This is the grand test. If you, like me and like all those to whom I minister, and my brothers and sisters on this journey) are here to support the birth of a new world…..things are getting INTENSE! If we thought it has been rough before…..hang on to your hats! This, as they say, is where the rubber meets the road. And it is entirely (in the worlds (words) of one of my mentors, Lauren C. Gorgo), “an inside job.”
It goes something like this:
- Shit happens.
- We find ourselves triggered (fear, anxiety, anger, rage, self-righteousness, grief, overwhelm, helplessness) by the shit.
- Then we DO something about the shit.
BUT….it is not about going “out there” to change things. Oh no! It is about going WITHIN to identify the unhealed wound in ourselves that is being triggered by the shit “out there.” Then it is about doing the work we have practiced soooooo long to heal and transform that wound. Meditation. Prayer. Chanting. Reiki. Shamanic healing practices. Movement. Journaling. Etc. etc. etc. Now it is time to get out all of our tools and USE THEM to heal ourselves.
Then as soon as we heal one wound, another shows up to take its place. This current cycle of transformation is RELENTLESS. It keeps coming and when we think we can breathe a sigh of relief, it comes again. This is the real shit!
The energy is relentless because time is of the essence. We are quickly approaching the death of the old world paradigm and the new world is getting ready to take its place.
But it sure doesn’t feel like the promise of new life right now. It feels like death….because that is exactly what it is. The death of the patriarchy and of all of humanity’s wounds related to patriarchal fear, power and control. We are transforming these wounds within ourselves – not only for ourselves, but for the sake of the whole entire world. It is like Christian theologians say about Jesus – “he took on the sins of the world and died for the sake of those sins.” Personally, I no longer belief that Jesus died for our sins as some sort of sacrifice, but when put in the context of transformation, I can see how this is true. In moving through his own pain and fear of separation and transforming that in the resurrection, he did the same for all of humanity.
This is what we too are called to do. Again, not as a sacrifice….but in saving ourselves, we are supporting the salvation of our world. When we heal ourselves of our patriarchal wounds, we are supporting others in the same healing. Soon, the patriarchy will no longer have the power to trigger our fears and our fears have been healed.
BUT….knowing all this does not make this RELENTLESS Intensity any better. It is excruciating. Jesus Christ, it is hard. And yet, the only way out is through.
This is the grand test. It is the Universe (our Soul) asking us again, “Are you sure you’re up for this? Wouldn’t you rather just fold and go back to the life of blissful ignorance you enjoyed before waking up to your Divine gifts and calling?” On many days, I can assure you I want to say yes to blissful ignorance. But as soon as I think that’s the choice I’m going to make, my SOUL steps in on my behalf and pulls me back onto the path. It seems, we don’t really get to say no. Like it or not, we are here for a reason. We signed up for this. We don’t get to quit. (dammit!)
So brothers and sisters – put on your big girl/boy panties. Tighten your boot straps and get to work. Stay true to your path and do not let the “devil” take you from your path. We are in this together and if you forget this truth….reach out to those you know who LOVE YOU, who value your gifts, who appreciate your vulnerability and who will hold you in your fear, anguish and pain until you are ready to once again hold yourself. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Money is one of the grand tools used by the Patriarchy to manipulate and control us through fear. Heal your money wounds and be free of this conditioning: