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Mary Magdalene and Easter – Raging on Her Behalf

Happy Easter?  I am hesitant to give honor to this sacred feast until the wrong that has been done to Mary Magdalene has been righted!  We are two thousand years past the event of Jesus’ resurrection and STILL Mary Magdalene is getting the shaft (pun intended  #MeToo).  It was not Peter, but Mary who witnessed the risen Christ and it was Mary who was ordained (yes, I said ORDAINED) to carry the message to the other disciples (who were cowering in fear and shame in the Upper Room…too chicken to accompany their “teacher” and “best friend” through his trial, crucifixion and death!!!!!  WIMPS!).  Not only was Mary Magdalene sent to tell the other disciples, it was to her that Jesus imparted his deepest teachings and who he ordained (yes, I said it again!) to carry those teaching out into the world – most especially, the protocol through which the world could be transformed from fear into love.

But no…..the Church still clings to their attachment to Petrine Privilege and in spite of what biblical scholars now tell us, Mary is still cast in the role of repentant whore (ala Jesus Christ Superstar) and it is “Peter who Jesus chose to build his Church.” Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, I know that Pope Francis did some nice thing by saying Mary wasn’t the sinful woman of scripture even “giving her a feast day” (which by the way, Mary already had so this was nothing more than a publicity stunt on the part of the Vatican).  But until the Catholic Church acknowledges all the places where scripture has been redacted (changed) or interpreted to support Petrine Privilege, (John 20: 2-10, MT 16: 15-19) I will not be satisfied.  Neither will the Magdalene.

Mary Magdalene – the Forgotten Apostle

For two thousand years, Mary Magdalene has languished as the forgotten apostle.  Diminished to sinful woman, prostitute and whore, her role in the Jesus story overlooked and her mission after the resurrection completely obliterated from history, or discarded as heresy.  (I often wonder what Mary Magdalene truths are hiding under lock and key in basement of the Vatican).  She shares the lead role with Jesus in the resurrection story and yet, just this past weekend I heard of a priest who used the Easter homily to denigrate the Magdalene for having no faith and running away in the face of the Risen Christ.  WHAT!!????  Where did he come up with that interpretation?  Oh I know….the Church’s own #MeToo that began and (if I have my way) ends with Mary Magdalene.

The Church and its Rejection of Women

#MeToo Catholic Church: There is only one explanation for the Church’s wholesale rejection of the Magdalene – and that is the rejection of WOMEN!  Jesus preached and modeled equality.  He was RADICAL in his welcoming of all those who were otherwise rejected in a patriarchal/hierarchical society.  He welcomed EVERYONE and he placed women on equal footing with the men who gathered around him.  As you can imagine, this caused quite a stir – especially among Jesus’ male followers (Mark 14: 3-9, John 12: 1-7). But when push came to shove, it was the women who provided for Jesus’ ministry (Luke 8: 1-3) and who stood by Jesus’ side as he faced his trial, crucifixion, death, and burial while the men (the possible exception being John) cowered in the Upper Room (where they were still hiding on Easter morning).  It was the women, who supported Jesus likely BECAUSE for the first time in their lives, they felt seen, heard, called, and empowered for who they were as women and for the unique gifts they had to offer the world.

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But as soon as Jesus wasn’t looking, the Church threw it all away.  No one talks about the women (except maybe virginal Mother Mary).  No one talks about the Magdalene (except frustrated women like myself).  (In fact, have you noticed how the “Paul the Apostle” movie made its U.S. debut to rave reviews while the Mary Magdalene movie is gathering dust on the #MeTooWeinstein shelves?????  UGH!!!!!!)  No one points out that Jesus called for equality….and his first act as the Christ was to commission…no, ORDAIN, a woman to continue in his stead.  But as soon as the Magdalene was ordained, she was set aside (and every woman since).  The male disciples didn’t believe her tale of the risen Christ and had to see for themselves before they would believe.  Not one of them came forward to Mary and said, “Gosh, I’m sorry.  You were right.  Please help us to see how you see and to know what you know?”  Instead, the men went off without her….and the rest is HIStory.

Mary Magdalene’s Herstory

Or is it?  HERstory remains where all of Jesus’ other truths remain – hiding in plain sight, for those who have eyes to see and for those who have ears to hear.  Magdalene is the TOWER (Magdalene is a title which means, “Tower of the Flock”) of what Jesus really set out to do – TEACH THE WORLD HOW TO LOVE.  In the gospel attribute to Mary Magdalene, we get a glimpse into her unique understanding and knowledge and how she sought to communicate the process that Jesus taught which would help people heal their fears so that they could remember how to love.  Even then, the disciples didn’t believe her, but Mary carried on.  Legends tell us that she was eventually forced to leave the Jerusalem community of disciples and made her own way in the world – first to Egypt, then to southern France and then perhaps even to western England.  While there is nothing (currently) to prove the verity of the Magdalene legends, we do have one proof and that is faith – the same faith that allowed Mary to understand the depth of Jesus’ teachings, to hold on to hope in the face of her Beloved’s death and which allowed her to SEE and KNOW the truth of the Risen Christ.

