Posted in Death, Spiritual Direction

Oh Death

Borrowing from a popular song (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydrtF45-y-g) :

Let’s talk about death baby

Let’s talk about you and me

Let’s talk about all the good things and the bad things that may be

Let’s talk about death…..

As it has been said, there are two things that are certain in the human experience: change and death.  We have spoken at length about change, but we haven’t spent much time on the topic of death.  Death is certain and every day of our lives is a slow (or quick) march toward that death.  We cannot avoid it – our own death or the death of those we love and care about.  While death is certain, and could simply be viewed as an ordinary part of our human experience, it is also our greatest fear.

As we fear and resist change, so too do we resist and fear death. It may not be death specifically that we fear, but the inability to control, when, how and with how much pain (physical or otherwise) we experience death.  We also fear that which comes after death – if anything.  And perhaps more than the “if anything” we fear the possibility that this life might be all there is….that there is nothing waiting for us on the other side of death.  From a rational, objective, scientific perspective, we have no way to prove what there may or may not be after death.  What it there’s nothing!?

 

Every religious institution has its own beliefs about death and what comes thereafter. Some suggest that this life is all there is.  Others preach the ever-evolving wheel of karma and that we return to this life over and over and over until we have worked off that karma so as to earn enlightenment or nirvana.  Some suggest the purpose of the human journey is to grow spiritually and that we return until our eternal Soul has completed its growth.  Others suggest a place of eternal damnation.  Others suggest a place of eternal reward.  Some used to suggest there were places in between (limbo or purgatory), but both of these seem to have been eliminated in favor of heaven or hell.  Others believe in a hierarchical afterlife where only the very special chosen ones will receive the fullness of the heavenly reward.  The beliefs that human beings have developed around the idea of death are endless.  No matter which of these is true, we have no control over when death will come for us or how that death will happen (unless it is by our own hand)…..and this scares the hell out of most people.

Until it does not. In the Christian tradition, we are told that Jesus came so as to conquer death…..:

“Very truly, I tell you, we speak of what we know and testify to what we have seen; yet you do not receive our testimony. If I have told you about earthly things and you do not believe, how can you believe if I tell you about heavenly things?  No one has ascended into heaven except the one who descended from heaven, the Son of Man. And just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in him may have eternal life.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.

“Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.  John 3: 11-17

God, who saved us and called us to a holy calling, not because of our works but because of his own purpose and grace, which he gave us in Christ Jesus before the ages began,  and which now has been manifested through the appearing of our Savior Christ Jesus, who abolished death and brought life and immortality to light through the gospel, 2 Timothy 1: 9-10

 

…but what was the death that Jesus conquered? Jesus did die…(at least that’s what scripture and Christian doctrine tell us).  If Jesus brought eternal life, it is not an eternal life on this human plane.  Christianity then goes on to tells us that in his death Jesus guaranteed eternal life for “all who believe in him.”  But what about the rest of the world?  Are only Christians saved?  I very much doubt it. I personally believe we are all saved, but not in the way that has anything to do with a heavenly reward, or lack thereof.  Instead, it is not physical death and the “what comes after” that Jesus saves us from.  Instead, Jesus came to save us from that which prevents us from LIVING while we are right here, trying to get through this thing called life (Cue Prince).  Ironically, the way we make it through this human experience is to face down and move through this which we fear the most – namely death.

 

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Posted in Death, New World, Spiritual Direction, world changes

How to Survive Soul Death

The short answer to the question: “How do you survive soul death” is YOU DON’T. Soul death is what many are experiencing right now as we are facing the death of the world that we have known and the void between what we have known and what has not yet come into being.

Soul death can be recognized by:

  • Feeling as if you are weighted down
  • Life feels as if you are walking through wet cement
  • You feel heavy, depressed, unmotivated, paralyzed.
  • NOTHING seems to be happening in your outside world.
  • Inside you feel vacant and empty.
  • You feel the need to weep but you don’t know why.
  • It feels as if there is nothing to hang on to, nothing holding your attention or interest in this world.
  • You don’t want to die, but THIS doesn’t feel much like living.
  • You are SOUL WEARY. Exhausted.  Worn out.  Physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.
  • The spiritual practices that normally provide some measure of comfort feel empty and lifeless. They provide no relief.

Symptoms of soul death seem to be the common theme for sensitives at this point in our human evolution. The world we have known is dying (thank God) and we are in that void between what has been and what has not yet been brought forth into our lives and world.

There is no surviving soul death because death is the point. All that we have done, been, believed, been a part of in the old (patriarchal/hierarchical) world needs to come to an end.  We cannot leave the old world behind while clinging to what gave our lives meaning and purpose in that world.  Neither can we leave that world behind while clinging to the beliefs, structures, practices or habits that supported our survival in that world. It all needs to go.  It all needs to die. And that is terrifying.

Once we have allowed the death of all that has been, we enter INTO THE VOID! This is the state of complete emptiness where we know nothing and where WE ARE NOTHING.  This can be a frightening place – especially for those (like me) who seek after some measure of surety.  We long to have something to hold on to.  In the void, there is literally nothing, so there is nothing to hang on to.  Instead, our only option is to SURRENDER. Here, instead of resisting, we enter deeply into our soul death.  We allow ourselves to courageously face the darkness, the emptiness, the nothingness and to feel the deep pain of separation, knowing that this perceived separation is only an illusion for in the perceived darkness where it appears there is nothing, THERE IS EVERYTHING.  Everything that has ever come into form came into being from this place of emptiness.  In entering into the nothing we discover EVERYTHING.

Surviving soul death requires to us surrender to it….enter into it….be with and allow it. Survival comes in allowing the death and being with it every step of the way. Only then can the new life come into being.

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Posted in Death, self-actualization, Spiritual Development, Spiritual Formation, spiritual healing, Spiritual Practices

Entering into the Darkness to Bring Forth the Light

Last Friday I hit the wall. I found myself overcome with the darkness of our world, despairing over that which causes me pain, confusion, frustration and deep sorrow.  As I shared my experience, I was surprised (not really) by the deafening silence when speaking of the darkness.  The only thing interrupting the silence was a post by one arguing for the light. “Keep your chin up……” they said.  At the time, I DID NOT want to keep my chin up, or look for the silver lining in the cloud.  I needed to wallow in the darkness – embracing the depth of sorrow, frustration and pain.  Not for the sake of self-flagellation, but for the purpose of transformation.

As a shadow worker, I have come to understand that the only way to transform the darkness, both within ourselves and in our world is to enter FULLY into the darkness.  It is only by entering into the darkness that we are able to bring forth the light.  While optimism has its place, there is a fine line between “the bright side of life” and repression.  As the Buddhists say, “what we resist will persist,” so why not embrace the darkness so we can hasten our journey toward the light?  Why wait around looking for the silver lining when the only way to the light is through the darkness?

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Before I go on, I do want to thank one dear friend who shared her genuine concern that I had come to the edge of the cliff. For indeed I had…..just not the cliff she thought.  Instead, it was the cliff that my Soul Brother, Jared, invited me to jump off from, “Lauri, what would happen if you just allowed yourself to freefall?”  I thought I had been doing this, but apparently not enough.  So (after a two hour soul purging/transformation/healing chat with my Soul Brother) I let go AGAIN allowing myself to fall into the darkness and in falling into it, I fell through it.  I woke up this morning with a whole different attitude, and saw what had been in front of me the whole time.  Then while in yoga this morning, I was given the outline and kick in the pants I have needed for two years to finally get my Order of Melchizedek online training program off the ground.  (Official announcement coming soon!!!!)

The moral of the story is this: If you find yourself in the darkness, don’t run from it.  Embrace it.  As every shadow worker knows, on the other side of the dark (or within the darkness) is the light that has been there all along!

Or as the Psalmist said, “In you, darkness and light are but one.” (GO, there are so many ways to interpret that phrase!!!!)

PS Dear friends:  I promise if I have truly come to the end of my rope….I will definitely let you know!

Posted in Death, Jesus

Denying Death – Jesus’ and our own

Denying death seems to be the primary preoccupation of Western culture. Our religions reflect (or maybe inspired) this in their wholesale denial of Jesus’ death.  How can we stop denying death so that for once we might live?

As I was moderating and reflecting on the student discussions in my online Magdalene Priest and Priestess Training this morning, I began to wonder:

Have we ever really dealt with and appropriately acknowledged Jesus’ death?

Theologically, socially, collectively, I believe we have not. Very much in the same way that Western Culture collectively denies (or tries to deny) the very real truth that each and every one of us are on a slow (and in some cases hasty) march toward our inevitable death.

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Jesus was whipped, tortured, and hung on a cross to die the slow and painful death of crucifixion – the most painful and torturously slow deaths reserved by the Romans for only the worst criminals. Jesus suffered and died while Mary Magdalene, his mother Mary, a few other female companions and (perhaps) John watched. While the aforementioned accompanied and did their best to offer prayer and words of support for their beloved Jesus, the rest of the disciples were hiding in the Upper Room – afraid that by their presence they too might suffer Jesus’ fate.

Jesus died because 1) death is the inevitable outcome of the human experience. And 2) because some human beings are jerks.

But nowhere in our Christian theology are the aforementioned given as reasons for Jesus’ death. Instead, we are given platitudes like:

It was God’s will.

Jesus died to atone for our sin.

Jesus was the sacrificial lamb.

Jesus died to save us.

He’s in a better place.

At least he’s no longer suffering.

Blah Blah Blah.

What kind of God kills his own son so that we might be free??????? A jerk of a God, that’s what I think.  My God (as Jesus said) is a God of “mercy not sacrifice.”  My God is the prodigal Father/Mother who is standing with open arms waiting for his/her children to come home to the love that they are – never judging or condemning her/his children for BEING HUMAN – making mistakes so they might grow, exploring the world so they might learn, venturing away so they may return.  The God of love that I have come to know in my relationship with Jesus wasn’t the cause of Jesus’ death, human beings were.

As such, it was NOT God’s will that Jesus would die. There was no atonement or sacrifice needed for the “sin” of being human.  Jesus died for one simple reason – because some human beings are jerks.  They were afraid of who he was and what he tried to teach….so they killed him.  Period.  Death, as we all know, is the natural consequence of the human journey – some just get there earlier than others.

BUT…in Western culture, we live in a constant refusal of death…and I sometimes wonder if the source of this denial is a projection of the male disciples’ guilt for not having the courage to be a source of support for their teacher and friend when he was dying. We demonize and try to delay aging.  We plasticize and paint the bodies of our dead to make it appear as if they are still living.  We separate ourselves from the process of decay and death.  We avoid those who are ill or dying.  Then we do everything we possibly can to numb ourselves so that we don’t have to face the inevitable outcome of our human experience – which is death.

When we can no longer deny death, but still need to hold it at arm’s length, we come up with platitudes to make ourselves feel better – the very same platitudes our religion has offered us in response to Jesus’ death: It was God’s will, he’s in a better place, at least she’s no longer suffering.  If we believe it was God’s will, etc. then we don’t truly have to acknowledge the very real pain of death and the loss we experience because of it, or the guilt of having (for now) survived it.  Denying death by holding it at arm’s length allows us to deny the very real fear we all experience in the face of our ultimate demise.

We live…..so that we might die.

I don’t believe there is anything morbid or defeatist in acknowledging this truth. The journey of life is the same as the journey toward death….and we make of it what we will.

Jesus made the most of the life he was given. Then human beings took it from him.

We are given the very same choice. We can make the most of the life we are given until human beings, disease, an accident, etc. take it from us. God knows when we will die, but God isn’t the one doing the killing.  It is a natural and inevitable consequence of the human experience and the quicker we embrace this truth, the more free we are to enjoy what life has to offer. In accepting death, the fear of it no longer has power over us.  Herein lies the path to our true freedom…the same path that Jesus discovered when he overcame his own bargaining, denial, anger, fear and sorrow over death…and in this we can truly say that Jesus died so that we too might live.

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Posted in Authentic Freedom, Death, grief, Inspiration, Lessons, Spiritual Practices, Surrender

Big Endings Lead to Big Beginnings

 

Every day as part of my morning ritual, I pull one card from my Gnostic Tarot of the Saints deck (Robert M. Place 2001). For the past three mornings, I have pulled the Death card.  While the appearance of this card might strike fear in the hearts of many, I find the Death card to be a huge source of comfort.  Maybe it is due to my gifts as a shadow worker – a master in confronting and dealing with the parts of the human experience from which most would run.  More likely, it is because I understand that death is not death at all…it is simply the boundary between that which has (and likely needs to) come to an end and that which is waiting to be born.  As resurrection after death is the promise of Christian belief, so is it the promise of the tarot – in every death is the promise of new life – we need simply be open to receiving it.  Pulling the death card on three consecutive days suggests that the death one has just faced, or is currently facing is a HUGE one.  It also suggests that the new that is coming into being is equally as huge.

This must certainly be the case for me. As I have mentioned many times over, the past three years have been a DOOZIE!  Letting go.  Releasing.  Surrendering.  Letting go some more.  Complete surrender and supplication.  Many times in the past three years I have uttered the prayer, “WTF????!!!!”  My recent move has invited a HUGE release including many aspects of my work about which I had become comfortable.  Our new place is AMAZING and feels so much more like home and perfectly reflective of my vibe….and yet I find myself in the time between what has ended and what has not yet begun.  It is an insecure and uncertain time.  If the BIG MOVE and the BIG LETTING GO wasn’t enough, I recently went through an experience of something that seemed to be the fulfillment of a lifelong dream, only to have it turn to dust in my hands.  This brought forth an ending I had never anticipated along with a grief proportionate to that ending.

With all of this, it is no surprise that the Death card should appear. Again, while the appearance of this card might strike fear in the hearts of many, I am finding profound comfort in the presence of Death.  Death is saying to me, “Lauri, what no longer serves has come to an end.  You have surrendered these unto Me and now you are free of them.  Completely free.  You will no longer be burdened by those things that no longer serve your highest good and which no longer support the mission you are called to fulfill.”  As Death so lovingly stated, I feel completely free of these things and utterly at peace.

This is not all that Death has to say, however. “Lauri, now is the time for rest. As Jesus rested in the tomb for three days and three nights, so too are you invited to rest.  Be with what has been and allow yourself to be healed and transformed from what in the past may have harmed you.  As a caterpillar in the chrysalis, allow yourself to be made new.  As it was true for Christ, as is true for the caterpillar, the new can only be made in the depths of the darkness.  The new is not of your making and requires no effort on your part as like the caterpillar, it is a work that arises out of the depths of your Soul, coming forth from your own Divine blueprint.  In this you need do nothing.  Simply be.  Wait.  Be patient.  Trust.  When it is time to come forth out of your tomb, you will know it and you will come forth into a whole new world, the likes of which you cannot even imagine.”

To this I say, “Thank you Death. I welcome you with open arms and surrender into promise of new life.”

Big endings lead to even bigger beginnings…and to this I say, “Bring it!”

 

 

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom Academy, Death, End of the World Prophecies, grief, Inspiration, New World, world changes

Will You Survive the Collapse?

As the Obamas bid their final farewells and we wait in anticipation for the next administration to take their place, there are many holding out hope that the new administration will usher in better days, making good on their promise to “Make America Great Again!” If they are able to make positive, life-giving change which is for the good of all Americans, I will be the first to shout “hurray!”  Unfortunately, this promised change is highly unlikely. As long as policy decisions are made on behalf of the 1%, by those whose pockets are being filled by the 1% (who have acquired their wealth through fear, power and control and who have done so on the backs of those they loathe (the poor, immigrants, people of color, Muslims)), nothing is going to change.  In fact, it will likely get worse – a lot worse!

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God Bless Donald Trump for believing he will have the power to restore our country to greatness, but he does not and will not have the power to do so. Why?  Because the President is not in charge.  There is a power much greater than our elected officials guiding policy – and we need only look as far as the failed Affordable Care Act to see how quickly great visions, intended to meet the needs of the collective, serve only to meet the selfish and greedy desires of the 1% (in this case, insurance and pharmaceutical companies).

The change that we are looking for will not come from the top. Positive, life-giving change, on behalf of the greater good, NEVER comes from the top because those on the top have too much to lose. Those of us on the bottom, however, have reached the point where we have literally nothing left to lose. Blood cannot be extracted from a turnip and with an economy based in debt there is no money to be gotten from those who are already so far in the hole they can barely see the light of day. So how, may I ask, does the incoming administration think they are going to pay for all these great programs, new jobs and walls they promise to build?  Print more money that is backed by nothing but air?  Good luck with that!

Instead of the change from the top many are looking for, what I suspect is coming our way is complete systemic collapse. And thank God! It is long past time that the world model based on fear, power and control, met its demise so that something more loving, kind, collaborative and unifying can take its place.  But first…the collapse.  How are we going to survive as the world we have known crumbles around us and the world we have been waiting to build has not yet found its legs?

We start by making a choice. We choose how we will respond to the world out there while making a choice in support of the world in here.

The world out there is that which is displayed in the media, which manipulates us through fear, which continually tells us we are not good enough, and then tempts us with “lifestyles of the beautiful, rich and famous.”  The world out there is reflected in the words and actions of our incoming president who perfectly reflects the shadow of our culture which we must now face – the shadow of racism, sexism, ageism, all matters of prejudice, scapegoating, white patriarchal and hierarchical privilege, greed, gluttony, lust (for power), arrogance, pride and wrath.  You name it, he embodies it…as do those he is gathering around him. (For the record….I’m not sure things would have been much better for Hillary….ultimately, both of them are puppets for the larger powers that govern policy).

How we going to respond to the world out there?  Are we going to allow it to manipulate us and throw us into terror?  Or are we going to recognize that what we are seeing out there is simply the old world dying.  The closer it comes to its own death, the louder, more extreme, more violent their tactics will be.  Our job is to see it for what it is, be conscious of how it might be triggering our own unhealed wounds, inner shadow and unacknowledged fears. Then we make our second choice: We go within.

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The change we all hope to see in our world will not begin from out there.  That change can only start from within.  THIS is how we will survive the collapse while being vehicles through which the new world is being born.

  • We will support ourselves in naming, claiming, and taking responsibility for our fears as they are triggered by the world out there in its death throes.
  • We will employ the resources we have for being present with, healing and moving through our fears.
  • We will gather in community with those of like-mind who also feel called to be a part of ushering in the new world.
  • And….we will be hospice to the dying world.

People will be afraid, very afraid.  The world they have been led to believe they could count on is in the midst of its own collapse. The structures they thought they could rely on for support will crumble at their feet.  If they have benefitted from the system of fear, power and control, what they have reaped will be torn from their grasp.

The world out there will need our help as they struggle to let go of what they have known in preparation for that which has not yet been revealed.

But, we can’t help them all. Many will cling to the old with their last dying breath.  Some will refuse to see the dying that is happening around them while clinging to the nostalgia of times long past.  Many will fear the work of going inward to the place of their grief as it might make them feel.  Some will prefer to believe that there is someone to blame and will seek ways to project that blame outward.  We can only be support for those who want our help.

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But first, we need to help ourselves:

  • Choose to recognize that the world out there is dying and that the fearful things we see out there are merely symptoms of its death.
  • Listen to the deep inner knowing of our hearts that remind us a new world is being born in the midst of the old world’s collapse.
  • Use the resources and tools we have for maintaining clarity, peace and hope in the midst of change.
  • Gather with like-minded folk who also know they are here to help usher in the new world while being hospice for the world that is dying.
  • Search your heart for how you are called to support those who are grieving the death of the old world.
  • Share your vision of the new world with anyone who cares to listen.
  • Be the love that you are and be that love in the world.

 

If you are living in the Oshkosh area, Authentic Freedom Academy provides many options in support of those who are here to help bring forth the new world while being hospice to the old as it is dying. Join us Monday evenings at 6:30 for our Weekly Service.

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Posted in addictions, Authentic Freedom, Authentic Freedom Academy, Being Human, codependency, Death, Empowerment

Power in Our Aloneness

The greatest fear in the human experience is not death, neither is it public speaking.  The greatest fear in the human experience is that we are alone – really, truly, alone; and in this aloneness, life has no meaning and no purpose.  This is our greatest fear because it is also our greatest truth.  At the end of the day, we are really, truly alone.  Death brings us face to face with this absolute truth.  When we release our final breath, there is no one – only ourselves and our hope that there is another to take us home – and the fear that this “other” is simply a lie we have told ourselves to make ourselves feel better.

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Day in and day out, this fear that we are alone, haunts us. While we may not acknowledge that this is the fear haunting us, or that we have any fear at all, believe me, it is there.  It is there is our restlessness, our boredom, our short attention spans, our search for something “out there” that will make us happy.  It is in our “retail therapy.” It is in our social media searching and trolling.  It is in our cultural addiction with reality TV (including the clown show that has become our election process).  It is in our food, alcohol, tobacco, drug addictions.  It is present in every single situation and experience where we think something “out there” will fulfill us and in the relentless search for that “something.” This fear that we are alone is in our longing and yearning for “the other” who will complete us – even when that “other” is given the name of “God.”

We spend nearly every minute of every day avoiding our fear of this aloneness by chasing after “that which we cannot name.” We are sure if we keep chasing we will eventually find it.  It’s in that check we’ve been waiting for, the mysterious windfall, the lottery jackpot.  It’s in the elusive soulmate who will bring perfection to our lives.  It is in the next great car, the bigger home, the job with the bigger paycheck.  It is in the victory of our chosen political candidate.

But guess what? The fear of being alone is NOT remedied through any of the above, because THERE IS NO CURE for our fear of being alone.  This fear is the consequence of the human condition and a fear we will always intimately know.

We came here to have a unique and individual experience which by its nature means we are separate and alone. Within this choice also exists the knowledge of our true nature – of a time before we chose separation.  It is the knowledge of our true nature that causes us to feel alone while at the same time it is calling us home.  It is an ache that will never cease as long as we continue being human.  While there is no remedy to the fear of being alone, there is an answer to all the relentless searching and avoiding we do by searching.  The answer is to stop running from this fear.  Stop looking “out there” for something that will fill the eternal vacancy inside.  The only way to calm (not remedy) this fear, is to BE WITH IT.

Being with our fear of being alone means just that. Be with it.  Turn away from all the external searching and turn within.  Go deep into our hearts where this longing resides.  Move past the ego attachments to fame, status, money, power, success and achievement. Move beyond the need to be right and for others to be wrong. Move past the restlessness, boredom, loneliness, impatience, and anxiousness.  Move past anxiety, depression and despair.  Beneath all of it is the DEEP ACHE, the indelible pain, the vivid realization that we are alone.  SIT with this fear.  Sit with this awareness.  Sit with the excruciating discomfort.  Simply be with all this pain is, has to say, and feels like for you.  FEEL IT.  Revel in it.  Bathe in it.  Know it to be a deeply intimate, true and cherished part of who you are.  KNOW that this ache is your Soul calling you home – NOT home to some “heavenly abode.”  Home to YOURSELF.  It is here in the deep well of your aloneness that you will find yourself.  And here, you will find your power.

 

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Posted in Authentic Freedom, Being Human, Death, Freedom, God, Inspiration, Mary Magdalene, Spiritual Formation, teachers, women

Power in the Darkness

After creating and launching three new online courses, including my entire Authentic Freedom and Magdalene Priestess Training curricula, I have been enjoying a creative hiatus. As creative types understand, after massive creative output, one needs time to empty and then refuel for the next creative flow.  I am emptying and refueling by binge-watching the Showtime series Penny Dreadful, and boy am I glad I FINALLY took my creative sisters’ advise in watching this show.  I am luxuriating in every sumptuous character and am captivated by every word, image and storyline.  I LOVE this show and it just happens to be in my favorite literary genre – Victorian Gothic Horror. Penny Dreadful is the story of my life – and the life of every woman and man I know who, like the characters in this tale, have found their power in the darkness.

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Penny Dreadful is the story of Vanessa Ives, a young woman destined to be either the bride of Satan, or the savior of the human race; the men who fight for her victory and the women who seek to destroy her. Penny Dreadful is about Vanessa’s struggle with the power within her that will either become her destruction, or lead her to salvation.  Vanessa’s deepest motivation is love, but she is tempted by that which leads her to darkness.  The dark forces wish to possess Vanessa, while she continually reaches toward the light.  Not always is Vanessa victorious, but it is her humanness that makes her character so compelling.  What if you had the power to destroy your enemies with a single thought and projection of your desire?  What if the price of this is only the price of your Soul – a Soul that longs to believe in a benevolent God, but finding in the human condition that we are ever and always alone?

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Vanessa’s story is our story. The human journey is nothing if it is not a teacher.  Like the seed that must break through its own shell and crawl its way through (seemingly) miles of soil before it can find the sun, life presents us with challenges and obstacles that we must find our way through if we are ever to find our own light.  Vanessa’s story is the story of the honest, the vulnerable, and the courageous who, when confronted with the difficulties of life, find their way through them – sometimes crawling on our hands and knees begging for mercy, other times walking on a bed of burning coals stubbornly moving toward their goal.  And like Vanessa, when we find ourselves on the other side of the darkness, we know freedom and the newfound sense of accomplishment in having vanquished the “demon.”  Here we have found our power – power over our fears, power over our compulsions, power over temptation, power over the darkness and power over death.  And it was in facing the darkness that we have found our strength.

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Power in the Darkness

Power born out of darkness.

Power honed through suffering.

Power that arises on the other side of pain –

Or rather, in the midst of it.

Power at home with death and loss and all measures of darkness –

Depression, disease, despair.

Power not for the sake of evil,

But in service to the Good.

Power that finds its strength in staring down fear,

Standing toe-to-toe with “Satan”

And the obstacles “he” casts in our way.

Power born out of darkness for the sake of the light.

Diving into the shadows, we find our return.

The heroine’s journey –

For only those gifted with bringing forth life can equally midwife death.

The power of what used to be called “witch” but is really

Divine Wholeness finding its place in the world.

Copyright 2016 Lauri Ann Lumby

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Posted in Being Human, Death, End of the World Prophecies, Freedom, Inspiration, New World, world changes

Welcoming the Darkness

For many I know, including myself, this has been a very trying time. It has been a time of uncertainty, anxiety and fear.  The world “out there” is a disaster.  Natural disasters, pipeline explosions, terrorist bombings, the clown show we used to call our presidential elections, the stock(stark) market is just that….stark, and horror of all horrors, Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie are getting divorced.

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While the world “out there” grapples with its death, we are wrestling with our own. The death we are facing is not our literal physical death (though that is the struggle for many), it is the death of all that we have known and all that we thought we knew about ourselves.  The old world is dying and the way in which we have functioned in that old world is no longer useful.  More importantly, we cannot be who we were for a world that is no longer because we need to become who we ARE for the new world that is about to arise out of the rubble.

As we are facing the death of self, all our old fears, insecurities, wounds, past hurts, betrayals, etc. are showing themselves. They are showing themselves so as to be witnessed, felt, acknowledged and thanked (yes, I said “thanked”) so that they can MOVE ON.  In order to allow this transition, this “moving on,” we have to BE WITH our darkness.  We need to wallow in it.  We need to bathe in it.  We need to feel the excruciating pain of LACK so that we can finally LET IT GO.  This is not the time for “thinking different thoughts” so that we can rise beyond the SH.T and see it only as light.  This is a time to ACKNOWLEDGE the darkness and BE WITH IT.  Remember, “that which we resist will persist.”  It is the same with our darkness.  If we pretend it’s not there, deny it, ignore it, chant words of affirmation and goodness trying to make it light instead of the dark, dank, moldering, smoldering pile of crap it is, that pile of crap will simply get bigger.

