Posted in Authentic Freedom, Holy Spirit, Initiation

Pentecost, Holy Spirit, Kundalini Awakening

The Holy Spirit is the Kundalini energy referred to in the Eastern Spiritual traditions.  The Holy Spirit is the in-dwelling presence of the Divine and the seed of our human potential.  In Eastern Energy medicine the Holy Spirit/Kundalini is imagined as a seed, a lotus, a flame or a serpent that lies dormant in the deepest center of our being – most frequently depicted as lying dormant at the base of our spine/root chakra.  This in-dwelling presence of the Divine is God seeking to be expressed uniquely through us through our God-given gifts and call.  As we grow spiritually, this Divine potential is unleashed within us, freeing us, liberating us, healing us to embody and live the fullness of our human potential. As we allow the Holy Spirit within us to be unleashed, we are freed to live more and more fully as the uniquely magnificent beings God created us to be.  We come to know our gifts.  We nurture and cultivate these gift, and we freely and openly share these gifts in the world.  It is through the sharing of our gifts that the love of God that seeks to be made manifest in the world is expressed through us and in sharing our gifts, others are inspired to come to know their own unique magnificence as well.


This understanding of the Holy Spirit is present within the Christian scriptures if we take the time to seek the truth beyond the words.  The Pentecost experience depicted in the Christian scriptures described this moment of awakening as it was felt by Jesus’ disciples.  Through the Pentecost experience, the disciples who had previously been hiding in the Upper Room for fear of persecution, suddenly became empowered to freely and openly share God’s truth in the world (as revealed to them by Jesus, the Christ).  Scripture describes this Pentecost experience as flames coming down from heaven.  I think it was more like that which is described in the Eastern texts, the Kundalini is awakened at the base of the spine and moves up through the body, exploding out of the top of the head as a flame reaching towards the heavens.  Looking at the Pentacost experience from this perspective allows us to let go of our perceptions of God as outside of us, and invites us to seek the Divine that dwells within.  Setting aside these perceptions of separation opens us to a deeper and more intimate understanding of the Holy Spirit as the aspect of the Divine that dwells within and that seeks to be made known in the world through our own unique magnificence.   Think of it this way, the Holy Spirit is the acorn that holds within it the fullness of our potential, and when we allow this acorn to be open and grow within us, only then can we become the magnificent oak that we were intended to become.

What has been your understanding of the Holy Spirit?

How can you connect more fully with the Divine Potential that seeks to be made manifest through you?

How can you embody your own Divine Potential?

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Discernment, Empowerment, Freedom, Holy Spirit, Spiritual Practices, Truth

Authentic Freedom Virtual Church – Meditation Supplement

This week’s Authentic Freedom Virtual Church meditation supplement explores the Pentecost event and the “coming down” of the Holy Spirit.  In the Hindu and Yogic traditions, they describe a similar experience in the kundalini awakening.  I often wonder if the Holy Spirit and Kundalini are in fact, one and the same.


Sunday, June 8, 2014




Agape’ Meditation Practices Newsletter

Supplement to the Authentic Freedom Virtual Church Service




Scripture Reading:

When the time for Pentecost was fulfilled, they were all in one place together. And suddenly there came from the sky a noise like a strong driving wind, and it filled the entire house in which they were. Then there appeared to them tongues as of fire, which parted and came to rest on each one of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in different tongues, as the Spirit enabled them to proclaim. Now there were devout Jews from every nation under heaven staying in Jerusalem. At this sound, they gathered in a large crowd, but they were confused because each one heard them speaking in his own language. They were astounded, and in amazement they asked, “Are not all these people who are speaking Galileans? Then how does each of us hear them in his native language? We are Parthians, Medes, and Elamites, inhabitants of Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, Phrygia and Pamphylia, Egypt and the districts of Libya near Cyrene, as well as travelers from Rome, both Jews and converts to Judaism, Cretans and Arabs, yet we hear them speaking in our own tongues of the mighty acts of God.”