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From where I stand, the Easter story will never be complete until the Magdalene is given her due. Neither will the story of Jesus who became the Christ, for it was only because of Mary Magdalene and her faith that anyone came to know of the resurrection in the first place.  It is long past time we set the record straight – not just for Mary, but for all women (and men), who like her seek to be vessels through which our world can be turned from fear into love – what Jesus and Mary Magdalene taught us and now call us to do.

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The Complicit Feminine – Owning Our Own Unholiness

As the veils continue to fall, unmasking the unholy masculine as it has been present within our world (especially as it has been expressed through sexual violence against women and children), we would be remiss if we did not also acknowledge the unholy feminine and the damage it has done to all of us – male and female alike.

As I said in my blog on Thursday, women are not innocent. Yes, as it is true for men, the vast majority of women are kind, thoughtful, generous, and compassionate; and couldn’t think of doing harm to another human being – especially the men in their lives.  But then, there are those women.  We all know them, and perhaps we have (wittingly or unwittingly) been them ourselves:

  • Women who use their sensuality, charm, sexuality to manipulate and control men.
  • Women who marry men for money or because of the position of power he is in.
  • Women who brow-beat, nag, whine, and abuse their male partners, projecting their own unhealed wounds onto the men in their lives, blaming them for all that ails them instead of taking responsibility for their own sh.t!
  • Women who trap men into unplanned pregnancies and then extort money, support, etc. from these men.
  • Women who lie, cheat, are unfaithful and steal from the men in their lives.
  • Women who destroy men financially, emotionally, even sexually.
  • Women who use others for their own gain and then cast them away when they are finished with them.

Like the symptoms of the unholy masculine, the symptoms of the complicit feminine go on and on and on.  As much as our culture has been harmed by the unholy masculine, so too has it been harmed by the unholy feminine. This is further complicated by the unfortunate ways that we as women have done harm to each other.  We are our own worst enemies when we criticize, condemn and demean each other for being too fat, too flat, too tall, too smart, too independent, too successful, or the opposite – too pretty, too skinny, too short, too dumb, too needy, too lazy, etc.   Have you seen the movie Mean Girls?  It pretty much sums up the collateral damage we have done to each other.  Why?  Because we are insecure in who we are and in order to feel better about ourselves we have to make each other feel like crap.  UGH!

As the saying goes, before we point out the splinter in our brother’s eye, we first have to remove the plank from our own.  As women we need to recognize where we have engaged in the unholy aspects of womanhood and do the difficult work of healing the inner wounds and unacknowledged fears that have caused us to act in non-loving ways – toward ourselves and then toward others.  Only then can we begin to bridge the gap between ourselves and the men out there who are truly ready and worthy of our greatness.

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A Man Speaking Truth

A HUGE Thank you to Bob Russo, a loyal reader of this blog in whom I have found a kindred spirit and spiritual brother and friend. Below is Bob’s beautifully articulated response to my recent blogs inviting the men to speak to the ongoing question of gender roles and how we understand the flow of the masculine and feminine within us.  Bob beautifully speaks what I could only hope to have the words to say.  THANK YOU BOB!  Following Bob’s words is my own response (warning:  transparency and feeling alert):

From Bob:

Hi Lauri,

I have been meaning to respond to your article on “Inviting Men to Join Us”. So, it feels good to finally get around to it. I tried to post this on your blog but was unable to. Hope you had a relaxing Thanksgiving.

My response may come across as “politically incorrect”. But, my intention is not to be insensitive to anyone but speak from my heart. And, I don’t claim that what I am about to write is correct – but only as I have perceived things over the years.

IMO, both the feminine and male energies are being compromised by the current attitude that exists in America. The women’s movement in the early 1970s was an effort by women to gain recognition for the gifts they have and can contribute in a male-dominated society. It was a comprehensive effort by women to gain the recognition and equality as human beings that they deserve, and an effort to assert control over their own lives.

Unfortunately, this movement encouraged women to become more “masculine” in order to be accepted in a “man’s” world. And in so doing, many of the graceful feminine qualities that are uniquely part of a woman’s makeup have been significantly discounted. Some of the qualities that I am referring to are motherhood, nurturing, protection (of children), intuition, feelings, space, receptivity, inwardness, softness, communication, compassion, and so on. I’m not saying that these qualities are only in women, no. But, it is my belief that they are more pronounced in women than men.

Regarding men, the current attitude in our society as to what it means to “be a man” has undermined the male energy as well. Society often equates “manhood” with such qualities as aggressiveness, overwork, materialism, strong egos, and war. This has caused a lot of confusion and disruption for many men today who are trying to find their place in this chaotic world. What’s been lost in this definition of manhood are many of the positive inherent qualities in men such as protection (of the feminine and family), provider, warmth, giving, consistency, vision, clarity, activity, analytical, and so on. Again, most women share many of these qualities with men. But IMO, they are more naturally a part of a man’s makeup than a woman’s.

