Posted in End of the World Prophecies, world changes

A Nation at War with Itself

I find myself at a loss for how to begin this post. For years, it seems, we have been in the death throes of an empire in collapse. Just when we think we can breathe and it seems as if there is a light breaking on the horizon, another hammer falls. As we begin to believe compassion has gained a leg up, that leg is torn out from beneath us. Texas’ successful ban on abortion and the U.S. Supreme Court’s refusal to take action against the ban is the most recent in a long line of seeming victories for patriarchal oppression. Voter suppression is another of those patriarchal “victories.”

Between the events of our nation and the personal attacks against compassion I have witnessed on social media, it has been a discouraging time for many. Those of a compassionate heart see and understand the dire need facing the oppressed in our culture. Today, the oppressed include all people of color, women, the jobless, the underemployed, the poor, homeless, mentally ill, cognitively diverse, sexually and gender-diverse people, the planet itself – essentially anyone/anything not benefitting from the current system. We see the need. We feel the need.  We are likely experiencing some level of that need ourselves.  And, we want to see significant societal and systemic change to remedy these needs.

On the other side of the need, however, are those who benefit from a system of oppression, or see their own need as somehow the fault of the oppressed (in psychological terms, this is called transference).  These folks are fighting to maintain their privilege. Many are fighting dirty. When the compassionate come face to face with this violence, it feels like an attack, because it is.

These are challenging times as we find ourselves, literally, as a nation at war with itself. When we really think about it and cast a wide net, we could also say that we are a world at war with itself. The likely question is, “Who will win,” but the deeper question is how can we be a vehicle for change in a way that brings benefit to all? This is the question compassion would ask of us, but the hard reality is that to bring compassion and balance into our world, those benefitting from a system of oppression will have to let something go.  Hence, the violence behind their fight to maintain power and control.

We must not lose hope, however, as the other hard reality is that the current system simply cannot sustain itself. By its own hand, the system will fall……and falling it is. The increasing violence against the oppressed is itself a symptom of the system’s impending collapse. The harder the patriarchy clings to its control, the more swiftly it will slip through its fingers.  This is the nature of control. On the surface it may look as if things are getting worse for the oppressed but, it is the death throes we are witnessing.

As we witness the death of an imperialistic system, we are invited to discern our role. We cannot stop the death, neither should we try.  We can, however, be a source of support for each other, for those who may be called to activism, and for those who are suffering in the increasing violence brought about by this death.  Like every good death we all have a role to play. Most importantly, we must take care of ourselves, because if we are not caring for ourselves, we are no good as a source of support for others as together we witness the end of the patriarchal system of oppression and the hopeful birth of something new.


Posted in End of the World Prophecies, world changes

As the Veils Keep Tumbling Down

I am writing today  with a deep sorrow in my heart.  We have come upon a time in our human evolution that is painful for all.  And it’s not over yet.

As the pandemic rages and it seems the U.S. in on the brink of “The War on Terrorism Part 2,”  (just in time for the 20th anniversary of 9/11) more and more truths are being revealed – truths that may be painful to witness. Some are collective, and some are deeply personal. Let’s start with the collective:


The War Machine

This morning as I was preparing my coffee, it hit me how deeply insidious is the “war machine.”  As I posted on FB this morning:

I understand the value of the military and I am grateful for those who have made sacrifices to serve the cause of peace. I sometimes wonder, however, how much is actually for peace and how much is to fill the pockets of rich white men. How many young men have to die so that the corporate war machine can continue to make their CEO’s and shareholders wealthy?

The next question that hit me is, “Who all is involved in this?”  When I asked this question, a really old white man for whom I cast my vote, presented himself before me, swiftly followed by an old white woman who I was glad hadn’t won the nomination. I have become increasingly convinced that none of “them” are innocent.

I will leave this here simply as something to ponder.  This is indeed an existential question – how deep and how wide is the corruption of the system that (for example) keeps us in a constant state of war?


The Pandemic

The next question arises in response to the pandemic.  What the actual F..k? To date, 38.6 million Americans have contracted Covid-19 and 635,000 have died.  And still we are fighting about vaccines and masks?  Without going down the rabbit hole of collective finger pointing, I will simply ask this question:  WHO BENEFITS FROM A PEOPLE DIVIDED?  The short answer:  follow the money.


Now let’s look at where the collapsing veils are hitting us in the most personal of ways….


People Showing their True Face

As the outside world grows increasingly strained and people are reaching their last nerve, their true faces are being revealed.  Many are stepping up to the plate and proving their mettle.  They are reaching out for support when in need and are being open and honest about their anxiety, frustration, and fear.  For the authentic, and willing to be vulnerable among us, their true strength is being revealed.

Such is not the case for many/most.  Instead, what is being revealed is a whole range of defense mechanisms that will eventually prove to be their downfall.  Defense mechanisms like: secrecy, deception, betrayal, an attachment to control, guilt as a weapon, manipulating through victimhood/martyrdom, giving over their power to an outside perceived authority, looking for fulfillment outside of ones self, hoarding their perceived security, self-centered narcissistic behavior, deflection, blame, and soooooo much more.

