From Lesson Five of The Gospel of Mary Magdalene online course.
From Lesson Five of The Gospel of Mary Magdalene online course.
My dear sisters and brothers,
As I mentioned in our spiritual service on Friday, there is a great turmoil approaching – one even greater than what we have experienced before. The death throes of the old world are even more palpable than before which I am currently feeling in every cell of my body in the form of an underlying anxiety that is most definitely NOT my own. I have nothing to be anxious about in my personal life which means it can only be coming forth from the world at large.
I recently heard myself saying, somewhat jokingly, but not really, that if a certain outcome happens in November that “I am going underground.” Then two things struck me:
While I have no control over the outcome and the consequences of November, I am in complete control over how I choose to live my life. Underground has always sounded good to me – who doesn’t want to live in a cave in the woods? While I’m not currently living in the woods and there are no caves nearby, and it is unlikely that I will be moving location anytime soon; none of this prevents me from creating my own underground in the world in which I am currently living.
Underground begins with a few simple steps:
As it turns out, going underground is really my own way of creating the world I want to live in in the midst of the insanity and instability of a dying world. Building our own world is first an inside job – we have to feel it inside of ourselves first. Our new world becomes a reality when we begin to choose that which supports the inner contentment, peace and fulfillment we have cultivated within. We don’t need the world to be finished with its dying before choosing our new world and living in it. We simply need to choose it each and every moment of each and every day. If I could give an image to my own new world and what underground looks like to me, it would be something like this:
What does your new world look like and how can you begin to choose it?
Good morning sisters and brothers. After a rough couple days, I awoke this morning feeling somewhat back to my abnormal self. 🙂 The energy for the past few days has been exceedingly disruptive and I found myself caught up in the yuk – not on purpose – I just couldn’t NOT feel the tremor of fear that raged across our planet. A certain someone is supposed to pay a visit to Kenosha, Wisconsin today and there is much trepidation about the increasing division that his words might ignite. I am roughly 100 miles from Kenosha, in Oshkosh, WI so the anxiety is palpable.
This anxiety is simply one more symptom in a long line of symptoms of our dying world. That which has been hiding in the shadows (racism, classism, supremacy cults, the dark web, organized hate groups, violence, hatred, ignorance, etc. etc. etc.) continues to come out to be seen and it is HORRIBLE. The potential for evil that dwells within humanity is appearing to be infinite. And for those “of the good,” IT IS EXHAUSTING and disheartening.
In the face of all this evil, it is good to remember, this is nothing new! This evil and hatred for “the (perceived) other” has always been present. We simply live at a time that has fed these evils and that has allowed them to thrive – albeit in the darkness. Then a few years back something happened that invited them all to come out and play – and be seen. On many days, it seems as if a war is waging in the heavens between “the evil” and “the good” and we are the unwitting pawns in this game. I can assure you, such is not the case, but knowing this doesn’t change how it feels. We are definitely experiencing the depths of the YUK. The sad thing is that this is a YUK of our own making and has absolutely nothing to do with that which some might call “God.”
This is why I often say, “Human beings suck. I’m glad I’m not one of them.” I say this (somewhat) tongue in cheek – but in many ways this is true. Human beings, while perfect as Divine creations, are also broken and flawed. Broken by the original wound of separation and then further broken by other wounded human beings. We are all wounded in some way – some are simply wounded more than others. What we call “evil” is the consequence of unacknowledged and unhealed brokenness. This means that the “evil” can be healed.
When I look out over our broken world and ponder the healing of all this evil, I become overwhelmed and shutdown. It seems an impossible task. (It is an impossible task) I have learned that the world is not mine to heal. I used to think it was, but not anymore. I have come to understand that the only person we can truly heal is OURSELVES. Part of healing ourselves includes letting go of all the things outside of ourselves we believe we are responsible for healing. Like the story of the oxygen masks on airplanes. If the plane is going down, you have to grab your own mask first before helping your neighbor with theirs.
Saving ourselves does not mean we do not have compassion for our dying world. Neither does it mean we refuse assistance for those seeking help. We help the world heal itself by first healing ourselves. As we do this, those close to us begin to heal and transform. The more authentic and whole we are with ourselves, the more those around us feel safe to do the same. This healing begins to ripple out from us to the people we meet, the encounters we have in the world and the gifts we share with those who are ready to receive. Saving the world begins by saving ourselves and keeping the focus on our own healing and wellbeing. The rest simply unfolds from there.
This doesn’t mean that Lauri Lumby in Oshkosh Wisconsin by her simple acts of kindness will get a white supremacist to lay down his gun, but it might inspire the next generation to look for non-violent ways to resolve perceived conflict, or to work to eradicate the social injustices that inspire hate in the first place. At the end of the day, all the angry voices are simply people who did not feel seen or heard somewhere along the way or who did not get their basic needs for food, clothing, shelter, safety and love adequately met. Angry and hateful people are simply very sad people in disguise.
As the world (as we have known it) continues in its death march, growing louder and more angry as it reaches its ultimate demise, we would do well for ourselves to remember a few things:
When facing times like these, I find myself drawn back to my Catholic roots, especially to the intercession (support) of the saints. Mother Mary, in particular is one I turn to. When invoking her support, I pray these words. Perhaps you will feel inspired to do the same:
Hail Mary, Full of Grace.
Love is with you.
Blessed art thou among women
And Blessed is the fruit of your Love.
Holy Mary, Mother of Love.
Pray for us.
Now and at the hour or our death.
Last night we had a ZOOM gathering of the Authentic Freedom community and we discussed the coming 6-9 months and what is likely on tap for our world. You don’t have to be a prophet to see what is up ahead, though those who gathered are prophets in their own right. You also don’t have to be an astrologer, but astrology is certainly confirming what many of us already intuitively know. Really, anyone with eyes to see and a splash of logic can see what is happening……and while there is GREAT GOOD getting ready to emerge, things are likely to get a whole lot worse before they get better.
This is what we can prepare for in the coming months (and if it doesn’t come to pass, then we are no worse off for having approached the coming months with caution and lots of support):
As in every single time I receive a prophetic message that looks bleak, I hope and pray that these visions will not come to pass. But so far I’m batting a thousand. So just in case my intuitive sense (reason and logic) are on-point, here is what you can do to prepare yourself and your loved ones so that you can survive the coming months and be made ready for the new world that will begin to show itself sometime early next year.
In short, YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this and there are a million ways we can support ourselves and each other as we move through this insanity of a world in its own collapse.
Toward that end: If you haven’t already, please consider membership with the Authentic Freedom community. Learn more HERE For the remainder of the year, I am making all offerings available for every membership level. Please allow yourself to accept this support.
As an empath, shadow worker, Reiki master practitioner and energy healer, I am often called to stop whatever I am doing and send healing energy/intentions and prayers to someone or something in need. This morning was one of those times. I was at the yoga studio intending to do my Monday morning yoga practice when my body became completely immobilized. I found that my body could only sit with my hands held in Reiki position.
As in the times I am sharing Reiki professionally with those who need it, as I was holding the Reiki position, I began to see images and receive feelings of who/what needed this healing. I was not surprised to learn that it was the world. The people of the world are afraid and justifiably so. The global empire is collapsing, and it is the United States which is at the center (perhaps even the cause and the effect) of its demise.
My purpose here is not to provide a political discourse on the global history of conquest or man’s (gender intentional) competition for power. It is to speak to those who are afraid because whether they are aware of it or not, the world around them is dying. I’ve been seeing the symptoms of this collapse and have written about it for years. In a nutshell – that which was established on a model of fear/power/oppression and control is collapsing. And THANK GOD/DESS. We are facing the inevitable end of an unsustainable system. And if the system doesn’t destroy itself, the human race will be facing its own destruction. So yes, this is a necessary (for our survival) death and many, if not most, are ill-equipped to identify, let alone manage, the inherent human response to death.
For those who are familiar with the grieving process, we are witnessing a collective grief response. This explains every over-reaction we are witnessing in American culture:
All of these proportionate and disproportionate (especially the disproportionate) reactions are quite simply a collective response to death. If there is one thing that death does to us is trigger our need to have control; and if there is one thing we know about death – WE ARE NOT IN CONTROL.