We are witnessing a breakdown of both the masculine and feminine energy in our society, and consequently a major collapse of the family unit. Women are no longer honored for being mothers or care givers, for example, but are given high strokes when they are CEOs of a large firm or working 12 hours a day along-side their male co-workers. And, men are no longer praised for being good providers and consistent in their lives but given strokes for being more feminine and passive, or at the opposite extreme, for being aggressive and survivors of war. No wonder we’re so confused and messed up. We can only deny our inherent nature for so long.

As you know, each of us is comprised of both feminine and male qualities. It is this integration that make us the unique person we are. We become a fully-functioning man or woman when these qualities exist within us in a balanced way. As a man, I need to know when to hit the gas or put on the brakes. My long-term vision in combination with my wife’s intuition have provided us with a reliable road map during our marriage. When the natural qualities of both sexes work together, good things happen. It’s that simple! But, when they are out-of-balance or one dominates the other, like we are witnessing today, suffering and war result.

Bob Russo


My response:

Bob, YES YES YES YES YES!  You eloquently articulate the feelings that are living in my heart, that have been part of my own lived experience and exist in my deep inner knowing.  Thank you for speaking what I could not find the words to express.  This is one of the many reasons I appreciate your presence so much in my life!  Thank you!

As for being “politically incorrect,” the world in which we are currently living is humanly incorrect and our politics simply support this incorrectness.  Our job as prophets is to shine the light on what is no longer working so that something new may come into being.  We need to speak our truth for this to occur….so speak away!!!!!!  (Besides, I don’t find your words to be politically incorrect in the least, in fact they reflect a politic we SHOULD be embracing – IMO).

At the risk of being “politically incorrect” myself, I want to speak to what you wrote from my own lived experience.  When you speak of the devaluing of what have traditionally been considered the inherent gifts and calling of women, I agree there seems to be a correlation of this devaluing to the women’s movement.  I have often said that while the women’s movement was necessary (critical, in fact), there has been a damaging effect on both women and men because of it – for exactly the reasons you stated.  In my own lived experience, I have really struggled with this.  My deepest drive is to love, nurture, care for, heal, support, build connections, teach and form – tasks we traditionally associate with the feminine.  I have lived this out professionally and most joyfully in my role as a mother.  But NEVER have these gifts been valued. Neither have the masculine traits that reside within me.

First, we live in a culture that doesn’t value the work I do.  I have been expected to do this work for free and criticized for daring to charge for the services “their priest gives them for free.” Because of the structure of our society, most people don’t see value in the inner work of coming to know themselves.  Instead they would rather spend their money on things.  When in the Church I was condemned for daring to think for myself, stand up for my truth and for not being silent and obedient (the expected feminine role).  In my marriage none of what I did in my role as mother, running a household, managing two businesses, taking care of the details of medical appointments, bookkeeping, etc. etc. etc. was valued – it was simply assumed that I would and should do it because it was my job as “the wife.”  When I asked for help I was told, “It doesn’t bother me.  If it bothers you, you do it.” While doing all of this I was also expected to be provider but the work I did outside of the home wasn’t a “real job,” and therefore had no value and neither did the money I brought home from that job.  To say that I felt resentment for not being valued would be an understatement. (I have a deep scar on my forehead showing the effects of resentment not tended to.)  Now as a divorced, single, working mother of two, I find I have to do all of it and quite frankly I am frickin EXHAUSTED.  I am finding I can’t do it all and I don’t want to do it all!!!!!

I know I am not alone in this.  The current structure of our society does not value the inherently feminine as you so eloquently described:  motherhood, nurturing, protection (of children), intuition, feelings, space, receptivity, inwardness, softness, communication, compassion, and so on.  Neither does our culture seem to value the masculine as it resides within women.  As a woman, I long for the feminine and for the traditionally masculine qualities I embody (courage, strength, risk taking, independence, etc.) to be valued.  At the same time, having to take on too much of the masculine qualities (provision, protection, etc.) is killing me.  It works against my nature.  It has caused me harm.  When I am too much in the driving, striving, trying to succeed mode, I become ill.  So I find myself stuck between a rock and a hard place – longing to fulfill the feminine longings within me while exercising meaningful and fulfilling work in a healthy and balanced way that does not do harm to myself, while trying to provide for myself and my children.  UGH!  The cost of caring for myself in a disasterously dysfunctional and imbalanced world has been staggering.

And I feel for the men – for exactly the reasons you stated:

the current attitude in our society as to what it means to “be a man” has undermined the male energy as well. Society often equates “manhood” with such qualities as aggressiveness, overwork, materialism, strong egos, and war. This has caused a lot of confusion and disruption for many men today who are trying to find their place in this chaotic world. What’s been lost in this definition of manhood are many of the positive inherent qualities in men such as protection (of the feminine and family), provider, warmth, giving, consistency, vision, clarity, activity, analytical, and so on.

