Posted in End of the World Prophecies, grief, New World, world changes

Facing the Death of the Global Empire

As an empath, shadow worker, Reiki master practitioner and energy healer, I am often called to stop whatever I am doing and send healing energy/intentions and prayers to someone or something in need.  This morning was one of those times.  I was at the yoga studio intending to do my Monday morning yoga practice when my body became completely immobilized.  I found that my body could only sit with my hands held in Reiki position.

As in the times I am sharing Reiki professionally with those who need it, as I was holding the Reiki position, I began to see images and receive feelings of who/what needed this healing.  I was not surprised to learn that it was the world.  The people of the world are afraid and justifiably so.  The global empire is collapsing, and it is the United States which is at the center (perhaps even the cause and the effect) of its demise.

My purpose here is not to provide a political discourse on the global history of conquest or man’s (gender intentional) competition for power.  It is to speak to those who are afraid because whether they are aware of it or not, the world around them is dying. I’ve been seeing the symptoms of this collapse and have written about it for years.  In a nutshell – that which was established on a model of fear/power/oppression and control is collapsing.  And THANK GOD/DESS.  We are facing the inevitable end of an unsustainable system.  And if the system doesn’t destroy itself, the human race will be facing its own destruction.  So yes, this is a necessary (for our survival) death and many, if not most, are ill-equipped to identify, let alone manage, the inherent human response to death.

For those who are familiar with the grieving process, we are witnessing a collective grief response.  This explains every over-reaction we are witnessing in American culture:

  • Increasing attention to the shadow aspects of our culture (racism, sexism, genderism, nationalism, religionism, etc. etc. etc.)
  • (violent ones especially).
  • The ongoing argument over mask or no mask.
  • Real news vs. fake news vs. conspiracy theories.
  • And just the simple increasing division among human beings. When everyone seems to be taking sides, you can bet we are facing the death of something.

All of these proportionate and disproportionate (especially the disproportionate) reactions are quite simply a collective response to death.  If there is one thing that death does to us is trigger our need to have control; and if there is one thing we know about death – WE ARE NOT IN CONTROL.

We are not in control of the death of the global empire.  We cannot stop it.  We cannot hasten it along.  We cannot prevent it or assuage it.  There is absolutely nothing we can do but stand back and watch it happen. For most humans, this is easier said than done, if not downright impossible.  Unless we have sought this knowledge on our own, we have not learned how to deal with grief, let alone the death of an entire global system.  Neither have we been trained in how to let go – unless we have been one of the (un)fortunate ones who have had control ripped from our cold, dead, fingers.

So what do human beings do who don’t know how to let go – they seek to manipulate and control.  Hence the increasing chaos we see in our nation and therefore in the world. Human beings do not know how to die.

But there are ways that we can help each other in this dying.

  • We can begin to speak about the death of the global empire.
  • We can begin to acknowledge any fears or anxiety we might have around this death.
  • We can begin to transform those fears through meditation, mindfulness, depth and shadow work, healing practices and just the plain act of talking about it with each other.
  • We can acknowledge the faces of grief and become attentive to what face of that grief we are currently experiencing: shock, denial, bargaining, depression, anger, sorrow, acceptance.
  • In identifying the face of grief, then we can begin to work with that face of grief, bringing ourselves into the acknowledgement of our own sorrow over the dying and weep for what has been and will be lost.
  • We can try to hold our brothers and sisters in compassion, refraining from judgment in recognition of the grief they are perhaps not even aware they are facing.
  • We can hold each other in love.
  • While burying the dying system, we can pray for humanity’s healing.
  • We can look forward in hope for the new world that is already making itself known and which will fully emerge after the old world is put to rest.

 

 

Posted in building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, grief, world changes

It’s Really Ok to Grieve

There is absolutely no doubt in my mind that we are currently traveling through the death of the world as we have known it.  I also know that death, in this case, is not an ending.  Instead, as the old world is imploding upon itself, a new world is beginning to be born.  While we may have hope in the new that is coming forth out of this dying, it is also important to grieve.

Grief is the miraculous process that we have been given to move through that which is ceasing to be.  Grief creates the pathway through which we can release the old while making way for the new.  Grief, when engaged in fully, also helps to heal us from the loss so that we might be open to receiving the new life that is promised on the other side of the death.

The process of grief has been said to present itself to us in the following faces:

  • Shock
  • Denial
  • Bargaining
  • Depression
  • Anger
  • Sorrow
  • Acceptance

As it relates to the death our world is currently facing as brought forth through Covid-19, humanity is wavering somewhere between the stages of shock, denial, and bargaining.

Shock is the feeling we are all having as our lives have suddenly experienced a dramatic change.  Holy crap – this sh*t is real!  For many, (myself included), our lives have simply stopped.  With shock, all we can do is acknowledge the dramatic change while attempting to find our way into and through it.  As wave upon wave of new (and sometimes false) information comes our way, we may find our shock retriggered.  Again, acknowledge the trauma of the shock while trying to find a “new normal” for yourself.

Denial is when we don’t believe it’s real.  This is the state the U.S. was in for weeks/ maybe months as the virus was devastating other parts of the world, but hadn’t yet impacted us.  Many continue to be in denial over the potentially critical nature of the virus and the fear that many are experiencing as a result.

Bargaining is the stage that seems to be most apparent right now.  Bargaining is often characterized in a literal sense as in bargaining with God over the fate of a loved one.  Bargaining is also recognized in:

  • Desire for information: If we could only find enough information and the right information around this virus we will all be ok.
  • Attempts at control: Trying to find ways we can control the virus and the life we are living in the face of a pandemic. Some recent examples include:
  • Arguing over the perceived loss of civil liberties.
  • Protesting the stay at home orders.
  • Arguing for stricter stay at home orders.
  • Wearing masks/not wearing masks
  • Creating theories around what is true or not so that we can feel better (or in control)
  • Needing to be right.
  • Pointing the Finger of Blame: All the ways in which we criticize and condemn others for their response to the virus and our judgments around their response. This includes all the ways we shame others by telling them they are wrong.
  • If/Then scenarios: This somewhat falls into the control category. “If I wear my mask everywhere I won’t get it.”  “If I’m only with those who I know haven’t been exposed, then I’ll be fine.”  “If I think the right thoughts, take the right supplements, eat the right foods, then I will be fine.” 

 

All of these are natural human responses to grief.  There is no judgment of these reactions and none of them are wrong.  This is what we do when the world that we have known is suddenly yanked out from beneath us and we are left floating in the void of the unknown.  We are looking for something to hang on to, something that is concrete.  We grasp after the illusion of control when the world around us is completely outside of our realm of control.  We cannot delay the inevitable.  Neither can we stop it.

But there is one thing we can do to ease our fear and heal our pain:

LET GO

When we peel our grasping fingers off the throat of the dying world and allow ourselves to surrender to the unknown – this is where we find peace.  When we cease grasping after control, we will find that there is no risk of sinking into despair because instead, we will find ourselves being gently carried to whatever the new world might be for us.  When we let go we are able to grieve the loss of the old, find healing for our loss and be made ready for the new life that is silently calling to us from out of the depths of the void.

Where are you finding yourself in the grieving process?  What aspects of the dying world are your grieving?  What might you begin to let go of as you move through your own grieving process?

 

Posted in Being Human, building the new world, grief, Spiritual Practices, world changes

Surviving Social Distancing

As an introvert, social distancing is one of my superpowers.  I have honed and perfected this craft, while moving through all the challenges of being apart.  In this article I share what I have learned about the loneliness, grief and anxiety that come with being apart.

 

Loneliness

I have often felt that loneliness might be the core wound of the human experience.  Rooted in that first moment of separation from the cozy and safe room in our mother’s womb, we are forever yearning for our return.  We long to feel connected with another and to feel safe within that connection.  As most have come to discover, however, even our human connections do not fulfill the depth of longing we feel to be reunited with that which cannot be named.  We are forever seeking the satisfaction to that longing.  Existential loneliness is the angst we feel in the depth of that longing.  Loneliness is the universal human emptiness that is only further compounded during times of social distancing when we don’t even have our superficial relationships to distract us.  The key to dealing with loneliness is to face it.  As I learned during a 30 day loneliness practice, our loneliness has much to teach us about ourselves.  Here is the practice I employed to arrive at a place of being comfortable in being alone without feeling lonely:

Loneliness Practice: For this practice you will need a notebook or journal to record all that your loneliness wants you to know about yourself.  Set aside 10-20 minutes each day to simply SIT with your loneliness.  While sitting, close your eyes and bring your awareness into your body.  Move your awareness until you find your loneliness.  Focus your attention on your loneliness and FEEL it.  REALLY feel it.  Dive deep into the pit of loneliness and then give it a face.  Envision your loneliness in a form (mine takes the shape of the Little Match Girl from Hans Christian Anderson’s tale).  Once your loneliness takes a form, let it speak to you.  What does your loneliness want to tell you about yourself?  Most likely, it will show you past pains and hurts that are asking to be healed and released.  It may also show you your fears.  As these pains, hurts, fears, etc. come forward, acknowledge them.  See them.  Hold them in love.  Then let the pass.  Once they have passed, they have been released from your being and you are healed.  Continue with this process until it feels complete.  Then record your experience in your journal, along with any thoughts or reflections that might surface in your writing.  Note that your loneliness may also show you hopes and dreams that you have not yet fulfilled, or parts of yourself you have rejected or not allowed to come into being.  As these come forth, they are showing you the things you are now invited to explore or begin to make a part of your life.  DO IT.

