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Holding the Tension 2

In today’s blog I share I poem I wrote in response to restlessness and desire. 

HOLDING THE TENSION

Pressing upon me from within – the feelings of things imminent.

GO!  DO!  DO SOMETHING!  DO ANYTHING!

When are they going to call?

When will I know?

Is he going to call?

Where is the plan?

Where is the direction?

I WANT TO KNOW!

Who am I?

Who am I supposed to be?

What will my life look like in twenty-thirteen?

Haunted by a teacher’s words:

“HOLD THE TENSION”

Do not act.

Do not initiate.

Stop pushing.

Stop leading.

Stop driving, forcing, cajoling, manipulating.

I try to sit in the silence and BREATHE

My insides quake…bursting from the PRESSURE.

Pacing the floor – a cat in heat.

Reaching.  Grasping.  Seeking.  Desiring.

Give me direction.

Give me purpose.

Something to hope for.

Something to hang on to.

Something to dream upon.

Something I can hold in my hand and claim as my own.

Prosperity.   Success.  Love.

And the prophet’s words:

“In your pursuit is the cause of lack.”

Humbled

Yet even this does not ease

THE PRESSURE BUILDING FROM WITHIN

copyright 2012  Lauri Lumby