Posted in Inspiration

A Thank You Note to 2020

Dear 2020,

While we have had our ups and downs and the chaos of this year has certainly tested me, sooooo many amazing gifts have shown themselves in this unprecedented year.  So before I put you to bed, and the world crosses over the threshold into 2021, I want to say a few words of thanks!

  • Above all else, 2020, you have shown me that the past almost 30 years of diligent spiritual practice and personal development has been worth it. With every challenge you threw at me, I discovered an opportunity to put what I have learned into practice and have seen firsthand the value of all the hard work, persistence, and faith. Not once did I buckle under the weight of these challenges.  Instead, I rose above them and found an even greater sense of inner peace, courage, and strength. Thank you.
  • 2020, you showed me that my prophetic visions are true. When Covid 19 showed up and we hit shutdown, I saw the proof of what I have sensed was coming since that prophetic dream of 1971 and what has been shown to me since. Thank you for giving me permission to trust my visions and to feel freer to share them with the world.
  • 2020, you showed me that I was MADE FOR TIMES SUCH AS THESE. Whether it be due to the inner resources I have always had or because of years of training and practice, I got it and I got you.  Thank you for giving me an opportunity to believe in myself and in my own powers to not only survive, but to thrive when the rest of the world seemed to be losing their shit.
  • Thank you 2020 for confirming my clarity of vision. Through the powers of discernment and years of fine-tuning this gift, I was able to sort through the truth from the deceptions.  I am grateful for this gift and for the opportunity to see it confirmed.
  • During this year, I had more than ample time to hermit. AND I LOVED IT!  I loved every single minute of being with myself and learning the subtle nuances of my own inner rhythm.  This year I learned how truly introverted I am and what I need to thrive within my own unique temperament.  THANK YOU for showing me who I truly am and for knowing I no longer have to apologize for enjoying solitude, quiet and a slow and gentle pace.  Thank you also for giving me permission to embrace my true rhythm even as the “stay at home” orders were lifted.
  • I learned who my true friends are and with whom and how I want to spend my time and energy. No more forcing myself to be present to or with relationships that no longer serve. And no more putting up with “friends” on social media who aren’t really friends (you know, those we are told to gather for the sake of promoting our businesses…..ugh!) BOOM!
  • Thank you 2020 for giving me an opportunity to practice, sharpen, and grow in confidence over my “dark gifts.” Thank you for showing me how to work in the Shadows and in the VOID and the power of that transformational work – both for myself and on behalf of the world.  Thank you for proving to me that this inner work matters and that even though it cannot be “monetized,” my needs are somehow supported in the use of these gifts.
  • Thank you for reminding me that DEATH is one of my superpowers. It always has been, but never before have I had the opportunity to practice this gift on such a grand scale.  I have no fear of Death.  I am comfortable in the presence of Death.  While most of my DEATH work is invisible, I was also reminded that I’m pretty good at supporting people when death is around them and in the ancient and modern funerary rites.  For this I am grateful.
  • 2020, Thank you for showing me the proof of my parenting. Two young adults who found their own resilience and personal rhythm in the midst of a storm.  I could not be more proud of my children and how in their own unique way through their own unique temperaments, found their way through this strange and bizarre year.
  • And most importantly, 2020, I want to thank you for proving to me the fruits of my labor through the unprecedented support that flowed toward me this year. Support from surprising and unexpected places. Proof that all my years of sacrifice and faith has paid off and that even when much of my work does not come forth as “billable hours” there is a reward for the work I do, especially for that which is not given value in a late-stage Capitalistic regime.  Thank you Thank you Thank you.

With gratitude and love!


Posted in Authentic Freedom Academy, church

A Day of Gratitude

Yesterday I launched the Authentic Freedom Academy Sunday Service.  Today, I am overflowing with gratitude for all who have supported me in the on-going evolution of Authentic Freedom Academy in all its manifestations!  Yesterday, brought it all full circle and I feel that in many ways, the puzzle is finally complete.  THANK YOU to my family, friends, clients, students, classmates, teachers, counselors, etc. etc. etc. etc. who have believed in this crazy dream and who have participated in all they ways you have!  THANK YOU!


