Posted in church, Inspiration

A Temple Not Built by Human Hands

For thousands of years, human beings have been building temples to their gods. From the humble beginnings of forest shrines, to the temples of the East, to the gargantuan medieval cathedrals and in more modern time, the mega-church complexes, human beings have designed and built external structures to house, to reflect, and to give worship to their gods.  In many belief systems the believers were required to offer sacrifice and worship within the walls of these temples so as to earn the favor of their god.  For some, neglect of these obligations is met with threats of eternal damnation.

These temples were built to represent an external god. God was either thought to be in the temple – either contained within its walls, within its tabernacle; or at the very least, it was only in the temple where god could be met.  The walls of the temple were meant to keep gods in and non-believers out.  Some belief systems have even created rules where those who don’t believe, or those within the faith who aren’t considered worthy because they have not completed the prescribed atonement rituals or sacrifice are not truly welcome.  Keeping gods in and the undeserving out.  All of this rooted in the belief that as human beings, we are separate from God.

Jesus taught otherwise. Raised Jewish, Jesus learned and followed the prescriptions of his faith.  He listened to the stories of his ancestors.  He studied the words of the prophets.  He memorized and followed the law.  He was a good Jewish boy doing what good Jewish boys do.  But, as the stories seem to imply, Jesus heard and experienced something beyond the surface layers of his Jewish faith.  He did not simply attend synagogue on Saturday to fulfill his Sabbath obligation.  It is likely that somewhere in his journey with his Jewish faith, he came upon the more mystical studies of his tradition.  Here he discovered a God that was not only in the temple.  He found a God that was not in a heaven light years away.  Likely through contemplation, meditation and prayer, and through the guidance of others who had come this way before him, he found a God who was not “out there” but dwelt deep within Jesus’ own being in a state he called “Oneness.”  Jesus discovered that the kingdom of God was not out there, but was within him in this state of Union where he experienced peace, contentment and bliss. John the Evangelist later called this experience Love.

For Jesus, the temple became something not outside of himself. Rather, he came to understand that he was the temple – that we are all the temple.  God is in us and we are the temple of that Divine Spirit.  The mystical traditions of Judaism (the Kabbalah) affirm this.  We know and understand this when we do the work Jesus did of healing ourselves of all that which seems to separate us from God – fears, false perceptions, ego attachments, old wounds, etc.  This is the work Jesus (likely) learned through his own Jewish faith, which he accomplished for himself and when he then went on to (try to) teach his disciples.  Some got it.  Some did not…..

 

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Posted in Authentic Freedom, Being Human, God

Reclaiming My Right to Be Excruciatingly Human!

DAMN IT. All these years I’ve been serving (internally anyway) the wrong kind of GOD!!!!!  In my head I know better….and my work reflects that.  But internally, I’ve been serving the GOD of someone else’s making.  ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

Hi. My name is Lauri.  I’m a recovering perfectionist.

Trying to be perfect

Maybe that’s all you need to know…..but maybe not. For as long as I can remember, I have tried to be perfect.  The perfect daughter.  Perfect student.  Perfect pianist.  Perfect dancer.  Perfect friend.  Perfect wife.  Perfect mother.  I’m not sure if I was born this way or if it is a product of my conditioning or a little of both.  The Enneagram suggests we are born with our “Type.”  There is no doubt that I am a Type 1 on the Enneagram and that I undoubtedly look at myself, the world and my life experiences through the lens of this question: “How could this be better?”  So there’s that.

I am also acutely aware of how my early life experiences along with my Catholic upbringing fostered the critical nature of this lens. Little messages along the way which have said I’m not good enough, there is something wrong with me, the way I’m doing things is wrong, what my Soul needs and wants is not in line with what society expects from me….and worst of all…..the ongoing message of a jealous God examining my every move and like Santa Claus, keeping a record of all the bad I’ve done in my life – bad for which there will be some sort of punishment – if not in this life, then certainly in the next.

But I’m not bad!