We are not in control of the death of the global empire. We cannot stop it. We cannot hasten it along. We cannot prevent it or assuage it. There is absolutely nothing we can do but stand back and watch it happen. For most humans, this is easier said than done, if not downright impossible. Unless we have sought this knowledge on our own, we have not learned how to deal with grief, let alone the death of an entire global system. Neither have we been trained in how to let go – unless we have been one of the (un)fortunate ones who have had control ripped from our cold, dead, fingers.
So what do human beings do who don’t know how to let go – they seek to manipulate and control. Hence the increasing chaos we see in our nation and therefore in the world. Human beings do not know how to die.
But there are ways that we can help each other in this dying.
Let it Burn!
Copyright Lauri Ann Lumby
Make no Mistake!
The world is burning itself to the ground.
The “fall of Rome” on a global scale.
The end of what was born of fear, power and control
on the backs of the poor
benefiting the powerful few.
An unsustainable model –
We have created our own demise.
Let it burn.
We cannot save it, nor should we try.
But we can grieve.
We can grieve the loss of the life we have known.
We can mourn over the certain carnage that will accompany this dying.
We can weep for the lives and innocence (ignorance) lost.
As we witness the revelation of
The truth is being laid bare for all to see.
We may try to deny it, (denial is a face of grief)
But it will continue to knock on the doors of our hearts
Until we are able to listen
And feel sorrow
For those whose loss
has been another’s gain.
Will we be able to live with ourselves
After all the truths have come to light?
Will we be able to look our brother and sister in the eye?
Will we allow ourselves to feel the shame for
This is our moment of reckoning.
And we will decide if humanity survives to create a new world
The choice is simple
and the fate of humanity depends on this choice.
Continuing to choose separation guarantees our death.
Choosing Oneness will bring forth a whole new world.
What will you choose?
Good morning! These are interesting times in which we are living and as an empath I am feeling it all. This is what I posted on Facebook earlier this morning:
FRUSTRATION is the energy of the day. A night spent with dreams of frustration and woke up with an overwhelming external sense of frustration. This morning I prayed hard and will soon be returning to prayer to help loosen and free this energy – an energy that is not mine but is the current energy of our world. Humanity is unnecessarily fighting a battle against each other. There is literally nothing to fight against. To make it through the Covid-19 event, we have to simply let it be. Let it runs its course. Find our own peace in the midst of the external chaos. The only one we need to be concerned about is ourselves and our own peace. Find that peace and stay there. Once the chaos has completed its task the dust will settle and then we can begin to create our new world. In the meantime, let the chaos do its work of clearing the old to make way for the new.
Not only am I feeling this frustration on a global level, I am feeling it personally. It’s not my frustration, but it is the inner conflict I am feeling as I stand in the middle between people I dearly love. As it relates to Covid-19, the current conflict seems to be centered around:
Stay at Home vs. Return to Work
I have dear friends sitting at both ends of this spectrum. Some are actively protesting the stay-at-home orders and want to see businesses back up and running. Many of these are business owners themselves, so I get it. On the other end of the spectrum are those I deeply love who are actively protesting “return to work.” Many of these are considered seriously at-risk for not only contracting but dying from the virus. So I get it. The challenge with these opposing movements is that there is so much we do not know. We are living in a state of complete unknown.
The reality is that we have no idea the answer to any of these questions. We don’t know what will happen when we return to work and we don’t know what will happen by continuing to stay at home. Meanwhile businesses are struggling and some will not survive the shutdown. Government support has not been sufficient for many and has not been forthcoming for some. Millions of people have contracted the virus and nearly 70,000 have died (in the U.S.). People are afraid. And we do not know what we are looking at now, let alone in 2 years from now (when the CDC predicts this will finally be over).
We are living in a state of complete unknown. Even that which is proclaimed as known one day changes the next. We don’t know what information we are being given is true and what is made up. We don’t know which conspiracy theory will prove true and which ones are simply false. We don’t know which protests are real and which have been staged with paid actors to create an environment of fear.
