Posted in Initiation, self-actualization, shame, sin, spiritual awakening

Eve’s Serpent – the Voice of the Soul

When Eve appeared to me in the early hours of Saturday morning, she arrived with her companion. This companion, I was told, represented the tools of her trade.

If Eve’s true nature is that of Awakener,

then the tools of her trade are all the ways in which the Soul seeks to be known.

In scriptural literature, this companion was given the form of the serpent and has been cast into the role of demon for luring the original humans into disobedience, thereby causing the “original sin” which forever cast human beings into a life of suffering.

The story of humanity’s “fall” is a myth. Plain and simple, it is a story which attempts to explain the nature of the human condition, while also acknowledging a deep, ancient memory of something more. It is unfortunate that when forming its doctrine, the Christian church chose to use this story as a weapon against humanity – shaming us into believing there is something inherently disordered about us and that life was about seeking approval and forgiveness for “sins” that are not even our own.  Even Jesus, it seemed, could not undo the cause of this “original sin.”  Sigh!

Let’s return to the serpent. In yesterday’s lesson, I spoke of the true nature of Eve as a metaphor for the human calling to awaken – to awaken out of our fearful nature and into the truth of our Soul.  This is what Eve metaphorically did when she chose to eat of the tree of knowledge – her eyes were open and now she could see as the “gods” and was given the ability to reason, discern and exercise her truth.  But before she could awaken, Eve had to hear the voice of her Soul.  The serpent represents that voice.

As I have described in many lessons in both my local and online courses:

Soul is the uniquely creative way in which you have been gifted to find meaning and purpose in your life and the way in which you are called to find fulfillment in service to the betterment of the world. Soul is our true self – the part of us that knows our gift and our call, and is that which compels us to seek out, discover, cultivate and nurture these gifts and this call, empowering us to share our gifts in service to the world.

-Lauri Ann Lumby

 

It is the voice of the Soul that we are here to hear and abide. It is only in listening to the voice of our Soul that we are able to fulfill our purpose for being on this human plane.  It is through the Soul that we are able to discover our unique giftedness, nurture and cultivate these gifts and then find out how we are called to share these gifts – first for the sake of our own fulfillment and second in service to the betterment of the world.  This is why we are here and it is the gentle (and sometimes forceful) whisperings of the Soul that set us forth on that journey.

The Serpent is that voice. The ancients knew this and honored the serpent as the image of the human journey toward self-actualization.  The serpent was representative of knowledge and wisdom and called humanity into its fullness.  It was only the patriarchy who stripped the serpent of its rightful place as teacher and guide – because in order to rule, authority had to be placed outside of us and in the hands of the hierarchy.  With the serpent, authority resides within – as is attested by all the ancient traditions that use the serpent as the symbol of humanity’s journey of awakening to Soul and bringing that Soul into form – the Kabbalah, the Chakra system, the Kundalini of the Yoga traditions, the ancient alchemical symbol of the caduceus – and even Moses’ staff.

The serpent has long been a symbol for human awakening and a representation of the voice and force of the Soul. Isn’t it time we reclaim it as such?

 

For support in awakening to and fulfilling the path of your Soul, check out our Magdalene Priestess Training and the Authentic Freedom Leadership Training for Men.

 

Posted in Initiation, Magic

When Did You First Know?

Yesterday I had the profound gift of sitting with a dear friend who is healing after 6 months of INTENSIVE cancer treatment. We were talking about all the things you talk about when death is staring at you in the face.  In the midst of the conversation she asked me a question that will likely haunt me the rest of my life:

“Lauri, when did you first know?”

She was inquiring about the gift (which often feels like a curse) I have of seeing, hearing and feeling EVERYTHING that is happening in our world. Her question took my breath away, first, in revealing to me that she SAW and BELIEVED IN my gift.  Second, because I had never really thought to ask myself the same question.

When did I first know that I was seeing, hearing and feeling EVERYTHING?

When I sit with that question, the image that comes forth is me clinging to my mother’s pelvis as the doctors were ripping me by the foot from her womb. It seems I already knew what I would hear, see, feel and know and I wanted no part of it! (Interestingly, my daughter who shares this gift with me was also born breech.)