If I’d known twenty-some years ago when I first responded to the “brick to the head” homily that drew me into active ministry, I might have turned and run away!  Back then, I would have been content to ride on the coat tails of our Pastor, Fr. Jeff, but when he left the priesthood to marry his soulmate, everything changed.  I was quickly dragged into the pits of a grieving community while trying to tend to my own grief.  The priest sex abuse scandal had just erupted and working on the inside, I soon became witness to the grievous sins of the institution.  The Catholic Church that I had lived and loved plummeted to its death from the pedestal on which I had placed it.  The election of Cardinal Ratzinger as pope only hastened its demise.  I soon discovered that my home was no longer a home.  Yes, I had a choice.  I could stay, comply and die the slow death of strangulation and spiritual execution, or venture out into the wilderness to see if God would make me a way.  God did, but mostly I felt like the Israelites in their 40 year journey through the desert, wondering where in the world I would find food and water and what the hell was I thinking leaving my slave drivers behind?  At least I had food on my table and a roof over my head.  In the desert, I quickly learned, you’d better be creative, learn to eat unfamiliar foods and expect to be paid in unexpected ways (or not at all!).

It’s been a slow and arduous journey, but what I also discovered is that the desert serves an important purpose – to teach us what really, really matters and how to rely on God.  Because in the desert, there is really nothing else but God and your own ability to find God where God might not otherwise be found.  I have found God in some of the most interesting places.  Student loans and credit cards first come to mind.  How else does one survive in the desert when there is no other nourishment to be found?  Not unlike the Israelites who wondered, “what the heck is this stuff on the ground you are asking us to eat?????” (which may in fact been some sort of insect….ewwwww!)  Won’t I die or at least get shunned by society for accumulating debt related to my time in the desert?  Maybe.  But it’s the choice God gave me.  That and the lesson of how to receive donations and help from family, friends, and even strangers.  “Get over your pride Lauri, and learn how to receive, and for God’s sake….quit judging.  ‘Good girls’ DO take out loans to support their businesses and your loans are nothing compared to what others have asked to receive for themselves.  Get over yourself and be grateful for the choices, however unconventional they might be!”

What else matters in the desert?  Family, friends and strangers who bear the face of God.  First of all – my children.  My children mean more to me than anything else in the world  and for them I have made many sacrificed while journeying through the desert.  They too have made sacrifices and for their willingness to do so….I am grateful.  They unconditionally believe in and support the work I do (perhaps because they know that my love for them absolutely comes first!) and if it means we still have fat TV’s….then so be it.

Family.  There are no words to express my gratitude for my family for putting up with the path on which I’ve been led.  My parents especially – for all the ways my path has challenged or confronted their own beliefs, attachments, familiar ways of knowing and understanding things.  I’m sure it hasn’t always been easy….but love has always won out in the end.  My parents are the best and I am so grateful for all their love and support!

Friends.  I could not be where I am today without my community of friends and fellow world changers….in Oshkosh, Wisconsin, of all places.  Many of us are not from here and wonder what the heck we are doing in Oshkosh and what brought us here of all places.  Yet, here we are….and we all found each other.  For those unfamiliar with Oshkosh, it is conservative, traditional, parochial and a smallish town of only 50,000 some people.  And Oshkosh is very separated – by a river, by a highway, by a railroad track, by religion, by “East Side” and “West Side.”  Oshkosh is a town full of contrasts and dualities – the last place in the world you might think to find all these “lightworkers.”  But, here we are.  Perhaps it is all this separation that drew us because the need for unification is so great?  I don’t know.  But, it’s been a great place to raise a family and my friends here just rock!  The people are reserved, but friendly and if you are patient and wait long enough, the bonds here grow very deep such that those who let you in would literally give you the shirt off their back.  And for those who have given “their shirts” to me, I am eternally grateful!

Special thanks to a hand full of friends who have the same kind of crazy dreams as I do and who have believed in and supported my crazy dreams (as I have supported theirs), especially when I have been tempted to stop believing myself!  And thank you to my online family at TWYH!  Your words and journeys have sometimes been the only thing keeping me afloat.

