Posted in Authentic Freedom, Being Human, God

Reclaiming My Right to Be Excruciatingly Human!

DAMN IT. All these years I’ve been serving (internally anyway) the wrong kind of GOD!!!!!  In my head I know better….and my work reflects that.  But internally, I’ve been serving the GOD of someone else’s making.  ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

Hi. My name is Lauri.  I’m a recovering perfectionist.

Trying to be perfect

Maybe that’s all you need to know…..but maybe not. For as long as I can remember, I have tried to be perfect.  The perfect daughter.  Perfect student.  Perfect pianist.  Perfect dancer.  Perfect friend.  Perfect wife.  Perfect mother.  I’m not sure if I was born this way or if it is a product of my conditioning or a little of both.  The Enneagram suggests we are born with our “Type.”  There is no doubt that I am a Type 1 on the Enneagram and that I undoubtedly look at myself, the world and my life experiences through the lens of this question: “How could this be better?”  So there’s that.

I am also acutely aware of how my early life experiences along with my Catholic upbringing fostered the critical nature of this lens. Little messages along the way which have said I’m not good enough, there is something wrong with me, the way I’m doing things is wrong, what my Soul needs and wants is not in line with what society expects from me….and worst of all…..the ongoing message of a jealous God examining my every move and like Santa Claus, keeping a record of all the bad I’ve done in my life – bad for which there will be some sort of punishment – if not in this life, then certainly in the next.

But I’m not bad!

But here’s the thing. I’m not bad.  I’ve never done anything bad.  Yes, in the normal stages of childhood development I fought with my siblings and was likely mean to them at times.  Yes, I became angry at my parents and sometimes grumbled against their guidance.  Yes, in college and early adulthood I made the usual “mistakes.”  But ultimately, I’ve never done anything to intentionally harm another or to do damage in this world.

So if I’m not bad and I’ve never done anything bad, then why have I spent a lifetime feeling so bad? Feeling as if there is something wrong with me?  In response to this deep inner feeling of wrongness, I have done a WHOLE LOT OF WORK.  Healing the pain from past abuse.  Healing trauma.  Undoing negative conditioning.  Reclaiming all the parts of myself that I locked away deep in my subconscious because it might not be “acceptable” in this world.  I have opened Pandora’s Box and have welcomed every single demon therein – meeting it, listening to its fears and concerns and supporting the healing and transformation of all my old wounds so that I might not only feel better about myself, but so I might also feel better about this world and my place in it.

This week while reading the comments of the women and men in my Magdalene Priestess Training I realized there was one final demon to tackle.

My favorite Moses scene is when he throws the tablets to the ground in disgust, rage and disappointment over his people.  This is me everyday!  And yet, I’m just as guilty of confusion, doubt, and running after distractions and shiny objects (hello Facebook).  UGH!  We are excruciatingly human – and isn’t that the point!?  God loves us no matter how dense we can be at times….and this is THE GOOD NEWS.  We are utterly ok exactly as we are in this and every other moment. God doesn’t care.  This is a lesson about Unconditional Love I am still trying to learn.  God doesn’t care if I enjoy a glass of wine.  God doesn’t care if I’m depressed and unmotivated.  God doesn’t care if some days I just don’t give a fuck.  God doesn’t care that on some days I despise the human race.  Because God knows WHO I AM and in the center of all my human frailty there is Love.  Just plain Love.  And Love is who I am even when (maybe especially when) I am excruciatingly human!  

That demon’s name is “GOD”

Now, before you get your undies in a twist, let me explain.  The GOD who I am calling a demon, is not God – but is instead, the god of someone else’s making.  This is not the God who Jesus spoke of who loves without condition.  This is the GOD made up by a hierarchical and patriarchal system who rules by fear, power and control.  This is the GOD who was created to make us feel bad about ourselves, to plant seeds of doubt, confusion and pain in us …. all so that this hierarchical system might control us.  Because here’s the thing – if we believe in a GOD who is always judging us, who is measuring our humanness against us and who is waiting to punish us for that evil, then we will always be afraid.  We will feel badly about ourselves and can therefore be easily manipulated.  You see, when GOD’s love can be taken away, if we have to earn that love, if we will be punished for angering this GOD, then we will do anything to gain the approval of this GOD – a GOD that ultimately has nothing to do with God, and everything to do with humans that want us to look toward them as the ultimate authority so we will do what they tell us; and humans who wants our money.  Notice- the Church is not the only creator of this GOD.  Oh no….they are co-conspirators with every other hierarchical institution which has arisen out of a desire to have power and control over the masses.