Seeing. Hearing.  Feeling. Knowing.  A gift as well as a curse.  But as my friend SAW and BELIEVED IN my gift, I felt the “cursed” part fall away and what was left was only the gift.  I felt this gift wash over me as a blessing….as a prayer….as a benediction.  I suddenly saw, heard, felt and knew the blessing this gift has been to me, and to those I serve.  Most obvious to me is the way this gift has supported me in seeing, hearing, feeling and knowing my children.  Knowing them in a way that has allowed me to avoid the temptation of crafting my children into something I think I want them to be.  Instead, I have supported them in being who they are.  I suspect for many of my students and clients I have done the same.

This gift has also allowed me to hold our world in love. I see, feel, hear and know the evil and pain in our world….and I feel it into the depth of my being.  It HURTS.  And yet, I know this is not who we are.  Beyond the hurt, the ignorance, the evil in the world, I see the pain and beyond the pain I see the love.  We are all on this planet trying to find our way home and the only way we can find our way home is through love.

Love has found its way to me through seeing, feeling, hearing and knowing EVERYTHING that is happening in our world. Love is finding its way to you through your own unique gifts. So I will ask you the same question asked of me by my friend:

When did you first know the gifts that you possess that are showing you the way to love?

Posted in Initiation, self-actualization, spiritual awakening, Spiritual Development, Spiritual Formation

Spiritual Initiation: Standing at the Crossroads

The journey toward self-actualization is in fact, one spiritual initiation after another. Spiritual initiation takes place every time we are faced with an opportunity to remain in the perceived safety and security of what we have known or take another step toward the fulfillment of our life purpose.  The spiritual initiation is successful when we move through the fears and ego attachments that seek to keep us imprisoned within our small selves and away from the expansion we are driven toward by our Soul.  Some of these initiations are small and some are so significantly huge that we soon become aware that we are facing a major crossroad in our life.  It is at these crossroad moments that our spiritual practice becomes even more critical, as does our diligent attention to these practices.

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Stephanie Azaria in Monday’s post in her column “Cosmic Consciousness” had the following to say about the crossroads:

“…a crossroad is a series of four very specific paths that are all equally available to us when we approach them from the observer’s perspective. We can send our conscious awareness down all four roads at the same time until the heart begins to resonate fully with one (or more) of these paths.  At that time we can take action to follow that road knowing it may or may not be permanent…..such is the way of the new world.  Nothing is permanent.”

A crossroads occurs when the life we have known has come to an end and the new life has not yet revealed itself. It is a time of spiritual initiation ripe with opportunity and danger.  At the crossroads, possibilities seem endless and many opportunities (or twinklings of opportunities) may present themselves.  At this stage, none of these possibilities are yet fully formed, so a decision (or even a discernment) cannot yet be made.  Some of these possibilities will die on the vine.  Some are not in our highest good or reflective of our soul’s purpose and therefore should not be pursued.  And some are just beginning to grow roots so are not yet strong enough to support our unfolding.  For these reasons, pursuing or chasing after possible opportunities prematurely will only end badly.  We will know that the opportunity is not yet ripe if in its pursuit we find it either drawing away, or find ourselves coming up against a brick wall. Instead of requiring effort, opportunities that are ripe and good for the soul will fall into our laps in a miraculous and effortless kind of way.

While the crossroads is ripe with possibility, it is also rife with danger. This is true for it is at the crossroads where we make our deals with the devil.  At the end of what has been, we are vulnerable and afraid. We have left behind (or are being asked to leave behind) what has been so as to replace it with something that is not yet known.  It is in our human nature to crave surety and to long for “the same.”  When we have neither of these creature comforts, we grow anxious, worried, and fretful.  Often, our first response is to bargain for the old life to be returned.  “Please let me go back to…….(insert relationship, job, home, etc. here)….at least I knew what to expect there.”  But our Soul desires nothing if not growth.  As such, as much as we might want to, we cannot return to that which has already died…or which no longer supports our growth.  (Well….actually we can…..we just end up with a zombie like life along with the constant shame of knowing we are living an unlived life…mind numbing substances and behaviors come in handy here as we try to escape our true feelings about the unlived life we have chosen).

After bargaining, we must now face the possibilities that lay before us. Some will be known.  Some will only be twinkles.  And MANY will be the paths which lead us only into the “devil’s trap.”  These are the paths which are ruled by fear and/or which tempt us through our ego attachments.  Those paths ruled by fear are the possibilities that are based in our unhealed and unresolved fears:  fears over money, time, acceptance by others, belonging, etc. etc. etc.  When we choose a path that is ruled by fear (I’m afraid that the path of my Soul won’t make me any money, so I’m going to find a path that insures at least a regular paycheck…..whether or not it has anything to do with my gifts, my mission or my purpose in this life…..), this is the devil’s trap.  The result of choosing this path will only be more fear and a deepening sense of imprisonment.  Those paths ruled by the ego are those which tempt us through our desire for fame, power, control and material wealth…..in other words, “the lifestyles of the rich and famous” – another of the devil’s games.  While fame may be an outcome of pursuing our Soul’s path, this will not be true for all, and the path of our Soul is never driven by our desire for fame. In the quest for the Soul, we must always check our ego at the door.

When we find ourselves at the crossroads or spiritual initiation we are vulnerable. We feel insecure and afraid.  The possibilities might seem overwhelming and our fears are running rampant.  The crossroads is the devil’s playground, but it is also the domain of our Soul.  At the crossroads, the Soul is seeking after and longing for its natural movement toward growth and it will not rest until the appropriate path for its growth reveals itself.  Until that happens, the Soul is restless….making us even more vulnerable to the “devil’s trap.”  At the crossroads, our spiritual practices become even more critical, along with our resilience in the face of temptation and our diligence in tending to these practices.  While at the crossroads we must not act, pursue, chase after or be tempted to make something happen.  Neither should we make any decision based in fear or arising out of the ego.  Instead, there is only ONE THING we can do when standing at the crossroads….and that is WAIT. Wait and watch.  Observe and discern.  And when the waiting and inaction become excruciating (which they will)….we wait some more.  For it is at the crossroad where we endure the greatest of all tests in our spiritual initiation …the test of whether we can wait long enough for the path of our Soul to arrive and the next stage of our life to begin.

Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS is a trained spiritual director and spiritual counselor, transformational educator, ordained interfaith minister and published author. Lauri supports the spiritual awakening and self-actualization of humanity and does so through one-on-one mentoring, writing, online classes and workshops.  Contact Lauri at lauri@authenticfreedomacademy.com to learn more.

Posted in Being Human, Empowerment, Initiation, Lessons, self-actualization, Spiritual Formation, Spiritual Practices, temptation

What We Do in the Shadows

In response to Monday’s blog, You Can Run But You Can’t Hide, Dennis Fuhr, a frequent commenter on this blog shared some profound observations and questions:

Your piece has led me to think a little more about the darkness, the shadows. One the one hand there is deep, impenetrable darkness alluded to in the parable of the eye being the lamp of the body. On the other hand, there seems to be a redemptive kind of darkness. It has a richness about it, almost a quieting feeling. We are forced to abandon our fretful, thrashing-about state and thereby regain some of our energy simply by being in a somewhat anesthetized mode.

Just as I have never thought about the shadows in the way that you mentioned, so I have not thought about darkness as having any redeeming qualities. Either you are in the light or not. There has been no middle ground, so to speak.

My final thought is that even the darkness that may seem to be so definitive for us, God’s grace and Presence can penetrate in ways that we do not fully understand. The shadows seem to be so real and discouraging yet God, who is all in all, has it covered.

 

First of all, thank you Dennis for speaking what we all long to know: What is this shadow world about anyway and what are we to do with it?

As you suggest, we cannot have light without darkness, brilliance without its shadow. As you also observe, for many (if not most) of us, we judge the darkness as “bad” and place it in direct opposition with the light.