Be with the darkness. Get really pissed off.  Rant, rave, vent, tear your hair out, rip your clothing, break some dishes, be angry.  You earned it!  You have paid long and hard for the work you came here to do.  You’ve suffered.  You’ve been poor.  You’ve been made an outcast, condemned as a witch, ridiculed for the love you came to be in the world.  Welcome the darkness you are feeling now.  Thank it for all it has taught you (compassion, understanding, the desire to help another, humility, mercy, tenderness, love).  And then, let it thank you in return as it departs, itself dying with the “out there” world, along with the role you have played for that dying world.

Then wait. Your new Self is waiting to be born, the Self that will usher you into the new world in which you will be living and your Divine purpose in that new world.

For further support in dark times, read my blog Light Workers, Shadow Workers and Middle-World Workers, and check out my new online course The Dark Goddess in the Bible (click on image below to learn more).

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Posted in Death, Divine Revelation, Inspiration, Lessons, Mystics

Pluto Rising – The Resurrection of Love

NASA’s  New Horizons spacecraft and its journey to Pluto, is an historical event that shouldn’t be missed. (Learn more here on the NASA site: https://www.nasa.gov/image-feature/pluto-s-bright-mysterious-heart-is-rotating-into-view ) For the first time in our human history, we are getting an up-close and personal view of this dwarf planet and its surrounding moons (especially Charon). This is a monumental moment in our history as a scientific and technological accomplishment, but more importantly, bringing Pluto into view is ushering in a significant shift in the consciousness of humanity. This shift is nothing short of the resurrection of love.

Photo credits:  NASA-JHUAP-SWRI
Photo credits: NASA-JHUAP-SWRI

On her site, The Cosmic Path, Stephanie Azaria speaks of the astrological and consciousness significance of our meeting with Pluto. I want to share with you my own thoughts on this arrival from the perspective of my own personal experience working with the Pluto archetype, commonly known as The Lord of the Underworld.
In 2008, while on pilgrimage to Glastonbury, England, I had a profound mystical encounter with Gwynn Ap Nudd – Celtic (specifically Welsh) god of the underworld. I had no idea who Gwynn was and his “arrival” was startling to me and in truth, quite disarming. What did the Celtic god of the underworld (and by association Pluto) have to do with a Catholic-Christian devoted to Jesus? After getting over the shock, I voraciously researched Gwynn and his place within Celtic mythology, what he represents and what he is here to teach us. What I discovered was beyond amazing, especially the symbols associated with Gwynn that had for years spoken to the quiet places within my heart. In many ways, I felt as if I was meeting, for the first time, someone I had known for a very long time. In meeting Gwynn, I felt like I was coming home.

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I quickly learned, however, that the arrival of an “underworld god” is not all wine and roses (or in this case, Guinness and Holy Thorn). What I learned is that the underworld god archetype is about coming home, but before we come home, first we have to “die.” The death that is called forth by the underworld gods is the death of the ego – but not through ascension or enlightenment as “upper world gods” would have us do. Instead, the underworld gods teach us how to transcend the ego by confronting our shadow and staring down our fears. While underworld gods have nothing to do with hell (pre-Christian traditions have no hell….they only have the underworld which is a place of restoration and renewal in preparation for the next life to be lived), they are here to accompany us through the hell we have created in our own minds through judgment – specifically of ourselves.

What the ancients knew, that we have forgotten, is that suffering on this plane is rooted in all the ways we have separated ourselves (or been separated from love through childhood conditioning) from the love that we are. Underworld gods (Gwynn Ap Nudd, Cernnunos, Hades, Pluto) are here to bring us through the thorn-covered hedge of our fears, our unhealed wounds, the places within ourselves we have rejected or judged as imperfect, all the while guiding us home to the place where we are able to love ourselves without condition and in loving ourselves, learning to love the world.

Pluto, then, is here to teach us how to love. And in case you missed it…..the very geography of his planet proves that this is what he is here to do.

Image Credit: NASA/JHUAPL/SWRI
Image Credit: NASA/JHUAPL/SWRI