Acts 2: 1-11


Additional Readings:

Ps 104: 1, 24, 29-30, 31, 34

1 Cor 12: 3B-7, 12 -13

Jn 20: 19-23


The Holy Spirit and Kundalini

In the Pentecost narrative, the Holy Spirit is depicted as something outside of us, coming down upon the disciples, as if from the heavens. The purpose of the Holy Spirit, as described in this narrative, is to empower the disciples to live fully out of their unique spiritual gifts (here described as speaking in tongues) in service to God and for the betterment of the world. The Holy Spirit empowers them to act in ways beyond what they might have previously thought possible.

In the Hindu and Yogic traditions, there is a similar kind of empowering energy and experience known as Kundalini. Kundalini is thought to be the seed of our potential, carrying within it our unique giftedness and call to service. As we grow and mature spiritually, the Kundalini is awakened and empowers us to live our potential to its fullest. The difference between Kundalini and the Holy Spirit, as it is depicted in the Pentecost narrative, is that Kundalini resides within us and eventually explodes out of the top of our head as opposed to coming into the top of our head from outside of us. I often wonder if Kundalini and the Holy Spirit are not in fact one and the same.

How have you become aware of a spiritual awakening happening in you?

How have you supported this spiritual awakening?



Spiritual Practices – Welcoming the Holy Spirit

Set aside 20-30 minutes to enter into this meditation practice. You will need your computer or personal music device to access the music that will be used in this practice.

  1. Sit in silence. Begin your practice with a personal prayer/request/statement of intention that your desire is to welcome the Holy Spirit – to be open to awakening the Holy Spirit’s within (or outside) of you. In stating this intention, you are agreeing to accepting the gifts the Spirit wishes to awaken and empower in you.
  2. Listen to the following song, Veni Sancte Spiritus, from the Taize community:
  3. As you are listening, imagine that the Holy Spirit is either coming down upon you, or awakening from the center of your belly and arising within you.
  4. Listen to the song a second time and repeat the visualization if you feel so called.
  5. Be attentive to any physical, emotional or mental sensations you may experience during the meditation.
  6. Record your thoughts and reflections in a journal or notebook.


Authentic Freedom

“Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”                     (1 Cor 3: 17)


In the Epilogue to Authentic Freedom, we speak of the process of discernment. Discernment is the process we use to distinguish the voice of Truth (God) from the voice of our ego. The primary distinction between God and ego is concisely articulated by Paul in his first letter to the Corinthians. Truth leads us to freedom. Freedom, however, is not something that is measured outside of us, but is known in an inner experience of expansiveness. Freedom leads us to love, peace, joy, contentment and fulfillment. Freedom is known in a life where there is meaning and purpose through which we are freely and generously sharing our own unique giftedness in service to God for the betterment of the world. This is Authentic Freedom.


How are you experiencing the freedom that is your Divine heritage?  

Where are you experiencing this freedom as being constricted?

What are the fears that are causing you to live a life that is anything less than free?

Posted in church, Discernment, Empowerment, Holy Spirit, Jesus

A Prophet’s Pain in Birthing a New Way of Being Church

At the risk of unleashing my inner martyr, I’m feeling called to explore a topic that is as close to my heart as it is excruciatingly painful.  I share this topic, not for my own self-mortification, but in support of those, like me, who have been born with a different vision of Church – different, at least, from the one our parents grew up with and one that as yet, is unknown. While this Church is yet to be known, there is a very real sense of what it feels like and this “feeling like” Church is kicking, screaming, shouting and stomping its feet for its realization in our world.  And, this Church that is not yet known is the exact topic of the book that tickled (pun intended) me to write today’s blog:  The Great Emergence – How Christianity is Changing and Why, by Phyllis Tickle.  🙂

In this book, Phyllis Tickle acknowledges the enormous transformation that is currently taking place in Western culture and specifically how this transformation is ushering in a new way of being Church – much to the chagrin of those clinging to old models of being Church (“re-traditioners”) and much to the joy of those called to dream forth new models (“innovators”).  The problem is that for the former, this unfolding transformation feels like the work of the devil and for the latter, it cannot possibly happen soon enough.  As terror and impatience are not the best of bedfellows, Tickle warns us not to repeat the bloody patterns of those who have ushered in similar transformations – interestingly, every 500 years or so, since the beginning of time (think Protestant Reformation (1500’s), The Great Schism (1000’s) and The Fall of the Roman Empire (500’s)).  Sadly, I fear Tickle’s warning has come too late.  While in the strictly Christian experience of this transformation (let us not minimize the massive deaths of the past century that have ultimately been a part of this cultural change), literal blood has not been shed.  But, believe me, gallons of metaphoric blood have been, by innovators in particular.


Here’s where my martyr, or at the very least, my empathy, steps in.  As an innovator (using Tickle’s term) myself, and knowing HUNDREDS of others like me, I can tell you that the pain is excruciating. And the experience of this pain is nothing short of a broken heart and often requires the loss of one’s soul – at least the part of one’s soul that hopes for acceptance in the Church one loves while dreaming forth the Church GOD implanted in one’s heart.  For those who are innovators/prophets, we know the routine.  We’re going about our daily business (ahem…this probably started in childhood).  We kinda like the Church – in fact, we might even love it.  BUT….there is something in us that says, “This thing here, isn’t quite right.  This doesn’t feel right in my heart and something in me seems to be DEMANDING that the Church look like this…”  We experience dissonance when what we hear from the pulpit or see in the actions of “Church people” messages or actions inconsistent with what we know to be Jesus’ message of love.  When we ask someone about this, or dare to confront these inconsistencies, we are told, “Sit down. Shut up.  Do what you are told.”  But how are we supposed to do this when we were genetically programmed to question authority?  For prophets and innovators, authority isn’t assumed, it has to be earned.  And quite frankly, most of Western religion hasn’t done a very good job of earning that authority.

Most of the time, we can tolerate “sit down and shut up.” We simply seethe in resentment over not being heard and for having our needs denied, while we go about doing what we want anyway.  We use birth control.  We eat meat on Fridays.  We skip mass (most of the time).  We vote democrat.  We might even vote pro-choice (understanding that abortion is merely a symptom of deeper issues that need to be addressed). We divorce and remarry.  We support gay rights.  We go to yoga.  We explore Buddhism, Wicca, Judaism, Islam, Unitarianism, Paganism, etc.  And we meditate.

Much to the chagrin of the re-traditioners, we fully embrace and live our primacy of conscience. And while they may be content to judge and condemn us as sinners, they can’t because while we are doing what we want, we are also continuing the mission of Christ – feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, caring for the poor, setting captives free, giving sight to the blind, working for the marginalized in our society and in our world.

This is where it tends to get personal.  Re-traditioners like things black and white, cut and dried, reasonable and practical.  The motivations and actions of innovators and prophets are everything but this.  Instead, we thrive in the margins and in glorious shades of grey (or is it gray?).  “I’ve seen her praying the stations of the cross and attending Saturday afternoon rosary….and yet she does Reiki too….isnt’ that the work of the devil????  It certainly hasn’t been handed down by the magisterium!  She must be a witch….BURN HER!”  While I say this a little bit tongue in cheek….it really isn’t far from the truth – at least in its effect.  Condemned, rejected, painfully cast out for listening to the voice of God in our hearts that guides us and leads us toward our truth and toward the new vision of Church trying to be born.

Here then, is the key.  As Phyllis Tickle observes, each of the past “great” transformations has ultimately been about the question of authority.  WHO HOLDS THE AUTHORITY?  I can tell you without a doubt that the authority for which we are currently vying is INNER AUTHORITY.  As Joachim de Fiore prophesied in the twelfth century, we are entering fully into the Age of the Holy Spirit – when authority will rest within the individual and their personal relationship with that which some might call God.  DISCERNMENT and personal empowerment will be the key and if the Church (which is currently dying on the vine) hopes to survive it would do well to provide the tools through which these goals might be successfully accomplished.  In the meantime, my heart and my prayers of support go out to the innovators and prophets who are working on the margins – in the real world, seeing, believing and LIVING the new Church.

