?  NO NO NO NO NO!

Then God Laughed at Me

So, here I am shaking my fist at God, telling God there is no way I am doing this if this is what God wants me to do.  Then God laughed at me and showed me the mantras I had been praying in my head as I was practicing yoga while waiting for clarity and guidance, Let it be done to me according to your word.  Lord, I am not worthy to receive you but only say the word and I shall be healed.    And then God showed me how (assuming this is authentically from God) this time would be different from the rest and why it might just work.  Doh!  For the record, my answer is still no….at least until I’m really sure this is from God, but in the end, I know that if my discernement proves that this is authentically where God is calling me, I know better than to say “no” because whether I want to do it or not, I know that if it is from God, it will be for not only my highest good but will be life-giving, nourishing and supportive to others and that if I do say “no” that God will hound me until I relent and say “yes” because as I have learned (the hard way)  GOD IS A NAG!  And in this….God just might be the death of me!

How might the things in your own life that stimulate fear be God inviting you to greater expansion, something more life-giving, healing or release?

What tools do you use to find comfort and clarity through times of fear?

How do you discern if “guidance” is of God as opposed to coming out of your own ego, fears, false perceptions or attachments?

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries