Posted in building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, grief, world changes

It’s Really Ok to Grieve

There is absolutely no doubt in my mind that we are currently traveling through the death of the world as we have known it.  I also know that death, in this case, is not an ending.  Instead, as the old world is imploding upon itself, a new world is beginning to be born.  While we may have hope in the new that is coming forth out of this dying, it is also important to grieve.

Grief is the miraculous process that we have been given to move through that which is ceasing to be.  Grief creates the pathway through which we can release the old while making way for the new.  Grief, when engaged in fully, also helps to heal us from the loss so that we might be open to receiving the new life that is promised on the other side of the death.

The process of grief has been said to present itself to us in the following faces:

  • Shock
  • Denial
  • Bargaining
  • Depression
  • Anger
  • Sorrow
  • Acceptance

As it relates to the death our world is currently facing as brought forth through Covid-19, humanity is wavering somewhere between the stages of shock, denial, and bargaining.

Shock is the feeling we are all having as our lives have suddenly experienced a dramatic change.  Holy crap – this sh*t is real!  For many, (myself included), our lives have simply stopped.  With shock, all we can do is acknowledge the dramatic change while attempting to find our way into and through it.  As wave upon wave of new (and sometimes false) information comes our way, we may find our shock retriggered.  Again, acknowledge the trauma of the shock while trying to find a “new normal” for yourself.

Denial is when we don’t believe it’s real.  This is the state the U.S. was in for weeks/ maybe months as the virus was devastating other parts of the world, but hadn’t yet impacted us.  Many continue to be in denial over the potentially critical nature of the virus and the fear that many are experiencing as a result.

Bargaining is the stage that seems to be most apparent right now.  Bargaining is often characterized in a literal sense as in bargaining with God over the fate of a loved one.  Bargaining is also recognized in:

  • Desire for information: If we could only find enough information and the right information around this virus we will all be ok.
  • Attempts at control: Trying to find ways we can control the virus and the life we are living in the face of a pandemic. Some recent examples include:
  • Arguing over the perceived loss of civil liberties.
  • Protesting the stay at home orders.
  • Arguing for stricter stay at home orders.
  • Wearing masks/not wearing masks
  • Creating theories around what is true or not so that we can feel better (or in control)
  • Needing to be right.
  • Pointing the Finger of Blame: All the ways in which we criticize and condemn others for their response to the virus and our judgments around their response. This includes all the ways we shame others by telling them they are wrong.
  • If/Then scenarios: This somewhat falls into the control category. “If I wear my mask everywhere I won’t get it.”  “If I’m only with those who I know haven’t been exposed, then I’ll be fine.”  “If I think the right thoughts, take the right supplements, eat the right foods, then I will be fine.” 

 

All of these are natural human responses to grief.  There is no judgment of these reactions and none of them are wrong.  This is what we do when the world that we have known is suddenly yanked out from beneath us and we are left floating in the void of the unknown.  We are looking for something to hang on to, something that is concrete.  We grasp after the illusion of control when the world around us is completely outside of our realm of control.  We cannot delay the inevitable.  Neither can we stop it.

But there is one thing we can do to ease our fear and heal our pain:

LET GO

When we peel our grasping fingers off the throat of the dying world and allow ourselves to surrender to the unknown – this is where we find peace.  When we cease grasping after control, we will find that there is no risk of sinking into despair because instead, we will find ourselves being gently carried to whatever the new world might be for us.  When we let go we are able to grieve the loss of the old, find healing for our loss and be made ready for the new life that is silently calling to us from out of the depths of the void.

Where are you finding yourself in the grieving process?  What aspects of the dying world are your grieving?  What might you begin to let go of as you move through your own grieving process?

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom Academy, building the new world, world changes

We Are Here Building the New World

Authentic Freedom (dot) Love is a community of women and men who are responding to the calling of their Soul to discover their own unique giftedness and how they are called to find fulfillment in these gifts while being supported and empowered in the use of these gifts in service to the betterment of the world.

We are here because we long for a more loving, more compassionate, more tolerant, more accepting and gentler world where the needs of all are met for the common good and where all of humankind can once again live in harmony, peace and understanding.

If you have found yourself here, you are either just beginning to hear the rumblings of your Soul, or have already come to know that you are among those who are being hospice to the dying world while midwifing the new world that is coming into form and are looking for people of like-mind with whom you can share this challenging and exciting calling!

We are changemakers, wayshowers, sh.t-disturbers, mystics and rebels. And here we are safe to question, explore, discover, be empowered and supported for our own unique giftedness and for how we are called to exercise these gifts in our world.

Authentic Freedom (dot) Love supports you through:

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Authentic Freedom is the life-work of Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS who created the Authentic Freedom protocol which supports women, men and children in overcoming the unhealed wounds, fears, and societal conditioning which might otherwise prevent them from being their most authentic self – the person they were born to be and whom their Soul is calling them to be!

Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS
Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS

lauri@authenticfreedom.love

Posted in building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, world changes

Let it Burn!

Don’t Miss the Deeper Messages of the Covid-19 Pandemic

For the past several years, I have spoken over and over and over again about the impending death of the patriarchal/hierarchical world – that which is rooted in fear, power and control.  I have known for years that something big was coming that would put a complete halt to our culture and our economy.  I also knew this something big would cause a stock market crash which would eventually lead to a complete global financial collapse (this is yet to come – though there may be some safeguards in place to prevent this).

I had no idea what form this “something big” might take, but here we are.  With the Covid-19 pandemic and the global reactions to it, we find ourselves exactly where I long ago saw us to be going.  As of this writing, globally 2.75 million have been diagnosed and 193,000 have died.  Borders have been closed. Airline travel has ceased.  Education has gone online if not cancelled.  Many business employees are working from home and online, and many businesses have closed entirely.

As we sit in the middle of the pandemic in a world uncertain about how best to respond to the pandemic caused by a virus for which we currently have no cure (other than our own immune system and its ability (or inability) to fight the virus, we are witness to a wide range of human reactions.  Fear. Panic.  Hysteria.  Anger. Blaming.  Shaming.  Condemning.  We are also experiencing an overwhelming amount of information and opinions about protection, prevention, and treatment.  Then there are the questions about when and how to open things up again.

It is easy to become overwhelmed, angry or afraid in the face of the externals related to Covid-19.  When we become fixated on these externals, however, we are missing what is REALLY happening underneath the panic and fear related to the pandemic.

What is REALLY happening, thanks in part to Covid-19, is that a new world is being born. Before that new world can fully emerge, what remains of the patriarchal/hierarchical world has to die.  In order to die, it must first make itself known.  Covid-19 is helping us to see everything that is wrong with our culture and with our world and what quite simply no longer works. In every single institution built on the foundations of fear, power and control, we are being given an opportunity to see – to really see what is no longer sustainable – if indeed it ever was.  Corruption, deception and injustices are being laid bare.  Leaders (and others) are showing their true faces as their fears (an inability to identify and transform their fears) come out sideways.

As the old world is collapsing, we are also being given an opportunity to experience and bear witness to new ways of being that might help to alleviate some of the problems of the dying world. We are also being given a chance to ask some really important questions:

 

This is an excerpt from the Authentic Freedom Academy Weekly Lesson.  Full content is available for subscribing members.  Learn more about membership HERE. 

Posted in Boundaries, building the new world, Relationships, self-actualization, world changes

Boundaries While Under House Arrest

As an introvert, there is nothing I like better than being home.  Also, as an introvert, my preference is to be in my home alone.  There is nothing that frustrates me more than other people in my home getting on my nerves!  While I love the four days a week my children are here, I breathe a sigh of relief when they head to their dad’s so I can enjoy a few days home alone.  My home is my sanctuary and my refuge from an otherwise chaotic and noisy world.

ENTER PANDEMIC!

Whether you are an introvert or an extrovert, now we have no choice (if we have a spouse and/or children at home) but to share our space with others.  You think its bad when we all have activities and places we can go to outside the home?  What will things look like when we now have no place to go but to stay sequestered in our homes?  You’re right – WE WILL BE GETTING ON EACH OTHER’S NERVES.  Being stranded in our homes with nowhere to go is likely to bring out the worst in all of us.  We will be bored, restless, bored, did I say bored, and we will likely be feeling anxious about how long this will go on and how we will be paying our bills during this time of shut down.  Then there is the eternal worry about whether or not we can find toilet paper.  (rolling my eyeballs out of my head!)

Surviving House-Arrest

Here are a few tips to help us not kill each other as we are forced to share space:

  • OWN YOUR FEELINGS! You may be feeling anxious, worried, afraid, restless, bored, sad, depressed, paralyzed, or any other sort of uncomfortable feeling.  When we have the feelings and do not acknowledge and then tend to them, they tend to come out sideways.  It is more likely that we will lose our temper with our families over our own anxiety than because they did something wrong.  If you are feeling any of the aforementioned feelings, give yourself a time-out and tend to them.  If you need support in managing these feelings, do a quick search on my website and there is likely an article to help you through the pain.
  • HIDE WHEN YOU NEED TO! When in close quarters, it is natural to feel stifled or infringed upon.  When you are feeling the pressure of other people’s needs or simply because they are there, give yourself a time-out.  Go to your room.  Go for a walk.  Drive to the nearest nature preserve and enjoy some nature.  Do whatever you need to do to get away and train your family to allow it while also giving them permission to do the same.
  • SUPPORT YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS IN DOING #1 and #2. It has to start somewhere.  If you model these boundaries with your family members, you are also giving them the example to do this for themselves.  Some members of the family may not yet have the emotional intelligence to identify their feelings.  If they are acting out, it is more likely they are feeling one of the above feelings or need to give themselves a time-out.  Help them do this. As an introvert, I have spent my children’s lifetimes training them in these practices and now at ages 20 and 22 they get it.  They are good with their own self-care, and if not, I gently remind them.
  • GET COMFORTABLE WITH SIMPLY BEING. This is a tough one in a world that has trained us only for DOING.  Likely one of the reasons we are experiencing this pandemic is to remind us the value of BEING. Get comfortable with DOING NOTHING.  Resist the temptation to filling your time with activity (trust me, we will soon run out of activities to do).  Read a book.  Sit in silence.  Grab a coloring book and color (even if it’s old ones left over from when your kids were little).  Listen to music.  Take a walk in nature.  Or just do nothing.  Help your family members learn how to do the same.  Maybe even schedule (if you are a person who thrives on routine like I do) DOWN time for your family.  Time when everyone can retreat to their own spaces and just be quiet.
  • GET TO KNOW YOUR FAMILY. Yeah, we all know each other, but do we REALLY know each other?  Do you know your partner or children’s temperaments?  Do you know their preferences?  What is their number on the Enneagram or their Myers-Briggs personality type?  How do they get their energy? How do they process information?  What is their learning style?  Are they intuitive or a thinker?  Extroverted or Introverted?  Knowing these things about ourselves and our loved ones helps us to understand and support them in meeting their needs.  For example, I know that my son is more extroverted than I am and that he thrives on trying new things.  He is easily bored and needs regular physical and competitive outlets.  Knowing this about him has helped me to support him in getting what he needs.  My daughter on the other hand, is routine driven, introverted and slow to make change.  She is adaptable but doesn’t like surprises. These are all bits of knowledge that will help us manage social=distancing, the shutting down of our normal activities and being home together under one roof.

If you are in need of specific support for any one of the above, I am available.  Just email me at lauri@authenticfreedom.love and tell me how you are struggling. From that I will recommend some resources that might be of further and more specific support, including my own online courses, one-on-one mentoring and online community.

 

Hang in there.  You are not alone.  We are all in this together!

 

With love,

Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS

Authentic Freedom Academy

 

Posted in Being Human, building the new world, grief, Spiritual Practices, world changes

Surviving Social Distancing

As an introvert, social distancing is one of my superpowers.  I have honed and perfected this craft, while moving through all the challenges of being apart.  In this article I share what I have learned about the loneliness, grief and anxiety that come with being apart.

 

Loneliness

I have often felt that loneliness might be the core wound of the human experience.  Rooted in that first moment of separation from the cozy and safe room in our mother’s womb, we are forever yearning for our return.  We long to feel connected with another and to feel safe within that connection.  As most have come to discover, however, even our human connections do not fulfill the depth of longing we feel to be reunited with that which cannot be named.  We are forever seeking the satisfaction to that longing.  Existential loneliness is the angst we feel in the depth of that longing.  Loneliness is the universal human emptiness that is only further compounded during times of social distancing when we don’t even have our superficial relationships to distract us.  The key to dealing with loneliness is to face it.  As I learned during a 30 day loneliness practice, our loneliness has much to teach us about ourselves.  Here is the practice I employed to arrive at a place of being comfortable in being alone without feeling lonely:

Loneliness Practice: For this practice you will need a notebook or journal to record all that your loneliness wants you to know about yourself.  Set aside 10-20 minutes each day to simply SIT with your loneliness.  While sitting, close your eyes and bring your awareness into your body.  Move your awareness until you find your loneliness.  Focus your attention on your loneliness and FEEL it.  REALLY feel it.  Dive deep into the pit of loneliness and then give it a face.  Envision your loneliness in a form (mine takes the shape of the Little Match Girl from Hans Christian Anderson’s tale).  Once your loneliness takes a form, let it speak to you.  What does your loneliness want to tell you about yourself?  Most likely, it will show you past pains and hurts that are asking to be healed and released.  It may also show you your fears.  As these pains, hurts, fears, etc. come forward, acknowledge them.  See them.  Hold them in love.  Then let the pass.  Once they have passed, they have been released from your being and you are healed.  Continue with this process until it feels complete.  Then record your experience in your journal, along with any thoughts or reflections that might surface in your writing.  Note that your loneliness may also show you hopes and dreams that you have not yet fulfilled, or parts of yourself you have rejected or not allowed to come into being.  As these come forth, they are showing you the things you are now invited to explore or begin to make a part of your life.  DO IT.