I have also seen the demonization of what we have been conditioned to think of as feminine in men – nurturing, caring, giving, healing, intuitive, etc.  I believe this demonizing has done great harm to men and caused them to ignore or suppress these traits as they find them within themselves.  I have seen the inner struggle this creates in men, especially in those who have been raised to be “manly men.”  This makes me sad.  We are clearly in need of a cultural overhaul…the likes of which we have never known!

As much as our culture wants us to believe we can and should be able to do it on our own…..WE CANNOT.  As much as our culture says that women and men should be able to do the same things and be equal in them, we cannot if we want to be healthy.  Looking at the current state of our culture we are anything but healthy.  We are doing a terrible disservice to ourselves and to each other in the values we have embraced as a culture and quite frankly, it is killing us.  Something’s got to give!

Or rather, everything’s got to give!  Every single way in which we have defined ourselves as a culture is currently up for evaluation – IMO, especially how we know ourselves.  I believe that in order to arrive at a healthier balance within our culture we first have to come to know ourselves.  As it relates to the masculine and feminine we need to come to know how those qualities are present within us and how those qualities are helping or harming us.  In order to do this we need to be REALLY HONEST with ourselves.  Are we (male or female) called to be provider and protector?  Are we (male or female) called to receive, allow, nurture, etc?  How are we called to do these things in a way that is healthy and supportive for ourselves and for those around us?  In this, it is not about male or female, masculine or feminine, it is about understanding what is unique within us as human beings, owning and valuing it…..both for ourselves and for others.  Maybe in doing this for ourselves we will begin to see the transformation in our culture that many of us long for.  And Oh My God…on some days it is sooo hard trying to live ahead of the curve.  😉

I know this doesn’t even scratch the tip of the iceberg of the healing we need in our culture and in our world……and THANK YOU Bob for your beautiful contribution to this conversation.  As ever it is unfolding.







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Feminine Rage

Yesterday while sharing on Facebook the cavalcade of emotions that have been running through my body of late (anxiety, panic, deep grief, depression, paralysis, irritability, all-out rage), it seems I hit a nerve.  An outpouring of women responded with similar feelings.  Yes, all who responded are empathic and sensitive to the energies of the world, but beyond this, I believe we were speaking from the place of our own disgust, disappointment, hurt, frustration, feelings of helplessness, impatience and flat out anger over the state of the world in which we are living.

The way our world is today SUCKS.  As women (along with the men who are walking the way of the Divine with us) we know there is a better way and we are DAMN tired of being ignored, threatened, silenced, put down, punished, beaten, raped and even killed for speaking and trying to live what we know.  We KNOW that the hierarchical/patriarchal world based in fear, power and control doesn’t work.

We also know that that world is in the midst of its own collapse and that a new world is seeking to be born.  We know what the new world looks like and how to build it, if ANYONE WOULD LET US SPEAK!

Instead, we’re accused of being crazy, shit-disturbers, heretics, blasphemers, witches and whores for carrying the vision of a better, more loving, kinder, gentler world.  Or worse, we’ve been patted on the head for having such silly, frivolous visions, because “everyone knows the only way to live in this world is through force, conflict, violence and war….it’s always been this way and it will never change.”  To this we say BULLSHIT!

We know that it has not always been this way.  We know that is doesn’t have to remain this way.  Deep in the center of our beings (and in the center of YOUR being if you are paying attention), we know there is another way.

For where has this hierarchical/patriarchal/capitalistic/consumeristic world gotten us?  It has gotten us to exactly where we are today, “enjoying” a world in which for everyone but the 1% of the 1%, everything SUCKS!

  • The world itself is dying from the violence we have done to her.
  • We live under the constant threat of global war.
  • We are living in a constant state of war right here on our own shores!  The violence we are waging against each other is worse than any terrorism that might come from a foreign shore.
  • Millions of people are without access to quality healthcare.
  • Education is dying.
  • Millions of people are starving, homeless, struggling just for basic subsistence.
  • Our economy sucks.  Billions of people are in debt and will likely never recover from that debt.
  • Despite what the news says, unemployment and underemployment are more than serious concerns.

I could go on and on, but you get the gist.  There are no benefits in a world based in fear, power and control unless you are the one in the position of power.  As women we know that not one among those few are women.  For people of color, the realization is even more dire, for not only are there no women holding these positions of power, there are no men.

Again, we know a better way.  But, we live in a world where no one cares to listen.

First among those who are deaf to our pleas are those who benefit from the current culture of fear, power and control – rich, white men and those living under the umbrella of their privilege.

Second are those who know things are bad, who feel the sense of unease over the current state of the world, but who choose to look away lest they be called on to do something about it.

Third are those who feel the extent of their powerlessness and have become paralyzed by a culture which has made them this way – the poor, immigrants, people of color, those who have become marginalized because of their ancestry, gender, orientation, religion, etc.

This is why we are pissed!  We are tired of living in a world rooted in fear, power and control where only those who hold the gold make the rules and only those in power benefit.  We are tired of living in a world defined by conflict and violence.  We are sick to death of living in a world where our value is determined by what we have produced, how much money we make, our position of status or power.  As women, we are tired of being valued only for what we do for (or how we look on the arm of ) our men.  We are sick of cultures and systems that do not value the sacred earth on which we live – the very planet upon which we are dependent for our survival.  We are tired of living in fear.  We are tired of having to scream, shout, beg for our own needs to be met and the needs of our children – basic human needs for food, clothing, shelter, access to quality healthcare, a good education, meaningful work and GODDAMNIT…..SUPPORT!  We cannot do this alone and we are damn sick of doing it alone!  Women are pissed and we have a damn good reason for being pissed!

We are tired of not being valued for our uniquely feminine way of moving about this world.  We long for a world free of violence, hatred, ignorance, fear and separation.  We long for a world where every human being is honored and valued for who they are as uniquely gifted individuals.  We cry out for a world that supports (rather than tearing down) people in knowing what their unique gifts are and for a world that empowers them to live that out.  We yearn for a world where things are gentle – where we can walk softly upon this earth and find that tender balance between nurturing ourselves and our own needs, enjoying the company of family and friends, meaningful work, and exuberant play.  We crave beauty.  We want opportunities for learning.  We want to be happy, healthy and whole.  Sadly, none of this is possible in the current world we are living unless you are one of the privileged few.  And the privileged few and those who benefit from the world they have created want us to believe that this vision we hold of a kinder, gentler world are simply the ravings of a mad woman.

Damn right we are mad!  And it’s likely that you should be too!  Is this seriously the world you want to live in?  If not, goddamn it, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!  Put the energy of that rage into action. Start working for change.  POSITIVE, NON-VIOLENT change.  Gather those of like mind.  Support each other is speaking and acting out.  Uplift each other for your unique gifts.  Do the world of BEING and LIVING love in our world.  Because, if you/we don’t do it…..who will?



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The Rise of the Divine Masculine

The Divine Masculine is a quality that resides within all of us – whether we identify as man, woman or other. In Western “civilization,” the Divine Masculine has been mostly absent as we have lived under the tyrannical reign of the unholy masculine.  The unholy masculine is the corruption of all that was originally intended in the divine masculine and is known by its motivation which is fear, power and control. The unholy masculine takes control and then rules through these motivations, making others subservient to it, creating a hierarchical, patriarchal paradigm which privileges male over female,  competition over cooperation, taking over sharing, war over peace, violence over harmony, etc. etc. etc.  It is the unholy masculine (along with its hideous partner the unholy feminine) that is destroying our world.

Divine Masculine, Holy Masculine, Divine Feminine, Holy Feminine, unholy masculine,

The Divine and Holy Masculine is none of these things and is/was the original way in which human beings were meant to live – in partnership with the other half of our Divine Souls – the Holy Feminine.

The purpose of the Divine Masculine is to defend our Soul. The Soul is the Divine within us which seeks to be known in and through the world.  The Soul is the bearer of our unique giftedness and the unique calling we all have to find meaning and fulfillment in our lives, for our own sake and then in service to the betterment of the world.  The Soul knows who we are and who we are called to be.  But, because we live in a world that does not honor our Soul, the Soul has become vulnerable.  Instead, the world around us (that has been created by the Unholy Masculine) tries to tell us who we are and how to live our lives.  Every time our Soul – our true calling – tries to make itself known, we are criticized, condemned, judged, even rejected because the Soul cannot be put into a box.  Our Soul wants FREEDOM in a world that seeks to imprison us with its fear.

As we begin to listen to the voice of our Soul, a great healing takes place. We begin to see through the lies and manipulations of the unholy masculine (and the unholy feminine).  We also begin to see how we have all indulged in and been controlled by the unholy within and outside of us.  We come to understand the deep woundedness within us that caused the unholy to emerge in the first place and we work toward healing these wounds.  Then, and only then, can the Holy within (that which is our truest nature) begin to emerge.

For people of all genders, this journey begins with the rise of the Divine Feminine. We begin to understand our feminine gifts of receiving and allowing, nurturing and supporting.  We become comfortable with our emotions, the ever-shifting sands of the human experience, the light and the darkness that is the human journey.  We get to know death, and loss, challenge and hardship and we learn how to be with it all.  Finally, we do the deep excavating work of Soul Retrieval – diving deep into our own shadows where we have hidden, stuffed, even rejected the parts of our Soul that we (or our society) would not accept….and we bring them forth into the light.  Here, we begin to know who we are, what we need and how we are called to be in the world. Once we get a pretty good handle on this….the Divine Masculine steps in.

The Divine Masculine is the energy within us of provision and protection. The Divine Masculine is the hunter, going out into the world and bringing to us what we need to support the unfolding of our Soul’s purpose.  The Divine Feminine tells the Masculine what is needed, and “he” brings it.  The Divine Masculine is also the gallant knight who stands at the gate to our Soul defending its unfolding.  In this role, the purpose of the Divine Masculine is to set boundaries, to say who and what will be a source of support for our Soul’s mission and purpose and then unapologetically says who or what shall pass through our gate.  (This unapologetic nature is something I have long admired in the men and women that I know who possess this trait!)