It’s one thing to witness these behaviors in strangers, it is another to realize these as long-standing patterns in people close to us.  As we continue our movement toward the collapse of the world as we have known it, peoples’ true natures are becoming increasingly apparent.

We cannot control whether people are willing to do the work necessary to deal with their shit.  We can, however, deal with our own.  WHEN we are triggered by those far from us and those close who are engaging in unhealthy defense mechanisms, first we deal with the wound in us that is being triggered by that behavior.  Then we grieve.  We grieve for our own loss of innocence (isn’t it a lot easier NOT to see people’s true face?).  We grieve over what this new found knowledge might mean as it relates to the relationship in question.  We discern a change in boundaries if necessary while holding the other in compassion. Then we move on to continue to do our own work. As the airline safety manual tells us, we have to put on our own oxygen mask before we can help others with theirs.  This is the model we must follow if we hope to survive what is yet to come as the world continues in its collapse.


If you find yourself in need of support and guidance as the world falls apart, do not hesitate to reach out.






Posted in End of the World Prophecies, world changes

Care without Caring

My dear sisters and brothers!

This week’s “Authentic Freedom Weekly Lesson” will be less of a “lesson” and more of what I hope will be a source of encouragement and support as we move into the school year, the approaching winter and what promises to be a stressful time for individuals and the collective alike.

We are continuing in our movement through the death of “the world as we have known it.”  As we’ve discussed time and time again, that which was not built on Love is in the midst of its collapse.  The system built on fear, power, oppression and control, and everything that is part of that system is imploding due to it being inherently unsustainable.  As Jesus himself observed:

“A house divided against itself cannot stand. (Mark 3:25)”

We are that house.  Humanity is that house.  As a species, we have built a world based on separation and division – and it cannot stand. We have seen the proof of this throughout history as one empire after another has brought about their own collapse.

Collapse, however, does not need to be thought of as a bad thing. The eternal promise of death is that new life is waiting on the other side. On the other side of the collapse of the Roman Empire, for example, was the Renaissance.  This is what we are here for – to bear witness to the collapse, while holding space for the new that is waiting to be born both within and on the other side of this collapse.

Bearing witness and holding on to hope, however, can be difficult when all the world around us is losing its sh*t.  As caring people, we can’t not feel the pain that others are suffering, and we can’t help but feel in our own bodies the anxiety and fear that seem to currently define our world.  Our hearts can’t help but break over the increasing division as human beings, who have no skills for identifying and managing their own anxiety, react in non-loving ways.  This is where the training and practice we have cultivated, perhaps for a lifetime, becomes critical.  In the face of collective collapse, we have to learn how to care without caring.

To care without caring is to cultivate the ability to hold the world in loving compassion without being negatively affected by the world in its death throes. To master this skill, we have to:

  • Hold ourselves personally accountable to our own anxiety and fear. Recognize when we are being triggered by the world “out there” and instead of reacting, turning our gaze inward to the unhealed wound within us that was triggered by “out there.”  Engage the practices you have learned to support the healing of that wound.
  • Maintain an ongoing, daily, spiritual practice. Whatever that looks like for you – DO IT!  Maintaining our practice does several things:  a) raises our resistance to anxiety, b) provides a foundation of inner peace that grows with practice, c) helps us to see through the eyes of the Truth, rather than through our conditioned seeing, d) helps us to develop and maintain witness consciousness, and e) helps us to develop equanimity – the ability to maintain peace amidst the tragedies and joys of life.
  • Unleash ourselves from our co-dependent conditioning. We cannot save that which needs to die. We cannot save people from themselves. We must care for ourselves before we can be a source of support for others.  As Sr. Judy Miller once told me:

“The most loving thing we can do for those we love is to do what is most loving for ourselves.”

  • Seek out support when we feel like we are hitting the wall. Have your “doomsday” team on speed dial and reach out when needed.  Seek out more professional support when that isn’t enough (
  • Create the space you need to witness the world in its dying, feel the world’s sorrow, and grieve it. It’s appropriate to be heartbroken when we witness the violence our species has done to itself, our world, and one another.  We can’t fix it, but we can grieve it.  Remember that grief includes:  shock/trauma, denial, bargaining (“if human beings would just…….”), anger/rage, depression (and all its faces) and deep sorrow.  Cry. Take a day in bed. Whatever you need to do to survive the world’s dying.
  • BUT DO NOT get dragged down into your own destruction by the dying world. DO NOT let it destroy you!  DO NOT die with it. And for Goddess’ sake, DO NOT SACRIFICE YOURSELF OR YOUR NEEDS FOR THE SAKE OF A DYING WORLD!  As the prophet Hosea spoke on behalf of God:

“I desire mercy (compassion), not sacrifice. (Hosea 6:6)”

Caring without caring is ultimately about watching the world as it destroys itself while not getting caught up in the destruction.  We cannot stop the world (as we know it) from dying, nor should we try.  We cannot convince anyone of anything they do not want to believe, neither can we change the minds of those caught up in separation. All we can do is watch while holding those caught up in the death in loving compassion.