Posted in Holy Spirit, Virtual Church

Authentic Freedom Virtual Church is LIVE

This week’s Authentic Freedom Virtual Church service is LIVE.  Click HERE to access.

The theme this week is “Introducing the Holy Spirit.”  In this week’s service, you will have an opportunity to explore the person of the Holy Spirit and have a personal and direct experience of the Holy Spirit’s Presence and Action in your life.

Have a great weekend!




Posted in Authentic Freedom, Empowerment, God, Holy Spirit, Jesus, Spiritual Practices, Truth, Virtual Church

Virtual Church Meditation Supplement – The Power of the Holy Spirit

Please find below “Agape” – the Authentic Freedom Virtual Church Meditation Supplement for Sunday, May 25, 2014. The topic this week is getting to know the Holy Spirit – the Power of God that awakens, catalyzes, directs and empowers.  Feel the Power.


Agape’ Meditation Practices Newsletter

Supplement to the Authentic Freedom Virtual Church Service


Scripture Reading:

Jesus said to his disciples: “If you love me, you will keep my commandments. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Advocate to be with you always, the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot accept, because it neither sees nor knows him. But you know him, because he remains with you, and will be in you. I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you. In a little while the world will no longer see me, but you will see me, because I live and you will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father and you are in me and I in you. Whoever has my commandments and observes them is the one who loves me. And whoever loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and reveal myself to him.”

John 14: 15-21



Additional Readings:

Acts 8: 5-7, 14-17

Ps 66: 1-7, 16, 20

1 Pt 3: 15-18


Exploring the Trinity

In this week’s reading, we begin our discussion of the Holy Spirit – the third Divine Person of the Trinity. In regards to the Trinity, Jesus spoke first about “the Father” the part of the Trinity that Jesus experienced as outside of him. Jesus experienced this aspect of God as intimately personal and loving, like a father, but not limited to masculine form. Secondly, Jesus experienced God within him and so much a part of him as if they were One. The Holy Spirit, is the aspect of God that moves and empowers. Jesus experienced the third person of the Trinity as flowing out of the love he knew between himself and the Father and that would inspire and activate those who followed his example and came to know the love that he hoped to implant in the world in the same way that the Holy Spirit had inspired and activated him. The Holy Spirit awakens us, inspires us and moves us to be love in the world and is like a fire that cannot be contained. The Holy Spirit is God seeking to be known in the world through us.

How have you experienced God outside of you, God within you and God seeking to be expressed through you?

How have you experienced the FIRE of the Holy Spirit?



Spiritual Practices:

In this week’s spiritual practice, you will have an opportunity to have a palpable experience of the Holy Spirit so that you can identify its Presence and Action in your life.

  1. Go you YouTube and find the song “The Power” by Amy Grant. Link here:
  2. Listen to the song one time listening attentively to the lyrics.
  3. Listen to the song again, this time, feeling the song with your body. Feel the rhythm of the music. Allow the music to literally move you…tap your feet, sway your arms, GET UP AND DANCE. J
  4. Listen again and allow yourself to be ONE with the music. Enter deeply into the song – lyrics, rhythm, even the silence between the notes. Feel the music as part of who you are. THIS is the Holy Spirit seeking to be known in and through you. Acknowledge it.
  5. Rest in silence and be attentive to any thoughts, emotions, images that may begin to arise.
  6. Write your thoughts and feelings in a notebook or journal.