As divine expressions of the Love that made us all and seeks to be known in and through us, we deserve nothing less than becoming our true Divine nature – masculine and feminine, and ultimately whole.


Where are you in the journey of being your true Divine Self?

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Eve Speaks – The “Fall of Man” from Another Perspective

Eve Speaks Part 2

Hello my dear children, I have spoken to you once before about my (our) Divine origins and how I (we) were created in the image and likeness of Divine Love and freely chose to engage in God’s play at being human, how we chose the perceived separation from our Divine Source in Love and Oneness so that we could experience ourselves as individual and unique so that God could experience Godself in all if Her infinite number of expressions. Now you all know the story that has been told of this separation, how the human experience in all its pain and suffering is actually punishment for disobeying God by eating the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.  While some may find comfort in this interpretation of the ancient tale, there is another perspective and an even deeper truth that lies hidden within this story for those who have eyes to see.

As I mentioned in the first telling, the story of “the fall of man” is not even original to the Hebrew people who in the latter days approaching the Common Era, placed this story in their scriptures. Instead, this is a Babylonian story borrowed by the Hebrews from the popular Gilgamesh Epic as it helped to explain their plight as conquered and indentured slaves of the Babylonians. Once a thriving and powerful nation, Israel had been conquered, their temple destroyed, and all people of value deported to Babylon to live as slaves to their conquerors.  They had lost their home.  They had lost their God.  Believing in a punitive and jealous god, it made sense to them that they were being punished for something terrible they had done.  They then chose women, and all that had been associated with feminine power – the serpent, the fruit, knowledge and wisdom – as scapegoats for their suffering and pain. This battle between the warring patriarchal god and the peace of the divine feminine had been going on for ages, but the Babylonian captivity cemented this divide.

This is the historical perspective on my tale. But, for those who have eyes to see, there is an even deeper truth – one that resonates beyond history and speaks to the Soul of the human race – a people that long to be freed from the pain and suffering of the human condition and returned to their original state in Oneness with LOVE in God.  This is the story of EVE as awakener.  But even more than this, this is the story of WOMEN as the Awakeners – those sent to become awakened themselves and then through their own awakening, to become awakeners for others – most especially the men.  Here is how it goes in the book of Genesis:

Now the snake was the most wise (usually translated “cunning”) of all the wild animals that the Lord God had made. He asked the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You shall not eat from any of the trees in the garden’?” The woman answered the snake: “We may eat of the fruit of the trees in the garden; it is only about the fruit of the tree in the middle of the garden that God said, ‘You shall not eat it or even touch it, or else you will die.’” But the snake said to the woman: “You certainly will not die! God knows well that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened and you will be like gods, who know good and evil.” The woman saw that the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eyes, and the tree was desirable for gaining wisdom. So she took some of its fruit and ate it; and she also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they knew that they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made loincloths for themselves.

When they heard the sound of the Lord God walking about in the garden at the breezy time of the day, the man and his wife hid themselves from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. The Lord God then called to the man and asked him: Where are you? 10 He answered, “I heard you in the garden; but I was afraid, because I was naked, so I hid.” 11 Then God asked: Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree of which I had forbidden you to eat? 12 The man replied, “The woman whom you put here with me—she gave me fruit from the tree, so I ate it.” 13 The Lord God then asked the woman: What is this you have done? The woman answered, “The snake tricked me, so I ate it.”

21 The Lord God made for the man and his wife garments of skin, with which he clothed them. 22 Then the Lord God said: See! The man has become like one of us, knowing good and evil! Now, what if he also reaches out his hand to take fruit from the tree of life, and eats of it and lives forever? 23 The Lord God therefore banished him from the garden of Eden, to till the ground from which he had been taken. 24 He expelled the man, stationing the cherubim and the fiery revolving sword east of the garden of Eden, to guard the way to the tree of life.


20 The man gave his wife the name “Eve,” because she was the mother of all the living.


Genesis 3: 1-13, 21-24, 20


This is the largest, widest, deepest truth of the Genesis tale – WOMEN are the AWAKENERS of the human experience. To state this in more universal terms, apart from the human temptation to divide by gender, the DIVINE FEMININE is the awakener of the human condition as it is embodied in women or in men.  THIS is the task of the Divine Feminine as it is embodied in human form – to WAKE US UP.  Specifically, to wake us up out of the illusion of separation – the illusion that is the cause of our fear, the cause of our “sin” and the cause of the suffering and pain in the human experience.  The Divine Feminine within us is that which REMEMBERS our ONENESS with Love, with God and with all of Creation.  The Divine Feminine within us is that which awakens us to this remembrance and then calls us to return to our origin in Unity and Wholeness.  As it plays out in our masculine/feminine roles, (I use these terms as they relate to energy, not gender.  Masculine being the active, protective, provider energy and Feminine being the energy of receptivity, allowing, and receiving) it is the feminine which is called to awaken and in its awakening, to guide and support the awakening of the masculine.  As such, if you are in a traditional male/female relationship, it is the woman who first awakens, and then it is her task to help her male partner awaken.  It is also the task of the female to awaken the children.  There is a complicated way in which all these energies play out their roles, but for now, I trust you get the gist.

EVE was not a disobedient sinner who through her “sin” brought punishment to the whole human race. EVE is the AWAKENER who calls us all to awaken out of the sleep of ignorance into the knowledge of THE TRUTH – that LOVE is our original nature.  She then shows us how to return to that LOVE – right here in the human experience, thus returning us all to the Garden where we will experience heaven on earth.

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Healing the Mother Wound Retreat

Healing the Mother Wound

One-day Women’s Retreat

with Lauri Ann Lumby

Friday, May 5, 2017

9:00 am – 4:00 pm



As women, our most intimate and foundational relationship is with our mothers. Our relationship with our mother is complicated at best, and has made us who we are – for better or for worse.

Healing the mother wound frees us to transcend the challenges of the mother/daughter relationship which then allows us to live more fully in our own truth. No longer carrying the burden of our mother’s unacknowledged shame, or bearing the wounds of our mother’s projections, we are able to shine our own light in the world.  Healing the mother wound transforms not only our relationship with our own mothers, but transforms the entire ancestral lineage, healing all those who have gone before us and those who have come after us, including our own daughters and sons.


Healing the Mother Wound

At the home of Linda Johnson

7863 Cut Off Lane

Larsen, WI 54947

Retreat limited to 15 attendees.

$75.00 payment secures your place in the retreat.

Vegetarian/Gluten-Free lunch provided through:


To register, send payment to:

Lauri Ann Lumby

Authentic Freedom Academy

1103 School Ave.

Oshkosh, WI 54901

Email lauri @ authenticfreedomacademy (dot) com, or call (920) 230-1313 for more information.

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The Woman vs. Woman Wound

Why are women so horrible to each other? This is a question that has troubled me since JD befriended me in grade school and then spent the next 6 years trying to make my life miserable.  It’s the question that broke my heart when all the girls who were my friends in grade school would suddenly have nothing to do with me because I wasn’t an athlete.  It was the question that hurt my feelings when LR told me all the horrible things a boy supposedly said about me (It was later confirmed that she was lying).  It is the same question I have asked over and over and over again as I have attempted to bring women together for the sake of a common cause.  Many are able to step up to the task without trying to destroy their sisters…but many more, it seems, are hell bent on making sure their sisters do not succeed.

Just this past week, we had an opportunity to see how truly cruel women are to each other when all the body-shaming posts came out against Lady Gaga’s “protruding belly” during the Superbowl Half-time Show.  Really?  The girl is a size four if that…..what is wrong with her belly?  The sad thing is that many of those posts were from women!

By proacguy1 from Montreal, Canada - Lady Gaga, ARTPOP Ball Tour, Bell Center, Montréal, 2 July 2014 (20), CC BY-SA 2.0,
By proacguy1 from Montreal, Canada – Lady Gaga, ARTPOP Ball Tour, Bell Center, Montréal, 2 July 2014 (20), CC BY-SA 2.0,

Why is it that women are such assholes to each other? Jealousy and competition seems the most likely explanation, but what in the world are we competing for?  Men?  Jobs?  Attention?  Money?  Power?  Social Status and Position?  In my world, none of these are worth competing for….even if we could.

The truth is that each and every one of us has our own unique giftedness, our own unique purpose and our own unique contribution to this world. My gifts are not yours, and yours are not mine.  And even if our gifts are similar, those who need my gifts would not benefit from yours – so why compete?  In fact, our gifts might complement each other and what would happen if we found a way to bring our gifts together in a way that meets the common good?  One teacher of mine says it this way, “we each have our own unique medicine and the people who need our medicine are out there waiting for us to share it with them.” In this, there is no reason for competition….period.  As this is true for those who need our gifts, it is also true in all the other areas where women seem to compete with each other.

So why are we still competing? And why are we sabotaging each other in our quest to get what we think our sisters should not have?

Mean Girls
Mean Girls

In my best estimation, women being jerks to each other is the result of a deeper wound coming out sideways. The deeper wound is a cultural paradigm that began somewhere around 5000 years ago in which the world culture shifted from an egalitarian type culture where women and men were valued as equals, to a cultural paradigm where the holy within all of us was supplanted to make room for the unholy masculine (fear, power and control) and the unholy feminine (helplessness, powerlessness, weakness, neediness).

When the fear, power and control became the cultural norm and came at us from men who had set aside the holy masculine in favor of the unholy, women became powerless and had no place to go with the anger and resentment that arose in that state of powerlessness. So, we did the only thing we could do, we projected that anger and resentment on the only beings we could – other women.  We then turned that anger and resentment on the externals that might give us the illusion of power – money, social status, material goods, etc. etc. etc.  The sad thing is that when women are being horrible to each other, they are most often completely unaware.  Women who are trying to destroy their sisters don’t realize that their words, actions or omissions are truly a deeper wound coming out sideways, asking to be healed.