The Demon isn’t only in the Church

Oh, and for the record…..a whole lot of “New Age,” “Ascension” and “Prosperity Gospel” people also preach this kind of GOD. You know…the GOD who will only reward us if we “think the right thoughts.”  The GOD who isn’t actually a GOD but is in fact ourselves – because WE are GOD and our life is created by what and how we think.  If we think the right thoughts we will get what we want because WE are GOD.  And if we think the wrong thoughts, then we can expect the consequences of these thoughts because we are GOD and we made it happen.  And if what we have in our lives is not what we want (if we are poor, struggling with illness, experiencing difficulty in our lives) it is because this GOD who is US is punishing us for thinking the wrong thoughts and the solution to changing what we do not want in our lives is to simply think better thoughts.  Or perform magic spells.  Or do the right ritual.  Or light a candle.  Oh wait….there’s more.  We also need to be PERFECT.  If our life isn’t what we want it to be it is because there is some wound in the way and if we clear that wound (fear, compulsion, etc.) then our external life will magically change. Ourselves disguised as a demon disguised as GOD.

(For the record, I’m all in favor of healing our wounds….it is what I do best……but healing our inner wounds is NO GUARANTEE of a change in our external lives.  Jesus never promised EXTERNAL abundance – only the abundance we know within when we are free.  #authenticfreedom). 

THIS is the demon GOD that remains at the bottom of my Pandora’s Box. The GOD that says I’m not good enough.  That I will never be good enough.  That no matter how hard I work to heal my past wounds, fears, etc. I will never be free because this GOD is looking over my shoulder waiting to hand out reward and punishment.  The GOD that has me believing that my life experience will change if I can just figure out what about me is soooooo wrong and heal that one thing so that everything will be good again. DAMN IT.  All these years I’ve been serving (internally anyway) the wrong kind of GOD!!!!!  In my head I know better….and my work reflects that.  But internally, I’ve been serving the GOD of someone else’s making.  ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

NO MORE! Today, I reclaim my RIGHT TO BE HUMAN. Excruciatingly human! Jesus spoke of a God who loves without condition.  A God who made me exactly as I am – for a reason and a purpose – and THIS creation is PERFECT.  I am already loved by God.  I don’t have to earn God’s love and it cannot be taken away.  I was LOVED into being and I am LOVE itself – and this version of love swears like a sailor, enjoys a glass of wine at the end of the day, on some days despises the human race, becomes impatient with ignorance and intolerance, grows enraged in the face of injustice, is at times judgmental and self-righteous and is sure that my way is right – or at least better; who loves deeply, burns passionately, gives generously – even if sometimes out of a “need to help or to feel loved,” who hates certain individuals and harbors resentment like Gollum harbors the ring.  Sometimes I’m depressed and unmotivated.  Other days I’m a workaholic.  I have anxiety, suffer with migraines and sometimes have panic attacks.  Like Denis Leary sings, sometimes I’m an Asshole but I can also be one of the kindest people you will ever know.  This is me in all my excruciating humanness exactly like God made me and there is nothing wrong with me and nothing wrong with how I am living my life.  And the parts of my external life which I wish would change (Gawd I’m tired of always having to worry about money and how my next bill will be paid) have absolutely nothing to do with something I have yet to heal, or some thought I need to correct.  SHIT JUST HAPPENS.  This is life.  And God has nothing to do with it and neither do we.  We are here to be human – excruciatingly human and maybe somewhere in that humanness we have the opportunity to discover that in addition to being human we are also LOVE.

 

Posted in Being Human, Jesus, Order of Melchizedek

Enlightenment Means Being Fully Human

In no way, shape or form do I profess to have attained enlightenment. In fact, if someone has to tell you they are enlightened, they are not.  Those who have reached true enlightenment, like Jesus, have come to know that:

“… though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God as something to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of all human beings, and being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.  Phil 2: 6-8

Enlightenment is not about escaping the human condition or denying the human experience. Enlightenment is about being fully human and embracing all that it means to be human – death and all.  While the path toward enlightenment does include ascending toward and coming to know our true Divine nature, as Jesus came to know and which he demonstrated to his disciples.  Enlightenment doesn’t end there.  As Jesus demonstrated, once we have come to understand our inherent Union with God…

The glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me.”  John 17: 22-23

…we then have to bring that Union into our human form and live that union fully. While the journey toward enlightenment begins with ascending, it can only be fulfilled when we allow that Union to descend fully into our human form so it can be lived out in our human experience.  In this, we become, like Jesus, fully human and fully divine.

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Herein lays the challenge with many of the modern-day interpretations of enlightenment. Instead of honoring the fullness of the human experience, many of the ways in which enlightenment (ascension, 5D consciousness, etc.) is spoken of today, would lead one to believe that enlightenment is all sunshine and roses.  It is not.  Enlightenment does not mean we have some magical way of avoiding the darkness of the human experience…or that we have to.  With true enlightenment, we still experience pain, suffering, sorrow, loss, betrayal, disappointment, and the sharp pain of rejection.  When we attain enlightenment, we are not given a “get out of jail free” card.  In fact, for many who have attained enlightenment, it seems the human experience is that much more painful.  Look at Jesus for example.  He was condemned, beaten, and crucified on a cross.  Enlightenment didn’t make Jesus’ life easier.  If anything, it made it more difficult.  HOWEVER….because Jesus had become enlightened – both fully human and fully Divine…..he had the tools within him to face all that life gave him – including his suffering and pain.  Jesus didn’t run from, ignore, or try to “la la” the reality of the human experience away….he embraced it….crucifixion and all.