The Divine irony of caring without caring is that in doing so, we are creating the safe space that is needed for the seeds of the new to take root and begin their germination and growth.  In caring without caring, we are doing our part in creating the new world that will be waiting for humanity on the other side of this collapse.

Thank you for being a part of the new!


With love,



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Posted in End of the World Prophecies, shadow work, world changes

Not Surprising in the Least!

Responding to the events of January 6, 2021


Second only, perhaps, to the effects of 9/11, our nation sat in rapt collective horror over the events that unfolded in our Capitol as our congresspeople attempted to make the final pronouncement on the outcome of the presidential election.  I don’t need to explain what happened.  We all saw it with our own two eyes. To quote the 90’s sitcom Seinfeld, “It was loathsome and hideous yet we could not look away.”

Thanks to yesterday’s events, the shadow of American has been seen.  While some claimed shock and surprise, this terroristic act was not the least bit surprising to me.  In fact, I have been seeing and predicting this very thing FOR MONTHS!  The United States has become a ticking time bomb and yesterday was simply another example of a nation about to go off.  You know, like those tiny earthquakes that happen before THE BIG ONE?  Yeah….like that.  What that likely means is that “THE BIG ONE” is yet to come.

Death of a Nation by Lauri Ann Lumby

I am at once saddened and disgusted by yesterday’s events.  Saddened that it has come to this.  Disgusted that it has come to this.  The shadow(s) of our nation have been increasingly showing themselves and yet, we continue to do nothing about them.  As a collective, we continue to sweep the sad realities of the so-called “American Dream” under the rug. Racism shows itself and we look the other way. People of color gather in protest and we call them violent and ungrateful. The poor reach out a hand for support and it is slapped away. People are dying by the thousands and we whine about having to wear a mask (grow the fuck up!). We claim our liberties are being infringed upon when we don’t even know what freedom means.  Freedom doesn’t mean getting to do whatever you want simply because you want to.  Freedom is a privilege that has a price and a HUGE part of that price is personal responsibility and self-restraint.

I could go on and on and on, but I won’t.  If you are reading this post, it is likely we are of a similar mind anyway. My point is that none of us should be surprised when the shadows of our nation come forth to be seen.  And we should not be surprised when we start seeing more of this.  We are a nation that is broken and disabled by our own narcissism, self-centeredness and rugged individualism.  Until we address the injustices that are inherent in late-stage Capitalism, we will only see more of the same.  The rich getting richer.  The poor getting poorer.  A growing chasm of division.  And those on the fringe finding ways to violently exercise their frustration.

While it will take years, perhaps lifetimes to heal our broken nation (if it even can be healed), the first step is simple:  BE KIND and start thinking of someone other than just our own damn selves.

Posted in End of the World Prophecies, New World, world changes

Transformation of the Patriarchal Wound

Oh my dear sisters and brothers,

We are deep in one of the most profound transformations we have likely ever experienced in our collective evolution, most definitely in our collective memories.  The impact of this transformation will ultimately prove to be as species-altering as the time some 8000 years ago when humanity chose fear/power/control and oppression over the harmonious collaboration we once knew.

The unfortunate term that has been given to that 8000 year old choice is patriarchy.  I say unfortunate because today, this term has come to be associated with men in a not-so-good way.  The temptation when using this term is to believe that one is suggesting “men” are bad.  They are not.  But the truth remains – patriarchy means “a system of society or government in which men hold the power and women are largely excluded from it.”  By definition, those who control and benefit from a patriarchal system are largely male. While there are most certainly women who benefit from patriarchy, they hold no power or influence over the designs of the system.  Their benefit is simply by association.

So please be assured that as I continue with this unfolding, my words are not anti-male.  My words are to point out a system that is dying and the suffering currently being experienced by those who have benefitted from the system; those who do not know what to do when that which has supported their “success” is quickly crumbling beneath them.  They also don’t know how to respond when the very lies that have held up this system are proving to be untrue.

The cold hard truth is that the patriarchy is facing its own death.  As a result, the responses of those who have benefitted from the dying system are typical of anyone experiencing a death or a loss:

  • Denial
  • Bargaining
  • Depression
  • Anger
  • Sorrow

Acceptance will eventually follow these typical faces of grief, but likely not without a fight. Those who have benefitted from the patriarchal system are clinging hard to what they have known and are (sometimes) viciously defending the system that has been their source of support and means of validation.

What happens when we learn that what has been validating us, giving us our sense of self-worth, provided our income and our perception of success, is all a lie?  If you have been deep in the throes of spiritual transformation and the ego death that ensues, you know of what I speak.  Some find their way through the death of “self” to the Truth within.  Many do not.  And we live in a culture where transformational work is not only ignored, it is often dismissed as “witchcraft and sorcery.”