Grief

As we are collectively experiencing social distancing, our routines are changing.  The things we used to do every day are no longer available (yoga class, the YMCA for workouts, the library, etc.).  Maybe our work situation has also changed (I know mine has).  With this change in routine, it is natural to experience grief.  Sadly, our culture does not give enough credit to grief – period – let alone the grief we experience in the simple face of change.  Change = Grief.  When grieving we will experience every face of grief:  Shock. Denial. Bargaining. Depression. Anger. Sorrow. Acceptance. Angst and restlessness will also be faces of this grief in the face of a change in routine.  Similar to loneliness, the best thing we can do with our grief is to BE WITH IT.  Identify which stage of grief you are experiencing and FEEL IT deeply.  Allow yourself to be in denial – to pretend this will all soon go away.  Indulge in your bargaining (which might look like restlessness).  Pace the floor.  Wring your hands.  When feel depressed, wallow in it.  Take a nap.  Allow paralysis to take you.  When rage hits you, let it out – in a safe way!  Dance it out.  Go for a run.  Grab a swimming noodle and whack the shit out of the basement or tile floor.  When you are sad, weep.  And if you find yourself stuck in depression, find a way to get angry (I listen to heavy metal music – my favorite being the group Disturbed).  Anger pushes through the depression and allows us to get at the true issue which is our sorrow over the loss of routine.

For more on dealing with grief, please click here.

Anxiety

Fear is a big one! There is so much anxiety around the Covid-19 virus itself, not to mention the anxiety that surfaces in the face of social distancing.  I will try to limit the anxiety discussion here to that experienced in the face of social distancing.

The key to anxiety is to first uncover its cause.  What is triggering our anxiety?

Is it loneliness (which we addressed above)?

Is our anxiety related to grief?

We may experience anxiety related to our finances or our everyday concerns:  How will we pay our bills if our work hours are reduced?  Who will care for my child when childcare centers have closed and I still have to work?  Where will I get toilet paper?  What if I run out of food?  What if I get sick?  Who will care for me?

We might also experience anxiety as it relates to boundaries.  If we are cooped up in our homes with our partners and children or roommates, we are bound to get on each other’s nerves.

Our anxiety may surface due to the news or social media.  There is a lot of fear out there and much of is unfounded.

We may also find that the anxiety being stirred in the face of current events is triggering old anxieties and unhealed wounds.

Talk about a can of worms.

 

The first step in managing anxiety is to understand that it is normal and biological.  This means that anxiety is not our fault.  It is simply a biological response to something triggering our fear.  Sometimes the fear is justified (being chased by zombies).  Sometimes it is a mis-fire.  (when we look more closely and discover what we thought was a snake is only a stick).  Excitement can also look like anxiety for those who are struggling with anxiety or panic disorders.

If you are being treated for anxiety or panic disorders, continue with your treatment plan, while employing some of the techniques I will share with you here.

 

            Meditation and Mindfulness Practices have time and time again proven to be effective in rewiring the part of the brain that governs anxiety and panic.  Through regular and diligent practice, the anxiety center of the brain (the amygdala) learns a new response to triggers, allowing the mind to act out of reason instead of panic in the face of non-life threatening fears.  Diligent and regular practice also builds a sturdy foundation of inner calm which reduces the incidence of being triggered by fear. To learn more about the many ways that you can practice mindfulness, take my online course Starting a Spiritual Practice which is available for FREE through the month of March.   Click on the image below to register and receive the free pricing.

If you are interested in the science behind Mindfulness and Meditation – email me your contact information with “Meditation Paper” as the subject, and I will send you a FREE copy of an academic paper I wrote on the topic which includes a list of verifiable resources.  My email is lauri@authenticfreedom.love.

Other practices that support us in managing our anxiety: yoga or any meditative movement practice, dance, exercise, eating well, creative projects, gardening, being outside, going for a walk and talking with our friends.  Since we may not have an opportunity to gather face-to-face, do the old fashioned thing of picking up the phone and giving your friend a call.  I just reached out to two of my friends for support as together we face what we do not yet know or understand.

As I am here for my friends, I am also here for you.  Watch this site for ongoing support as we move through the Covid-19 event, and please reach out for additional support if you need it.  One-on-one support.  Online classes.  Our online community. Books and more.

 

Holding you all in big love as we support each other through this life-changing event!

 

With love,

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lauri

 

 

 

 

Posted in grief, world changes

Mass Shootings – Today I’m Just Tired

Yesterday we heard news of our 251st, 252nd and 253rd mass shootings.  I don’t need to rehash the details here…..we all know – angry, hateful men with automatic weapons unloading their hatred on crowds of innocent people. People who are innocent in our minds, but guilty in the minds of the murderers for simply being born a certain race, religion, sexual orientation – or whatever other reason these domestic terrorists choose them as their victims.

And terrorists are exactly who and what they are.  As our nation claims to be fighting terrorism worldwide, the real terrorism is right here within our own borders, and the terrorists are U.S. citizens – the vast majority of them White. Men.

I could get into the politics of all this, or bring up questions about the second amendment.  I could go on and on about the socio-political, psychological roots of domestic terrorism.  I could talk about toxic masculinity.  I could bring up the fear, hatred, ignorance, etc. that causes one man to hate another.  I could discuss the stresses of our culture and the fear and anxiety that cause young men to kill others.  I could pull out the millions of threads that are at the heart of violence and hatred in America…

But quite frankly, I’m too f’ing tired.