But here’s the thing. I’m not bad.  I’ve never done anything bad.  Yes, in the normal stages of childhood development I fought with my siblings and was likely mean to them at times.  Yes, I became angry at my parents and sometimes grumbled against their guidance.  Yes, in college and early adulthood I made the usual “mistakes.”  But ultimately, I’ve never done anything to intentionally harm another or to do damage in this world.

So if I’m not bad and I’ve never done anything bad, then why have I spent a lifetime feeling so bad? Feeling as if there is something wrong with me?  In response to this deep inner feeling of wrongness, I have done a WHOLE LOT OF WORK.  Healing the pain from past abuse.  Healing trauma.  Undoing negative conditioning.  Reclaiming all the parts of myself that I locked away deep in my subconscious because it might not be “acceptable” in this world.  I have opened Pandora’s Box and have welcomed every single demon therein – meeting it, listening to its fears and concerns and supporting the healing and transformation of all my old wounds so that I might not only feel better about myself, but so I might also feel better about this world and my place in it.

This week while reading the comments of the women and men in my Magdalene Priestess Training I realized there was one final demon to tackle.

My favorite Moses scene is when he throws the tablets to the ground in disgust, rage and disappointment over his people.  This is me everyday!  And yet, I’m just as guilty of confusion, doubt, and running after distractions and shiny objects (hello Facebook).  UGH!  We are excruciatingly human – and isn’t that the point!?  God loves us no matter how dense we can be at times….and this is THE GOOD NEWS.  We are utterly ok exactly as we are in this and every other moment. God doesn’t care.  This is a lesson about Unconditional Love I am still trying to learn.  God doesn’t care if I enjoy a glass of wine.  God doesn’t care if I’m depressed and unmotivated.  God doesn’t care if some days I just don’t give a fuck.  God doesn’t care that on some days I despise the human race.  Because God knows WHO I AM and in the center of all my human frailty there is Love.  Just plain Love.  And Love is who I am even when (maybe especially when) I am excruciatingly human!  

That demon’s name is “GOD”

Now, before you get your undies in a twist, let me explain.  The GOD who I am calling a demon, is not God – but is instead, the god of someone else’s making.  This is not the God who Jesus spoke of who loves without condition.  This is the GOD made up by a hierarchical and patriarchal system who rules by fear, power and control.  This is the GOD who was created to make us feel bad about ourselves, to plant seeds of doubt, confusion and pain in us …. all so that this hierarchical system might control us.  Because here’s the thing – if we believe in a GOD who is always judging us, who is measuring our humanness against us and who is waiting to punish us for that evil, then we will always be afraid.  We will feel badly about ourselves and can therefore be easily manipulated.  You see, when GOD’s love can be taken away, if we have to earn that love, if we will be punished for angering this GOD, then we will do anything to gain the approval of this GOD – a GOD that ultimately has nothing to do with God, and everything to do with humans that want us to look toward them as the ultimate authority so we will do what they tell us; and humans who wants our money.  Notice- the Church is not the only creator of this GOD.  Oh no….they are co-conspirators with every other hierarchical institution which has arisen out of a desire to have power and control over the masses.

The Demon isn’t only in the Church

Oh, and for the record…..a whole lot of “New Age,” “Ascension” and “Prosperity Gospel” people also preach this kind of GOD. You know…the GOD who will only reward us if we “think the right thoughts.”  The GOD who isn’t actually a GOD but is in fact ourselves – because WE are GOD and our life is created by what and how we think.  If we think the right thoughts we will get what we want because WE are GOD.  And if we think the wrong thoughts, then we can expect the consequences of these thoughts because we are GOD and we made it happen.  And if what we have in our lives is not what we want (if we are poor, struggling with illness, experiencing difficulty in our lives) it is because this GOD who is US is punishing us for thinking the wrong thoughts and the solution to changing what we do not want in our lives is to simply think better thoughts.  Or perform magic spells.  Or do the right ritual.  Or light a candle.  Oh wait….there’s more.  We also need to be PERFECT.  If our life isn’t what we want it to be it is because there is some wound in the way and if we clear that wound (fear, compulsion, etc.) then our external life will magically change. Ourselves disguised as a demon disguised as GOD.