Authentic Freedom

In Amy Grant’s song, The Power, she speaks of the aspect of God that “drives us crazy.” While Authentic Freedom doesn’t specifically address the topic of the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit can be thought of as the place within us that feels frustrated, impatient, angry, depressed and anxious when the truth of who God is asking us to be feels thwarted. When we are not living as the person God made us to be – peaceful, loving, compassionate, purposeful and fulfilled, the Holy Spirit lets us know and will continue to let us know until we do something about it. The Holy Spirit is like the fire breathing life into our truest self, driving it to seek after its fulfillment until it is satisfied. This is why we often feel “crazy” in the pursuit of our path, or as a dear spiritual brother calls it, “angsty!”

Where have you experienced the fire of the Holy Spirit through your own restlessness, impatience, frustration, angst, anger, anxiety and even depression?



Posted in Discernment, Empowerment, Holy Spirit

What is Your Magic? Part 2

Each and every one of us has been uniquely and creatively gifted to be a vessel through which LOVE is made manifest in our world.   In service to this unique giftedness, we have also been blessed with a certain kind of magic which allows these gifts to be used in service to the betterment of the world and in ways that are no less than miraculous.  In the Catholic tradition in which I was raised, this magic is referred to as charisms, known in other traditions as spiritual gifts or in the yogic tradition as siddhis. This post continues the conversation from February 17th and will continue the exploration of the spiritual gifts or charisms of Discernment of Spirits, Encouragement and Evangelism.

the results of evangelism
the results of evangelism

Discernment of Spirits

The charism of discernment of spirits is not to be confused with discernment in a general sense.  Discernment is the responsibility of each and every person to take time to distinguish the voice of God vs. the voice of the ego in seeking guidance for the direction of ones life.  Discernment in a general sense is a kind of informed decision making.  Discernment of Spirits as a charism is the immediate and intuitive ability to capture the spiritual source of certain behaviors or ideas or to grasp the nature of the spiritual presence in people, places or things (Catholic Spiritual Gifts Inventory, Weddell, 1997, p. 27). Traditionally, it might be thought of being able to detect “the devil in the room,”  I think of it more as being able to see the truth beyond the illusion and to hear the truth beyond the words.  What distinguished discernment of spirits from being able to “sense” the energy of a space or person is the powerful and immediate way in which this sense is received.


The charism of encouragement is traditionally present within spiritual directors, counselors, psycho-therapists, life-coaches, pastoral ministers.  Encouragement allows you to be a channel of God’s love by nurturing others with your presence and words of comfort, encouragement and counsel.  Encouragers are more apt to be found working with people one-on-one than in a group and the charism is measured by the results expressed by those receiving your gift of encouragement. I will quote Sherry Weddell (creator of the Catholic Spiritual Gifts Inventory) in offering affirmation to those who may possess the gift of discernment:

“If you receive strong, continuous feedback that new freedom, well-being, or personal growth is the result of your time (listening, comforting, encouraging, counseling) with others, you may have been given this charism. (1997, p. 28)”


Traditionally, evangelism is thought of as one who is powerfully compelled to share their Christian faith and to invite others to become disciples of Christ.  Personally, I tend to believe that this definition of evangelism is too limited.  Christians are not the only possessors of the spiritual gifts and these gifts are often used in ways not directly related to the church.  Instead, I like to believe that we are all uniquely gifted to reveal God’s love in the world and we often do this through unexpected ways.  The hallmark of a charism in this respect is that which helps us to be a channel of God’s love by helping to contribute to the betterment of the world – by whatever means is at our disposal.  For the gift of Evangelism, I think of those who are overwhelmingly passionate about something they are involved in and are highly gifted in enthusiastic invitation.  I have to use my friends Derek Toshner (with the support of Shannon Toshner) and Melissa Schmidt, all from TNT Fitness Results and TNT Adventure Obstacle Course and AdvoCare representatives, as examples of this charism.  Both Derek and Melissa possess the spiritual charism of evangelism and have done so through their mutual business ventures and have produced nothing short of miraculous results in providing enthusiastic invitation and welcome, motivation, encouragement and support for their clients’  physical, mental, emotional and spiritual wellbeing, and they are all doing so in service to God.  If that isn’t evangelism, I don’t know what is!