Grief

As we are collectively experiencing social distancing, our routines are changing.  The things we used to do every day are no longer available (yoga class, the YMCA for workouts, the library, etc.).  Maybe our work situation has also changed (I know mine has).  With this change in routine, it is natural to experience grief.  Sadly, our culture does not give enough credit to grief – period – let alone the grief we experience in the simple face of change.  Change = Grief.  When grieving we will experience every face of grief:  Shock. Denial. Bargaining. Depression. Anger. Sorrow. Acceptance. Angst and restlessness will also be faces of this grief in the face of a change in routine.  Similar to loneliness, the best thing we can do with our grief is to BE WITH IT.  Identify which stage of grief you are experiencing and FEEL IT deeply.  Allow yourself to be in denial – to pretend this will all soon go away.  Indulge in your bargaining (which might look like restlessness).  Pace the floor.  Wring your hands.  When feel depressed, wallow in it.  Take a nap.  Allow paralysis to take you.  When rage hits you, let it out – in a safe way!  Dance it out.  Go for a run.  Grab a swimming noodle and whack the shit out of the basement or tile floor.  When you are sad, weep.  And if you find yourself stuck in depression, find a way to get angry (I listen to heavy metal music – my favorite being the group Disturbed).  Anger pushes through the depression and allows us to get at the true issue which is our sorrow over the loss of routine.

For more on dealing with grief, please click here.

Anxiety

Fear is a big one! There is so much anxiety around the Covid-19 virus itself, not to mention the anxiety that surfaces in the face of social distancing.  I will try to limit the anxiety discussion here to that experienced in the face of social distancing.

The key to anxiety is to first uncover its cause.  What is triggering our anxiety?

Is it loneliness (which we addressed above)?

Is our anxiety related to grief?

We may experience anxiety related to our finances or our everyday concerns:  How will we pay our bills if our work hours are reduced?  Who will care for my child when childcare centers have closed and I still have to work?  Where will I get toilet paper?  What if I run out of food?  What if I get sick?  Who will care for me?

We might also experience anxiety as it relates to boundaries.  If we are cooped up in our homes with our partners and children or roommates, we are bound to get on each other’s nerves.

Our anxiety may surface due to the news or social media.  There is a lot of fear out there and much of is unfounded.

We may also find that the anxiety being stirred in the face of current events is triggering old anxieties and unhealed wounds.

Talk about a can of worms.

 

The first step in managing anxiety is to understand that it is normal and biological.  This means that anxiety is not our fault.  It is simply a biological response to something triggering our fear.  Sometimes the fear is justified (being chased by zombies).  Sometimes it is a mis-fire.  (when we look more closely and discover what we thought was a snake is only a stick).  Excitement can also look like anxiety for those who are struggling with anxiety or panic disorders.

If you are being treated for anxiety or panic disorders, continue with your treatment plan, while employing some of the techniques I will share with you here.

 

            Meditation and Mindfulness Practices have time and time again proven to be effective in rewiring the part of the brain that governs anxiety and panic.  Through regular and diligent practice, the anxiety center of the brain (the amygdala) learns a new response to triggers, allowing the mind to act out of reason instead of panic in the face of non-life threatening fears.  Diligent and regular practice also builds a sturdy foundation of inner calm which reduces the incidence of being triggered by fear. To learn more about the many ways that you can practice mindfulness, take my online course Starting a Spiritual Practice which is available for FREE through the month of March.   Click on the image below to register and receive the free pricing.

If you are interested in the science behind Mindfulness and Meditation – email me your contact information with “Meditation Paper” as the subject, and I will send you a FREE copy of an academic paper I wrote on the topic which includes a list of verifiable resources.  My email is lauri@authenticfreedom.love.

Other practices that support us in managing our anxiety: yoga or any meditative movement practice, dance, exercise, eating well, creative projects, gardening, being outside, going for a walk and talking with our friends.  Since we may not have an opportunity to gather face-to-face, do the old fashioned thing of picking up the phone and giving your friend a call.  I just reached out to two of my friends for support as together we face what we do not yet know or understand.

As I am here for my friends, I am also here for you.  Watch this site for ongoing support as we move through the Covid-19 event, and please reach out for additional support if you need it.  One-on-one support.  Online classes.  Our online community. Books and more.

 

Holding you all in big love as we support each other through this life-changing event!

 

With love,

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lauri

 

 

 

 

Posted in building the new world, Inspiration, New World, self-actualization

The New World Beckons

The New World Beckons

The new world beckons

Inviting us to listen.

To hear the subtle depth of our Soul calling us home.

Home to ourselves.

 

Piercing through the cacophony of the dying world,

Drawing aside the veil of our fear-based conditioning.

All the ways “the world” distracts us from ourselves:

Temptations of fame, power, control, status and wealth.

Shiny objects begging for attention

pushing us toward the capitalistic lie:

“Hard work = Success”

(as it is measured by how much money we have, the clothes we wear

And whether or not we have our own “reality” show.)

 

Reality my ass!

It’s lies.  All lies.

That which we seek,

which compels the actions of every human being

cannot be found outside of ourselves

but can only be found within

in all the darkened places where our truth resides:

Beneath and behind our conditioning.

Within our fears.

Beyond the uncountable times our heart has been broken

By a “world” that rejects who we are…

A “world” that demands obedience, compliance, subservience…

And silence.

 

The New World beckons.

Our original world beckons.

Calling us out of the hell in which we’ve been living –

To the “heaven” that has been here all along –

for those with eyes to see, ears to hear,

and the courage to set their Soul free

To be who and how it was always meant to be.

Free.

Posted in building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, world changes

The Calm before the Storm

In addition to moderating online courses, facilitating online discussions, holding local classes, (trying to) write the sequel to Song of the Beloved, creating my Authentic Freedom weekly lesson, all while putting in 15-20 hours at my side gig, I try to write at least one blog a week. But lately, I find that there just aren’t any words.  There is soooooo much going on “out there” that there is hardly time to catch a breath let alone come up with some sort of inspiration or comfort to get us through the insanity.

The world as we have known it is dying and there is literally nothing we can do, but stand back and watch it implode. When we think it just can’t get any crazier, more unsavory truths are revealed. There is no way to choose a side (not that we should be choosing sides!!!!) when it seems no matter where we turn insanity and corruption reigns.  Those who have benefitted from the system based in fear, power and control only cling more tightly to what they know only to find that the harder they squeeze, the quicker it escapes their grasp.  In spite of their best efforts, their world is dying as a new world is chomping at the bit waiting to take its place.

But knowing all of this does not make it any easier. The world “out there” is insane! It’s been that way for a long time and it seems to be getting worse.  But even in the worst of the worst there is an eventual tipping point.  We are nearly there.  Can you feel it?  I sure can!  It is enough on some days to make me want to find a cave somewhere and never come out.  But, my Soul knows better.  I/We are not here to escape.

We are here to be hospice for the dying world

while midwifing the new world as it is coming into form.

 

There is no escaping this part of our fate. Every time I threaten to head for Canada or seek asylum in Ireland, my Soul says, “That sounds really nice, but you know you have to stay here….no matter how bad things get.”  Yep.  I know this.  Even if the puppet masters decide to push the red buttons hurling us all into nuclear annihilation I know I’m meant to be here through it all.  (Fortunately I live in an area that will likely be a major target, so if the bombs are dropped, myself and my loved ones will simply be vaporized….hurray!  I would choose that any day over a zombie apocalypse!)

Knowing we are in the death throes of the hierarchical patriarchal world might ignite terror in the hearts of many, but for me, I cannot wait! As the Greyjoy’s say, “What is dead may never die, but rises again harder and stronger.” The dead in this case is not the world that is dying but the world that is seeking to be re-born. This is the world that dwells within us when we are connected with our original natures – a world where peace, justice and harmony reign and where power is equally shared by the all, not by the greedy few. This was the collaborative peace and harmony that human beings once knew when we remembered how to live as one. It is also the collaborative peace and harmony we already know when we find union within ourselves which then leads us toward cultivating harmony with others.

But all of this starts within. If we want peace in our world, we first have to find peace within. Finding peace within requires dedication, persistence, discipline, and we cannot do it alone. We need others to show and support us in and along the way. We need to know we are not crazy or alone in wanting to know peace within ourselves and to see that peace reflected in the world around us. We need encouragement and support on the days we stray from our path. And we need support in knowing how to drown out the shrieks of the dying world. We cannot save them. Neither should we try. We can only save ourselves and after we have saved ourselves (found peace within) we can reach out a hand in support for those who are coming to understand that they too want peace.

It is for this purpose that Authentic Freedom (dot) Love is expanding its service to the world. COMING SOON!  In the meantime, here is a glimpse into what we will be offering and how we are hoping to support us in coming together in community as we look forward to the dawning of the new world on the other side of the storm.