 

Yesterday afternoon, I sat on my patio and cried.  I wept for every single thing that is wrong with our country and every single thing that has created the environment where 253 mass shootings can take place within a 215 day period.  I wept for the victims and their families.  I wept for the universal feeling of helplessness where literally the best we can come up with is “thoughts and prayers.”

What are we to do in the face of such a deep, pervasive, systemic issue?  Gun control isn’t the only answer.  And quite frankly, it might not be the answer.  If someone in this country wants to get ahold of a killing weapon, whether they are legal or not, they will find a way to get one.  (“The Troubles” in Ireland are a not too distant memory to remind us of how easy it is to get killing machines in a nation where guns are illegal.)

Even more pointedly, shooting people with guns has really nothing to do with guns.  It has to do with everything else that creates so much fear or hatred in another human being that they want to kill.  It has to do with everything that creates an environment that supports murder as the appropriate outlet.  It has to do with everything that deprives human beings of the ability to be formed into healthy, whole individuals with effective tools for managing their anxiety….and everything to do with a culture that supports separation over compassion and love.

In my heart and in my mind, it is our culture that is to blame – a narcissistic, self-centered, materialistic, consumeristic, individualistic, racist, sexist culture where “every man is for himself.” 

We have done this to ourselves.  We have created the culture and the environment in which it is possible to have 253 mass shootings in 215 days.  Seriously……WTF?

I’m tired.  Just tired.   And if you are reading this, I bet you are too.

Like many I know, I’m at a loss for what to do or how to respond.  The best I can do is pray (I do believe in the power of AUTHENTIC prayer) and choose NOT to live in that world.  I can make the choice for love, but until those who are part of the pervasive American culture choose otherwise, we will only have more of the same.

Today I’m tired and I’m sad for a world that continues to choose hatred over love, separation over connection, ignorance over understanding and fear over compassion.

I’m just tired.

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, Death, grief, Inspiration, Lessons, Spiritual Practices, Surrender

Big Endings Lead to Big Beginnings

 

Every day as part of my morning ritual, I pull one card from my Gnostic Tarot of the Saints deck (Robert M. Place 2001). For the past three mornings, I have pulled the Death card.  While the appearance of this card might strike fear in the hearts of many, I find the Death card to be a huge source of comfort.  Maybe it is due to my gifts as a shadow worker – a master in confronting and dealing with the parts of the human experience from which most would run.  More likely, it is because I understand that death is not death at all…it is simply the boundary between that which has (and likely needs to) come to an end and that which is waiting to be born.  As resurrection after death is the promise of Christian belief, so is it the promise of the tarot – in every death is the promise of new life – we need simply be open to receiving it.  Pulling the death card on three consecutive days suggests that the death one has just faced, or is currently facing is a HUGE one.  It also suggests that the new that is coming into being is equally as huge.

This must certainly be the case for me. As I have mentioned many times over, the past three years have been a DOOZIE!  Letting go.  Releasing.  Surrendering.  Letting go some more.  Complete surrender and supplication.  Many times in the past three years I have uttered the prayer, “WTF????!!!!”  My recent move has invited a HUGE release including many aspects of my work about which I had become comfortable.  Our new place is AMAZING and feels so much more like home and perfectly reflective of my vibe….and yet I find myself in the time between what has ended and what has not yet begun.  It is an insecure and uncertain time.  If the BIG MOVE and the BIG LETTING GO wasn’t enough, I recently went through an experience of something that seemed to be the fulfillment of a lifelong dream, only to have it turn to dust in my hands.  This brought forth an ending I had never anticipated along with a grief proportionate to that ending.

With all of this, it is no surprise that the Death card should appear. Again, while the appearance of this card might strike fear in the hearts of many, I am finding profound comfort in the presence of Death.  Death is saying to me, “Lauri, what no longer serves has come to an end.  You have surrendered these unto Me and now you are free of them.  Completely free.  You will no longer be burdened by those things that no longer serve your highest good and which no longer support the mission you are called to fulfill.”  As Death so lovingly stated, I feel completely free of these things and utterly at peace.

This is not all that Death has to say, however. “Lauri, now is the time for rest. As Jesus rested in the tomb for three days and three nights, so too are you invited to rest.  Be with what has been and allow yourself to be healed and transformed from what in the past may have harmed you.  As a caterpillar in the chrysalis, allow yourself to be made new.  As it was true for Christ, as is true for the caterpillar, the new can only be made in the depths of the darkness.  The new is not of your making and requires no effort on your part as like the caterpillar, it is a work that arises out of the depths of your Soul, coming forth from your own Divine blueprint.  In this you need do nothing.  Simply be.  Wait.  Be patient.  Trust.  When it is time to come forth out of your tomb, you will know it and you will come forth into a whole new world, the likes of which you cannot even imagine.”

To this I say, “Thank you Death. I welcome you with open arms and surrender into promise of new life.”

Big endings lead to even bigger beginnings…and to this I say, “Bring it!”