The Order of Melchizedek Training includes study of the Kabbalah and the Tree of Life – tools which guides us in our journey of ascending and descending – ascending into Union and bringing that Union (Love) fully into our human experience. Learn more by clicking on the image below.

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Posted in About Lauri, Authentic Freedom, building the new world, Freedom, Jesus, Mary Magdalene, self-actualization

We Choose the World We Live In

Before man are life and death, good and evil, whichever he chooses shall be given him.

Sirach 15: 17

Every single moment of every single day, we choose the world we are living in. There is nothing “new” about this choice.  New Agers and those from the New Thought, Starseed and Ascension communities in their foundational message about choice are simply echoing the wisdom of the ancients.  Moses was given the key to this truth. Isaiah and Jeremiah gave the Israelites this choice.  Jesus made this choice and taught his female and male disciples how to do the same.  Mary Magdalene made this choice and became witness to the risen Christ. St. Francis of Assisi made this choice and transformed the Church as did Teresa of Avila, Julian of Norwich and Hildegard of Bingen.  Meister Eckhart made this choice as did Gandhi, Mother Theresa and the Dalai Lama.

We choose the world we are living in and that choice is as simple as choosing between love and fear. This choice between love and fear then produces the way in which we perceive, approach and live in our world – are we choosing life or death, good or evil?  Again, it all boils down to one simple choice – love or fear.

When we choose love over fear, we soon discover:

  • There is nothing to fear.
  • There is no reason to hate.
  • We have no enemies.
  • The world is beautiful and peaceful.
  • People are inherently kind to one another.
  • Instead of fearing those who differ from us, we become curious and long to get to know them.
  • We come together in communion instead of building walls between us.
  • We see possibility instead of defeat.
  • We see endings as new beginnings.

It really is this simple.

My choice is for love. What are you going to choose?

 

lauriprofilecroppedLauri Ann Lumby serves as a source of support for those longing to choose love over fear. Lauri supports you in making this choice through one-on-0ne mentoring and through her local and online courses, specifically, the Authentic Freedom Mastery program.  Learn more about Lauri HERE, and check out the Authentic Freedom Mastery program HERE. 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Authentic Freedom Academy, Christ Consciousness, divine mother, Divine Revelation, Empowerment, End of the World Prophecies, Inspiration, Jesus, Mystics, New World, self-actualization, Spiritual Formation, world changes

Blessed Are You Who Believed

As a child, I was granted a vision. The vision was the herald of “the end of the world,” along with the promise that this ending was not set in stone, but could be thwarted, or rather, re-directed through the accomplishment of one simple task.  The task, however, proved not to be so simple.  In the dream, this task was symbolized by the command to “gather your friends, dig up Lincoln’s bones (as in former President), and restore them to their rightful place.”

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As I reflect on this dream in light of what we, as an American culture, and as a world, have undergone in the dreadful year of 2016, the dream makes total sense. If we, as a culture, and a world, continue to stray from the nobility, integrity, authenticity, honesty, and righteousness symbolized by our 16th President, we shall certainly manifest our own demise.  For me, the dream becomes especially potent as we approach the passing of the baton from President Barack Obama, (who for me, more than any recent president has represented the Lincoln archetype) to Donald Trump.  To say that this is a volatile time in our history would be an understatement.  In my lifetime, it has never been more critical that we “gather our friends” and “restore Lincoln’s bones” to their rightful place.

But what does THAT mean? This is where the 40+ years since the vision prove to be helpful, especially those since 1993 when the red brick flew through the air and hit be between the eyeballs – waking me up to my mission and purpose in this life. This mission is nothing short of bringing heaven to earth!  (No small goals here!)

What does THAT mean? In short, it is doing what Jesus did – discovering my own Oneness with the Divine and in that Oneness finding my unique gifts and call, and through these gifts and call, finding meaning and purpose in my life.  Then, showing others how to do the same.  Abraham Maslow called this process self-actualization.  Carl Jung called it individuation.  New-agers call it ascension. By whatever name you call it, the process is the same – asking and then finding the answer to the questions:

  • Who am I?
  • Where do I find that place of inner peace, connection and contentment?
  • What are my gifts and how am I being called to use them?