(For the record, I’m all in favor of healing our wounds….it is what I do best……but healing our inner wounds is NO GUARANTEE of a change in our external lives.  Jesus never promised EXTERNAL abundance – only the abundance we know within when we are free.  #authenticfreedom). 

THIS is the demon GOD that remains at the bottom of my Pandora’s Box. The GOD that says I’m not good enough.  That I will never be good enough.  That no matter how hard I work to heal my past wounds, fears, etc. I will never be free because this GOD is looking over my shoulder waiting to hand out reward and punishment.  The GOD that has me believing that my life experience will change if I can just figure out what about me is soooooo wrong and heal that one thing so that everything will be good again. DAMN IT.  All these years I’ve been serving (internally anyway) the wrong kind of GOD!!!!!  In my head I know better….and my work reflects that.  But internally, I’ve been serving the GOD of someone else’s making.  ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

NO MORE! Today, I reclaim my RIGHT TO BE HUMAN. Excruciatingly human! Jesus spoke of a God who loves without condition.  A God who made me exactly as I am – for a reason and a purpose – and THIS creation is PERFECT.  I am already loved by God.  I don’t have to earn God’s love and it cannot be taken away.  I was LOVED into being and I am LOVE itself – and this version of love swears like a sailor, enjoys a glass of wine at the end of the day, on some days despises the human race, becomes impatient with ignorance and intolerance, grows enraged in the face of injustice, is at times judgmental and self-righteous and is sure that my way is right – or at least better; who loves deeply, burns passionately, gives generously – even if sometimes out of a “need to help or to feel loved,” who hates certain individuals and harbors resentment like Gollum harbors the ring.  Sometimes I’m depressed and unmotivated.  Other days I’m a workaholic.  I have anxiety, suffer with migraines and sometimes have panic attacks.  Like Denis Leary sings, sometimes I’m an Asshole but I can also be one of the kindest people you will ever know.  This is me in all my excruciating humanness exactly like God made me and there is nothing wrong with me and nothing wrong with how I am living my life.  And the parts of my external life which I wish would change (Gawd I’m tired of always having to worry about money and how my next bill will be paid) have absolutely nothing to do with something I have yet to heal, or some thought I need to correct.  SHIT JUST HAPPENS.  This is life.  And God has nothing to do with it and neither do we.  We are here to be human – excruciatingly human and maybe somewhere in that humanness we have the opportunity to discover that in addition to being human we are also LOVE.

 

Posted in Beloved Partnership

Love is Seeking Us

This week’s (dot) Love lesson is going to be a little rambly (is that a word?) as I attempt to put into words a very deep process that I am personally going through that I know is not just my own.  I am learning more and more how truly we are all connected and how the inner work that I am doing for myself has a transformational effect on – not only those around me – but the world.  I don’t say this to be arrogant; for what is true for me is also true for you.  Every wound that you heal, fear that you conquer, act of kindness that you share, has a profound impact not only on those around you, but on the entire world.

Now for the topic at hand – LOVE. More specifically – Love as Partnership.

To begin with, I’m not talking about romantic love (though what I will attempt to describe here also applies to romantic love). I am speaking of the spiritual, soul-driven quest for Love as Partnership – Partnership with ourselves, with each other and with God.

Let’s start with God. (Heavy sigh).  As I even attempt to utter “God” as it relates to “Love” the first voice I hear is that of our religious conditioning.  “God’s love has to be earned.  God’s love can be taken away. God will take “His” love away from you if you sin.  God will punish you if you misbehave.  If you are sick or poor, or struggling, it is because you have displeased God.  God is punishing you.  Etc. etc. etc.

Fortunately none of this is true, but these messages have been shoved down our throat for so long that we have a difficult time unraveling from all this negative conditioning as it relates to God and love. But again, none of this is true. This is not what Jesus taught.  When Jesus spoke of “punishment,” he was only reflecting on the natural consequence of the human condition or of the hell we experience within ourselves when we have forgotten God’s love.  John said it best:

God is love, and those who abide in love abide in God, and God abides in them. Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness on the day of judgment, because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear; for fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not reached perfection in love. We love because he first loved us. 1 John 3: 16b-19

God is love and we are here for the sole purpose of remembering and re-membering (embodying) that love. Just as John describes the truth of God’s nature so well, he presents the formula for remembering and living from this truth: rooting out fear.