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, detachment, grief, Inspiration, Surrender

Saying Goodbye

A week ago Tuesday, I awoke to the voice of (I’m not sure who – Spirit, The Mother, God, My Higher Self) speaking these words to me:

Say Goodbye.

How appropriate these words are as I face the end of an era. The life as I have known it has drawn to a close and all that defined that life has come to an end.  Or rather, the purpose of that era has drawn to a close.  I am tempted to point to church stuff, changing the world, Mary Magdalene, etc. as being the purpose of the past nearly 20 years, but in truth, the deeper purpose seems to have been for one thing and one thing only –

My own healing.

While the externals that gave expression to the past 20 years has been about God, Jesus, Mary Magdalene, Church stuff, wanting to heal and change the world, creating a space in which people can find support in their own spiritual exploration and journey toward self-actualization……at the core of all of it has been my own healing. Every book I have written, every course that I have created came first out of my own personal experience of being open to the Universe giving me what I needed to find healing and in receiving this healing, discovering MYSELF. I then took what I found to be supportive and formed it into a structure that could be shared with others for the sake of their own journey of healing from their past so as to discover themselves. Looking at the lives of those I’ve supported, I have to say I think I’ve done a pretty good job (PS I’m pretty sure this piece is NOT coming to an end).

As this era comes to a close and is ritualized by a literal physical move (from the home we have enjoyed for the past 6 ½ years), I’m letting it all go. I’ve grieved through this transition.  I’ve said goodbye to cherished objects, personal labels, dreams of riches and fame, attachments to outcomes and even the hope of a specific kind of love and the dream of a regular life with a regular job.  I’ve grieved the loss of the home we have loved and in which not only myself, but my children have found healing.  I’ve grieved the loss of a routine that I’ve known.  And most importantly, I’ve grieved the loss of the familiar life in which I’ve lived which has been defined mostly by isolation, illness, depression, poverty and loss (bahbye!).

I do not know what is waiting for me on the other side of this transition, but I am grateful for what has been and open to the opportunities that will present themselves in this letting go. I figure if the Universe is inviting me into this depth of emptying, something ENORMOUS must be coming to fill its place.

To whatever that is I say “Hello.”

 

 

 

 

 

Posted in End of the World Prophecies, grief, Mystics, world changes

How I Know Where We’re Headed

  • -Because I’ve Been Here Before!

On Sunday this week, I posted my blog with the challenging question: Will You Survive the Collapse? It is not uncommon, after sending words like that into the ethers that people ask me, “How can you claim to know this?  How do you know?”  The unscientific response is, “I just know.”  But there is also a response based in science – specifically the science of applied knowledge gained through experience: I’ve been here before.

Now, I’m not talking about some whoo-whoo past life memory. I’m talking about experiences I’ve had in this life.  The experience is this:  nearly every single  company/institution I worked for, or with, went through some sort of cataclysmic change. Indeed, with this, you might call me the harbinger of doom.  But really, their collapse was not my fault.  I just happened to be there to witness it’s unfolding and the resulting collapse.  I was also there to be hospice to the dying and to remain, as long as I could stand it, as some other form was trying to be born.

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It happened waaaayyyy back in the day when I worked for AT&T. It happened when I worked for St. Mary Resort in Glacier Park, Montana. It happened with a local company who went through a massive downsizing.  It happened during my employment with the Catholic Church – not once, but five times, not including the cataclysmic change that happened under the reign of Joseph Ratzinger (aka Pope Benedict XVI).  And it happened with the University where I did my graduate studies.

In every situation, the pattern was the same:

A time of great hope and expansion struck fear in the hearts of those ill-prepared for change, which then inspired a longing for the nostalgia of some idealized past, quickly followed by a dramatic pulling back that ultimately led to the death of what had been known.

Each. And. Every. Time.

This is exactly what is happening in our culture today – only on a much larger scale. Not everyone sees this, as it requires Eagle Vision to see how we have come to this…and where we are likely headed.  Fortunately, Eagle Vision is one of my gifts.

We have experienced profound and dramatic changes in our culture – just in my lifetime:

  • Manufacturing has been replaced by information and technology.
  • Our definition of family and the family web has profoundly changed.
  • Our cultural awareness of diversity has greatly expanded.
  • We have become more mobile and our communication is now global.
  • Our economy has shifted from local to national and now global.
  • We have access to more information than any generation previous to ours.

As these expansions are happening, we are also finding that we can no longer trust those institutions we used to rely on for guidance and support. This includes the many institutions, with whom we used to place our trust, who are now in the midst of their own collapse:

  • Healthcare
  • Education
  • Banking and Finance
  • Government
  • Religion
  • Corporations
  • The Military
  • The Economy

With all of this expansion, and the dramatic change that is accompanying this expansion, those ill-equipped or uncomfortable with change, have pulled back. They are retreating into the nostalgia of some idealized past where everyone was “happy, safe, housed and fed” – a past that has existed only in their imagination. With this, we are witnessing an upsurge in ‘isms – sexism, racism, orientationism, nationalism, beliefism, etc. etc. etc.  Instead of taking responsibility for the anxiety being experienced in the face of change, fingers are being pointed and entire populations scapegoated as the “enemy.”

All of this is how I know where we are headed. I have been here before.  I also know what it takes to survive and move through cataclysmic change as I have accompanied hundreds through similar change.

  1. Be honest. Acknowledge the death that is happening and the fear that accompanies death.
  2. Be hospice to the dying. Support people in acknowledging their fear and the grief that is arising in the face of the loss.  Provide them with support in moving through the fears and the accompanying faces of grief (shock, denial, bargaining, depression, anger, sorrow).  In being hospice, DO NOT INSULT those who are grieving with frivolous distractions (for example, the “joy in the workplace” initiative recently launched by the administration of an institution who shall not be named which is facing its own collapse.  “Scared that your job might be eliminated?  Join us at noon and learn how to make a potholder.” WHAT!?) Instead, be with them WHEREVER they are in their grieving process.  (PS Institution who shall not be named.  I’m still here offering my services in change and grief management because from what I can see and what I’m hearing from your employees, clearly, “you don’t got this!”)
  3. Give them something to hope in.  With every death comes the promise of new life – for those who have the courage to believe and the willingness to see the glimpses of the new life that is arising out of the ash of the old.  Point out those glimmers of new life and encourage others to support that new life.

The demise of what we have known is already happening and will soon be accelerating. I know this because I have been here before.  If I am proved wrong, I will be the first to admit I was wrong and shout hurray at the glorious revival of western culture.  In the meantime, I’m here if you want to talk about your fears, process your grief, and gather the support which will help you move through the death to the new life that will, indeed happen, and is already happening.

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Lauri Ann Lumby holds a Master’s Degree in Transpersonal Psychology and is a trained Spiritual Counselor and Educator. She is available for one-on-one sessions and has created a wide variety of online courses to help support you through the death of the old world and the birthing of the new. Call (920) 230-1313 to schedule an appointment or email lauri@authenticfreedom.love.

 

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom Academy, Death, End of the World Prophecies, grief, Inspiration, New World, world changes

Will You Survive the Collapse?

As the Obamas bid their final farewells and we wait in anticipation for the next administration to take their place, there are many holding out hope that the new administration will usher in better days, making good on their promise to “Make America Great Again!” If they are able to make positive, life-giving change which is for the good of all Americans, I will be the first to shout “hurray!”  Unfortunately, this promised change is highly unlikely. As long as policy decisions are made on behalf of the 1%, by those whose pockets are being filled by the 1% (who have acquired their wealth through fear, power and control and who have done so on the backs of those they loathe (the poor, immigrants, people of color, Muslims)), nothing is going to change.  In fact, it will likely get worse – a lot worse!

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God Bless Donald Trump for believing he will have the power to restore our country to greatness, but he does not and will not have the power to do so. Why?  Because the President is not in charge.  There is a power much greater than our elected officials guiding policy – and we need only look as far as the failed Affordable Care Act to see how quickly great visions, intended to meet the needs of the collective, serve only to meet the selfish and greedy desires of the 1% (in this case, insurance and pharmaceutical companies).

The change that we are looking for will not come from the top. Positive, life-giving change, on behalf of the greater good, NEVER comes from the top because those on the top have too much to lose. Those of us on the bottom, however, have reached the point where we have literally nothing left to lose. Blood cannot be extracted from a turnip and with an economy based in debt there is no money to be gotten from those who are already so far in the hole they can barely see the light of day. So how, may I ask, does the incoming administration think they are going to pay for all these great programs, new jobs and walls they promise to build?  Print more money that is backed by nothing but air?  Good luck with that!

Instead of the change from the top many are looking for, what I suspect is coming our way is complete systemic collapse. And thank God! It is long past time that the world model based on fear, power and control, met its demise so that something more loving, kind, collaborative and unifying can take its place.  But first…the collapse.  How are we going to survive as the world we have known crumbles around us and the world we have been waiting to build has not yet found its legs?

We start by making a choice. We choose how we will respond to the world out there while making a choice in support of the world in here.

The world out there is that which is displayed in the media, which manipulates us through fear, which continually tells us we are not good enough, and then tempts us with “lifestyles of the beautiful, rich and famous.”  The world out there is reflected in the words and actions of our incoming president who perfectly reflects the shadow of our culture which we must now face – the shadow of racism, sexism, ageism, all matters of prejudice, scapegoating, white patriarchal and hierarchical privilege, greed, gluttony, lust (for power), arrogance, pride and wrath.  You name it, he embodies it…as do those he is gathering around him. (For the record….I’m not sure things would have been much better for Hillary….ultimately, both of them are puppets for the larger powers that govern policy).

How we going to respond to the world out there?  Are we going to allow it to manipulate us and throw us into terror?  Or are we going to recognize that what we are seeing out there is simply the old world dying.  The closer it comes to its own death, the louder, more extreme, more violent their tactics will be.  Our job is to see it for what it is, be conscious of how it might be triggering our own unhealed wounds, inner shadow and unacknowledged fears. Then we make our second choice: We go within.