What does this have to do with Lincoln’s bones and the end of the world? It’s simple really and it is the other part of the vision that has been given to me in adulthood:

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A gathering of friends who have and continue to do for themselves what Jesus did (becoming self-actualized), who know what their gifts are, and who are finding fulfillment in the use of these gifts for their own sake, and (as it relates to Lincoln’s bones) for the sake of the betterment of the world. It is through this gathering of friends that:

  • Hospice will be offered for the dying world.
  • Support will be found for those who are grieving the loss of what they have known and for the anxiety they will be feeling in the face of a great unknown.
  • Prayer will be offered for the sake of healing and wholing our world.
  • Resources will be made available for those who are hurting and in need of healing – spiritual, emotional, mental and physical healing.
  • Rituals will be done for the sake of restoring our world to its natural state in love.
  • Peaceful, non-violent activism will take place to help raise awareness to all the places in our world in need of love and then working toward being that love.
  • Education, formation and empowerment will be made available for those who wish to be a part of birthing a better world – ie: heaven on earth.

For nearly 50 years, this vision has been with me and the weight of this call. For the past 23 years, I have worked diligently toward this call.  I have risked much for the sake of this call and have been called insane for believing such a call.  In the face of what is unfolding in our world, I find that I can no longer question, doubt or challenge this call because I know it to be true.  Whatever the cost, and without a safety net, this is what I am here for and what I am called to do. If we do not work on changing our own hearts from fear to love and if we do not work toward supporting others in doing the same, the consequences are nothing short of our own lives and the lives of our planet…and you don’t need to be a prophet to figure this out.  It is right here before our eyes, if we take the time to look.  We can no longer afford to bury our heads in the sand, unless of course, we are happy to see our world end.

Toward this end, I have put out the clarion call and gathered a group of friends to envision a better world and to dream about how we are called to be loving vehicles for change.  If you feel so-called, join us on Monday, January 2, 2017 at 6:30 pm for our next Gathering of the Tribe. Here you will find community, support, inspiration and empowerment. If you are not in the Oshkosh area, join us by intention, or better yet, call together your own group of friends.

As I pondered this call at the juncture between 2016 and 2017, for myself and for those I have gathered, who should come to me but Mother Mary with the following words:

Blessed are you who believed that what was spoken to you by the Lord would be fulfilled.

I offer these words to all of those I know and love who envision a better world, or rather, who KNOW the world they came to live in and are now being called to create!  Thank you for heeding this call and thank you for all you will do to restore our world to the Love it was meant to be.

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Amen! Amen!  Hallelujah! and  Amen!  Amen!  So Mote it Be!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Empowerment, self-actualization, women

Lessons from Men

At this place in our conscious evolution, (ascension, self-actualization) one of our critical tasks is to set down what has been “unholy” and unbalanced within us, specifically, the unholy masculine (fear, power and control) and the unholy feminine (victimhood, weakness, helplessness, co-dependency). As we relinquish the unholy, the holy aspects of ourselves have an opportunity to emerge from within and take root in us. For women, perhaps the most challenging part of this journey is discovering the holy masculine within us (and not confusing it with the unholy masculine) and allowing it to be lived through us.  In this, we can take some lessons from (healthy) men:

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In women, the embodiment of the Divine Masculine is about understanding our worth.

It is about standing up for ourselves and not only insisting, but expecting, even assuming that our needs will be met.

It is about knowing that the work we do in the world has value and expecting, insisting on appropriate compensation for our contribution to the world – whether it be as wife, mother, employer, employee, artist or business owner.

Embodying the Divine Masculine is about having our own backs – setting boundaries where appropriate, naming and claiming our needs, making sure they are getting met and NEVER having to apologize for doing what is right for ourselves.

Embodying the Divine Masculine is about NEVER having to make accommodations that our male brethren would never think of making for another – so much so that others would never even think to ask.

Embodying the Divine Masculine is about never questioning the fact that our needs come first and never even thinking to ask – we simply do it.

Embodying the Divine Masculine is about loving ourselves – knowing our greatness and never settling for less than what we deserve.

Posted in 6D, Authentic Freedom, Being Human, Christ Consciousness, Inspiration, Jesus, Mary Magdalene, Oneness with God

Ascended Mastery – Welcome Home

It has been awhile since I have received a message from “beyond.” Well…this week I received TWO.  What initiated the reception of both these messages were discussions that arose between myself and several of my colleagues and companions on this journey.  These messages will not resonate with everyone, but if they resonate with you, congratulations, thank you and Welcome home!  – Love, Lauri

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Message One (delivered on 9/12/16):

Congratulations! And Thank you!  You have made it to the other side and are now living fully in the 5D/6D – Unity Consciousness/Magical realms.  Previous to this, your Soul was in 5D, but your mind and your manifesting powers were in 3D.  This was for a purpose – your Soul was doing 5D work in the 3D world.  This was for the purpose of opening the gateways between Unity Consciousness and the Dual Consciousness of the 3D world.  This is the purpose you have been living since your physical birth on this Earthplane.