So, here I am looking out into the promised land.  My journey has come full circle with the original vision still intact – the vision to bring forth a new/original way of being Priest(ess) and Church in the world.  And the funny thing is that while the Institutional Church might not see it this way, what I am doing is One with the mission of the church.  So while I thought I was leaving the Church behind, I find that I never left at all.  (more on that later this week!)  God is funny that way!

Posted in Gratitude


A very Happy Thanksgiving to all my readers!!!!!!!  Today, I want to express all that I am grateful for and invite you to take time to do the same:

My Litany of Gratitude

Today, on this festive day of Thanksgiving when we are invited to be mindful of all we are grateful for… is my litany.  Today, I am grateful for:

  • A roof over my head
  • Food on my table
  • Good health
  • Two amazing children who I love with all my heart and who are the greatest teachers anyone could ever ask for.
  • Their father.  Though we are no longer together, he continues to be an amazing co-parent and source of support in this strange journey we call life.  Thank you Scot for all you do and all you are….especially for our children!
  • A beautiful and amazing niece who is like a daughter to me and who is a big sister and best friend to my daughter.
  • An amazing group of friends who have loved, supported, encouraged, uplifted, inspired me….and hopefully I have done the same for you.
  • A terrific part-time job that has brought me out of my shell and out of the cave in which I’ve been hibernating.  Thanks to this job I’m rediscovering my extrovert and how interesting and amazing humanity really it.  Every person that walks through my checkout lane is an amazing and unique expression of the Divine.
  • Parents who have loved, supported and honored me and who have journeyed with me through all the ups and downs.
  • Two amazing sisters and an equally amazing brother who make me more and more proud every day.
  • Two incredible sisters-in-law and my incredible brother in law.  I love the way they love the people who I care about most in the world!
  • My adorable, curious and super-smart nephew.  He cracks me up!
  • My clients and students…..I learn and grow through our work together and I am in awe over the people you are and who you are becoming!  GREAT WORK!
  • My readers.  You keep me going with your comments and contributions to this blog.
  • Pen and paper, a laptop…..the tools of my craft.  In my writing, I have found meaning, purpose and connection.  I’m so grateful to have re-discovered a long forgotten dream.
  • My teachers……the wise women and men who have kept me on the path, who have inspired me, called me on my sh..t, and who have held me accountable to ME!  Thank you!
  • All the miracles that have happened in my life and brought me to where I am today.  And the recognition that EVERYTHING is a miracle….if I just have eyes to see it in that way.

ok….your turn.  Happy Thanksgiving!

Lauri Lumby

Posted in Gratitude, Uncategorized

Humble Gratitude

This is another day of gratitude to YOU……my blog readers!  I have recently received some VERY GENEROUS donations to my ministry from readers of this blog.  These donations allow me to continue to offer this blog free of charge, but more importantly, it is donations such as these that allow me to continue to offer my programs and services (Spiritual Direction and Hands-on Healing) to my clients regardless of their ability to pay.

I believe so much in the work that I do, and have seen the results in my clients and students, that I did not want these benefits to be accessible only to those who have the means to pay.  I also believe that the gifts I have, as well as the call, have both been Divinely guided and that in the end, it is God doing the work….not me.  As such, it has always been my policy to ask people to pay only what they are able.  Some are able to pay my suggested fees, many are not.  As such, a lot of the work I do is either in trade, at a greatly discounted rate, or completely pro-bono.  I have trusted that in doing this God would provide and that my own financial needs would be met so that I could not only continue in this ministry, but continue to offer my programs and services to anyone and everyone who needs them.  Donations that I receive to this ministry allow me to continue my commitment to this ministry and to my current pricing arrangements.

So…..THANK YOU for your generous donations and know that I accept them in humble gratitude and wonder.

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Uncategorized

A Thank You to My Readers

Today I feel compelled to send out a deep prayer of gratitude to all those people who have stumbled upon this blog and have taken the time to read it, perhaps finding comfort, inspiration, support, nurturing and from time to time a bit of a challenge.  I don’t know what happened, but suddenly, the traffic to this blog has QUADRUPLED and I probably have YOU to thank for that!  Yesterday there were nearly 400 visits to this site and as of 6am today,  there were already nearly 200 visits.  HOLY COW!  The Lord certainly works in mysterious ways and all I can do is be humbled, awed and grateful.  So, thank you for reading.  Thank you for sharing.  And more importantly, thank you for being the source of inspiration for this blog in the first place!  I am deeply humbled to be able to be a source of support and comfort for anyone seeking support in their own journey of self-discovery and personal empowerment!

In much gratitude,

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Gifts of Contemplation, Inspiration, Spiritual Practices


Today is a day of gratitude.  As such, I want to take a moment and thank my clients, students and blog readers for their on-going and generous financial contributions to this ministry.  It is only because of these contributions that I am able to continue this work.  I am humbled and honored to be able to be a vessel through which healing and maybe a little light can be brought into our world.  Thank you!

Invitation to Gratitude

In my blog today, I want to share with you the invitation to gratitude.  Yesterday proved to be a strange day that in many cases might have put me over the stress edge, but instead, I found myself in a state of peaceful contentment.  When I pondered this on Facebook, I was reminded by a friend that perhaps the reason I was at peace was because of my on-going commitment to my spiritual practice.  HHHMMM….she just might have something there!  So here is what happened:

Like Any Other Day

The day started off as any other Thursday.  I got up, tended to my “morning pages” (a spiritual writing practice), had breakfast, coffee, read the paper (yes, I still read the hard-copy!), got my kids up, practiced meditation, got the kids off for school, took a shower and prepared for my day.  I had a glorious two hours at the local coffee shop with a dear friend, then went to a local store to do some shopping.


Here is where the day went haywire!  I went to my car after doing a little shopping and it would not start.  My car was broken down and that meant that I would have to cancel all my plans for the remainder of the day to tend to my car and deal with being without transportation.  For the old Lauri (before meditation), this might have sent me over the brink.  I would have experienced enormous stress, anger, frustration, impatience, etc.  And in truth, the after meditation Lauri might experience all this as well.  But instead, I found myself peaceful, calm and in gratitude.  GRATITUDE?  Who feels gratitude over a broken down car?  I know, weird!  But here are the things that happened to support this feeling of gratitude:

  • I had a warm place to stay and make all the necessary calls about my broken down car (Scot, AAA, the mechanic, my afternoon appointments) and since a friend owned the business, I was welcome to stay as long as I needed (which ended up being over an hour)
  • I HAVE AAA!!!!!!   If you do not have AAA, you need to get it!  They handled everything….calling the tow truck, paying for the tow, etc.  I LOVE AAA!!!!  (PS  If you are a single woman….AAA is a MUST!)
  • The tow truck operator was SUPER nice and a gentleman…he even opened the car door to let me in!
  • I LOVE Jacobsen Auto in Oshkosh!!!!!   Lori and Alisa were warm and welcoming when I arrived and made sure I had a way to get home until my car is done.
  • I know that whatever is wrong with my car is a quick, cheap and easy fix.  (Do you hear me Lance?)
  • While I missed not being able to keep my afternoon appointments, I was able to accomplish equally satisfying work at home.
  • I got to finish the novel I’m reading (Dead Sexy by Tate Halloway)
  • I found inspiration for a novel that I am working on and had time to put it to laptop!

In the old days, I might have responded to this unexpected turn of events in a much different way.  So, I am grateful for the spiritual practices that have allowed me to be more open to surprises, more trusting in favorable outcomes and more peaceful in the face of stress and conflict.  YEA!

The Bonus

Then here is the bonus…..because I had to sit home all day, I had time to follow up with some authors that I am hoping will read and provide and endorsement for my book, Authentic Freedom – Claiming a Life of Contentment and Joy. And guess what….gratitude of gratitude, I went to my email this morning and found they had all responded and I now have three more authors who are happy to read and endorse my book!  YEA !!!  So, here is a shout out of thanks to the authors who will be endorsing my book:  Julie Tallard Johnson, Darren Main, Richard Smoley, Jay Ramsay, Tau Malachi, William Rand, and Michael Mirdad.  Thanks!

Where are you being invited to find gratitude today?

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Oshkosh, WI