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God is Dead and The Bride Has Taken Her Throne

In meditation this morning, I was given a vision that God is dead and that “The Bride” has taken her throne:

In the vision I saw God (the old man in the sky God). He was old and frail. He was only skin and bones, with a few wisps of white hair on his balding head.  He was struggling to breathe and to hold himself up.  Standing beside the old man in the sky God was a beautiful 40-50 year old woman with long flowing hair streaked with the grew of wisdom.  She was caring for the old man in the sky God.  While comforting him, she placed her hand on his shoulder and gently whispered, “It’s ok.  It’s time to let go.  Your work here is complete.”  God looked up at the woman with gratitude in his eyes.  He took her hands in his and surrendered his last breath.  And then he vanished.  The woman breathed a sigh of relief for God would no longer be suffering.  She then shed a single tear, straightened her shoulders and took his place.  As the woman took the old man in the sky God’s place, the room filled with light and a multitude of people stood before her cheering.  “The Bride has taken her throne.  Thus begins a new heaven and a new earth.  The things of old have passed away and the new is coming forth.  Rejoice!  Rejoice!  Amen!  Amen!  Halleluia!”

Please share your thoughts and reflections on what this vision represents to you. 

 

Posted in Being Human, detachment, God, Inspiration, Surrender

God Doesn’t Care Part II

In saying the God doesn’t care and asking the question, “then why do we?” (Read part I HERE), I am speaking about a specific kind of caring. I’m not referring to the caring and loving acts we demonstrate or show towards others.  I am also not talking about the proper concern we have for our fellow human beings, all of creation, and the world we live in.  All that we do to demonstrate caring, love, compassion, and concern are natural and healthy drives within us as human beings supporting our connection and fostering peace and harmony between us.  These are all healthy expressions of caring and supportive in building a happy and healthy world.  This is the highest expression of ourselves coming forth, arising out of love and grounded in compassion.

The caring that I am referring to about which God does not, is that which arises out of judgment and/or fear and is recognized by powerful emotional reactions. This is the kind of “caring” that we often see in ourselves and in others.  “Caring” that comes through as highly charged emotional reactions to the experiences, circumstances, events and people around us.  “Caring” that causes us to get our “undies in a bundle,” as we pick up our sword and ready for battle.  This is the “caring” that compels us to take up a cause and fight for that cause.  This is the “caring” where we judge something or someone’s actions as bad, disordered, etc. and the “caring” that causes us to build a wall of separation between “us” and “them.”  These are human actions and human responses and a guaranteed path to anxiety and conflict.  When we assign these kinds of attitudes and behaviors to God, we are creating God in our own image, not the other way around.

Unlike human beings, God is neutral. God does not judge.  As the psalmist says, “In you, darkness and light are but one (Psalm 139).”  God is simply being, observing, witnessing, allowing.  When we remember that we are created in the image and likeness of God we also remember that we are called to be like God.  When we accept the invitation to be like God, we then allow ourselves, like God, to simply be, allow, observe, witness.  When we do so free of judgment, this is the way to peace.

Being present to our world from a place of non-judgment and non-reaction allows us to be with the ever-changing circumstances of our lives and of the world around us. Non-judgment allows us to simply observe without the need to react.  We can observe, sit in this observance and discern within ourselves, from a place of non-reaction, as to how we may or may not be called to respond.  In this, we are able to refrain from reacting and find the place of authentic, loving, peaceful response.  I could give you a million examples of (many of them recent) as to how judgment and reaction disrupt our peace, but I will leave you with this:

We know within ourselves if we are reacting from a place of judgment or responding from a place of peaceful awareness. In the former, we feel charged by powerful emotions of fear, anger, wrath, frustration, impatience, etc.  In the latter, we only know peace.

Choose peace.