But as the Psalmist once said:

In you, darkness and light are but one (Psalm 139)

We are the ones who judge the darkness as “bad,” forgetting, as you point out, the redemptive quality of darkness. As the sunflower full-well knows, the germinating seed is strengthened by its journey through the darkness – first by breaking through the shell of the seed, then finding its way through the density of the earth.  The plant needs the resistance of the seed and then the soil so that it might become strong, becoming what it was meant to be.

The same can be said for each of us. It is through the challenges, darkness, difficulties, losses, betrayals, disappointments of our lives where we have the opportunity to find our strength.  Without the challenges, we would never grow.  As one of my teachers once said, “When we stop growing we die.”  Amen sister amen!

As I understand it, from the perspective of the Divine, there is no judgment – no good or bad, light or dark. Everything simply “is” and as it is, it serves the purpose of our spiritual evolution.  In our early stages of development, we perceive the “darkness” as an obstacle, we feel victimized, we allow the perceived darkness to cause us suffering, and if we are able we either run from the darkness or ignore/repress it and then it comes out sideways in our compulsive, non-loving behaviors.

As we awaken and move through our spiritual development, we come to understand what the “darkness” is simply another aspect of the light. Instead of running from it, we face it head on – recognizing in its appearance another opportunity for growth.  “Thank you sir, may I have another!?”

What all of this means is that we decide. We decide what to do with the challenges that come forth in our lives.  We decide what to do with the lost, suppressed, ignored, hidden rejected aspects of ourselves that want to come into the light.  We decide if we allow the perceived darkness to destroy us or to serve as simply another tool in our journey toward (as you said) redemption.  Salvation comes when we are able to find love in the midst of the now – no matter how that “now” might appear. In order to do this we have to be willing to go into our shadows, dive into the depths, confront and be with our fears.  As every true master has shown us, the only way we can find our light is to learn how to be with our dark and in this we learn that our dark is not dark after all.

If you are interested in learning more about working with your own shadow, Lauri is available for one-on-one consulting/coaching.  Email lauri@authenticfreedomacademy.com to schedule your own private session today. 

 

 

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, building the new world, Christ Consciousness, Empowerment, Initiation, Inspiration, Jesus, Magic, Oneness with God, priestess training, Spiritual Formation

We Are All Called to Be Priest

Yesterday morning, I had the great honor of ordaining six women as High Priests in the Order of Melchizedek. In addition to having already completed the Authentic Freedom Mastery program, and for several, The Magdalene Priestess Training, these women committed themselves to eleven months of diligent study in the ancient, alchemical rituals and practices of the gnostic Christian tradition.  The intention and purpose of these studies is Union – union with the Divine, union within ourselves, union with all of humanity and union with all of creation.  The end result of these studies and the purpose of the ordination are to accept the call, and become empowered in the task of being a vessel of the Divine and being of service to the Divine intention of love.  In being a vessel of and servant to Divine love, we become agents for healing and transforming our world. This is the priesthood that we are all called to embody.

Each and every one of us is called to be priest – not in the sense of what we currently understand priesthood to mean. Instead, we are all called to be priest as Jesus was called to be priest:

In the days of his flesh, Jesus offered up prayers and supplications, with loud cries and tears, to the one who was able to save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. Although he was a Son, he learned obedience through what he suffered; and having been made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him, having been designated by God a high priest according to the order of Melchizedek.  HEB 5: 7-10

Jesus did what we are all called to do. In following his longing, he discovered God.  Jesus discovered an intimate relationship with that which he called “Abwoon,” – a relationship what he experienced as parental and which he felt as unconditional love.  Surrendering to the embrace of this love, Jesus found wholeness and was healed of what might have otherwise kept him from this wholeness (tempted in the desert for 40 days).  In being healed, Jesus discovered his original nature as One with God in love and within this love, discovered the call to go forth, sharing what he learned with others and healing people along the way.

Jesus did not provide this example and model so that we might place him on a pedestal, separate from us, and something to be worshipped. Instead, Jesus adhered to his calling and remained diligent in his task so that others might also be free.  It was in his Oneness with God where Jesus discovered his freedom – a freedom that allowed him to look beyond the outside perceived authorities to the Truth within and in knowing this Truth, accepting the fullness of his call – to be a vessel of Divine Love and being of service to this love so that world might be healed and transformed.