Lauri Ann LumbyIf you are looking to understand how you are uniquely gifted to find meaning, fulfillment and purpose in your life Lauri Ann Lumby is available for one-on-one mentoring in person, over the phone or via Skype.  To schedule an appointment, call (920) 230-1313 or email

Posted in creativity, Discernment, Empowerment

What is Your Magic? Part I

Each and every one of us has been uniquely and creatively gifted to be a vessel through which LOVE is made manifest in our world.   In service to this unique giftedness, we have also been blessed with a certain kind of magic which allows these gifts to be used in service to the betterment of the world and in ways that are no less than miraculous.  In the Catholic tradition in which I was raised, this magic is referred to as charisms, known in other traditions as spiritual gifts or in the yogic tradition as siddhis.


From the perspective of the Catholic tradition, The Catherine of Siena Institute has identified twenty-six charisms or spiritual gifts:

  • Administration
  • Celibacy
  • Craftsmanship
  • Discernment of Spirits
  • Encouragement
  • Evangelism
  • Faith
  • Giving
  • Healing
  • Helps
  • Hospitality
  • Intercessory Prayer
  • Knowledge
  • Leadership
  • Mercy
  • Missionary
  • Music
  • Pastoring
  • Prophecy
  • Service
  • Teaching
  • Voluntary Poverty
  • Wisdom
  • Writing
  • Speaking in Tongues
  • Interpretation of Tongues

A charism is not, however, to be confused with a gift or a talent.  Talents are something we learn.  Charisms are something with which we are endowed.  The mark of a true charism is in its effortless accomplishment and in its miraculous fruits.  When we are engaged in our charism, we find that the work of doing it is effortless and the results are far beyond what we know ourselves to be humanly capable of.  The reason for this is that when engaged in our charism, it is not ourselves who are doing the work, but God doing it through us.

In the coming days, we will explore all twenty-six charisms with the goal of helping you to discern your own special brand of magic and how God might be calling you to be a vessel of God’s love in the world.

Today…..we will start with administration, celibacy and craftsmanship.

The Magic of Administration:

If we do not personally possess the magic of administration, we know someone who does.  In my pre-entrepreneurial days, I witnessed the greatest examples of the magic of administration in church secretaries.  Not limited to those in secretarial roles, the magic of administration is present in those who are gifted to make and execute the logistical plans that make the overall vision happen.  Administrators specialize in problem solving and in seeing the forest through the trees.  They are detailed, organized and thorough.  They have the uncanny ability to see the unmet needs and organizational gaps in a project and are strongly motivated to meet these needs themselves and to assign tasks to those best able to accomplish these tasks while expertly coordinating all the various components in accomplishing the task.

The Magic of Celibacy:

Celibacy is a challenging topic in our Western culture.  The most familiar image of celibacy in our Western culture is the vow taken by some men and women as they enter into religious life. Choosing celibacy as part of a religious vow and possessing the charism of celibacy are not necessarily one and the same.  Celibacy is also not to be confused with chastity.  Celibacy, as a charism, is the ability to live a life without sexual intimacy and marital commitment and to live this lifestyle joyfully.  Celibacy as a charism is embraced with the knowledge that absent relational commitments, one is being freed up to focus their attention on another calling, most likely reflected in an additional charism.

The Magic of Craftsmanship:

The charism of craftsmanship is about creative expression that results in the material.  Painting, sculpture, cooking, sewing, construction, etc,  In craftsmanship, we distinguish a charism from a gift or talent in the way that engaging in this activity deepens our relationship with God (love, peace, joy, contentment) and is a means through which we express that relationship.  Is performing our art an outpouring of the love we have come to know in God or as a celebration of that love?  Do we find that engaging in our art feels meditative, even prayerful?  Is the outcome of engaging in this charism beyond what we believe we are humanly capable of?  Does the sharing of our art inspire others to know love, peace or joy?  If so, our artistic and creative expressions might be the mark of a charism.