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Being Human, church, God, Inspiration, Jesus, Lessons, Oneness with God, Raised Catholic

Claiming What is Truly Ours

“We are afraid of her. For centuries we have wanted nothing to do with her. Now she returns into our midst. She is substantively weighted down by a special knowledge. She is saturated with hidden forces. Her one key move is to claim what is truly hers without shame.” – Ellias Lonsdale from his book Star Speaks as quoted at www.thecosmicpath.com.

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 What is truly mine? What is truly mine?  What IS truly mine?

When I reflect on these questions, what comes to me is MAGIC. Magic has always been my inheritance.  The magic of my ancestors.  A dark, intuitive, mystical magic.  A magic that infuses one with the courage and endurance to stare down the darkness of the human condition.  To be present to pain, struggle, fear, failure, challenge, heartache, heartbreak, betrayal and abuse and live to tell about it.  The magic to not be destroyed by the darkness, but to find my way through it.  This is the victory – to not get swallowed up or destroyed by the darkness, but in the darkness to find myself.  And in finding myself, discovering the tools to help others find themselves. 

Life is death and life is pain, this I know all too well. But lying within the darkness is also the light, if we have the eyes to see.  As a germinating seed has to break through its shell and then push its way through the darkness of the earth to find the light.  So too is this our truth – OUR truth.  In order to become the fullness of our potential, we must find our way through the darkness. 

What led me into and through the darkness, ironically, are the same. What led me into and then led me through the darkness is my faith – specifically, the Catholic faith in which I was raised.  Here I met my “God.” Here I was courted by my “God.”  Here I fell in love with my “God.”  Here my “God” betrayed me.  In this I came to know what Jesus knew  – that I too am a uniquely gifted Daughter of “God,” called to be God’s love in the world.  But even more than this, I came to know what Jesus REALLY knew – in order to truly be the “Son of God,” he had to find a new god.  As he was hanging there, dying on the cross, Jesus found a new God and this God was not the God “out there” who had forsaken him, instead, it was the Divine Self within to whom Jesus surrendered his spirit.  The God he “knew” now became truly known.  At the end of our life, there is truly no one there, for all dwells within ourselves and here we have found our way home.

This is not nihilism, this is truth. And yet, we are also never alone.  For within and among us are all the Souls who have gone this way before us.  And with these Souls, and all the Souls yet to express themselves, we are one.  We are together and we are One.  And in our Wholeness, there is God.  The wholeness of who we all have been and all the potentials of who we are yet to become.  The Creative vision of the universe forever and always discovering, creating and recreating itself.  The seed becomes the sprout, becomes the plant, becomes the blossom, becomes the fruit, becomes the seed – the never ending cycle of creation – birth, life, death, the time in between and the cycle starts all over again.

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All of this I discovered through my Catholic faith, or rather, I discovered this in the Jesus that was hidden within my Catholic faith, hiding behind centuries of dogma, doctrine and man’s need to have power and control. This was a Jesus that LIVED – no longer worshipped as he hung broken and bleeding on the cross, thereby making suffering our “God.”  Instead, this was the Jesus who was fully human.  This was the Jesus who loved, who laughed, who knew desire, who sometimes became angry, afraid and despairing and who in this, tasted the fullness of the human experience.  This was the Jesus who was killed by selfish and greedy men who felt threatened by the truth he came to reveal – the truth of a Divine within where true authority dwells.  This was a Jesus who listened to his heart, who came to show people love and who experienced love himself.  And in this love, he also experienced heartbreak – the betrayal of friends, the loss of family and the ultimate heartbreak of all – having to be beaten, tortured and killed while the woman he loved stood watching.  This was the Jesus I came to know when “God” came calling.

This is the Jesus who shows us the way – if we have the eyes to see and the ears to hear – to see and hear beyond man’s need to twist Jesus’ message for their own political agenda, who turned Jesus’ message of love to one of divisiveness and fear. “We are the One true faith and all others are going to hell.”  This is not what Jesus came to teach.  Instead, Jesus only taught love and the consequences of choosing something other than love.  If he learned nothing else by his human experience, it was that we all have a choice.  Choose fear or choose love.  The way we feel within ourselves is then determined by this choice.  Do we allow the inherent suffering of the human condition to destroy us or do we seek out the love hiding in the midst of the darkness?  THIS was Jesus’ magic – the ability to see the love no matter where or how deeply it was hiding.  This, I must admit, is my magic too….even in the days when I am sure the darkness will destroy me, I somehow always find my way through.  This is what I came to learn.  This is what I come to teach.