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The change we all hope to see in our world will not begin from out there.  That change can only start from within.  THIS is how we will survive the collapse while being vehicles through which the new world is being born.

  • We will support ourselves in naming, claiming, and taking responsibility for our fears as they are triggered by the world out there in its death throes.
  • We will employ the resources we have for being present with, healing and moving through our fears.
  • We will gather in community with those of like-mind who also feel called to be a part of ushering in the new world.
  • And….we will be hospice to the dying world.

People will be afraid, very afraid.  The world they have been led to believe they could count on is in the midst of its own collapse. The structures they thought they could rely on for support will crumble at their feet.  If they have benefitted from the system of fear, power and control, what they have reaped will be torn from their grasp.

The world out there will need our help as they struggle to let go of what they have known in preparation for that which has not yet been revealed.

But, we can’t help them all. Many will cling to the old with their last dying breath.  Some will refuse to see the dying that is happening around them while clinging to the nostalgia of times long past.  Many will fear the work of going inward to the place of their grief as it might make them feel.  Some will prefer to believe that there is someone to blame and will seek ways to project that blame outward.  We can only be support for those who want our help.

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But first, we need to help ourselves:

  • Choose to recognize that the world out there is dying and that the fearful things we see out there are merely symptoms of its death.
  • Listen to the deep inner knowing of our hearts that remind us a new world is being born in the midst of the old world’s collapse.
  • Use the resources and tools we have for maintaining clarity, peace and hope in the midst of change.
  • Gather with like-minded folk who also know they are here to help usher in the new world while being hospice for the world that is dying.
  • Search your heart for how you are called to support those who are grieving the death of the old world.
  • Share your vision of the new world with anyone who cares to listen.
  • Be the love that you are and be that love in the world.

 

If you are living in the Oshkosh area, Authentic Freedom Academy provides many options in support of those who are here to help bring forth the new world while being hospice to the old as it is dying. Join us Monday evenings at 6:30 for our Weekly Service.

If you are outside the Oshkosh area, check out our online resources. Learn more HERE.

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, codependency, Empowerment, grief, Healing, Lessons, Spiritual Formation

My Purpose is Love

Finding the new life on the other side of the loss.

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2016 marks the end of a nine year cycle that began in 2007. For me, the theme of this cycle has been about endings – specifically, the end of my marriage and the end of my relationship with the Catholic Church.  Of course, both relationships will never truly be over as there are blood ties to both, but the process of the past nine years has been typical of the grieving process we must all face with every death/ending.  I have felt shock, denial, bargaining, depression, anger, hatred, fear and deep, deep, bone-deep/soul-deep sadness.  I have wandered back and forth between all faces of grief, finding my way through the losses, hoping and trusting (sometimes only hoping and pleading) that the excruciating pain was leading me toward some new life that I did not yet know, but is always promised on the other side of loss (if we believe the Easter promise).

To say these losses were excruciating would be an understatement. Both completely shattered and put into question what I believed my purpose to be on this planet.  I was certain that when I married it would be forever (ahhhh the naiveté of youth!).  I also believed that I would be forever content working in the Catholic Church and that the Church valued my gifts and the call that came with those gifts.  (hah!).

But then, I woke up. I woke up to the illusion of my marriage and my illusion of the Catholic Church.  I woke up, and it all began to fall apart.  Not because my former husband was in the wrong, not because the Church was wrong, but because I discovered what was right for me.  I saw the truth and could not bear living with the lie.  So, my relationship with both had to go.  And I can tell you this was the hardest letting go I have ever had to do.  But, this was only the beginning.

As I let go of one illusion, and then two, many, many, many more presented themselves and implored me for their release. The last two years, in particular, has been characterized by a letting go, the likes of which I have never known.  EVERTHING I thought I knew about myself, everything I had attached myself to, everything I hoped and dreamed of for myself and my children, EVERYTHING had to go.  Or rather, I had to be willing to let it go.  So I did….but not without some resistance.  And when I found myself clinging, the Universe made damn sure I let go, even if what I was clinging to had to be pried from my cold, dead, fingers.

As the end of this nine year cycle approaches I am conscious of all that I have let go and out of the debris of loss, a new life appears to be coming forth. It is a new life that I could never have imagined when this cycle started nine lifetimes ago.  This new life is as simple as it is profound – it is a new life defined by and recognized by one thing….and that is LOVE.

Out of the fear, the worry, anxiousness, hatred, rage, the desire for karmic retribution and some sort of Divine justice, deep bone chilling sadness, emptiness, loneliness, depression and all the ways I desperately wanted to wish and bargain it all away, LOVE is coming forth. Love of myself for who I am.  Love of the journey that brought me here.  Love for those who played their role with such perfection.  Love of all the ways in which I have grown and healed, and become a better version of myself because of the loss and all the ways in which I supported myself (and allowed myself to receive support) through this loss.  LOVE.

But not simply love as an inner experience or quality – LOVE as my own purpose and superpower! Because if there is one thing I have learned through this nine year cycle, every single time I wanted to hate, every time I wanted revenge, every time I wanted to harbor anger and resentment, my SOUL would not let me.  And oh, believe me, I have tried.  Over and over and over again, I was led to learn that LOVE was the only answer to all the pain.  LOVE was the only answer to my own desire to separate.  LOVE was the only remedy to my own inner sense of separation and the only path to FREEDOM.  If I truly wanted to be free, I had no other choice but to love – even when all I wanted to do was hate.  So love it was, love it is, and love it has become.

And now as I sit with this awareness of LOVE as the new life that came forth from two life-altering losses, and as this nine year comes to an end and we enter into a “10” year – a year of new beginnings, I wonder what else love will have me do.

Authentic Freedom is the process that I developed and then used to support myself through my waking up and the resulting loss.  Learn more about the Authentic Freedom Mastery Program through this FREE preview course.  Click on the icon below to register:

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Posted in Authentic Freedom, Being Human, Divine Revelation, God, grief, Inspiration, Jesus

We Are Our Own Saviors (or God Does Not Save Part II)

(Read Part I HERE).

It is an interesting thing when you suddenly realize that the “God” you were taught to believe in, put all your faith in and to whom you have devoted your life was never there for you. For me, this is a realization and an awakening that has been a long time coming, so when it showed up, I knew what to do with it.  I simply let the realization be and allowed the “old man in the sky God” to die.  With this death, I have allowed myself to be present to the grieving (rage, sorrow, mind-numbing paralysis, depression) as a “New” God is being born within me.

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But here’s the funny thing…..there is no “New” God being born in me, instead, it is the LOVE that has always been present within me, guiding me, supporting me, protecting me, comforting me, healing me, and loving me….taking center stage. This LOVE has always been there, whispering truth to me and showing me the way.

This LOVE is the “kingdom of God” that Jesus spoke of as residing “within and among you.” The “God” that Jesus knew was the LOVE that dwelled within him.  This “God” was also the LOVE that dwells within every human being.  This “God” is also the LOVE that made up and encompassed all of creation.  This is the LOVE that Jesus wanted all of us to know.

From a Genesis perspective, I think of it as: “God was (or is)” (spirit, source, energy, etc.) and then “God Became.” The Spark that is God split into a gazillion pieces and became everything we see in creation, including ourselves.  Jesus knew this “God” as “Love” and this “Love” is what dwells within us and IS us in our becoming.  I know, it’s a little mind-blowing….especially if all we ever knew before was the God “out there.”  But when we really think about it, we already know this God who is LOVE that dwells within us.  Let me offer a few examples of this knowing from my own life:

  • This LOVE told me who I could trust and who to be wary of.
  • This LOVE told me (tells me) when people are lying….it also tells me when I’m lying to myself.
  • This LOVE tells me when I am venturing down the wrong path, and it tells me through bodily sensations of unease and sometimes even guilt.
  • This LOVE told me NOT to get into the car of the strange man who offered to give me a ride as I was walking to the bus stop as a teenager.
  • This LOVE picked my foot off the gas pedal and slammed it down on the brake just in time to miss a van barreling through a red light at 60mph, saving myself and my children from sure death.
  • This LOVE helped me to recognize the educational opportunities that would support my Soul’s purpose.
  • This LOVE helps me to recognize the personal and professional opportunities consistent with my Soul’s purpose and gives me the courage and tenacity to pursue them.
  • This LOVE helps me to recognize those who will be my friends, supportive business colleagues and resources in support of my Soul’s purpose.

 

In short, this LOVE is ME trying to be ME – the ME that the “God spark” within me decided it wanted to be in deciding to be ME. This LOVE knows why it came here and who it came to be through me and it supports me in knowing and finding all I need to experience in order to be ME.  This LOVE also lets me know when I am entering into experiences that will not be supportive of the ME I came here to be.

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What is true for me is also true for you. We all KNOW this LOVE that is within us and we all hear the voice of this LOVE trying to support us in being who we came here to be.  We know this LOVE in the tiny whispering voice of our intuition.  We know this LOVE in those moments of deep inner knowing that guides us.  This LOVE communicates to us through our dreams and our imagination.  This LOVE helps us to recognize books, movies, TV shows that will feed us and which will bore us to death.  The key to knowing this LOVE is to PAY ATTENTION…..and TRUST.  It turns out, unlike the “old man in the sky God” who may or may not keep us safe or protect us from harm, LOVE will never lead us astray.  And when the consequences of the human condition (disappointment, loss, suffering and death) show up at our door, LOVE helps us find our way through, supports us in our healing, and helps us to find the new life on the other side of the loss.

It is through this LOVE that we find we are our own saviors and that in fact, there is nothing from which we need saving. The LOVE that dwells in us is simply here to be LOVE and to be that LOVE more and more each day.  When we embrace this truth we realize that all there is is love and that love is all there is.  Salvation comes when we realize this truth.