Posted in Authentic Freedom, building the new world, Choose Love Revolution, Empowerment, Freedom

Taking Back Our Power to Choose

Authentic Freedom

Taking Back Our Power to Choose

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 Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS

 

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Taking Back Our Power to Choose

For the past 5000 years our world has been imprisoned by those who benefit from a people afraid. For 5000 years, we have been conditioned by institutions that manipulate and control us through fear, guilt and shame.  Religious institutions, governments, corporations, banks, advertising, social media, education, health care, pharmaceutical companies and the insurance industry (to name a few) are all guilty of benefiting from a people afraid.  As has always been true of feudal societies, only a few truly benefit from a culture rooted in fear.  The rest are made to suffer while those who are manipulating us are getting rich at our expense.

 

It is time that we say NO MORE by taking back our power to choose.

Fear is a choice. But in order to have the freedom to choose otherwise, we have to unravel ourselves from the conditioning that has made us afraid. The fears that tell us:

 

  • There is not enough.
  • We are insignificant and have nothing of value to offer the world.
  • We cannot live as our most authentic selves.
  • We are not loved (or that love has to be earned or can be taken away).
  • We are not free to express our truth.
  • We do not know the truth.
  • We are alone.

 

When we stop believing in these fears by healing the conditioning that caused these fears in the first place, we are no longer vulnerable to manipulation and are free to choose love instead of fear. In choosing love, we are able to experience the peace, freedom and union spoken of by the ancients and which has been taught by the highest expression of every spiritual tradition on this planet.

 

Authentic Freedom gives you that power to choose by supporting you in identifying and then healing the fears that have kept you imprisoned by your cultural conditioning.

 

Register Here.

 

SCRIPTURE (gasp!) Please note that with great intention I use Judeo-Christian scripture as part of this course.  I do so ON PURPOSE because for many in our culture, scripture has been used against them.  Christianity (especially certain expressions of Christianity) have twisted Jesus’ message of love into one of hatred and fear.  It is my hope that by presenting scripture in a different way – not as a vehicle of manipulation and control – but as a vehicle through which you can find and become empowered in LOVE- we can not only be healed of our societal fears, but also of those which have been heaped upon us by institutional religion.

 

Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATSLauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS  supports you in becoming a fully awakened and self-actualized human being by giving you the freedom to choose love in a world conditioned by fear.    Lauri does this through her trademarked protocol – Authentic Freedom which harnesses the knowledge and wisdom of the ancients and applies it in the modern world.  Here you will find fulfillment for the deepest longing of your Soul – to know and to be known.  Lauri is the owner of Authentic Freedom Academy and founder of the Temple of the Magdalene. She lives in Oshkosh, WI. You can learn more about Lauri, her writings, programs and services at Authentic Freedom (dot) Love. 

 

 

Posted in About Lauri, building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, self-actualization, spiritual gifts, world changes

The Weight of Responsibility

As a first-born, Capricorn and recovering perfectionist, responsibility has always been my middle name. Whether imposed upon me (by command or circumstance) or simply chosen because it’s who I am; I have always been “the responsible” one.  Lauri can be counted on.  Lauri is honest.  Lauri has integrity.  Lauri is strong, courageous, a hard worker, efficient, and gets things done.  Lauri takes good care of others.  Lauri is responsible.  I would agree that all of this is true most of the time.  But there is a whole other layer of responsibility that I have felt beyond the day to day “getting things done.”  This is a worldly/cosmic/universal/ responsibility that I have never been able to give words to – until now.

This morning, on The Cosmic Path (www.thecosmicpath.com) this was offered as this week’s Capricorn horoscope:

There’s a huge planetary cluster of planets transiting your sign, and it’s the scene of the manifesting entry into the new order. What that means for you is that you are carrying within your energy field all the properties and archetypal energies that can truly deliver us all to the new Golden Age. It will take a good two years for all of this energy to produce the physical reality it is designed to bring forth, and just about every last one of the planets partaking of this grouping now will remain here for the duration. That means, put very simply, you know something huge is happening to you, and it’s absolutely positively futile to try and define something so vast and so unprecedented. You’ll have to stand back and watch it unfold like the rest of us, even though its manifesting in you.

 

Ummmmmm……Ohhhhhhhkaaaaayyyyyy! In one small paragraph Stephanie Azaria describes EXACTLY the weight I have felt my whole entire life.  I’m not here to have a normal Human 1.0 life.  I’m here to birth something new and it is actually birthing THROUGH me.  Holy Crap!