The world has gone insane (or rather, the insanity that has always been there is simply coming forward into the light). At the heart of this insanity are two things:
FEAR and GRIEF
People are afraid and have been made to be afraid. On the outside, the fear is over the virus, but when we look deeper the fear is over our inability to control the unknown.
And beneath the fear of the unknown, is the even deeper fear which is the very real fear that arises in the face of death. I’m not talking about the fear of dying from Covid-19 (though for many that fear is real). Instead, I’m talking about an even bigger death.
Whether people are aware of this consciously or not, the world as we have known it is dying. The world made out of fear, power and control is crashing down around our feet and in its dying, it is showing its hideous face. And all this flailing about that we are currently witnessing in our world is the very real and human reaction to what we do not know or understand and that over which we have no control.
Herein lies the remedy to the current insanity we are experiencing: the world as we have known it is dying. It has never been sustainable (except for the very very few). Our best course of action is to stand back, get the heck out of the way, and let it burn. We cannot control its death and we are hurting ourselves by trying. For the sake of our own peace, we can acknowledge that there is too much we do not know while surrendering to the fact that we cannot control the old world in its dying.
And as the old world is dying, what if instead of creating opposing positions and fighting and arguing with each other over what we do not know and cannot control we came together in cooperation. What if while the world is burning itself to the ground we came together (at a safe distance) in conversations around what we might begin building instead?
The profound gift of the Covid-19 pandemic and the globally imposed social distancing, is that as the world around us is imploding upon itself, we have the opportunity to take the first steps in building a whole new world. Building the new world begins with US and in the way we decide to live NOW and how this NOW might inform the new world we want to create for ourselves and our loved ones once this is all over. The good news is that by all accounts, this will not be “over” until 2022 so we have plenty of time to reflect on and take the necessary steps for building our new world.
Building our new world begins with ourselves and the choices we make around how we want to live our lives and what we want our new worlds to look like. For those who have found their way to the Authentic Freedom community, the world we build will be reflective of our individual temperaments and desires yet rooted in our unique calling to be of service to the betterment of our world. But again, bettering our world, begins with us and with the choices we make around how we want to live our lives.
I cannot speak for others, but for myself, the new world of which I want to be a part is quieter, simpler, gentler and kinder than the world we have been living in. It is a world that treats our planet gently and with great honor, acknowledging that it is only in treating the earth as sacred that She might produce the fruits that we need to survive. It is a world in which every human being is honored as holy and sacred and where diversity is not only honored but celebrated. It is a world that supports the full development of every single human being by providing the resources we need not only to survive, but to thrive.
Yes, these are big dreams, and I know this is possible when we begin to make these choices for ourselves. When we as individuals live simply, gently, quietly, kindly; when we treat our world as sacred – taking only what we truly need while sharing the surplus with others; when we treat other human beings with dignity, honor and respect and when we work to insure the needs of all humans are being met to not only survive (food, clothing, shelter, safety, healthcare), but also to thrive (education, enrichment, self-development, etc.) then it can be done. But again, it starts with US.
During this time of social distancing, I am taking the steps to building my own new world, steps that I’m finding are soooooo very simple:
Laying the Foundation:
The foundation of my life has always been my relationship with the Divine. In my NOW and into my NEW world, this foundation will continue and as I have witnessed, deepen. I begin my morning with my spiritual practice and return to it frequently throughout the day. This simple time dedicated to myself and the Divine of my understanding is the foundation out of which the rest of my life unfolds. Everything I need for guidance, inspiration, understanding and to find a place of comfort and safety in an insane world, I find within these moments. Even when I’m not in a time of dedicated meditation and prayer, the fruits of my practice continue to unfold. With this I have come to understand Paul’s invitation that we “pray without ceasing.” When this relationship is the foundation of our lives, everything becomes a prayer.
Building the Supports:
Cultivating well-being. My physical and emotional health are critical to me. With this I make healthy choices. I choose healthy foods. I enjoy gentle exercise (yoga and walking). I take supplements and my prescribed medications. I do what I need to do to keep my mind and my spirit healthy (meditation, yoga, setting healthy boundaries, honoring my need for solitude, choosing how and with whom I want to spend my time).