It goes like this – to keep a lie going, there has to be an enemy.  The enemy of patriarchy is self-knowledge and inner growth.  Pride is the compulsion that fuels the patriarchy, leaving those who benefit terrified of the truth of the human condition – our inherent powerlessness.  In order to fully enter inner growth and transformation, we have to become humble and accept the fact that as a species, we cannot do it alone.  We are not the sole proprietor of human agency.  As a species we thrive in community.  When we embrace the patriarchal mantra “every man for himself,” we die.

Patriarchy is built on that lie, as is the economic system of Capitalism.  In a “dog eats dog” world, eventually everyone gets eaten.  All of this is what has brought our world to the brink of its own destruction – a destruction of humanity’s own making.

And yet, those who built and thrive in the patriarchal system continue to deny the consequences of their actions.  They deny culpability pretending the “liberal agenda” is the cause of the world’s destruction.  The destruction of our world is not about conservative or liberals, it is about a system built on fear, power and control which benefits few while enslaving those “beneath” them.  By design it is an unsustainable system that is on the brink of collapse.

To the point of its last dying gasp, the patriarchy will deny these facts.  It will fight to maintain power by every means possible.  It will demonize, threaten, argue against anyone and anything that points out the fact that they are dying or the lies that have allowed them to live. This goes for men and women alike who benefit from a system of fear, power and control who are benefitting at the expense of others.  Probably to their dying breath they will continue to repeat the mantras that have justified their actions:


  • I (alone) am the source of my success.
  • I am successful because of MY hard work.
  • There is a magical formula for success and I know it.
  • If people are suffering, it is their fault. It is because they didn’t follow the magical formula, didn’t work hard enough, or didn’t think the right thoughts.
  • I deserve what I have because of how hard I worked.
  • I am a good person because God has blessed me. (because apparently God is busy doling out financial success to those who deserve it and withholding money from those who does not).


Pre-patriarchal systems knew otherwise.  They understood the inherent vulnerability of the human animal.  They knew that our survival depended on collaboration – that we would only survive as a species if we learned how to harness the inherent gifts of the individual in collaboration with the whole.  They understood that our survival literally depended on our relationship with the earth – because the earth itself was our means of survival.  Everything we need to survive comes from our earth – food, as well as the materials that close, house and provide protection.  We also knew that like every other species, we were vulnerable to sickness and disease and that the earth (sometimes) provided the medicine we needed to maintain wellness or restore our health.  Perhaps most importantly, they understood the reality and sacredness of death.  Everything has its season, including the human being. And when someone’s time came to and end, the community celebrated the life and mourned the death while remembering the nourishment that person’s presence brought to the community and the nourishment their decaying body would bring to the earth when they were laid to rest.  Before patriarchy destroyed these systems, they thrived in peaceful harmony (at least within the tribe) because they understood that their survival was dependent on mutual honor and support.

Patriarchy has made us forget this truth, and the consequences of this forgetting are obvious (at least to those with eyes to see).  The time of the patriarchy is coming to an end and something new is in the process of being born from within it.  Our task at this time is to be witness to the death throes of the patriarchy and the flailing about of those still clinging to that system while simultaneously holding the vision of the new world that is seeking to be born. One rooted in love, seeking out and supporting the inherent gifts of each and every human being, and harnessing these gifts in collaboration and cooperation with mutual honor and respect that naturally and effortlessly brings forth a world where decisions are made, not for the benefit of the few, but for the good of the all.







Posted in New World, non-violence, world changes

Voting and Hoping for a Savior?

Sisters and brothers,

Why all the divisive language?  Why, as we are getting closer to the day of the presidential election, are we continuing the “us vs. them” rhetoric?  Rhetoric which is casting “the other” in the role of villain and our own favored candidate in the role of savior?  Are we voting and hoping for a savior?

If we are looking for Trump or Biden or any of the other presidential candidates to save our nation, we are looking and hoping in the wrong direction.  The salvation we are all looking for WILL NOT come from outside of us.  It can only come from within.

I know, to many that may seem like “whoo whoo talk” or sounds a little religiously familiar; but the truth of the matter is that the mess we have gotten ourselves into as a nation started with ourselves.  In other words, we have no one else to blame, and it is only our own actions that will bring forth any change.

You want to change the world?  Then change yourself!

The ills of our nation began in the desire to have power and control in worlds where we felt powerless.  Whether it was religious persecution or the longing for a better life that brought us here, or if we were dragged here in chains for the purpose of servitude, it was fear that brought us here.  Fear compels us to seek separation (if for no other reason than to paint ourselves as heroes and the other as the villain) and separation is exactly what has defined this nation even before those men signed the Declaration of Independence.

  • Male and female.
  • Black and white.
  • Civilized and barbarous.
  • Rich and poor.
  • Catholic and Protestant.
  • Educated and Ignorant.
  • Gay and Straight.
  • Republican and Democrat.