For those raised in the Christian tradition, Jesus was just the beginning. Salvation did not end when Jesus was raised from the dead.  Instead, the process of salvation continues.  Jesus provided the model and we are called to continue the work that he began those many years ago.  Whether we call Jesus our teacher or not, the invitation is the same.  We are all called to be priest:

  • Following our longing to the Divine within.
  • Discovering our Oneness with the Divine in love.
  • Allowing ourselves to be healed and transformed of the inner fears and unhealed wounds that might remain as obstacles to knowing and being the love that is our original nature.
  • Being a vessel of Divine Love.
  • Being of service to this Love so that the world might be healed and transformed.

 

How are you living out your own call to being priest?

 

The Temple of the Magdalene and Authentic Freedom Academy provide resources and tools in support of your own call to be priest, specifically through the Authentic Freedom Mastery and Magdalene Priestess training programs.

Stay tuned for the Order of Melchizedek training which will be live in 2018 (completion of the Magdalene Priestess Training is a pre-requisite for admission into this program).

 

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Empowerment, Healing, Initiation, Lessons, temptation

When the Devil Comes to Call

 The closer we move toward our Soul’s purpose, the harder the “devil” works against us. I don’t mean the dude in the red tights with horns carrying a pitchfork who is really the Christian appropriation and demonizing of the pagan fertility god.  I mean the “devil” that resides within all of us.  Another name for this devil is the ego or false self.  Or as identified by our Hebrew ancestors – satan, meaning inner adversary, or from the Latin Lucifer, meaning light-bearer.

There is great wisdom in acknowledging this inner adversary as a light-bearer, as it is most often in our darkness where we discover our light. That is, when we have the courage to face the darkness and be present with and in it so that the light can be revealed.  For the devil isn’t here to tempt us, though tempted we will be, the devil is here to help us grow.

Robert E. Place, "Gnostic Tarot of the Saints"
Robert E. Place, “Gnostic Tarot of the Saints”

Growth doesn’t come without challenge or pain. Ask the sunflower or the oak tree what obstacles they had to move through becoming their most fulfilled and fruitful self.  The same is true for us.  When we awaken from our human slumber and realize that the things “out there” are not providing us with fulfillment, peace or joy, we turn our gaze inward.  As we turn that gaze within, we discover all kinds of unhealed wounds from our past, unacknowledged fears, unrealized dreams.  If we are courageous, (or if life leaves us with no other option) we then embark upon the deep soul work of bringing all these areas of inner darkness to the light so that they can be healed and transformed, finding within this transformation the treasure in the darkness.  This is what brings us toward our soul’s purpose and the life of meaning and fulfillment that we all long for and that our Soul intends for us to experience in this human experiment.  It is ultimately the Soul’s longing to be fulfilled that brings us to this task.

The “devil” in this journey is the inner vehicle that brings all of our fears and unhealed wounds to light. It is our job to recognize these fears as they arise and take responsibility for these fears. Most often, these fears arise in us due to outside triggers.  Something or someone shows up in our path reflecting our fears.  Maybe it is the stack of unpaid bills on your desk.  Maybe it is someone seemingly accomplishing something you wish you could do.  Perhaps it shows up in an infringement of boundaries, or in the form of rejection.  However it shows up, we can know an unhealed wound or unacknowledged fear has been triggered by the reaction we experience in our bodies.  Perhaps the hair stands up on the back of your neck, or your belly constricts, or you feel the hot pain of rage boiling up in you.

Whatever that inner reaction might be….DO NOT ACT. Instead, recognize it for what it is – the devil, Lucifer – showing up to reveal to you your unhealed fears.

Then….NAME the fear for what it is – fear of lack, fear of your own insignificance, fear of powerlessness, fear of not being loved, fear of not being able to express your truth, fear of not knowing your truth, fear of being alone. NAME the demon, and it no longer has power over you.