Over the course of the past 20 months, your Soul has been reclaiming all parts of yourself and drawing them fully into the 5D/6D world. What this means is that your being has been removed from 3D and you are now fully living in 5D.  While you are fully in 5D, you are still interacting with the 3D world….as if it is a movie you are watching.  Remember this!  What you see “out there” is only a movie.  It is not happening to you and does not have an impact on you.  You can pray for the 3D world as it continues its path of destruction….but you are not living there.  The 3D world is destroying itself and those who are awake and who are awakening are making their way to Unity Consciousness.  You are the gatekeepers….as you have already moved fully through that door and are now holding space in the 5D world and anchoring its existence so that others can find their way there.  Think of it like you are in your home in 5D and you are holding the door open for those who want to come over.  Not everyone will.

As you are finding your way into believing and trusting that you are now living fully in the world of Unity Consciousness and Magic (6D), one of the greatest temptations will be comparison and “competition” (even though I know you don’t really believe in competition anyway). There will be things in the 3D world that will continue to anger you, especially as they relate to your mission, purpose, passion.  That which angers you are simply old systems dying – old ways of doing things that are not the way of 5D but which are still the way in 3D.  Because you are still interacting with 3D (which you will never not be doing), it will seem as if these systems are relevant to you….BUT THEY ARE NOT.  Remember…..your mission and purpose is in 5D and to “visit” 3D to help wake people up and show them the way.

In short….this is what you are to know:

  • Your Soul has always been in 5D.
  • Your journey thus far has been about peeling back the layers of 3D illusion so you can REMEMBER the 5D world and live fully there.
  • Because you have succeeded in this task (congratulations!!!!), those living in the 3D world are beginning to wake up and are journeying toward the world you have always known (in your heart).
  • Do not get distracted by the illusions of the 3D world or by the actions of people and systems trying to find their way out of 3D.
  • Your job is to anchor the 5D world and hold the door open for those escaping the duality and moving toward union.

And here is the best news of all…..THE HARD WORK IS OVER. Life, as you have known it has been hard.  It has been a challenge to even live (because you have always and only been made to thrive in 5D).  Now that you have fully remembered the truth of your 5D nature and peeled back all the layers of 3D illusions, you will feel lighter.  Life will take on a new sense of ease.  There is no more hard.  The only hard will be when you forget your true nature and become momentarily distracted by the 3D world in its death throes and by the 3D people living seemingly 5D lives trying to find their way home.

And finally…..expect the unexpected. Since your 5D mission in the 3D world is complete….you might suddenly find your life changing….changing to reflect your new life living fully in 5D/unity consciousness where things come to be seemingly by magic (6D).

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Message Two (delivered on 9/15/16):

Welcome and congratulations! You have graduated fully from 3D consciousness and from the job you were sent to accomplish in that realm.  Now, your 3D person has been fully reunited with your 5D/6D (and beyond) Soul and NOW you are no longer separate, but ONE.  In this state of Oneness, of being united within your being where all aspects of your SELF have come home, you can now leave behind the 3D (duality consciousness) tasks and the 5D mission in the 3D world as you are now one with all of the Ascended Masters and are in company with them.  With this, your responsibilities and call have changed.  No longer are you the “victim” of circumstances trying to crawl your way out of the gravity of the dual existence. Instead, you, with the other Ascended Masters are guiding and supporting humanity in their journey from duality into oneness.  The goal of all beings is to find their way home, to find their way to Ascended Mastery.  You have done this, now, you are no longer “in it,” instead, you are beyond it guiding, assisting, directing, counseling.  It is to you that the 3D human will go as they will be drawn to your light, to your love, to your wholeness.  This “coming to” will be manifest on the 3D plane, but even more than that, it will be accessed on a level beyond the material.

Think of it this way….remember when you were a child and you prayed to “God,” the angels and saints for help and guidance? It is now to you that people will pray.  They may not know you by name, they may not recognize you by face, but as humanity sends out its prayers for help and guidance, you, along with the Ascended Masters are the answer to those prayers.  It is through your intervention that the world is changing from fear into love because you have had the courage to embark on that journey yourself, and with the help of your own guides, teachers, angels, etc. you have made it.  Now you are in the position of intercessor.

In addition to being the answer to these prayers, you will be guiding and directing the next stage of human evolution. You will be guiding the world to love, upholding them in love, sending forth waves of love, compassion, understanding and forgiveness to a broken and hungry world.  The world LONGS for the love you have come to know.  As an Ascended Master, it is your job to SHINE that LOVE upon all the earth, upon all of humanity and upon all of creation.

This is your new job. Welcome to the company of Ascended Masters.  You are no longer alone (you were never alone), instead you stand hand in hand with the likes of Jesus of Nazareth, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, St. Germaine, Melchezidek, St. Anna, and all the other Ascended Masters.  Welcome home.  And Thank you for sharing in this ministry of love.