The list goes on and on and one.  It is separation that has defined our nation and this separation was brought about by our own hand.  As such, if we truly want to save our nation (it’s a good start in the direction of saving the world), then we have to put an end to separation.  But separation doesn’t end because we want it to.  Separation ends when we heal the wound that created separation in the first place.  Which brings me back to my original point:

If we are voting and hoping for a savior, we are looking in the wrong direction.

Saving our nation begins with saving ourselves and that is an inside job.  When we heal what is separate within us, only then are we able to be a vehicle through which the separation that plagues our world can be healed.  It starts with ourselves and it starts within.

The process is woefully simple, but I have found that few have the courage or tenacity to do this great work.  The great work of which I speak is simply this:

Learning how to love.

Learning how to love begins by learning how to love ourselves.  Loving ourselves is the natural consequence of healing all that is separate within us:  our fears, our past traumas and our fear-based conditioning.  Loving ourselves includes learning to love the parts of ourselves we have been conditioned to believe are unlovable – our vulnerabilities and imperfections; and most importantly – our shadow.  Our shadow is the accumulation of what we have rejected/suppressed or repressed inside of us along with all the parts of ourselves that remain unlived.

As we learn to love ourselves, we find that the walls of separation we have build around ourselves and others, begin to fall away.  Suddenly we have empathy for another’s pain.  We have understanding of another’s challenges.  We can see the world through the eyes of those whose experiences have differed from our own.  And we learn compassion. When we learn compassion we discover that there is beauty in diversity and that every single human being has needs that are worthy.

Most importantly, we learn what the ancients knew full-well, a species which is divided will destroy itself.  A species that can come together in cooperation and collaboration in support of the common good will thrive.

The only true savior is that which we can find within ourselves. Isn’t time we stop looking outside of ourselves for a savior and start looking within?



Posted in End of the World Prophecies, New World, world changes

Creating Our New World Now!

My dear sisters and brothers,

As I mentioned in our spiritual service on Friday, there is a great turmoil approaching – one even greater than what we have experienced before.  The death throes of the old world are even more palpable than before which I am currently feeling in every cell of my body in the form of an underlying anxiety that is most definitely NOT my own.  I have nothing to be anxious about in my personal life which means it can only be coming forth from the world at large.

I recently heard myself saying, somewhat jokingly, but not really, that if a certain outcome happens in November that “I am going underground.”  Then two things struck me:

  • No matter the outcome in November, mass chaos will prevail, and from November 3rd until likely mid-January there will be a great wailing and gnashing of teeth. I don’t like to suggest doomsday, but it may be a good idea to be prepared in the event of massive civil unrest and the initiation of martial law.
  • Why am I waiting until November to go underground and what exactly does underground mean to me?

While I have no control over the outcome and the consequences of November, I am in complete control over how I choose to live my life.  Underground has always sounded good to me – who doesn’t want to live in a cave in the woods?  While I’m not currently living in the woods and there are no caves nearby, and it is unlikely that I will be moving location anytime soon; none of this prevents me from creating my own underground in the world in which I am currently living.

Underground begins with a few simple steps:

  • Unplugging from any activity, relationship, endeavor, etc. that are no longer life-giving.
  • Eliminating those things which drain me emotionally, physically, and spiritually.
  • Examining my Soul for those things that nourish, support and enliven me, and then making these a priority.
  • Setting boundaries around my time and my use of time.
  • Saying no to people, activities, etc. which are not life-giving.
  • Being open to TRIBE. Watching for those of similar resonance and connecting with this individuals as a source of mutual honor, respect and support.
  • Have my doomsday team on speed-dial – those I know I can call on (and visa versa) when I hit the wall or am about to have a meltdown.
  • Clearing my field of anything that takes me away from my own well-cultivated field of inner peace and contentment.
  • Be open to how my Soul is being called to serve and doing it.
  • Saying NO to any societal conditioning, expectations, etc. that are not in resonance with my own truth.
  • Living my own truth, unapologetically.

As it turns out, going underground is really my own way of creating the world I want to live in in the midst of the insanity and instability of a dying world.  Building our own world is first an inside job – we have to feel it inside of ourselves first.  Our new world becomes a reality when we begin to choose that which supports the inner contentment, peace and fulfillment we have cultivated within.  We don’t need the world to be finished with its dying before choosing our new world and living in it.  We simply need to choose it each and every moment of each and every day.  If I could give an image to my own new world and what underground looks like to me, it would be something like this:



What does your new world look like and how can you begin to choose it?


Posted in End of the World Prophecies, New World, world changes

When Evil Comes Out to Play


Good morning sisters and brothers.  After a rough couple days, I awoke this morning feeling somewhat back to my abnormal self.  🙂  The energy for the past few days has been exceedingly disruptive and I found myself caught up in the yuk – not on purpose – I just couldn’t NOT feel the tremor of fear that raged across our planet.  A certain someone is supposed to pay a visit to Kenosha, Wisconsin today and there is much trepidation about the increasing division that his words might ignite.  I am roughly 100 miles from Kenosha, in Oshkosh, WI so the anxiety is palpable.