LOVE that fear. Sit in the discomfort of the fear.  Hold it in love.  In being with it and holding it, the fear gets what it has always needed, to be acknowledged and loved.  And then the fear is transformed and we are now free of that face of our fear.

THANK the fear. Thank Lucifer, the devil, satan, the ego, the false-self, whatever you want to call it, for helping you to grow and helping you to take one step closer to the life you came here to enjoy – one of contentment, joy, fulfillment and love.

 

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Authentic Freedom Academy, Being Human, church, Empowerment, Initiation, Jesus, Spiritual Formation, Spiritual Practices

My Sacred Heart

In a moment that can only be thought of as pure, Divine intervention, the image I use to represent Authentic Freedom transformed from alternatively, hands releasing a dove in flight, or the hallowed halls of an academic institution, to a modern/abstract interpretation of the Sacred Heart. This could not be more appropriate – reflecting both the journey that got me here and the gift that I bring to the world.  Ironically, both are one and the same:  turning my/your world from fear into love.

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This journey began in the Catholic Church, the origin of the image and devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary – a devotion I never quite understood. Apparently I am not alone in this as my son once inquired, “Mommy, why does Jesus have a strawberry on his dress?” I had no reasonable response other than to laugh my butt off (mind you, while in the front row at mass with the priest glaring at me) over the innocent truth of a child!  Out of the mouths of babes!  Why was Jesus wearing a strawberry on his dress?

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Researching the devotion to the Sacred Heart provided no further guidance, in fact, I found myself even more confused. I find I am left to my own devices in articulating what the Sacred Heart means to me.

 

My Sacred Heart

A heart that has been tested in the fires of the human experience.

That has suffered loss, disappointment, condemnation, rejection, ridicule, false accusation, abandonment and betrayal.

A heart that has been brought to its knees by doubt and despair.

A heart that has been traumatized and struck with terror.

A heart that has been alone and afraid.

A heart that has been broken.

A once stony heart, broken open, pouring out all my attachments and ego-fixations:

My desire for riches and fame

My need to be perfect and right

My self-righteous anger and indignant pontificating

My harbored resentment and projected blame

Emptied of all it had been and all it had known so that it could be made new:

A new heart I will give you, and a new spirit I will put within you; and I will remove from your body the heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. (Ezekiel 36:26)

For support in finding your own Sacred Heart, check out the Authentic Freedom Mastery Program.  Click on the image below to learn more:

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Posted in Authentic Freedom, Empowerment, Enneagram, Initiation, Jesus, Oneness with God, self-actualization, Spiritual Formation

The Secret Tradition of Christian Alchemy

Authentic Freedom – the Secret Tradition of Christian Alchemy

Christian Spiritual Alchemy is the initiatory process through which human consciousness is transformed from fear into love; from perceived separation into Oneness. This is the process Jesus mastered and then shared with his disciples, Mary Magdalene in particular.

As the orthodox interpretation of Jesus’ message took hold, spiritual alchemy quickly went underground, hiding in plain sight, to be rediscovered by those who had “eyes to see and ears to hear.” Over the centuries, the secret tradition of Christian Spiritual Alchemy found its way into the works of the Desert Mothers and Fathers, St. Benedict, Francis and Clare of Assisi, Ignatius of Loyola, Teresa of Avila, John of the Cross, Meister Eckhart and Julian of Norwich, to name a few.

Authentic Freedom, as it was revealed to Lauri Ann Lumby, under the guidance of the Holy Spirit with the support of Jesus and Mary Magdalene, is a modern reinterpretation of this secret tradition – integrating Christian contemplative practices with Eastern Energy Medicine and Western Psychology, providing a tool that speaks to people of all beliefs in an increasingly pluralistic world. Here the truth of universal love is revealed and made real in the lives of all who complete this initiatory process.

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Authentic Freedom – the Secret Tradition of Spiritual Alchemy

Taking a non-dual approach to transforming consciousness.

Harnessing the rich tradition of Christian mysticism and contemplative prayer.

Employing the latest research in psycho-spiritual development in support of your self-actualization.

Utilizing mindfulness and creativity practices to facilitate healing, transformation and growth.