This is what is truly mine, along with everything that helped me find my way here –

What is truly yours?

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, church, Forgiveness, God, Jesus, Oneness with God

“God” Does Not Save

I am going to bet that a whole lot of people are going to be either offended or frightened by a blog that suggests that “God Doesn’t Save.” Bear with me here…..I promise there is a happy ending!  🙂

Yesterday while working through some specific areas of trauma – healing and releasing them through a protocol called “Brainspotting” (under the supervision of a licensed therapist!), I had a staggering realization:

God did not save me, rescue me or support me in the most traumatic experiences of my life:

God did not step in and save me from being raped.

God did not save me from years of emotional abuse.

God did not protect me against betrayal.

God did not step in when the self-appointed inquisition harassed me, wrote evil letters about me, lobbied our local priest and bishop against me.

God did not step in while the Church broke my heart and refused to stand up for me, defend me or have my back when I was challenged, harassed and abused by the fearful few.

God did not step in when I found I had no choice but to leave the Church.

God sat back and did nothing.

Even after I had given my heart, my soul, my mind, my very being to God, dedicated my life to God, I got nothing back. I got nothing but pain for all I had given to God.

“I gave it all to God and got nothing back.” THIS is the very definition of co-dependency.  We give, give, give, give and get nothing back.

THIS is the “God” most of us have been brought up to believe in. A “God” who is “out there,” separate and apart from us.  This is a “God” who needs our devotion, our time, our attention, our worship.  This is a “God” who is fickle – who gives to those who have pleased “HIM” and takes from those who don’t.  But even worse, this is a “God” who takes even, or perhaps especially, from those who give.

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This is the “God” who sacrificed his own son. This is the “God” who let his chosen one be condemned, ridiculed, and crucified on a cross…..why?  “For the forgiveness of humankind????”  Let’s be honest, this is a ridiculous kind of God!  What kind of God kills his own son?  I’ll tell you what kind of God – one who is made in the image of “man” kind – specifically the unholy masculine (not to be confused with the holy masculine) aspect of humankind.  This is a God who was created by patriarchal, hierarchical institutions for the sake of their own power and control – institutions who created a God who is to be feared so that they could use this fear to manipulate their followers – a God who looks more like fearful, vengeful, fickle, jealous, angry humans than the God that Jesus spoke about who is LOVE.

So, no, God does not save – at least not the God who is the “old man in the sky,” out there who wants us to bow down to HIM and then just maybe “HE” will give us what we need to survive.

“God” does not save…..but love does.

God did not save me from rape, but love did. Love supported me in my grieving.  Love guided me to help and support.  Love allowed me to forgive….most importantly, love allowed me to forgive myself.

God did not save me from years of emotional abuse. But love did.  Love allowed me to find healing and support.  And again, love allowed me to forgive.

God did not save me from the Church who broke my heart, but love did.

God did not rescue me from the hands of the fearful minority or from the priest and bishop who had been poisoned against me, but love did. Love allowed me to heal.  Love allowed me to create a new home for myself.  Love allowed me to stand in my own truth regardless of the condemnation.  Love allowed me to be obedient to love.  And love allowed me to forgive.

So while I gave and gave and gave to “God” and got nothing in return, LOVE was there all along, supporting, guiding, healing, transforming and bringing me safely to exactly where I need to be.

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This LOVE is not “out there” hanging out among the clouds or in some heaven light years away. This LOVE is not sitting on a throne of gold locked behind some pearly gates.  This LOVE is right here inside of me, and this LOVE is right there inside of you.  This is the LOVE that you are and the LOVE that Jesus came to know within himself and wanted everyone else to know.  This is the LOVE that is our true nature – that holds the knowledge of our life path, the path that will give our lives meaning and purpose.  This is the LOVE that tells us what is right and what is wrong, what is true for us and guides us toward that truth.  This is the LOVE that compels, guides, and leads us toward the many opportunities in our lives for growth, healing and transformation.  And this is the LOVE that helps us find our way through the devastating and painful experiences of the human condition to the new hope and new life that is on the other side of the disappointment and loss.  This is the LOVE that leads us toward those who will support us in this love and this is the LOVE that helps us to recognize them when they arrive.