This anxiety is simply one more symptom in a long line of symptoms of our dying world.  That which has been hiding in the shadows (racism, classism, supremacy cults, the dark web, organized hate groups, violence, hatred, ignorance, etc. etc. etc.) continues to come out to be seen and it is HORRIBLE.  The potential for evil that dwells within humanity is appearing to be infinite.  And for those “of the good,” IT IS EXHAUSTING and disheartening.

In the face of all this evil, it is good to remember, this is nothing new!  This evil and hatred for “the (perceived) other” has always been present.  We simply live at a time that has fed these evils and that has allowed them to thrive – albeit in the darkness. Then a few years back something happened that invited them all to come out and play – and be seen.  On many days, it seems as if a war is waging in the heavens between “the evil” and “the good” and we are the unwitting pawns in this game. I can assure you, such is not the case, but knowing this doesn’t change how it feels.  We are definitely experiencing the depths of the YUK.  The sad thing is that this is a YUK of our own making and has absolutely nothing to do with that which some might call “God.”

This is why I often say, “Human beings suck.  I’m glad I’m not one of them.”  I say this (somewhat) tongue in cheek – but in many ways this is true.  Human beings, while perfect as Divine creations, are also broken and flawed.  Broken by the original wound of separation and then further broken by other wounded human beings.  We are all wounded in some way – some are simply wounded more than others.  What we call “evil” is the consequence of unacknowledged and unhealed brokenness.  This means that the “evil” can be healed.

When I look out over our broken world and ponder the healing of all this evil, I become overwhelmed and shutdown.  It seems an impossible task.  (It is an impossible task) I have learned that the world is not mine to heal.  I used to think it was, but not anymore.  I have come to understand that the only person we can truly heal is OURSELVES.  Part of healing ourselves includes letting go of all the things outside of ourselves we believe we are responsible for healing.  Like the story of the oxygen masks on airplanes.  If the plane is going down, you have to grab your own mask first before helping your neighbor with theirs.

Saving ourselves does not mean we do not have compassion for our dying world.  Neither does it mean we refuse assistance for those seeking help.  We help the world heal itself by first healing ourselves.  As we do this, those close to us begin to heal and transform.  The more authentic and whole we are with ourselves, the more those around us feel safe to do the same.  This healing begins to ripple out from us to the people we meet, the encounters we have in the world and the gifts we share with those who are ready to receive.  Saving the world begins by saving ourselves and keeping the focus on our own healing and wellbeing.  The rest simply unfolds from there.

This doesn’t mean that Lauri Lumby in Oshkosh Wisconsin by her simple acts of kindness will get a white supremacist to lay down his gun, but it might inspire the next generation to look for non-violent ways to resolve perceived conflict, or to work to eradicate the social injustices that inspire hate in the first place.  At the end of the day, all the angry voices are simply people who did not feel seen or heard somewhere along the way or who did not get their basic needs for food, clothing, shelter, safety and love adequately met.  Angry and hateful people are simply very sad people in disguise.

As the world (as we have known it) continues in its death march, growing louder and more angry as it reaches its ultimate demise, we would do well for ourselves to remember a few things:


  • Keep our head down!
  • Stay out of the fray!
  • Heal ourself!
  • Care for our own!
  • When tempted to meet hate with hate, remember the deep woundedness that created all this evil and PRAY FOR THEM!


When facing times like these, I find myself drawn back to my Catholic roots, especially to the intercession (support) of the saints.  Mother Mary, in particular is one I turn to.  When invoking her support, I pray these words.  Perhaps you will feel inspired to do the same:


Hail Mary, Full of Grace.

Love is with you.

Blessed art thou among women

And Blessed is the fruit of your Love.

Holy Mary, Mother of Love.

Pray for us.

Now and at the hour or our death.


Posted in building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, world changes

Readying Ourselves for the Week (Months) Ahead!

“THIS is exactly what we are facing today as a human collective.  What world do we want to live in?  What world are we choosing for ourselves?  Are we going to hitch our wagon to the dying world and accompany it in its death or are we going to choose the (as yet unknown) path to a new world – a new kind of human experience.  It is a battle both within us, among us and outside of us.  The decision that we make for ourselves will then determine the world we will be living in.”

Good morning sisters and brothers,

As many of you know, on Monday I got SLAMMED by a major energy push that resulted in vertigo, nausea and a 6 day migraine.  UGH!  In typical Lauri fashion I had to ask every question about what I could possibly have done wrong to warrant such a migraine?  Is it the medication I’m taking and the recent dosage increase?  Is it the weight I gained when hitting menopause (and helped along by the Covid shutdown).  Am I getting enough exercise?  Is it something I’m eating (or drinking)?  The weather?  Allergies?  Some deep wound that is trying to find its way out?  Any of the above?  None of the above? Sigh!