LIFE CHANGING!

 

Authentic Freedom consists of four courses which are recommended in the following order (click on the highlighted text for complete course descriptions):

whats-your-magic-lauri-ann-lumby-300What is Your Magic – Discovering Your Spiritual Gifts?

Discover your own unique gifts—the gifts you have been given to experience meaning and purpose in your life and through which you will find fulfillment for yourself and in service to the betterment of the world.

 

 

heart mixed medium painting with flames blue canvasAuthentic Freedom – The Secret Tradition of Christian Spiritual Alchemy

Learn the seven core fears that prevent you from being your most magnificent and fulfilled self, along with proven tools for moving through and overcoming those fears.

 

 

aramaic-lords-prayer-course-iconDeepening Freedom- The Aramaic Prayer of Jesus

Learn and apply the Aramaic Prayer of Jesus as a powerful tool for moving through the fears and inner obstacles for living your truth and fulfilling your life purpose.

 

 

 

living-in-freedom-enneagram-lauri-ann-lumby-300courseiconsquareLiving in FreedomChristian Spiritual Alchemy and the Enneagram

Exploring the Enneagram as a tool for self-empowerment and as a resource for balancing your fear-based perceptions and behaviors, ultimately harnessing your Soul’s purpose as a reformer, helper, achiever, muse, sage, strategist, enthusiast, champion or peacemaker.

 

To learn more about pricing and registration options, please click HERE.

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Posted in Initiation

Visions from Glastonbury Part 1

This week, I am continuing to apply the Hildegard of Bingen cure for migraines, vertigo, anxiety, depression and panic attacks.  Specifically, I am sharing a series of poems that arose out of the MANY visionary experiences I had while on pilgrimage to Glastonbury, England (aka Avalon) in 2008.  The first is about my personal encounter(s) with Gwyn Ap Nudd, King of the Fae and Celtic Lord of the Underworld –  facilitator of shadow work and soul-retrieval and guardian and guide to those called along the shamanic path.

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Gwyn

Cernunnous, Gwyn ap Nudd, Hermes and Pan

By whatever name we call thee

God of the Underworld

King of the Fae

How am I worthy of thee?

Yet, here you stand

Antler-crowned

Calling me home

Home to the depths

To the world beneath the Tor

Through the gateway hidden in the depths of the White Spring

Lord of the shadows

Muse of the Soul

Priest of Change

On dragon’s egg, terror-struck

Resisting your call.

Drenched in sweat and trembling.

Your 2 am wake-up calls left unheeded.

Until the dream of the stag, injured and limping

Returning again and again beckoning me home.

Image credit:  Photo taken from inside the shrine to Gwyn Ap Nudd at the White Spring.  I have tried in vain to identify the artist.  If you are the artist, please let me know so I can give due credit!!!!  Thank you!   

Posted in About Lauri, Healing, Initiation, Inspiration, Jesus, Mary Magdalene, Mystics

Journeying to Find Our Soul’s Purpose

In the past nine months, I have tried everything to be healed of the migraines, panic attacks and then vertigo brought on by a virus that attacked my inner ear. While I have found some relief through a combination of herbal remedies, chiropractics, acupuncture and physical therapy, the symptoms are still keeping me from being as free as I would like to be (specifically, being able to drive on the highway….driving at fast speeds is a HUGE trigger).  When twice in as many months, “Hildegard of Bingen” came up for me through my spiritual director, I turned to her for guidance.  It seems she was plagued by the same symptoms when she was unable (or unwilling) to share her visions with the world.  So, I’m trying the Hildegard of Bingen cure for migraines…..I’m sharing my visions.  Here’s the one through which I was given the command to “Be the Magdalene.”  This vision came in April of 2014 while participating in a shamanic journey. 