Stay tuned in the coming days for more on charisms and on the invitation for you to discover your own special magic.


Posted in Authentic Freedom, Inspiration

Guest Blogger – Jay P. Raeder

Today, we are taking a little break from the midlife, menopause and perimenopause discussion to enjoy the creative gifts of guest blogger, Jay P. Raeder.  Jay is a devoted reader of this blog and shared the following magnificent words with me which clearly depict the outcome of his own diligent spiritual practice and attention to his personal journey of healing and wholeness as part of his own midlife journey.  I was moved by Jay’s words and asked if he would be willing to share this poem with you.  Thank you Jay for sharing your gifts in the world and by inspiring us through your words…and more importantly, by your open, generous and enthusiastic heart!      

Peace Dove

    Circle of Light

     Searching for unfolding Self,no longer accepting just a face on a shelf.

    Beginning to glimpse twinkling Starlight within,till all its mist’s fading Light ends,where clear Starlight’s shining Amazing Grace surely transcends!

    Seeing Light’s inner beauty in sad faces of sighs walking by,smiling lovingly back at them waiting for the winning prize!

    The peace of Oneness arises within, without the fearful mind,when it awakens in its ceaseless Circle of Love Light’s lost Wholeness from eternities parenthesis of life’s finite knowledge left behind.

    New creation’s Personal intimacy of an Impersonal Creator’s love for us has already completed the last Jubilee’s Circle of Light when “The Alpha and Omega” said “It is finished” on the cross and won the Personal fight!

    His greatest miracle of love has never diminished! Yet,for this uniquely Personal Love we must lose all-together our old minds darkened blemish. 

    Learning to think for ourselves we will succeed by the indwelling Holy Spirit of Ones Wholeness Who watched Christ bleed,now Seed to our souls soil Personally if from all separating thinking of ourselves we sever from indeed!

    One Love,One Light now filling all creations glory written in our hearts and minds a brand new story! 

    No more smoke blown in our faces ordered to listen, just more and more Truth’s deeply liberating Starlight’s unfading glisten!

    Our truly unique gifts now discovering inner joy unknown,with hearts of flesh ever more so limitlessly grown!

    All creations beauty of Wholeness now seen within all,as the Hearts One body,One Earth,One creation never again limits our view of only a life so small!

    Misty twinkling star’s scales fall like dust from our inner eyes of the empty Tree of Knowledge’s powerless darkened thinking,never again disguised future,of giving in to just the mind’s scent’s of its fear’s illusion caused overblown lies!

    Our Morning Star’s new dawn of day comes over the horizon enlightening “Now’s” priceless beauty,awaiting new glimpses at bay,enjoying the splendor of sweetened’s silence come what may!

    In each of “Now’s'” deeply felt moments nothing passes you by in your gaze,its where hindsight loses all of its errors of fate-less fears past illusions and leaving you feeling nothing but ours,and all Creations praise!  

    So,don’t lose all grip where all believed dross’s crude meaning,and truth,seemingly heartlessly fade from view. In empty broken hearts ground this is where finite knowledge’s nothingness gives birth to the new mornings gentle sparkling dew!

   Our hearts most fertile soil “Now” begins, where in New Soils depths and beautiful new roots of nature’s hope of delight’s dwells there,waiting,where patience’s new songs are filling the hills and valleys with joy throughout the air!

   Like the luxurious “Lillie’s of the field”, Infinities Seed is sown with ever deepening care of roots which mind can hardly even keep it’s precious ties,yet still come through,”Lilies neither toil nor spin”,to clothe,mind knows not why,because True Creation grows where money cannot buy!

  The worlds worries will more and more pass you by, and you may not truly know it for sure,and defy,until every time you see the Light filled smile in the stranger that passes you,and its finally then you’ll truly know why!

                                                Jay P. Raeder

Jay P. Raeder
Jay P. Raeder

About Jay (in Jay’s own words):

As a guest writer for Lauri,I would like to add something about myself.  I am a writer, poet, songwriter, musician, and a photographer. I am delighted to have been asked by Lauri to share this poem I recently wrote, with all her devoted readers. Thank you sincerely.