After several days of self-flagellating, moaning in pain and feeling sorry for myself, and then a few more days of punishing myself for “not being productive,” I did a DEEP DIVE and discovered one thing:


Yes, this nothing wrong had something to do with an old wound trying to find its way out, but the more I tried to “work” on that wound the more there was truly nothing to do.  I simply had to see it and then let it be.

More importantly, the nothing wrong that I did, had absolutely NOTHING to do with me and


Literally and figuratively.  As the literal fires burn around our world (prayers for all those in the line of these fires!), the world as we have known it is going up in flames.  The world that we have known, based in fear/power/oppression/and control is burning itself to the ground.  Can you feel it?  If this week’s “migraine” is any example, the world as we have known it is at war with itself. And it hurts!

If you think things have been bad (thank you Covid-19), just wait.  They are about to get a whole lot worse.  The energies of this inner war have been amping up all year and are not even close to reaching their climax.  If you are sensitive at all, you are feeling the heightened tensions in our world, the increasing division, the fear and anxiety about what is up ahead.  I hate to be the bearer of bad news but “up ahead” is no picnic!  In fact, it’s about to get really ugly:

  • Our kids are going back to school. If this doesn’t terrify you, you have not been paying attention.  We are about to embark on one of the biggest social experiments in our human history. We are sending 56.6 million (not including college) students back to school, along with their teachers and staff.  We have absolutely no idea if this is a good idea or a REALLY BAD idea and we have ZERO clue about the consequences of this decision.  As a mother whose children were once that age (thank God they are now adults) I cannot help but wonder if we are sending our lambs to the slaughter.  We might find that nothing happens or that something horrible will happen.  Either way, if you aren’t nervous about school starting, perhaps you should be!
  • The U.S. Presidential Race. OMG!  What a shit show!  It doesn’t matter on what side of the political fence you lean; it is all chaos!  Whether it is the fight over mail in ballots, obstacles to voting, the Covid-19 fears about voting in person, or the simple fight over who is a better man (?????) to run our nation, it is all insanity.  As one who for the past many presidential elections has voted democrat, I enjoyed many of the speeches of the Democratic National Convention, but I also felt the wave of reaction from those who lean toward “the other side.”  I also felt (and heard) the crying out from those who are looking for even more radical reform than a middle of the road Democratic ticket will produce (if any). I can also feel (palpably) the RNC readying their response.  The image I keep getting is that of stressed out monkeys in a cage who are flinging poo at each other.  Did I mention it’s a shit show?  Literally!
  • The Battle in Our Collective Consciousness – This, is perhaps the most painful while also being the most subtle.  I liken this battle to the same one I have repeatedly witnessed in those who are dying (or facing the possibility of death).  There is a profound moment where on a very deep spiritual and unconscious level, their Soul is deciding whether to stay or if they should go.  It is a deeply invisible and personal process that I have had the privilege of witnessing. I have never seen the moment of decision, but I have seen them in the process of making that decision.  The result of that decision shows itself in either the person “giving up the ghost” or making an often difficult but no-less miraculous return.


Our Personal Choice:

THIS is exactly what we are facing today as a human collective.  What world do we want to live in?  What world are we choosing for ourselves?  Are we going to hitch our wagon to the dying world and accompany it in its death or are we going to choose the (as yet unknown) path to a new world – a new kind of human experience.  It is a battle both within us, among us and outside of us.  The decision that we make for ourselves will then determine the world we will be living in.

Readying Ourselves for that Choice

But before we are able to make that choice, we have to arm ourselves against the increasing hysteria that will accompany the current world in its death throes!  Like the deeply invisible work of the Soul in its decision for life or death, we have to turn inward.  We have to go deep within ourselves……AWAY from the insanity of the dying world.  Think of it like one in the hospital constantly being poked, prodded, and assessed by nurses and doctors and how much of a distraction that is from the deep inner work needed to arrive at a choice.  The same is true for us.  We need to UNPLUG from the world “out there,” stay out of the fray of the battle, let those who need to battle throw their shit and BY GOD……STAY OUT OF THE LINE OF FIRE!  Inserting ourselves into the battle will only get us covered in shit.  Instead:

  • Go inward.
  • Be still.
  • Be quiet.
  • Exercise patience.
  • Trust in the unfolding of the Universe and the Divine plan for love.
  • Resist the temptation to engage.
  • Pray.  Pray.  Give your energy to love and share that love with a world profoundly in need of it.
  • Connect with your tribe.
  • Return to nature.
  • Engage in creativity.
  • Keep life simple.


It is only out of this quiet simplicity that our Soul decision can be made.  What is the world we want to live in?  What does it look like?  How does it feel?

As the world around us implodes upon itself, stay focused on the world of your Soul’s choosing and make every decision in support of that world.  As the world around you crumbles, behold your chosen world rising from among the ashes – not because some outside perceived authority (ie a President) made it happen, but because you did!


Posted in End of the World Prophecies, New World, world changes

Surviving the Shit Show!