Now, before you accuse me of being all up in my ego for even believing such a thing….I can most certainly attest that this weight I have been feeling has absolutely nothing to do with ego. In fact, I just as soon join the rest of the world on the planet of denial, peacefully making love to my tonic and gin while discussing the latest fashion trends, than having to show up as a vehicle through which a new world is waiting to be born!  Even if said gin and tonic opportunities had ever come my way (which they HAVE NOT), I would not have been able to, and doubt I could choose them now.  Because EVERY SINGLE TIME I try to choose a “normal life” (you know:  normal job, normal relationships, normal life), it is absolutely and without a doubt refused to me.  And believe me….I have tried.  After 100 “real job” applications and not even getting a single phone call, I have surrendered.  After 100 dating sites and nothing but absolute epic fails, again, I quit.  I do not get a “normal life.”  Instead, it seems I have no choice but to continue slogging away at what I do best which is just being Lauri while helping people discover the love they are so that together we can create a new world.

But it is not nearly as simple as that! First off, I’m not getting rich doing this work. In fact, I’m filing bankruptcy while still wondering how I’m going to pay my basic bills this month…….all that while working 3 jobs! (3 if you include parenting which I most certainly do!) Second off, there is NO security in this work.  Human beings are fickle, and few really want to invest in themselves and fewer-still want to continue that investment if it means work.  Everyone wants the shiny object, the “feel good” yoo-rah-rah event or workshop, but very few want to do the hard work. And believe me, the task of healing our fears so that we can know love is HARD AS HELL.  (Isn’t that a great metaphor….for in a sense, we are transforming the hell in which we are living while bringing forth from within us heaven on earth – BOOM!)  Even fewer are willing to give up their attachments to what they know so that they can enjoy the only true freedom which comes from within.  So yeah….exactly why at the end of Jesus’ ministry there were only a few – Mary Magdalene, Mother Mary, Joseph of Arimathea, John the Beloved Disciple, Salome, and a couple other women.  The rest couldn’t handle the most difficult part of the journey which is DEATH. The death of what they had known so as to make room for something new.

And yet, this is EXACTLY what is happening, but now on an EPIC scale. Our world cannot continue if things remain as they are.  At the rate we are currently going, we will destroy ourselves – if the planet doesn’t do it to us first.  (For the record – the Earth always wins!  She will take back what is hers if we can’t learn how to care for it.  We are supposed to be the stewards of the earth….not its conquerors. )  And if it isn’t the planet we are destroying, it is ourselves.  As the rich keep getting richer and the poor keep getting poorer and as the middle class is quickly disappearing; as violence increases, wars on every continent, our children choosing death by suicide, etc. etc. etc. our world is imploding upon itself.   Those who are not benefitting from the current model based in fear, power and control, are longing for something else.  But the change we are longing for is NOT going to come from the top.  It will not come from those in power or from those who are reaping the rewards of a people oppressed.  Instead, it has to come from us – and that change can ONLY come from within.

And this is what I do. Every single day – first for myself – and then for others, I am helping us find ways to transform the fears that cause us to act in non-loving ways toward ourselves, toward each other and toward our planet and am turning those fears into love.  It is that simple, and yet it is also that profound.  The cost of this work is everything that is not in harmony with love – and for some that is a great price.  I know this because of what I have personally given up for the sake of that love.  But even as I stare (financial) death in the face, I can say it has been totally worth it because while there is much I have lost, there is even more that I have gained – and that is my SOUL. I know who I am.  I know what my Soul needs and wants.  Most of the time I am content and I feel at peace.  And most importantly – I know how to love – big, deep, and true.

But even with this, my work is not complete for there are still millions of human beings ACHING for something more. Today I understand that the “something more” is love and until the world knows this love, my Soul will never be satisfied.  THIS is the weight of the responsibility I have felt, perhaps since the day I was born.  Thank you Stephanie Azaria for giving words to what I could not, but have known full well in my heart!

 

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9/11 The Collective Trauma We Will Never Forget

On this 17th year anniversary of the September 11th ( 9/11 ) bombing of the Twin Towers, I am reposting my article “United States of Trauma.”  I for one will never forget standing in the lab in the basement of Affinity medical clinic watching the endless loop replaying of the bombing.  I will never forget the horror that suddenly fell upon me that night as my babies lay sleeping in their rooms and realizing that they would grow up in a world knowing they might never be safe.  I cried myself to sleep that night.  17 years later I look at the world our children have grown up in and I am sad for their loss of innocence, yet grateful for the wisdom that has come forth out of our youth in having grown up in the United States of Trauma.  Perhaps they were born into this trauma so that one day we all might be healed.  Here is the article:

United States of Trauma

On September 11, 2001, the United States suffered it greatest trauma, 2996 people were killed and another 6000 wounded. As the first act of such magnitude to be committed within the continental U.S., America lost its innocence along with any sense of domestic security.  As the deadliest terrorist act in world history, the world, but most especially the United States, has not yet recovered.  I’m not sure we ever will. Since the moment the planes flew into the Twin Towers, the U.S. has been at war – first against people of color in countries made of sand and now against each other.  For the past 17 years the United States has known nothing but war, and our current cultural climate suggests that as a nation we are collectively suffering the effects of trauma.