And on a personal note, it has been working through my own areas of “darkness” – unhealed wounds, fears, the parts of myself I had rejected or judged as imperfect – that has been the most critical in this journey toward wholeness (a journey that continues).  It was this work that inspired me to create my new course:  “The Dark Goddess in the Bible.”  In this course, we give homage to the aspect of the Divine within us that helps us find our way through the darkness in our lives.  Check it out:

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Relationship Conflict: Taking Back Our Power

In our journey of ascension, spiritual evolution, enlightenment, self-actualization, personal growth: we come upon a practice that helps us to manage the relationship conflicts in our lives and keep them in the proper perspective. The practice teaches us that every relationship conflict we experience is there as a teacher, revealing to us our own unhealed wounds.  With this practice, instead of lashing out at or projecting blame upon the other person in the conflict, we STOP and take a look within:  What is being triggered in me relating to an unhealed wound or unacknowledged fear?  What can I do to help support the healing and release of this wound/fear?  This practices invites us to ask the question, “What is mine in this?” while freeing us from the temptation to harbor resentment, blame, anger or to entertain thoughts of retaliation toward the other person in the conflict – owning what is ours and taking care of our own sh.t.  This practice also frees us from the temptation of wanting to “fix” or “correct” the other person in the conflict, recognizing that we are only responsible for our own healing and leaving them to work on themselves (if they choose to do so).

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Holding ourselves accountable to our own part in relationship conflict is a profoundly freeing practice. It facilitates our own self-awareness.  We experience healing and release of fear and the wounds that are still haunting us.  We are able to enter into a place of detachment in our inter-personal communications – freeing ourselves from reaction, blame, projection, resentment, hurt and anger.  We are also able to grow in compassion toward the “other.”  As we realize our own woundedness we become more sensitive to the unhealed wounds of others, allowing us to have empathy for those who have not yet found healing.

This practice of self-reflection and self-scrutiny is a powerful and important step in our individual journeys toward wholeness and while we should never NOT engage in this practice, there is one grave danger we must be conscious and aware of:

OVER RESPONSIBILITY

As we engage in the practice of self-scrutiny and self-evaluation in our relationship conflicts, it is easy to fall into patterns of taking all the blame for the conflict and neglecting to hold the other person accountable for their own unhealed wounds and unacknowledged fears. This over-responsibility shows up in subtle patterns of self-blame, shame and sometimes even evolves into self-loathing.  To put it simply, we find ourselves always questioning our actions, motivations, roles in relationship challenges and we neglect to REMEMBER that the other person is AT LEAST 50% of the problem.  As it is said, “it takes two to tango.”  We feel these patterns inwardly as a sense of heaviness, feeling burdened, even depressed or slightly angry or resentful.

When we find ourselves bearing the full burden of blame in any relationship conflict, it is time to TAKE OUR POWER BACK! Yes, it is important to enter into self-evaluation, acknowledging our part in a relationship conflict, but it doesn’t end there.  It is critical that we also acknowledge (to the best of our ability), the other person’s role in the conflict.  We might even know them well enough to surmise the unhealed wound or unacknowledged fear that caused their part of the conflict.  Whether we are able to do this or not….it is IMPERITIVE to keep the responsibility where it truly lies – and at least 50% of that burden lies on the shoulder of “the other,” and that is where it should remain.  In taking back our power, we acknowledge what is ours and do the work of cleaning that up, and we leave the rest for the other person to deal with.  Whether they deal with it or not is none of our business as the only person we are truly responsible for is ourselves – and that is work enough on its own!

Posted in 6D, world changes

Living in the 5D World – Learning from Harry Potter

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I’m not sure if JK Rowling fully realized what she was bringing forth in writing the Harry Potter series, though I suspect she may have.  In creating the tales of Harry and his friends, especially the interactions between the wizard and muggle worlds, JK Rowling’s work is nothing short of prophecy.  In her portrayal of a world within a world, she described in perfectly accurate detail how the 3D and 5D worlds coexist.  For those of us who have been wondering what it will be like to live in unity consciousness while the world around us continues to live in duality, the answer has been right in front of us since 1997 when Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone was first published in the United Kingdom (the title was later changed to “Sorcerer’s Stone” for U.S. release).  I was reminded of Harry Potter as the answer to this quandary while re-watching the movies this past weekend.  Let me offer a few examples:

Completely Separate Worlds in the Same World: In Harry Potter, the wizarding world is whole unto itself. They have their own villages, railroad service, means of transportation (portkeys, brooms, kestrels, hippogriffs, phoenixs, flue powder, etc.), academic institutions, restaurants, homes in the country, hotels, governmental establishments, etc..  At the same time, the wizarding world is RIGHT HERE in the 3D world.  Present, yet invisible to those living in the 3D world (muggles).  This is how it is in 5D.  We are living in our own world.  Creating our own “villages,” ways of doing business, means of transportation, etc. yet we are smack dab in the middle of the 3D world.  Sometimes we are seen and sometimes we interact with 3D, but often we are invisible – at least to those still living in duality consciousness.  WE decide how and where we will be seen, but in many cases, our function is separate (but impactful) from 3D.