Last night we had a ZOOM gathering of the Authentic Freedom community and we discussed the coming 6-9 months and what is likely on tap for our world.  You don’t have to be a prophet to see what is up ahead, though those who gathered are prophets in their own right.  You also don’t have to be an astrologer, but astrology is certainly confirming what many of us already intuitively know.  Really, anyone with eyes to see and a splash of logic can see what is happening……and while there is GREAT GOOD getting ready to emerge, things are likely to get a whole lot worse before they get better.

This is what we can prepare for in the coming months (and if it doesn’t come to pass, then we are no worse off for having approached the coming months with caution and lots of support):

  • Just today the President threw out the proposal to delay the November election. Funny (not funny) thing is that we spoke about EXACTLY THIS last night.  While the President doesn’t have the power to act alone in this decision, that hasn’t stopped him in the past… be ready for this very real possibility.
  • SHUT DOWNS. I am 100% certain we will be facing another shutdown in the fall/early winter related to Covid 19.  If not a government mandated shutdown we will at least be seeing schools and businesses making difficult decisions for themselves around how to stay safe and keep their staff, etc. safe with a virus raging.  My “spidey senses” tell me that Covid is going to get a lot worse before it gets better and we STILL don’t have the appropriate measures in place for proper prevention and treatment.  Masks certainly help, but try keeping a mask on a 5 year old!
  • More rioting. Civil unrest is not likely to halt.  People are pissed off – and rightly so.  Yes, there are some who are simply rioting for rioting’s sake, but underneath the chaos is hundreds of years of oppression trying to find its way out.  This oppression is not simply about race, it is about gender, sex, poverty, homelessness, lack of adequate resources, etc. etc. etc.  in the so-called “land of freedom,” people are waking up to all the ways in which they are not truly free.  In case you haven’t figured it out yet, we are in the middle of a revolution – one that is sorely needed.
  • Martial Law: This term has been thrown around a lot lately, but not from a place of hype. This term has surfaced from among those I know who are “in the know.”  Those who are former military or closely connected with the military who understand how and under what conditions martial law is ordered.  What does this actually mean in a nation as geographically expansive?  I imagine it will be a bit of a shit show – one hand not really knowing what the other is doing and people making it up as they go along.
  • Economic Collapse I’ve been predicting this for a LONG TIME! The U.S. economy is already a house of cards and the first Covid shut down initiated a market crash, the likes of which this generation has never seen.  But it’s not even close to being over.  Don’t even bother hoarding your cash, because when the bottom truly falls out, even your hoarded cash won’t have any value.

As in every single time I receive a prophetic message that looks bleak, I hope and pray that these visions will not come to pass.  But so far I’m batting a thousand.  So just in case my intuitive sense (reason and logic) are on-point, here is what you can do to prepare yourself and your loved ones so that you can survive the coming months and be made ready for the new world that will begin to show itself sometime early next year.

  • GOOD NEWS AHEAD know that there is good coming out of the current and future disaster. We are truly witnessing the death of an empire so that something new can take its place.  We don’t yet know what that new is, but it will involved new models of everything we have known:  governance, finance, banking, religion, healthcare, education, commerce, etc. etc. etc.  The new promises to be more just, more equitable, more compassionate and more harmonious.  But what is and has been first has to die before the new can begin to come forth.
  • SELF CARE SELF CARE SELF CARE I cannot say this enough! DO EVERYTHING that helps you stay healthy and emotionally well.  And then do it some more.    Exercise.  Healthy food choices.  Fresh air.  Community.  Meditation.  Spiritual Practices.  Spend time in nature.  Creative activities. Massage.  Body work.  Acupuncture. Dance.  Sing.  Netflix and chill!  Do it and do it some more.  YOU are your first priority.
  • Loved ones get priority: Forget the world “out there” and its pressure to conform. DO WHAT IS RIGHT for yourself and your loved ones.  For example, if that means doing virtual learning with your kids this school year, then do it.
  • Reach out to others: For example: Don’t forget the family next door who might not have the freedom to do virtual learning but wants to.  If you are supporting your kids in virtual learning, reach out to a working family and see if their kids need support.  During shutdown, if you know of someone who cannot leave their house for food, but you can, offer to help.  We can do these things safely.
  • Gather Your Doomsday Team gather around you those who you trust to be a source of support. RECIPROCITY is critical at this time.  We all need those we can go to when the bottom falls out and those who we are open to supporting when the same happens for them.  We have been conditioned to give, give, give, but not to receive.  The new world begins with reciprocity, and it starts by insisting on this in our own lives.
  • SUPPORT SUPPORT SUPPORT Support can come in any number of ways!  Online groups, communities, podcasts, etc.  Find those of like mind and hang with them.  Attend their gatherings.  Join their groups.  ACCEPT the support.

In short, YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this and there are a million ways we can support ourselves and each other as we move through this insanity of a world in its own collapse.


Toward that end:  If you haven’t already, please consider membership with the Authentic Freedom community.  Learn more HERE  For the remainder of the year, I am making all offerings available for every membership level.  Please allow yourself to accept this support.