Posted in Gifts of Contemplation, Holy Spirit, Inspiration, Raised Catholic

Mystic Manifesto

What does it mean to be a mystic in the modern-world?  What do we have that Teresa of Avila, John of the Cross, Francis and Clare didn’t have?  How are we called to be mystics in a world that often judges belief and faith to be frivolous and naïve?  As a contemplative, raised Catholic, trying to find my place, I often wonder….


4:30 wakeup calls

Just for the record, in no way, shape or form, do I boast about Jesus ringing my doorbell at 4:30 in the morning and paying me a little visit (see yesterday’s blog).  In fact, rather than tell the tale, I’d rather run into the darkest corner of the room and hide behind the couch or beneath the dining room table.  For you see, I’m the last person Jesus should be visiting.  I’m not a Jesus Freak.  I’m not a bible thumper.  I will never ask you to change your beliefs or inquire over whether or not you’ve been saved (mostly because I don’t believe there is anyone who is NOT saved).  I’m imperfect and flawed just like everyone else.  Yes, God is my Source, Jesus is my dude and Shekinah (the Holy Spirit) drives my purpose.  But other than that….I’m just plain Lauri.  I color outside the lines.  I listen to heavy metal music.  I have a few tattoos.  And I swear (kind of a lot).  But, for some strange reason, Jesus got planted into my heart and he keeps showing up.  So, what am I supposed to do but pay attention, listen and act…in most cases from a place of incredible insecurity and fear.

Mystics, Tramps and Thieves

Just a little play on words…..and a reminder that mystics (people who talk to God) are a strange and Motley Crue (another play on spelling).  While many are familiar with St. Francis and Clare who talked with God, Joan of Arc who was instructed by angels and saints, Teresa of Avila who had ecstatic experiences of the Divine…no one really talks about the mystics of today.  Who are we?  We are the weirdos who, even in the midst of the post-modern era, the supposed age of reason, with science guiding our steps, still talk to God.  But more than talking….we listen.  And how do we listen?  We listen through a deep dedication to our spiritual practice which may or may not look very traditional.  While my spiritual practice might look pretty traditional (a little scripture, some meditation and contemplation and maybe even some chant), the modern-day mystic is not limited by the trappings of institutions.  While there are mystics within the hallowed halls of sacred institutions….some of us are simply running amok in the street and in YOUR WORLD!  One mystic that I know hears God in nature.  Another in his art.  Another through her music.  Another through his encounters with people.

Being the Body of Christ

But even more important than talking and listening to God, a mystic is known in the way that they serve.  In most cases, you will not see us wearing a collar or a habit, but you might recognize us in the wide-eyed look of generosity shining back at you through our eyes.  What you might not know about mystics, is that we have no choice but to serve.  For service, you see, is the natural result of paying attention to God.  Once you open that door and let the flame of the Spirit in…..she sets you on fire…most especially your hands, heart and feet.  With the fire of God’s love aflame in our hearts, we have no choice but to share that fire in the world.  The mystic’s dream is to embody God and in doing so, to set the world on fire with God’s love…healing, transformation, empowering…and look out if you come anywhere near a mystic….because you can’t help but be compelled to seek your own inner fire and in doing so, finding yourself.

A Mystic’s Prayer

In closing, here is a beautiful poem by Rainer Marie Rilke which speaks to the Mystic’s call to serve…and what I might call the Mystic Manifesto:

I believe in all that has never yet been spoken.

I want to free what waits within me

so that what no one has dared to wish for

may for once spring clear

without my contriving.

If this is arrogant, God, forgive me,

but this is what I need to say.

May what I do flow from me like a river,

no forcing and no holding back,

the way it is with children.

Then in these swelling and ebbing currents,

these deepening tides moving out, returning,

I will sing you as no one ever has,

streaming through widening channels

into the open sea.