Posted in Authentic Freedom, Being Human, creativity, Initiation, Inspiration, Midlife Journey, Spiritual Formation

Withholding our Gifts

Today’s blog explores our own unique giftedness and our responsibility to identify, cultivate and share that gift in the world.  We are the ONLY ones who possess and can share this gift.  And when we deny this gift and withhold it from the world, the whole world loses.  Participating in soulful spiritual and personal development facilitate the birth of your Soul and help you find your life’s purpose.


Your Precious Gift

The great dancer and choreographer, Martha Graham once said:

“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique.  And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost.  The world will not have it.”

I love the profound truth in her observation, in her words and in her call to action.  We are each uniquely gifted and spiritually blessed to make an important contribution to the betterment of our world.  There is no one else on the planet who possesses the exact nature of our gift, therefore we are the only one who can effectively deliver this gift to the world.  When we refuse this spiritual gift, we do a disservice not only to ourselves, but to our children, our families, our friends, the entire world.  I don’t share this truth as a way of causing you shame, but as a way to point out how truly magnificent, unique, special you are in the person God/dess made you to be!  You and your gift are precious treasures that the world desperately needs.  And the world needs your gift NOW….not in some distant time light years from now….or when you finally get around to it…or when your children leave, or when life isn’t so busy, or when your husband retires, or when you retire, or when the moon is finally in Aquarius.  The time for you to explore, discover, cultivate and share your gift is NOW!!!!  So…..what are you waiting for?

The Time is Now

If you already know what your gift is and are actively sharing this gift in the world and enjoying the fruits of sharing your gift, congratulations and yay!  If you are not, (in the words of one of my teachers,) “Get off your butt and do it now!”  The good news is that you don’t have to embark upon the journey of discovering and birthing your Soul – your own unique giftedness and spiritual purpose – on your own, nor should you.  There are a million resources out there to guide you in the journey, to provide support along the way and to give you a good hard push when your resistance gets in the way.  This is where I come in with my own unique giftedness and purpose.

Midwife to your Soul

For the past thirty years, I have sought, discovered, cultivated and honed my skills as a guide in the process of birthing the Soul.  In this process, I birthed my own Soul.  In birthing my own Soul, I have found fulfillment, joy, peace, contentment along with a great sense of wonder and awe as I witness the fruits of birthing my Soul.  Authentic Freedom – the process and curriculum for birthing the Soul that I developed came out of this process, as did the current workshops on creativity and the midlife journey.  My call to be a writer came out of this search.  The desire to teach, to heal, to accompany and support arose out of this search.  As did the desire to give back.  I am also aware, as you will be, of the vibrant energy, the God-energy, that flows through me as I am sharing my gifts and I know that in truth, these gifts are not mine, but that I am simply the vessel.  As Midwife to your Soul, it is my job to help you to discover, cultivate, hone and share your gifts.  And the time for you to begin this work is NOW!  Your heart and your Soul are waiting…and so is the world.

To schedule a one-on-one mentoring session with Lauri or to schedule a workshop or retreat, please call (920) 230-1313 or email

Posted in Being Human, Discernment, Empowerment, Lessons, Midlife Journey, Mystics, Spiritual Formation

Life Passion and Purpose

Today’s blog explores the human longing for passion and purpose, the search for fulfillment, contentment and joy and the little clues that arrive on our path to show us the way. The key is to look for those things that make you heart sing!


Longing for meaning, passion, purpose

As I state in my mission statement, SOUL is the unique way you are creatively gifted to find meaning, purpose and connection. Soul, when engaged, leaves you feeling fulfilled, content and whole.  From the moment we are born, until the moment we die, Soul seeks to be known in the world through us and compels us to fulfill its purpose.  We know that we have encountered Soul and are allowing Soul to fulfill its purpose when we feel content, whole, peaceful and filled with joy.  Soul is the way that we are called to be of service to ourselves and in service to the betterment of our world.  Soul is the universal calling and our common destination, yet for each and everyone of us, the manifestation of Soul is unique and reflective of our own creative gifts.  The good news is that we are not alone in our search for Soul and the Universe is gracious enough to plant little clues along the way to help us in our search for the Soul.