Ongoing learning: As part of my temperament and passion, I have been given the gift of learning. I love to learn. As such, I take time each day to cultivate learning. I learn. I study. I explore.
Time for enjoyment: “All work and no play makes Lauri a dull girl.” I’m kind of boring anyway and I like boring, but that is not to say I don’t have enjoyment. I take time to read for pleasure and I love a good movie or binge-worthy television series. The more magical or mystical the better, but even a good piece of historical fiction can whet my appetite.
Don’t Forget the Aesthetics:
Our new world is meant to be enjoyable and to have beauty. This will mean different things to different people, but to me, my world has beauty when I am nurturing, cultivating and sharing my gifts – for my own fulfillment and in service to the betterment of the world. As such, this is about:
Taking time to CREATE: I write. I draw. I publish books. I develop and share curriculum. I cook. I clean. I nurture my children. I show kindness and am a listening ear to those I meet. I nurture my friendships – old and new.
Being a Source of Support for Others: Making myself available for guidance and support as we find our way through the Covid-19 event and when it is done, helping people find their new normal – through my books, online classes and services, local gatherings (when we can gather again) and one-on-one support through Reiki and Spiritual Counseling.
Questions for your own reflection:
What are you finding during social distancing that feels good to you?
What in social distancing would you like to see become part of your new normal?
What is the new world you want to create for yourself?
Hi. I’m Lauri Ann Lumby, and I am “Everyperson.” For 15 years I’ve been living in the trenches with the “working poor.” This is what my reality looks like:
I am self-employed as a Spiritual Counselor, providing mental health support through spiritual counseling (I have an MA in Transpersonal Psychology and completed a 3 year training program as a Spiritual Director), and human development training through online education. I am also a published author.
Sounds fancy, right? Sure, but the above has not produced enough income to pay the bills. So, in the fall of 2017, I started a side-gig. The side-gig has provided just enough supplemental income to pay my monthly rent.
No, wait, things started breaking apart long before Covid 19. Awhile back, I received a DIRECT command:
Let it go. Let it all go.
Because I’ve been down this path many-a-time. I knew exactly why all the letting go. When we let things go, we are creating room for something new (and better) to enter. For the past several months, I’ve been watching my income stream slow almost to a halt……then ENTER COVID-19. My side gig closed two weeks ago and while I’ve had enough to keep me busy up until the end of this week. There’s not much coming after that. The “new office” I recently opened sits empty because no one is interested in receiving hands-on healing at this time.
Time to start freaking out?
For a moment maybe. But I know better than to stay there and I have the tools for finding peace in the midst of the complete unknown.
I have no idea how I will pay my bills. (I KNOW I’m not alone in this!)
But, what I do know is that I WAS BORN FOR THIS. I was born for this time and I have known it was coming. I’ve been training and preparing for this my whole life. I absolutely 100% know that there is something NEW and HUGE coming out of this for our world AND FOR ME!
For me, this is where the rubber meets the road and where shit gets real. Instead of chasing after shiny objects, or hustling to find a way to fill the gap,
I GET QUIET.
I turn inward. I go into the silence. I enter the VOID.
I use the practices I have been teaching others to use for the past 15+ years.
I resist the temptation to “thinking it through,” or throwing noodles against the wall hoping something will stick. Instead, I look for what emerges out of the silence. Not the rambling of my “let’s do something” mind, but the pure silence of THE VOID out of which everything true and real comes into form.
I have known that the dwindling cash flow was the herald of something new trying to be born in and through me, and now I take a deep breath as another HUGE chuck falls away. This is it. This is Lauri Ann Lumby’s day of reckoning. Do I run away in panic or find meaningless activities to fill the void so I can avoid the TERROR of facing into the VOID? No, I dive deeply into the VOID and see what She has to show me.
As Mother Mary said to the Angel Gabriel,
“Let it be done according to your word.”
Or as Jesus said as he was hanging from the cross,
“Into your hands I commend my Spirit.”