So what can we do to heal this woman vs. woman wound? It starts by treating our sisters as sacred, holy, wounded aspects of the Divine.  For seeing in each other, the wounds we carry within ourselves.  When we start doing the work of healing the wounds that started our horrible behavior toward each other, then the behavior becomes no longer necessary.  It is as simple as that.  We know the truth of this when we are in the company of the women who treat us as holy and sacred – those who have already done this deep inner work.  It is with these sisters, that we have the opportunity to enjoy the reunion that Rebecca Campbell speaks about in her book Rise Sister Rise, along with the benefits of living from this reunion.  In facing down the woman vs. woman wound, let us embrace Rebecca’s words as our clarion call!  The world is a better place when we meet each other in this sacred place instead of from the unholy place of jealousy and competition.

From Rise Sister Rise by Rebecca Campbell
From Rise Sister Rise by Rebecca Campbell



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Mom, why are the women marching?

I just spent the past half-hour crying over my kitchen sink. Why?  Because my seventeen year old son asked me, “Mom, why are the women marching?”

I wept, first, because he had to ask this question. Secondly, I wept because the best I could come up with was a muddled explanation of reproductive rights.

As the weeping gave way to rage, I understood, and then took the time to articulate to my kind, loving, compassionate, son who naturally thinks in terms of fairness and who is internally motivate to seek out justice, why the women were marching.

Women's March in Madison, WI
Women’s March in Madison, WI

Here is what I said:

Son, women are marching because of a culture that does not value a woman’s worth.

  • We are not valued in our role as mothers, caregivers, caretakers, nurturers, and providers of what our family needs to be compassionate, loving, caring members of our society.
  • We are not valued for our desire to have a safe place to raise our children, to have food on our table, a roof over our head, resources to clothe our family, a quality education for our children and access to affordable and quality healthcare.
  • We are not valued for not wanting to send our sons and daughters off to war and for wanting to live in a world where war is the exception, not the rule.
  • We are not valued for wanting a culture where people are supported in finding meaning and purpose in their lives and for a place where our children might be given these opportunities.
  • We are not valued for thinking that perhaps we should be valued for our role as mothers and for wanting meaningful work beyond motherhood.  We are not valued for thinking we should be compensated the same way men are for equivalent work.
  • We are not valued for believing that motherhood should be a choice and for desiring safe, cost-effective means through which this choice can be made, in the same way that men are given the freedom to choose to perform sexually well into their 90’s.
  • We are not valued for wanting the same attention for our own healthcare issues as our male counterparts are receiving.
  • We are not valued for wanting a planet that is safe – where our water, air, and the very earth we live on is not raped and pillaged of its valuable and irreplaceable resources all for the sake of selfishness and greed.
  • We are not valued for wanting our food to be free of poisons and other toxins.
  • We are not valued for wanting to walk about our cities freely, for wanting to go into public places and not be worried about whether we will be cat-called, accosted or raped.
  • We are not valued for thinking that rape is rape and a punishable offense regardless of the guilty party’s position in the local sports community or because of his economic privilege.
  • We are not valued for believing that every size, shape and form of our human packaging is holy and sacred and we are not valued for believing that the media has done a horrible disservice to women’s self-esteem and for being incensed at a culture that supports body shaming.
  • We are not valued for thinking that the sexualizing of women is wrong – that women only have value as sex objects and for the way in which they can bring pleasure to men.
  • We are not valued for our wants, our desires and our needs as women and as human beings. For 5000+ years we have had to fight for what is right – the right to learn how to read and write, the right to an education, the right to vote, the right to our bodies, the right to feel safe, the right to meaningful work…..the same rights that are assumed for our men.
  • We are not valued for speaking our truth or for naming and claiming our needs.
  • We are not valued when we try to set boundaries around our needs and wants; instead, we are called “a bitch.”
  • We are not valued for what we think, believe, know, hope for.
  • We are not valued for our intuitive inner knowing.
  • We are not valued for our gifts in cooperation and collaboration.
  • We are not valued for our ability to bring people together and to negotiate conflict.


I then offered my son a little history lesson:

For the 5000+ years since the peaceful, egalitarian cultures of our ancient ancestors were decimated by the fearful, warring hordes, women have languished under the fear, power and control of the ruling culture, and our men have suffered along with them.

I went on to explain that it was not only for women that we are marching, we are also marching for our men.

We are marching for those, like my son, who have a deep love and respect for women. Who see value in all that women have to contribute to our world.  Who believe women should have a voice and that their needs should be valued as equal to that of men.  Who want to treat the women in their lives with kindness and who want to provide a safe world in which these women can survive and thrive.  These are the men who know that “if mama ain’t happy, nobody’s happy,” and who understand all the good they receive when the women in their lives are safe, happy, fulfilled and content.

Finally, I shared with my son all the material ways in which his life has been negatively impacted because of all the above mentioned, and how his life will continue to be negatively affected if something doesn’t change – SOON!

I’m happy to say, he got it. I only wish the rest of the world would do the same.

And now, I’m weeping again.