Come out, come out, wherever you are!

We can know that Soul is calling to us when we are aware of a deep inner longing for “that which cannot be named.”  We know that Soul is calling when we feel restless, discontented, lonely or bored.  These are all signs that the Soul is ready for its next adventure (for the Soul continues to reveal itself and in truth, is never fully manifest).  The search for Soul begins like a game of hide and seek, with Soul calling out to us, “Come find me,” while we gently implore, “Come out, come out, wherever you are.”  Then like a treasure hunt, Soul plants little clues along the path to help us find our way. In the hide and seek, treasure hunt of finding the soul, hindsight is 20/20, but as one who has played this game for nearly fifty years, I can tell you what to look for in identifying those clues.

Shiny Objects and Sparkling Things

In the search for Soul, it is best to put on the eyes of the Raven or Crow.  Raven and Crow are known for their love of shiny objects.  In their search for nourishment and partnership, they are dazzled by shiny objects which they scoop up in their beaks and bring back to their nests.  Raven and Crow nests are known for being filled with sparkling things they have collected in their many journeys.  The hunt for Soul is much the same.  In searching for the clues to Soul, we too are invited for look for the things that sparkle, that contain a special glow, that shimmer and shine.  In short, we are invited to look for the things that MAKE OUR HEARTS SING.


Magic, Moonbeams and Morgan LeFay

Looking back on my nearly fifty year journey, these are some of the clues that Soul planted in my path and which guided me to my purpose as mother, writer, priest, midwife, counselor, teacher and healer. 

1) My all time favorite TV  and movie characters:  Samantha Stevens (from Bewitched) and Mary Poppins.

2) All my life I have been a voracious reader and learner.  I am never without one or ten books to read, and am often in the midst of reading several.

3) My passion for learning….when I find a subject that sparks my passion, I find every book on the topic and read every one that resonates with me (speaks to my heart!).

4) All the people I idolize are either authors or change makers.

5) The first “famous” person I met was an author, Mary Rodgers of Freaky Friday fame.  I even got her autograph!

6) My favorite books as a teenager were stories of the saints.  The ones that really spoke to me were Joan of Arc (go figure!) and St. Bernadette.  My childhood dream was to make a pilgrimage to Lourdes.  (still on my bucket list!)  As a grown up, my go-to girls are Mary Magdalene and Theresa of Avila.

7) Jesus Christ Superstar.  Hearing this soundtrack for the first time COMPLETELY changed my world.  Suddenly, Jesus was a real human being with real vulnerabilities and Mary Magdalene became an important part in his ministry and in the life of the Church.

8) Mists of Avalon – another book that changed my life and my life course.  In reading that book, I felt I had come home.  In the character of Morgan LeFay, I found a woman of strength, vulnerability and purpose and in the Celtic lore, I was reminded that magic (as in God working through us) is real.

I could go on with about another million clues, but you get the idea.  The key is to look for those things that make your heart sing, and there you will find clues as to what your Soul wants you to be.

What does your Soul want to be through you?

What are the clues that have led you along the path to your Soul?

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Discernment, Spiritual Direction, Spiritual Practices

Longing for Purpose and Direction

Each of us long for meaning, purpose, direction and connectedness in our lives.  Today’s blog continues to explore how Authentic Freedom Ministries serves to help you find the fulfillment of this longing, specifically as it relates to your search for purpose and direction. Call or email Lauri today if you are interested in setting up a one-on-one session.  (920) 230-1313

Uniquely Gifted

Each and every one of us has been uniquely gifted to reveal and to be God’s love in the world in service to God and for the betterment of humanity.  And…..each of us are called to be this love through our own unique set of life experiences, gifts, talents, passions and charisms.

To learn more about this truth along with effective tools for embracing this truth and uncovering your own gifts, call Lauri for a private session  (920) 230-1313 or email lauri@yourspiritualtruth.comOr…..purchase my book. 

The Challenge

While we may intellectually agree with the possibility that we are each uniquely gifted and somehow participating in God’s plan for a better earth, we don’t really believe it.  Or, we absolutely DO NOT and CANNOT even consider the possibility that we have anything to contribute to this world.  Instead, we feel worthless, depressed, insignificant, undeserving of the joy one experiences in naming, claiming, cultivating and generously sharing our gifts.  This is where Spiritual Direction and Spiritual Practice come in.

If you believe that you are unworthy, undeserving, insignificant and have nothing to contribute, call Lauri TODAY for a private session  (920) 230-1313 or email lauri@yourspiritualtruth.comOr…..purchase my book.   

Spiritual Direction, Discernment, Spiritual Practice (not necessarily in that order!)

Discernment is the process through which we discover our PURPOSE and the DIRECTION to, into and through that purpose. Through discernment, we are able to distinguish the true, authentic, expansive and loving voice of God vs. the fearful, constricting, imprisoning, false voice of the ego.  It is through our Spiritual Practice (meditation, contemplation, prayer, movement, creative endeavors, etc.) that we are able to be open to listening and hearing the voice of God in our lives.  Spiritual Direction brings it all together.  Because we are often too emotionally invested, too afraid, too resistant to the voice of God within us, we need an outside, objective party who can help us recognize the truth in our words or the truth beyond our words.  A good Spiritual Director, through compassionate listening and attentive presence provides a safe place in which your deepest, most authentic truths can find their way to the surface and into your life and will be able to help you to move through the fears and resistance that naturally surface when we and our truth come face to face.

For help identifying your purpose and life direction,  call Lauri for a private session  (920) 230-1313 or email

Not For the Faint Of Heart

A note of caution:  This journey toward purpose and direction are NOT for the faint of heart.  As Gloria Steinem says, “The truth will set you free, but first it will kick your ass!”  Oh man is that true!  When we discover our PURPOSE and the DIRECTION through which we are called to live that out, we are required to CHANGE.  And there is nothing we fear more than change.  Once we identify our truth and how we are called to live it……a flood of fears, resistance, excuses all show up.  It is for this reason that I say I PARTNER with you because I can’t do this for you…..but I will do it WITH you.  For every fear, there is a spiritual practice that helps us to move through that fear.  For every resistance, there is a mantra to help us be courageous in the face of change.  For every excuse, there is a Spiritual Director kicking you in the butt saying, “That sounds like an excuse.  Get off your butt and MOVE through that fear!”  While the journey to our purpose can be hellish, the invitation is to JUST KEEP WALKING and a compassionate and loving Spiritual Director will help you to do just that!

If you are looking for the support to MOVE through the fears that are blocking your way to your PURPOSE, call Lauri for a private session  (920) 230-1313 or email

Now for a Few Examples

I want to close today’s blog with examples of some of the DIRECTION and PURPOSE questions that have surfaced with clients and the answers that we moved through together toward a life of greater contentment and joy for the client:

Q:  Why can I never find happiness in these job(s)

A:  I am called to start my own business in the field of my expertise.

Q:  Why am I always being rejected?

A:  I have seen the world through the lens of rejection and have now embraced the lens of love and now know that no one has the power to reject me.

Q: Why can I never find fulfillment with a woman?

A:  In my heart, I really love men.

Q:  Why am I restless in this job?

A:  I am called to find a job that is reflective of my gifts.

Q:  Why am I always feeling depressed?

A:  I am in an emotionally abusive relationship and need to get out.

Q:  Why am I having panic attacks?

A:  My inner voice is trying really hard to get my attention.  There is a truth I need to recognize in my life that I have been ignoring.

Q:  Why am I always getting eye infections?

A:  There is a truth I am supposed to see that I have been ignoring.

To learn more about yourtruth along with effective tools for embracing this truth and uncovering your own gifts, call Lauri for a private session  (920) 230-1313 or email lauri@yourspiritualtruth.comOr…..purchase my book.   

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Discernment, Divine Revelation, Empowerment

You Have Been Called

Today’s blog continues the discussion on Divine Call.  How are you called to be a vessel through which Love is known in this world?