LOVE is what saves, and if you choose to call this LOVE “God,” (or “Goddess”) then let it be so!

Posted in Beloved Partnership, Christ Consciousness, church, God, Jesus, Mary Magdalene

My Easter Gift to You!

Today we commemorate the resurrection of Jesus as the Christ and the witness of his resurrection by Mary Magdalene who was then ordained by Christ to share the good news with the other disciples. My Easter gift to you is an excerpt from Lesson Five of my online course, “Resurrecting the Magdalene.”  If you are interested in learning more about the full course and the course options, click on the corresponding icons to the right of this blog, or click on the links below:

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The Resurrection of Jesus, the Christ

Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance.

So she came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!”  So Peter and the other disciple started for the tomb. Both were running, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. He bent over and looked in at the strips of linen lying there but did not go in. Then Simon Peter came along behind him and went straight into the tomb. He saw the strips of linen lying there, as well as the cloth that had been wrapped around Jesus’ head. The cloth was still lying in its place, separate from the linen. Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed. (They still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead.) 10 Then the disciples went back to where they were staying.

11 Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb 12 and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot.

13 They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?”

“They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I don’t know where they have put him.” 14 At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus.

15 He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?”

Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”

16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.”

She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”).

17 Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’”

18 Mary Magdalene went to the disciples with the news: “I have seen the Lord!” And she told them that he had said these things to her.

John 20: 1-19

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Resurrecting The Magdalene e-course Lesson 5 excerpt:

…  The bottom line is that we have no way of knowing the literal truth of any of the gospels, only that they communicate stories that were handed down for many years before they were written down by specific people for a specific audience, based on what they remembered or, more likely, what they wanted their audience to believe about Jesus, his life, and his teachings. That is not to say, however, that the gospels do not contain deep and profound truths – especially when we extract the gospel stories from the doctrine that has been developed around then, bringing them into our own prayer, and allowing God to reveal the truths contained within the stories that are personally relevant to us in our own journeys.

Beyond our own personal reflections on the gospels, there are a few things we may be able to surmise from the texts, especially for our current purpose of understanding what might really have taken place during the events surrounding Jesus’ resurrection.

  • In each and every gospel account, Mary Magdalene is named as one who is witness to the resurrection. The same cannot be said of any other “named” witness.
  • Scripture scholars further highlight this point in noting that Mary is named. Scholarly consensus holds that for a woman to have been named, she must have had a central and critical role in the story of Jesus (remember, women had no personal value within the culture of first-century Palestine). Mary is named in every gospel account of the resurrection, including that portrayed in the Gospel of Mary Magdalene (one of those that didn’t make the cut).
  • Beyond being named in scripture as witness to the resurrection, Tradition has always honored Mary Magdalene as first witness to the resurrection, so much so that in the very early Church, Mary was identified as “Apostle to the Apostles,” for this is what she was.

“But what about Peter?” we might ask. He is named in both the gospel of Luke and the gospel of John.  There is an easy explanation for Peter being named in Luke’s gospel.  Scripture scholars tell us it is unlikely that the author of Luke was a direct follower of Jesus.  Instead, Luke was most likely a follower of St. Paul, who actually never met Jesus personally.  Paul (as Saul of Tarsus) was initially a persecutor of the followers of Jesus, himself ordering the stoning of St. Stephen, the first martyr.  Paul later had some sort of mystical experience through which he encountered the risen Christ and then became a champion for the Jesus cause.  Paul likely gained his knowledge of the Jesus story from Peter and the other male disciples who presided over the first Christian community in Jerusalem, long after Mary Magdalene left the scene (more on that in the next lesson).  By this time, it is likely that the Petrine (Peter) agenda had already been cemented within the Jerusalem community.  Because Mary was such an integral part of the story, she could not be omitted altogether, but her role was easily downplayed by having Peter, himself, witness to the empty tomb.