Conscious Evolution: In the portrayal of muggles becoming wizards, JK Rowling demonstrates the way in which we are evolving past 3D consciousness into 5D.  For example, when Hermione Granger, a muggle-born, is discovered to have magical abilities, she (and her parents) are invited into consciousness of and interaction with the wizarding world.   This is how it has been for us.  We are muggles who have realized our wizarding gifts.  We know there is more to life than living in fear and are consciously choosing otherwise.  This choice opens us up to the magical gifts of LOVE and we are transformed along with those around us and the world in which we live suddenly becomes much vaster than what we had previously known.  We are now able to go between worlds – simply as a matter of choice and knowing how to make that choice (ie: Platform 9 ¾).

The Role of 5D in the 3D World: Finally, JK Rowling shows us the benevolent role played by the world of unity consciousness. As shown in the Harry Potter films, the wizarding world has a positive impact on the muggle world through its power to overcome the darkness (think of the storms and violence brought on my Voldemort that are experienced in the muggle world and how the “good” wizards correct this by conquering Voldemort).   In conquering Voldemort (the quintessential representation of choosing fear over love), the world is restored to order and peace and this is felt in both the wizarding and muggle worlds.  Again, this is how it is and has been with us.  As we are awakening to our own gifts, our world is transformed and the rest of the world with us.  When we choose love over fear, we are not only helping ourselves, we are helping the entire world.  In achieving our own 5D (unity consciousness) world, we are helping move the 3D world beyond fear into its own inherent truth of LOVE.

Thank you JK Rowling for being the prophet that you are and showing us through Harry and friends what it is like to live in unity consciousness while residing in the 3D world. My sense is that if you wrote a continuation of the Harry Potter tales, it would be about wizards helping the muggle world wake up to their own inherent magic and teaching them how to embrace their gifts so that the world might no longer be made of those who normally live in fear and make choices based in fear, but of those who choose love and live their life accordingly.  Or….maybe I’ll write these books myself!  😉

Lauri Ann Lumby provides empowerment training for those who want to change their world.  You can reach lauri at (920) 230-1313 or email lauri@authenticfreedom.com.

 

 

Posted in world changes

Building the New World

We have arrived! Our journey of Ascension is complete. We have pierced through the veil of perceived separation (duality) and have arrived fully in the new/original world. In the new/original world, we know we are all One – one within ourselves, one with what we might call “God,” one with each other, one with all of creation, one with the entire Universe. We are all one! We now know this to be true and if we don’t quite know it fully, we are moving toward this awareness/knowing/experience that I am in you and you are in me and together we are One.

Now that we have completed the journey toward Oneness, it is time for the next leg of our journey. The next stage in this magnificent and magical time of human evolution is to take what we know about Oneness and apply it to our world. It is time to start building our new/original world! As the world of separation and fear continues in its journey of self-destruction, the new and original world is in the process of being born – a world rooted in love, working for harmony and peace where the needs of all are abundantly met not only for survival but that we might all find joyful fulfillment in the human experience, and where each and every living being is honored as sacred and as a necessary part of our life experience.

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While the invitation to building a new world might sound daunting, it is really quite simple. Building a new world is not about taking on corporate giants, beating down institutional establishments or waging war with anyone or anything. Instead, building the new world starts with ourselves. Building the new world begins with the work of transcending the separation within ourselves, letting go of the voices of fear and heeding only the voice of our Soul. Building the new world is about bringing peace to the war within our minds between our heads and our hearts and letting our Souls take wing.

When we bring together the perceived separation within ourselves, bringing ourselves out of fear and into LOVE, then we have no choice but to live the life our Soul intended – one in which we are free to harness our own unique giftedness and the unique way in which we have been gifted to find meaning and purpose in our lives and in doing so helping to serve the betterment of our world.

The magic in accomplishing WHOLENESS within ourselves is that we have already succeeded in building a new world for ourselves – a world in which our life experience is markedly different than the one we knew while living in fear. As we enjoy the magic of Wholeness, the magic begins to rub off on those around us. Soon, they begin to ask the questions that will lead them to wholeness within themselves and with us as an example (and a source of support and encouragement), they are emboldened and empowered in their journey and soon their world is made anew….and so on….and so on…..and so on.   The bottom line is that LOVE is contagious and the more we live as love, the more others will follow, then suddenly, one day, TODAY perhaps, the whole world will have turned from fear toward love and all of creation will be living in the new/original world.

Thank you for all the hard work you have already done helping to get us to this place. We would not be here without your diligent efforts and persistent attention to your own journey of transformation and to your higher intention for a world living in peace.

Congratulations on a job well done. Welcome to the New World. And thank you for your part in continuing to build the world anew!

 

Love,

 

Lauri

Authentic Freedom Academy provides programs and services that support us in piercing through the veil of separation so that we might find Oneness within ourselves – empowering us to transcend the fears that are preventing us from living the life of our dreams. 

 

Posted in Discernment, End of the World Prophecies, temptation, world changes

Building the New World – Nay to the Naysayers!