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The Effects of Trauma

In the simplest of terms, when we have an experience that our mind interprets as traumatic, we are instinctually driven toward one of three survival tactics: fight, flight or freeze. If the trauma is not resolved or if the traumatic response is not released from our emotional/physical bodies, the trauma remains. When this occurs, we might find ourselves in a permanent state of fight, flight or freeze.  In this state, we respond to anything that (even subconsciously) reminds us of the initial trauma as if it is happening again.  This is known as a triggering episode.  Unless the trauma is effectively treated, we will find ourselves in an endless loop of reactionary behaviors. Until someone points out to us that our behaviors might be the after effects of trauma, we think nothing of them, often to the point where they become normalized.  I contend that our current cultural climate – defined by fear and division – is in fact, trauma coming out sideways.

United States of Trauma

Whereas September 11th initially had a unifying effect, since the decision to go to war, we, as a nation, have become increasingly polarized.  Our increasing access to information (both true and untrue) has hastened this polarization, and it seems there are those who might actually be feeding this division because it benefits them in some way, or perhaps this is their own reaction to unresolved trauma.  Unresolved trauma comes out sideway in behaviors that are uncharacteristic, often irrational and fear-driven.  We obsess.  We worry.  We fret.  We become angry. We want to fight.  We become immobile. We ignore what is right in front of us. Instead of identifying the fear that is unhealed within us, we want to make someone or something outside of us the enemy – the cause of our concern.  In the current state of our culture, many “enemies” have been named:   Republicans, Democrats, Liberals, Conservatives, Blacks, Whites, The Police, Muslims, Christians, Millennials, Baby Boomers, Screen time, (remember when TV and Rock Music were the “enemies?”) Men, Women, The Media, The NRA, those seeking gun control, Pro-Lifers, those who are Pro-choice, The Rich, The Poor, Corporate Greed, those taking advantage of the system, The Economy, Banks, Illegal Immigrants, those seeking refuge, the mentally ill, etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc.   The bottom line is that the fear and division that currently control our culture have absolutely NOTHING to do with all those things we want to point our fingers toward as being “the enemy.”  Instead, it has EVERYTHING to do with unacknowledged and unresolved TRAUMA.

Healing from Trauma

We are a nation in trauma. We have been for a very long time (I’m still not sure we’ve recovered from the Civil War!), but even more so since 9/11.  In order to heal from the effects of this trauma (increasing fear and division), we have to name it as such, and then do the difficult work of healing from that trauma.  Healing from trauma happens when we are able to:

  1. Name the trauma. What is actually at the heart of our fearful thoughts, reactions, and behaviors? What is the true cause of the fear? Maybe it is 9/11, or maybe it stems from something even older – an experience of childhood abuse, bullying or rejection, a devastating loss or disappointment, a past failure or betrayal?
  2. Acknowledge that the fear has NOTHING to do with what you are currently perceiving outside of you (events in the news, the disagreement with your spouse, what you read on social media), but is instead related to something within you asking to be healed. Once you are able to identify the fear comes the hard part.
  3. Instead of following our instinct which is to “make the fear go away,” (by pointing the finger of blame at someone else, ignoring or denying it, numbing it, etc.) we SIT with the fear. Allow yourself to actually FEEL the fear. Identify where in your body you might be feeling it, breathe into that fear, and then breathe out love. Remain with this practice (which the Buddhists call Tonglen), until you feel the fear change. Maybe it moves. Maybe it is resolved and you find yourself coming to peace. Maybe it changes to anger or sorrow. Whatever you do, don’t respond or react to the fear, instead, allow it to be healed.
  4. Shampoo, Rinse, Repeat. Each and every one of us is a bundle of unacknowledged and unresolved woundedness and fear. Until we are able to heal the trauma that dwells within us, we will never be able to heal the fears that have placed fear and division as the rulers of our country.

Healing from trauma is difficult and challenging work, but enormously rewarding. Freeing ourselves from the effects of trauma empowers us to see our world through a different lens, allowing us to come to the discussion table where we are able to effectively work together for justice, peace and reconciliation.  Until we can heal what is broken within us, we will never be able to heal what is broken in our nation or our world.

NOTE: The practices shared here are for the purpose of addressing normal, everyday fear.  If you find your symptoms persisting, please seek additional support through spiritual counseling, traditional counseling, self-development courses, or through any of the methods of intervention which have proven helpful in healing trauma:  EMDR and Brainspotting to name a few.