 

The White Spring in Glastonbury, England
The White Spring in Glastonbury, England

The vision begins with me standing inside the well house at the White Spring in Glastonbury, specifically at the shrine within the well house to Gwynn Ap Nudd. At the back of the shrine is a limestone pool in which the flowing waters of the white spring collect on their journey to the other holding pools and eventually out to the collection pools on the street.  In the vision, at the back of the shrine is also a circular, iron portal, similar to a manhole cover, marked with the Vescica Pisces.  As in other recent visions, I approach the portal and dive into it, which then leads to a long tube, submerged in water.  I am swimming away from the shrine and toward the lower world, but as I swim, I find I keep turning back toward the shrine and away from the entrance into the lower world.  With each forward stroke, I find myself closer to the portal into the lower world, but then turn back.  I am making progress, but not quite reaching the portal into the lower world.  On a final approach, a hand reaches into the water from the lower world, grabs my hand and yanks me into the lower world.

I arrive in the lower world, dripping wet, and Jesus stands before me.  “You’re not supposed to be here,” I say to him, now wondering if this is really a journey or just my imagination, colored by my Christian fantasies.  But Jesus remains.  He then leads me through the meadow where the portal enters into the lower world and towards the woods.  Once we reach the woods, he leads me to the clearing where mouse (my power animal) waits and then he disappears.

raven-pixabayMouse instructs me to sit beneath a tree in the clearing and wait.  As I wait, a parade of animals and spirits present themselves – ones which have all been part of recent journeys – stag, snake, luna moth, bat, goddess and finally raven.  Raven is perched on a tree above me and holds in his beak all the parts of me he consumed in the last journey with him.  I ask my question, “What do I need to know to more fully live my soul’s purpose?”  Raven comes down and piece by piece by piece, puts the pieces he has consumed back on to me, as if reassembling me….but in a different order and in a new and different form.  It is like taking all the pieces of a puzzle and putting it together.  This is relevant to several discussions I have recently had with spiritual friends about being aware of bits and pieces of my purpose but not knowing how they fit together and that there is something that needs to happen to put it all together.

GothicCathedralKoln1Once I am reassembled, I climb on Raven’s back and we fly from the woods.  We fly across open territory toward an old gothic cathedral that stands alone in the middle of a wilderness of wide open fields.  The cathedral is dark in appearance, but not scary.  It feels ancient, the stones are rough, and a dark, charcoal grey.  They are the color of charcoal pencils.  We fly into the cathedral and immediately descend.  Down, down, down, through a series of ramps and chambers all the way to the bottom where the flight ends in a crypt of sorts.  A dark, stone walled room which seems to have an altar, some sacred objects.  The place feels close, intimate, sacred and forgotten.  It also feels holy….as if something very ancient and sacred is housed in this space. As I’m looking around, I am invited to go toward the back, right corner of the crypt.  In a recessed area in the wall, there is a standing skeleton wearing a red cloak.  The skeleton is ancient.  I am told to step into the skeleton and the cloak.  I step into them and we become one.  As I step away from the wall, one with the skeleton and cape, I look down and see there is a gold ring on my right index finger.

I ask my question again, “What do I need to know to more fully step into my soul’s purpose?”  As I finish asking, a man steps to my side and takes my arm.  My sense is that we are a couple – romantic, but also partners in our life’s work.  For our purpose to be fulfilled, we have to come together.  We leave the tomb through the front door of the cathedral (no need to ascend, we’re just there).  We open the doors to a throng of people who enthusiastically receive us with cheers.  It is a bright, sunny day filled with light.

Mary Magdalene by Catherine E. Case
Mary Magdalene by Catherine E. Case

From that space, I immediately find myself back in the clearing alone with mouse and I ask, “Ok, now what do I need to do to get there?  To make this happen?”  I’m still the skeleton woman with the cloak, the image I get is like the Day of the Dead masks and makeup.  “Be the Magdalene” is that mouse says to me.  Then I am instructed to be with the Magdalene, to feel her energy and feel and think of what it is to be her. I sit in this receiving for a long time…it feels like a transmission, a transference, an immersion.  I am the Magdalene and I am becoming more of her.

After awhile, the return drumming begins.  I feel myself yanked from the clearing and as I am being pulled toward the return tunnel, I feel the Magdalene drop something into my left palm.  When I arrive at the other end of the tunnel in Gwynn’s shrine, I find a rough, raw, faceted garnet in my hand.

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