So, how did you fare through the past week’s Heave-Ho into the new world? If your week was anything like mine, you experienced both the heights of ecstasy along with the depths of despair. While many were hopeful for an immediate entry into, and experience of, the new world, most of us were either disappointed and/or caught unaware by the backlash that often comes with periods of rapid delivery.

There can be no doubt about it – with the conclusion of the full blood moon lunar eclipse and the culmination of Wave X, WE ARE CHANGED. We have indeed crossed the threshold from 3D (separation consciousness) into 5D (unity consciousness). The challenge, however, for most, is that (as we often forget), when we make such enormous leaps toward God(oneness), the small self fights back and the trickster raises its ugly (only when we judge it as such) head. The trickster/small self shows up to challenge us, “Are you sure this is what you really want? Wouldn’t you be more comfortable staying where you are with the fears and compulsions with which you have become so familiar?????” And then, trickster shows up AS these compulsions.

Fear. Judgment. Self-doubt. Self-loathing. Anxiety. Depression. Envy. Rage.

For me, this is exactly how the trickster showed up, in dramatic contrast to the TRUE miracles that unfolded in the past week: – VERY generous donations to the house-buying campaign; miracles happening in the lives of every one of my clients, students, readers; witnessing the true growth of my business; fantastic insights and personal growth in the “Create As Love” course I’m taking with Lauren Gorgo; a shamanic journey that showed me the TRUTH of our ONENESS with God (more on this later). These were the miracles.

Then the trickster showed up in: worries about money; self-doubt and bargaining; computer glitches that made me step aside from technology for a few days; and the biggest trickster of all – NAY-SAYERS. One after another after another person showed up questioning, challenging, doubting, staring blankly in the face of my vision, mission, and the decisions I’ve made in order to uphold the vision that is planted in my heart. Most pointedly, trickster showing up telling me all the ways I’ve done it WRONG and that perhaps I should throw in the towel and get “a real” job. Hah – that old story!!

The trickster, showing up in the bodies of others, but ultimately reflecting back to me my own:

Fear. Judgment. Self-doubt. Self-loathing. Anxiety.

But you see, I KNOW what I am here to do. I KNOW my mission and purpose in this life. I KNOW I’m damn good at what I do. AND every time I think about or even try to “get a real job” the Universe puts up one obstacle after another and then plunges me into the depths of desolation (which Ignatius of Loyola recognized as the energy of the adversary). Indeed, in order to accomplish this mission, I have had to do things in a very non-3D way – taking great leaps of faith and going against societal, financial, tribal “shoulds” in order to support this mission. To one with 3D (fearful) eyes, the choices I have made might look strange, if not a little insane. To 5D (oneness) eyes, there is no judgment – only what had to be done in a fearful world to help bring forth a new world of LOVE. In order to bring forth the “unconventional” world of love, unconventional tactics have had to be employed.

So, the trickster showed up to give me an opportunity to retreat into my small-self (fear), or strengthen my resolve in the mission of my Soul.

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If you are reading this blog, you too have been gifted with the same idea of a mission and purpose for you in this life. Likely, you feel deep in your heart a desire to help BRING ABOUT A NEW WORLD. You have grown tired of a world ruled by fear, power and control. You are exhausted by all the things in the world that cause us to do harm to ourselves and to one another. You are frustrated and tired of the struggle that the majority of humanity faces just to put food on their tables and a roof over their head. You long for a different kind of world:

  • A world in which people are loving toward themselves and toward one another.
  • A world in which the needs for food, clothing, shelter, education and healthcare are satisfied for all.
  • A world in which people are acknowledged for their own unique giftedness and then nurtured and empowered in the use of these gifts because we know that the world becomes a better place when all are fulfilled in their gifts and empowered to use them.
  • A world where all people are treated with dignity and respect and where we honor each other in our respective beliefs and the choices we make that fulfill the deeper longing in our hearts.
  • A world where violence is rare and peaceful collaboration and cooperation are the rule.
  • A world where love rules and where fear is recognized as a cry for help and appropriate healing methods employed.

This is the world that you came to help humanity build. You too have been told you were crazy for dreaming dreams of a better world and for wanting to do something about it. The good news is that you are not alone and that WE have now reached critical mass and our voices, while still somewhat quiet, are becoming the majority, if they weren’t already. We long for a NEW WORLD built on love and one that seeks to HEAL the fear that has kept us imprisoned for 10,000 years!

So, if the nay-sayers show up in your life as you are in the midst of entertaining or working for your dreams – recognize them for who they are – your small self trying to remain small and showing up in both people outside of you and in all the voices in your head that say, “You can’t do that,” and then make a choice. Choose to stay small and afraid, or heed the voice of your SOUL that says, “YOU ARE SO BIG because you are made of LOVE and love is infinite.” And then PLEASE be your BIG self, because the WORLD NEEDS YOU!