Thus says the Lord,

Here is my servant whom I uphold,

my chosen one with whom I am pleased…

I, the Lord, have called you for the victory of justice,

I have grasped you by the hand;

I formed you, and set you as a covenant of the people, a light for the nations,

to open the eyes of the blind,

to bring out prisoners from confinement,

and from the dungeon those who live in darkness.

Isaiah 42: 1, 6-7


Today’s blog is more of a reflection activity than an actual “blog.”  I invite you to slowly and prayerfully read the scripture passage above, imagining that these are God’s words FOR YOU!  Imagine that these words are being addressed to you personally, that you ARE the servant with whom God is pleased.  Now imagine that you are the one being called for the victory of justice, to be a light of peace to the nations, to open the eyes of the blind, to set prisoners free and to lead people out of darkness.   Because guess what?   YOU ARE that person… are each and every one of us.  Now, in your notebook or journal or on a random piece of paper, write down how you feel about this call.  How, specifically, are you being called to live out this call?  How are you already living out that call?

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in creativity, Inspiration


Much of the spiritual journey is about seeking the answer to the question, “What is my life’s purpose?  Why am I here? ”  Today’s blog explores that question.

Seeking Purpose

Everyday between clients, students and email inquiries, I get the question, “What is my life purpose?  Why am I here?”  Of course, this is not a question I can answer for them, but through the process of spiritual direction (and other tools for transformation), this is a question that they can be empowered to answer for themselves.  While I cannot answer that question for another person (and I sometimes even wonder if I can answer it for myself!), there are certain things I have learned through my own process of inquiry that I feel I can confidently say regarding this question of purpose.  So….this is what I have come to know and understand in this moment, recognizing that life continues to reveal the deeper and broader answers to this quandary.

The Search for Fulfillment

As human beings, we have been gifted with the longing for purpose.  We want meaning in our lives.  We seek to do good things.  We want to make a mark in the world through our work, our relationships and  our creative expression.  At first, we think that this longing seeks to be fulfilled through “the perfect job” or “the perfect partner.”  I know for myself, this has been the case.  And in truth, it is through our work and our relationships that this longing will find its fulfillment.  I know that for myself, when I heard the call to explore active ministry, the restlessness that plagued me in my corporate work was immediately calmed.  I had heard my call and continue to listen to the restlessness within that invites me to continue to seek new and expanded ways in which I can share my gifts in the world.  I have seen this to be true for others as well.

The Problem(s)

While I may have found the “perfect job” for myself, and continue to seek expanded versions of what that might mean, there is a problem.  The search for fulfillment is not always about “the job.”  In fact, it is really not about “the job” at all.  It is about discovering our own unique giftedness and being open to sharing that in the world.  Which brings me to another problem.  We are pretty selective about what we might consider a gift.  We think our gifts have to be wrapped up in pretty packages – I’m a great artist, writer, philosopher, healer, teacher, prophet, lover, friend, athlete, leader, boss, actor, etc. etc. etc.  While my gifts may find much of their expression through my healing, teaching and writing, this may in fact not be were my greatest gifts lie.  Instead, we are invited to look at our gifts through a wider lens.  Have we ever taken the time to consider the possibility that our greatest gifts are not those that have come in a pretty package, but are those that we think are ugly and want to hide from others – our fears, our vulnerabilities, our hurts, our woundedness, our pain.  For me, it has been through my most painful experiences that I have been able to be a source of help and support for another.  In the search for purpose, we are invited to keep these things in mind.

The Bottom Line

The bottom line, as I discuss at length in Chapter 4 of Authentic Freedom – Claiming a Life of Contentment and Joy, is that each and every one of us is uniquely gifted and called to reveal the Divine in the world.  It is through our very being that God is expressing God’s self and seeks to do so through our own unique gifts, talents, personalities, weaknesses, vulnerabilities, fears, joys, sorrows, hopes and dreams.  When we simply allow ourselves to be an open vessel through which this Divine expression can be made known in the world, HERE is where we find fulfillment.  And at the end of the day….it is really ONLY about ONE thing. And that one thing is  LOVE (because at the end of the day, GOD IS LOVE).  When we allow ourselves to show up and be the LOVE that we are, then we know fulfillment, peace, contentment and joy.  And then it has nothing to do with the job or the vocation or the relationship, is simply has to do with allowing ourselves to show up as love and let God do the rest.

A Helping Mantra

So, here is a little mantra that has helped me to embrace the concepts shown above:

I am a vessel through which love is known in this space

Can we allow this to be true?

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries

Posted in Lessons, teachers

Wisdom from my Therapist about Resentment

A short blog on the virtues of resentment – as told to me by my therapist.

Yes, I see a therapist…..and I am not ashamed to admit it!  One of the greatest bits of wisdom handed down to us Lumby kids by our mother came in the form of the following mantra:

“Never be afraid to get professional help if you need it.”

In sharing this wisdom with us, my mother broke down all the societal walls that tell us we have to do it on our own or that there is some kind of shame in asking for help.  I have embraced this wisdom and have gathered a system of support for myself that has includes a professional therapist, a trained Spiritual Director and a variety of alternative medicine practitioners.  Through the help and support of these trained professionals, along with my biological family and my spiritual family here in Oshkosh, I have grown, found healing and transformation and been empowered to more and more freely live my most authentic truth.  So today, I give honor to my therapist who shared a crucial piece of information with me in our session this past Tuesday.

This piece of information has to do with RESENTMENT.  Resentment is a skill that I have MASTERED!  I learned this skill through the example of my maternal ancestors – Irish Catholics who have absolutely perfected the fine art of cultivating resentment and grudge-holding.  Even my aunt Nona who went to daily mass, prayed the rosary three times a day and said novena after novena for all the lowly Baker/McMahon progeny who were in need of Divine intervention bore grudges.  This was evidenced by her thoughts on the hand-shake of peace during the mass, “I’ll be damned if I’m going to shake so and so’s hand during church after what she said to me in 1924!” 

When I think of the role resentment has played in my own life, I see images of myself in Gollum fashion, stroking “my precious,” descending deeper and deeper into the obsessive pit of darkness, knowing the damage the resentment was doing to me….feeling guilt and shame about it, but feeling so addicted to the strange power I felt in cultivating resentment that I could not give it up.  Resentment had become my drug…..or so I thought.

I was sharing my struggle and thoughts about resentment with my therapist, feeling shame and guilt over the relationships I felt I had damaged through the cultivation of this compulsion.  Then my therapist turned the tables on me.  She asked me if I had ever given myself permission to see the gift in resentment?  WHAT?  GIFT?  I had always been taught and had actually taught myself that resentment is unhealthy, destructive, harmful, damning, etc. etc. etc.  RESENTMENT A GIFT?  I’m still trying to process this invitation, but here is how my therapist presented it to me:

“Resentment is a gift.  Resentment is a natural emotion that surfaces to alert us that OUR NEEDS ARE NOT BEING MET. How can you begin to use resentment as a red flag that is waving to alert you to danger – to your needs not being met, and in doing so, how can you respond to resentment in another way?” 

WHOA!  Resentment as a gift?  Resentment as an alarm?  Resentment as a source of support and help in our journey?  I have to give a lot more thought to this idea….but I can tell you that what this thought has done is help me to let go of some of my shame around my past use of resentment.  And after giving myself permission to do a hasty life-review around my  experiences with resentment, I have to say that my therapist is DEAD ON CORRECT!  Everytime resentment has shown up in my life, it is directly related to my needs being either completely ignored or discounted.  HHHMMM  Now what do to with this new information?  Time will tell!

What role has resentment played in your own life?

Can you see a connection between your needs not being met and the surfacing of resentment?

If resentment is a kind of alarm system within us, how can we choose to respond to it in a healthy and productive way?


Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries/Yourspiritualtruth

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Posted in Faith, Grace

Miracles, Signs and Manifestation

Yesterday I received an unexpected gift from a dear friend – a Girlie from artist, Kelly Rae Roberts did my friend realize the depth of meaning to this gift.  In today’s blog, I explore the truth of miracles, signs and the magic of manifestation.