Then there is the gospel of John. John’s gospel is markedly different from any of the other gospels and seems to be of a genre unto itself – a gospel that is a theological reflection on the first 100 years of the Jesus movement and on some of the traditions, rituals, and practices that had already become part of the emerging Christian tradition.  While one of the later gospels written, John’s gospel also possesses parts of the Mary Magdalene tradition that are not present (or are downplayed) in the other gospels including the Wedding at Cana, the story of the Samaritan Woman at the Well and the Anointing at Bethany.  In regards to the story of the resurrection, John’s gospel presents a study in contrasts.  First, Mary goes to the tomb.  She then runs to tell Peter, who comes to the tomb to see that it is empty.  After Peter (and the unnamed disciple) depart Mary sticks around and has a direct and personal encounter with Jesus, who then tells her to go tell the other disciples.

The conflicting information in this gospel has confounded me for years, until I brought this reading deeply into prayer and meditation and the answer became glaringly obvious. The gospel of John contains two separate stories of the resurrection account – one in which Mary is the witness, another where Peter is given privilege.  It is my personal belief that the passage regarding Peter was inserted into the Mary story to suit the later Christian Church (second – third century) who sought to put forth a decidedly patriarchal and hierarchical agenda.  Within this agenda, there can be no room for a woman who was obviously commissioned to a leadership role by none other than Jesus, himself.  But, don’t take my word for it.  Go back and re-read the resurrection account from John – first including the italicized text, then without that portion of the text, and then decide for yourself.

If you are interested in learning more about the Resurrecting the Magdalene e-course, or the abbreviated version “Magdalene Activation” click on the icons above in the right-hand column of this blog. You might also enjoy my novel, Song of the Beloved – the Gospel According to Mary Magdalene available HERE.  Happy Easter!

 

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The Mystic’s Conundrum

The Mystic’s Conundrum

Copyright Lauri Ann Lumby

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Once we have seen the face of God,

Everything by comparison pales.

The whole world lacks luster

Melancholy defining the human condition.

Longing replacing enjoyment

Ever yearning our heart’s return.

“Why can’t it be like that all the time?”

We achingly wonder,

Comparing earth to heaven

Forgetting that it is for earth that we are here,

And to heaven that we shall return,

Understanding why the ancients said,

“You cannot see the face of God and live.”

For life no longer feels like living.

But when we cease the comparison,

Understanding

That the glimpse of God was only a glimpse,

A gift that’s rarely given,

And one most will never know,

We begin

Remembering why we are here:

To love the human condition,

Accepting it for what it is – painful, despairing, filled with hatred, violence,

 suffering and loss.

Allowing ourselves to be with what we otherwise want to reject,

believing “this cannot be God.”

HERE is where we find God,

No longer distant, rare or separate,

But right here in the midst of the human condition

For HERE, there is nothing that is not God.

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The Function of Divine Will and Divine Timing in Unity Consciousness

A big title for a big topic.  This is what came through today as I was pondering the question of how manifesting, timing, etc. function in Unity Consciousness.  Who knew I’d been judging it all from the perspective of separation – until today!  When we transcend separation, this is what happens:

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In Unity Consciousness (or what some might call Christ Consciousness), there is no such thing as “Divine Timing” or “Divine Will.” In Unity Consciousness, we are freed of the false perception of separation such that there is no separation between ourselves and God.  Instead, the separate mind steps aside so that the Godself can live in and through us through our unique being.  In this state, God’s will becomes our will – manifesting as our needs, our wants and our desires. The separate mind, no longer afraid, simply says “YES” through a state of deep, inner knowing, that which is known as right and true, mostly in our hearts.  In this, everything arises in the perfect way in the perfect time and we are inwardly guided to act at the exactly perfect time in the exactly perfect way in support of what is now our heart’s desire. We are no longer waiting for “Divine will” to be revealed or for “Divine Timing” to play out because if the desire is in our heart, it is Divine Will and the time is now.

How about that to make our brains explode.  Explains a lot and now I will be testing this theory.  Test it out yourself too and let me know what happens! 

 

Love,

Lauri