As most of my readers are aware by now, I am currently going through a divorce.  While this process is mostly amicable, there is of course grief, fear, trepidation and whole lot of having to trust trust trust that the god’s that initiated this process know what the heck they are doing!!!  In the midst of this process, I have had to cling to this trust with every ounce of my being, looking for the signs of where to go and how to proceed, along with the little (and sometimes HUGE) miracles that show up along the way as a form of affirmation and validation that I am indeed on the right path.  Yesterday’s gift showed up as one of those miracles, a sign along the way and evidence that we are indeed vehicles through which the highest good is made real in the world.

As I mentioned in the prelude above, I received a gift yesterday from a dear friend in the form of a Girlie from artist Kelly Rae Roberts.  Now…..I have to tell you the story of why this gift is a miracle and a sign that I am indeed on the right path.  But first, I have to tell you my history with Kelly Rae Roberts.

As some of you know, one of the spiritual practices I have embraced is the art of collage.  When I feel really stuck spiritually, I find that collage helps me to get unstuck.  I have created several pieces and have shown them locally.  One day, my mom sent me a link to an artist that she had discovered who she thought I would like because of her seemless integration of whimsy and collage.  The artist was, Kelly Rae Roberts.  I immediately fell in love with her art and have been coveting her pieces ever since.  While Kelly’s art is extremely reasonably priced, I just never allowed myself the gift of one of her pieces.

But then came the process of divorce.   While this is a process long in its unfolding, the end result will eventually be that I will have my own home to play with and decorate – completely in my own taste (along with the taste of our children).  As I have been dreaming and imagining my new home, Kelly Rae Roberts’ art keeps showing up.  Unfortunately, her online shop has been closed as she awaits the birth of her child.  NOTE:  THE SHOP IS NOW OPEN!!!!! In the days since her shop has re-opened, I have been perusing her virtual shelves for the perfect pieces for my new home.  I knew I wanted to start with the Girlies, but wasn’t sure where I would display them.  Ok….so here is the fun part.  YESTERDAY morning during my yoga meditation, the exact Girlie presented herself and the place that she wanted to call home.  “Listen to your Life” showed herself and told me that she wanted to sit atop my upright piano that will be displayed front and center in the front room of my new home.

So….who should show up yesterday afternoon in the form of an unexpected gift???   YOU GOT IT!!!!  “LISTEN TO YOUR LIFE!”  As I shared my surprise, joy and wonder with my friend, all we could do was stand in awestruck wonder at the miracle that presented itself right before our eyes.  Now here is the real irony, my friend had NO IDEA that I loved Kelly’s art.  In fact, she and I had never discussed my artistic taste.  AND….she did not purchase this piece online….she found it in a giftshop some 60 miles away.  Ok…..all you statisticians out there… tell me the odds of this….Getting a Kelly Rae Roberts piece from a friend who had no idea that I liked Kelly’s work let alone that it was the “Listen to your Life” Girlie I had been coveting…and that she should present me with this gift on the afternoon of the very day that the piece showed up in my meditation and told me where she wanted to be displayed.  Come…I dare you!  I’m guessing this is like  a one in a zillion chance.  So….considering the odds…..I officially declare this an honest to God-ness MIRACLE!  MIRACLE MIRACLE MIRACLE!   I do believe in miracles, I do, I do!

So today, I give a heart-felt thanks to my friend who somehow acted as a vessel through which God could offer me validation and assurance of a rightly chosen path.  And I thank Kelly Rae Roberts for being not only a fantastic artist, but a source of inspiration for me as I embark upon the journey of embracing my own artistic life.  This is the other part of the miracle… I have been open to this period of transition, I have been longing to more deeply claim my creative self and embrace the life of a writer, author, artist and musician.  Receiving one of Kelly’s Girlies seems like a little nod of affirmation from the Divine and a nudge in that direction.  So, again I thank Kelly for being a source of inspiration and for being a resource for those of us to wish to more fully embrace ALL of our Divine gifts!

And one final thought…..and is this an example of how we, ourselves, can be vehicles through which God’s miracles can be made manifest in our own lives?  Did God send me the Girlie, or did I draw her to myself?????  The world may never know!

All images copyright Kelly Rae Roberts.

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries