Posted in building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, world changes

The Calm before the Storm

In addition to moderating online courses, facilitating online discussions, holding local classes, (trying to) write the sequel to Song of the Beloved, creating my Authentic Freedom weekly lesson, all while putting in 15-20 hours at my side gig, I try to write at least one blog a week. But lately, I find that there just aren’t any words.  There is soooooo much going on “out there” that there is hardly time to catch a breath let alone come up with some sort of inspiration or comfort to get us through the insanity.

The world as we have known it is dying and there is literally nothing we can do, but stand back and watch it implode. When we think it just can’t get any crazier, more unsavory truths are revealed. There is no way to choose a side (not that we should be choosing sides!!!!) when it seems no matter where we turn insanity and corruption reigns.  Those who have benefitted from the system based in fear, power and control only cling more tightly to what they know only to find that the harder they squeeze, the quicker it escapes their grasp.  In spite of their best efforts, their world is dying as a new world is chomping at the bit waiting to take its place.

But knowing all of this does not make it any easier. The world “out there” is insane! It’s been that way for a long time and it seems to be getting worse.  But even in the worst of the worst there is an eventual tipping point.  We are nearly there.  Can you feel it?  I sure can!  It is enough on some days to make me want to find a cave somewhere and never come out.  But, my Soul knows better.  I/We are not here to escape.

We are here to be hospice for the dying world

while midwifing the new world as it is coming into form.

 

There is no escaping this part of our fate. Every time I threaten to head for Canada or seek asylum in Ireland, my Soul says, “That sounds really nice, but you know you have to stay here….no matter how bad things get.”  Yep.  I know this.  Even if the puppet masters decide to push the red buttons hurling us all into nuclear annihilation I know I’m meant to be here through it all.  (Fortunately I live in an area that will likely be a major target, so if the bombs are dropped, myself and my loved ones will simply be vaporized….hurray!  I would choose that any day over a zombie apocalypse!)

Knowing we are in the death throes of the hierarchical patriarchal world might ignite terror in the hearts of many, but for me, I cannot wait! As the Greyjoy’s say, “What is dead may never die, but rises again harder and stronger.” The dead in this case is not the world that is dying but the world that is seeking to be re-born. This is the world that dwells within us when we are connected with our original natures – a world where peace, justice and harmony reign and where power is equally shared by the all, not by the greedy few. This was the collaborative peace and harmony that human beings once knew when we remembered how to live as one. It is also the collaborative peace and harmony we already know when we find union within ourselves which then leads us toward cultivating harmony with others.

But all of this starts within. If we want peace in our world, we first have to find peace within. Finding peace within requires dedication, persistence, discipline, and we cannot do it alone. We need others to show and support us in and along the way. We need to know we are not crazy or alone in wanting to know peace within ourselves and to see that peace reflected in the world around us. We need encouragement and support on the days we stray from our path. And we need support in knowing how to drown out the shrieks of the dying world. We cannot save them. Neither should we try. We can only save ourselves and after we have saved ourselves (found peace within) we can reach out a hand in support for those who are coming to understand that they too want peace.

It is for this purpose that Authentic Freedom (dot) Love is expanding its service to the world. COMING SOON!  In the meantime, here is a glimpse into what we will be offering and how we are hoping to support us in coming together in community as we look forward to the dawning of the new world on the other side of the storm.

Posted in Authentic Freedom, building the new world, Choose Love Revolution, Empowerment, Freedom

Taking Back Our Power to Choose

Authentic Freedom

Taking Back Our Power to Choose

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Online course created and facilitated by

 Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS

 

Nine lessons

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Taking Back Our Power to Choose

For the past 5000 years our world has been imprisoned by those who benefit from a people afraid. For 5000 years, we have been conditioned by institutions that manipulate and control us through fear, guilt and shame.  Religious institutions, governments, corporations, banks, advertising, social media, education, health care, pharmaceutical companies and the insurance industry (to name a few) are all guilty of benefiting from a people afraid.  As has always been true of feudal societies, only a few truly benefit from a culture rooted in fear.  The rest are made to suffer while those who are manipulating us are getting rich at our expense.

 

It is time that we say NO MORE by taking back our power to choose.

Fear is a choice. But in order to have the freedom to choose otherwise, we have to unravel ourselves from the conditioning that has made us afraid. The fears that tell us:

 

  • There is not enough.
  • We are insignificant and have nothing of value to offer the world.
  • We cannot live as our most authentic selves.
  • We are not loved (or that love has to be earned or can be taken away).
  • We are not free to express our truth.
  • We do not know the truth.
  • We are alone.

 

When we stop believing in these fears by healing the conditioning that caused these fears in the first place, we are no longer vulnerable to manipulation and are free to choose love instead of fear. In choosing love, we are able to experience the peace, freedom and union spoken of by the ancients and which has been taught by the highest expression of every spiritual tradition on this planet.

 

Authentic Freedom gives you that power to choose by supporting you in identifying and then healing the fears that have kept you imprisoned by your cultural conditioning.

 

Register Here.

 

SCRIPTURE (gasp!) Please note that with great intention I use Judeo-Christian scripture as part of this course.  I do so ON PURPOSE because for many in our culture, scripture has been used against them.  Christianity (especially certain expressions of Christianity) have twisted Jesus’ message of love into one of hatred and fear.  It is my hope that by presenting scripture in a different way – not as a vehicle of manipulation and control – but as a vehicle through which you can find and become empowered in LOVE- we can not only be healed of our societal fears, but also of those which have been heaped upon us by institutional religion.

 

Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATSLauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS  supports you in becoming a fully awakened and self-actualized human being by giving you the freedom to choose love in a world conditioned by fear.    Lauri does this through her trademarked protocol – Authentic Freedom which harnesses the knowledge and wisdom of the ancients and applies it in the modern world.  Here you will find fulfillment for the deepest longing of your Soul – to know and to be known.  Lauri is the owner of Authentic Freedom Academy and founder of the Temple of the Magdalene. She lives in Oshkosh, WI. You can learn more about Lauri, her writings, programs and services at Authentic Freedom (dot) Love. 

 

 

Posted in About Lauri, building the new world, End of the World Prophecies, self-actualization, spiritual gifts, world changes

The Weight of Responsibility

As a first-born, Capricorn and recovering perfectionist, responsibility has always been my middle name. Whether imposed upon me (by command or circumstance) or simply chosen because it’s who I am; I have always been “the responsible” one.  Lauri can be counted on.  Lauri is honest.  Lauri has integrity.  Lauri is strong, courageous, a hard worker, efficient, and gets things done.  Lauri takes good care of others.  Lauri is responsible.  I would agree that all of this is true most of the time.  But there is a whole other layer of responsibility that I have felt beyond the day to day “getting things done.”  This is a worldly/cosmic/universal/ responsibility that I have never been able to give words to – until now.

This morning, on The Cosmic Path (www.thecosmicpath.com) this was offered as this week’s Capricorn horoscope:

There’s a huge planetary cluster of planets transiting your sign, and it’s the scene of the manifesting entry into the new order. What that means for you is that you are carrying within your energy field all the properties and archetypal energies that can truly deliver us all to the new Golden Age. It will take a good two years for all of this energy to produce the physical reality it is designed to bring forth, and just about every last one of the planets partaking of this grouping now will remain here for the duration. That means, put very simply, you know something huge is happening to you, and it’s absolutely positively futile to try and define something so vast and so unprecedented. You’ll have to stand back and watch it unfold like the rest of us, even though its manifesting in you.

 

Ummmmmm……Ohhhhhhhkaaaaayyyyyy! In one small paragraph Stephanie Azaria describes EXACTLY the weight I have felt my whole entire life.  I’m not here to have a normal Human 1.0 life.  I’m here to birth something new and it is actually birthing THROUGH me.  Holy Crap!

Now, before you accuse me of being all up in my ego for even believing such a thing….I can most certainly attest that this weight I have been feeling has absolutely nothing to do with ego. In fact, I just as soon join the rest of the world on the planet of denial, peacefully making love to my tonic and gin while discussing the latest fashion trends, than having to show up as a vehicle through which a new world is waiting to be born!  Even if said gin and tonic opportunities had ever come my way (which they HAVE NOT), I would not have been able to, and doubt I could choose them now.  Because EVERY SINGLE TIME I try to choose a “normal life” (you know:  normal job, normal relationships, normal life), it is absolutely and without a doubt refused to me.  And believe me….I have tried.  After 100 “real job” applications and not even getting a single phone call, I have surrendered.  After 100 dating sites and nothing but absolute epic fails, again, I quit.  I do not get a “normal life.”  Instead, it seems I have no choice but to continue slogging away at what I do best which is just being Lauri while helping people discover the love they are so that together we can create a new world.

But it is not nearly as simple as that! First off, I’m not getting rich doing this work. In fact, I’m filing bankruptcy while still wondering how I’m going to pay my basic bills this month…….all that while working 3 jobs! (3 if you include parenting which I most certainly do!) Second off, there is NO security in this work.  Human beings are fickle, and few really want to invest in themselves and fewer-still want to continue that investment if it means work.  Everyone wants the shiny object, the “feel good” yoo-rah-rah event or workshop, but very few want to do the hard work. And believe me, the task of healing our fears so that we can know love is HARD AS HELL.  (Isn’t that a great metaphor….for in a sense, we are transforming the hell in which we are living while bringing forth from within us heaven on earth – BOOM!)  Even fewer are willing to give up their attachments to what they know so that they can enjoy the only true freedom which comes from within.  So yeah….exactly why at the end of Jesus’ ministry there were only a few – Mary Magdalene, Mother Mary, Joseph of Arimathea, John the Beloved Disciple, Salome, and a couple other women.  The rest couldn’t handle the most difficult part of the journey which is DEATH. The death of what they had known so as to make room for something new.

And yet, this is EXACTLY what is happening, but now on an EPIC scale. Our world cannot continue if things remain as they are.  At the rate we are currently going, we will destroy ourselves – if the planet doesn’t do it to us first.  (For the record – the Earth always wins!  She will take back what is hers if we can’t learn how to care for it.  We are supposed to be the stewards of the earth….not its conquerors. )  And if it isn’t the planet we are destroying, it is ourselves.  As the rich keep getting richer and the poor keep getting poorer and as the middle class is quickly disappearing; as violence increases, wars on every continent, our children choosing death by suicide, etc. etc. etc. our world is imploding upon itself.   Those who are not benefitting from the current model based in fear, power and control, are longing for something else.  But the change we are longing for is NOT going to come from the top.  It will not come from those in power or from those who are reaping the rewards of a people oppressed.  Instead, it has to come from us – and that change can ONLY come from within.

And this is what I do. Every single day – first for myself – and then for others, I am helping us find ways to transform the fears that cause us to act in non-loving ways toward ourselves, toward each other and toward our planet and am turning those fears into love.  It is that simple, and yet it is also that profound.  The cost of this work is everything that is not in harmony with love – and for some that is a great price.  I know this because of what I have personally given up for the sake of that love.  But even as I stare (financial) death in the face, I can say it has been totally worth it because while there is much I have lost, there is even more that I have gained – and that is my SOUL. I know who I am.  I know what my Soul needs and wants.  Most of the time I am content and I feel at peace.  And most importantly – I know how to love – big, deep, and true.

But even with this, my work is not complete for there are still millions of human beings ACHING for something more. Today I understand that the “something more” is love and until the world knows this love, my Soul will never be satisfied.  THIS is the weight of the responsibility I have felt, perhaps since the day I was born.  Thank you Stephanie Azaria for giving words to what I could not, but have known full well in my heart!

 

Posted in building the new world

9/11 The Collective Trauma We Will Never Forget

On this 17th year anniversary of the September 11th ( 9/11 ) bombing of the Twin Towers, I am reposting my article “United States of Trauma.”  I for one will never forget standing in the lab in the basement of Affinity medical clinic watching the endless loop replaying of the bombing.  I will never forget the horror that suddenly fell upon me that night as my babies lay sleeping in their rooms and realizing that they would grow up in a world knowing they might never be safe.  I cried myself to sleep that night.  17 years later I look at the world our children have grown up in and I am sad for their loss of innocence, yet grateful for the wisdom that has come forth out of our youth in having grown up in the United States of Trauma.  Perhaps they were born into this trauma so that one day we all might be healed.  Here is the article:

United States of Trauma

On September 11, 2001, the United States suffered it greatest trauma, 2996 people were killed and another 6000 wounded. As the first act of such magnitude to be committed within the continental U.S., America lost its innocence along with any sense of domestic security.  As the deadliest terrorist act in world history, the world, but most especially the United States, has not yet recovered.  I’m not sure we ever will. Since the moment the planes flew into the Twin Towers, the U.S. has been at war – first against people of color in countries made of sand and now against each other.  For the past 17 years the United States has known nothing but war, and our current cultural climate suggests that as a nation we are collectively suffering the effects of trauma.

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The Effects of Trauma

In the simplest of terms, when we have an experience that our mind interprets as traumatic, we are instinctually driven toward one of three survival tactics: fight, flight or freeze. If the trauma is not resolved or if the traumatic response is not released from our emotional/physical bodies, the trauma remains. When this occurs, we might find ourselves in a permanent state of fight, flight or freeze.  In this state, we respond to anything that (even subconsciously) reminds us of the initial trauma as if it is happening again.  This is known as a triggering episode.  Unless the trauma is effectively treated, we will find ourselves in an endless loop of reactionary behaviors. Until someone points out to us that our behaviors might be the after effects of trauma, we think nothing of them, often to the point where they become normalized.  I contend that our current cultural climate – defined by fear and division – is in fact, trauma coming out sideways.

United States of Trauma

Whereas September 11th initially had a unifying effect, since the decision to go to war, we, as a nation, have become increasingly polarized.  Our increasing access to information (both true and untrue) has hastened this polarization, and it seems there are those who might actually be feeding this division because it benefits them in some way, or perhaps this is their own reaction to unresolved trauma.  Unresolved trauma comes out sideway in behaviors that are uncharacteristic, often irrational and fear-driven.  We obsess.  We worry.  We fret.  We become angry. We want to fight.  We become immobile. We ignore what is right in front of us. Instead of identifying the fear that is unhealed within us, we want to make someone or something outside of us the enemy – the cause of our concern.  In the current state of our culture, many “enemies” have been named:   Republicans, Democrats, Liberals, Conservatives, Blacks, Whites, The Police, Muslims, Christians, Millennials, Baby Boomers, Screen time, (remember when TV and Rock Music were the “enemies?”) Men, Women, The Media, The NRA, those seeking gun control, Pro-Lifers, those who are Pro-choice, The Rich, The Poor, Corporate Greed, those taking advantage of the system, The Economy, Banks, Illegal Immigrants, those seeking refuge, the mentally ill, etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc.   The bottom line is that the fear and division that currently control our culture have absolutely NOTHING to do with all those things we want to point our fingers toward as being “the enemy.”  Instead, it has EVERYTHING to do with unacknowledged and unresolved TRAUMA.

Healing from Trauma

We are a nation in trauma. We have been for a very long time (I’m still not sure we’ve recovered from the Civil War!), but even more so since 9/11.  In order to heal from the effects of this trauma (increasing fear and division), we have to name it as such, and then do the difficult work of healing from that trauma.  Healing from trauma happens when we are able to:

  1. Name the trauma. What is actually at the heart of our fearful thoughts, reactions, and behaviors? What is the true cause of the fear? Maybe it is 9/11, or maybe it stems from something even older – an experience of childhood abuse, bullying or rejection, a devastating loss or disappointment, a past failure or betrayal?
  2. Acknowledge that the fear has NOTHING to do with what you are currently perceiving outside of you (events in the news, the disagreement with your spouse, what you read on social media), but is instead related to something within you asking to be healed. Once you are able to identify the fear comes the hard part.
  3. Instead of following our instinct which is to “make the fear go away,” (by pointing the finger of blame at someone else, ignoring or denying it, numbing it, etc.) we SIT with the fear. Allow yourself to actually FEEL the fear. Identify where in your body you might be feeling it, breathe into that fear, and then breathe out love. Remain with this practice (which the Buddhists call Tonglen), until you feel the fear change. Maybe it moves. Maybe it is resolved and you find yourself coming to peace. Maybe it changes to anger or sorrow. Whatever you do, don’t respond or react to the fear, instead, allow it to be healed.
  4. Shampoo, Rinse, Repeat. Each and every one of us is a bundle of unacknowledged and unresolved woundedness and fear. Until we are able to heal the trauma that dwells within us, we will never be able to heal the fears that have placed fear and division as the rulers of our country.

Healing from trauma is difficult and challenging work, but enormously rewarding. Freeing ourselves from the effects of trauma empowers us to see our world through a different lens, allowing us to come to the discussion table where we are able to effectively work together for justice, peace and reconciliation.  Until we can heal what is broken within us, we will never be able to heal what is broken in our nation or our world.

NOTE: The practices shared here are for the purpose of addressing normal, everyday fear.  If you find your symptoms persisting, please seek additional support through spiritual counseling, traditional counseling, self-development courses, or through any of the methods of intervention which have proven helpful in healing trauma:  EMDR and Brainspotting to name a few.

 

Posted in building the new world, Christ Consciousness, Jesus, Lessons

Lovers and Liars: You Say You’re a Christian?

If we say that we are Christian but are selective about who and how we love, we are liars. Rather, we are wounded and broken people who have not yet come to know the fullness of God’s unmerited and unconditional love. In order to love in the way Jesus calls us to love, we first have to heal those places within where we do not yet know love.  Authentic Freedom provides the tools and resources to help us learn this love.

My children, I am writing this to you
so that you may not commit sin.
But if anyone does sin, we have an Advocate with the Father,
Jesus Christ the righteous one.
He is expiation for our sins,
and not for our sins only but for those of the whole world.
The way we may be sure that we know him is to keep
his commandments.
Those who say, “I know him,” but do not keep his commandments
are liars, and the truth is not in them.
But whoever keeps his word,
the love of God is truly perfected in him

1 JN 2: 1-5a

 

Lovers and Liars

In this week’s letter from John, the author makes no apologies for their opinion of those who say they “know Jesus” but who are not living according to the commandments that Jesus laid out for them. The author calls them liars. Jesus called the same kind of people hypocrites. These are people who say they “know Jesus” or who have “proclaimed Jesus to be my personal Lord and Savior,” who attend mass every Sunday, show up for coffee and donuts, maybe even serve on the parish council, and who feel justified in their faith because they are doing what they are told to do in being a “good Christian.”

But are they – “being a good Christian?”

Being a good Christian is not about accepting Jesus as our savior. Neither is it about whether or not we attend mass on Sundays. Being a good Christian is about doing what Jesus did and doing what he commanded us to do:

“Love God. Love your neighbor. Everyone is your neighbor.”

Period!

If we say we believe in Jesus and think of him as our savior and teacher, but choose to be selective about this love piece, then we are liars. If we think we are loving our neighbor, but refuse to take the next steps which Jesus called us to do:

Feed the hungry. Clothe the naked. Heal the sick. Set captives free. Provide a home to the homeless. Etc. etc. etc. etc………ETC.

Then we are liars.

  • When we turn a blind eye to those in need….we are liars.
  • When we allow our privilege to blind us to the deep needs of others, we are liars.
  • When we believe that fulfilling the “American Dream” is simply a matter of hard work and effort and have no compassion for those who are struggling just to get their basic needs met and then judge them as worthless and lazy…we are liars.
  • When we believe the illusion of “equal opportunity” we are liars.
  • When we blindly throw money at organizations who serve the needs of those in need but do not take action to change a system that places these people in need in the first place…we are liars.
  • When we judge others without first walking a mile in their shoes…we are liars.
  • When we refuse to advocate for those who have not because of some judgement we have of them (usually based in grave misinformation) we are liars.

Every single time we say we “know Jesus” but turn away from those in desperate need – the poor, the outcast, the disenfranchised, etc. we are liars. The author of John, it seems, has no patience for liars. According to scripture, neither did Jesus.

Or did they?

What if the final verses of John’s letter are not judgement or condemnation, but a simple observation of fact:

Those who say, “I know him,” but do not keep his commandments
are liars, and the truth is not in them.

 

Those who John is calling liars, are simply those who think they know Jesus and the truth Jesus came to reveal, but who in fact do not. They do not (or have not yet come to know) the LOVE of God that Jesus came to know and then sought to teach to the world. Not having come to know the unmerited, unconditional love of God, they are unable to live the love that God is and which God seeks to be through them. As such, they have no choice but to live in non-loving ways (or in ways that are limited). This doesn’t make them a bad person, simply one who does not yet know the breadth and depth of God’s love and who has much yet to learn.

Coming to know the fullness of God’s love is a journey of healing – healing the fears, false perceptions and ego attachments that otherwise stand in the way of fully knowing God’s love. In being open to and doing the difficult work of identifying and then allowing these fears to be healed, the experience of knowing God’s love deepens and widens and we are more and more able to live the fullness of Jesus’ commandments. Or as John so astutely observed:

But whoever keeps his word,
the love of God is truly perfected in him.

 How are you being called to allow the Love of God to be perfected in you? How are you called to support others in doing the same?

Please join Lauri Ann Lumby on Monday, April 16th on Blogtalk Radio where she will be the guest of Cindy Bentley with Healing Fountain.  Learn more and join HERE. 

Posted in building the new world, New World, world changes

Become an Agent of Non-Violent Social Change

Become an agent of non-violent social change.  Connect with a community of women, men and young people who are seeking to make a positive change in our culture and in our world. Be supported in making positive and effective change through civility practices. Learn how to support yourself and others in the practice of radical personal accountability. Discover and practice effective methods for conflict resolution. Explore effective methods for non-violent discussion and activism.  Be the change you want to see in the world. Be empowered in the use of your own unique gifts to change the world by healing the world.

Love Warriors – Agents of Non-Violent Social Change

Love Warriors is the fulfillment of the mission of Authentic Freedom Academy. After supporting the spiritual awakening and self-actualization of change agents, we empower you in fulfilling your personal mission of being a vessel through which Divine Love is made manifest in our world through your unique giftedness, specifically as an agent of positive, non-violent social change.

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Love Warriors Provides Support through:

  • Guidance and support through our online Love Warriors Basic Training course.
  • Ongoing inspiration and support through our Authentic Freedom Weekly newsletter.
  • Ongoing education through our online courses.
  • One-on-one mentoring/spiritual counseling.
  • An online community where we can connect, network with, and support each other.
  • Local and online Love Warrior events.

Love Warriors know:

  • Who they are.
  • Their place in the world.
  • What their gifts are and how they are being called to use these gifts for the sake of their own fulfillment and in service to the betterment of our world. 

Love Warriors is made up of:

  • Graduates of the Authentic Freedom Mastery Program and the Magdalene Priest/Priestess Training.
  • Women and Men from all educational and spiritually formative backgrounds who are committed to working for love and peace in our world using civil, non-violent means.
  • Young people who are looking for a place to explore their own calling, share their voice, and who may be looking for support in their own desire to work for positive change.
  • Anyone who feels called to support the efforts of non-violent social change.

Membership includes:

  • The Love Warrior online Basic Training course.
  • FREE access to the Authentic Freedom weekly newsletter.
  • Savings on individual online courses. (Authentic Freedom Mastery Program and the Magdalene Priest/Priestess Training are excluded from this offer.)
  • Exclusive Love Warrior content.
  • Access to the Private online community.
  • Ongoing resources and guidance as it becomes available.
  • Local and online Love Warrior gatherings and events.

Become a Love Warrior Today!

Click HERE to learn more and to become a member.

Why “warrior?”  Beyond military conflict, warrior is a word that represents courage, strength, persistence, tenacity and the willingness to take a risk – all qualities that are necessary in the work of peace and in helping to bring about positive, non-violent change.  YOU are a warrior for saying yes to this work and more importantly, for saying yes to the cause of love – the very purpose of your SOUL. 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, building the new world, Healing, Spiritual Direction

School Shootings – Had Enough Yet?

School Shootings: Had enough of innocent children and their teachers dying yet?  I know I have!

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The Dilemma

From a friend who suffered the trauma of school lockdown as a nearby school was being attacked:

18 school shootings in 45 days… My heart is breaking that this is the “New Normal”. I can’t even imagine what these Florida parents are going through… Only a little, not even close. Pray, my friends, pray for the students, parents, teachers and the shooter. Yes, the shooter. And his family. Encourage your kids that “if you see, hear something… Say something”. Honestly, I don’t even know where I was trying to go with all of this. Just that I’m scared. I’m scared for the future of our kids. What do we do? What can we do, as parents, students, teachers, law enforcement to prevent this? Dang it… 17 people died today. For no dang reason. …

Yesterday from one of the teachers:

“We did everything that we were supposed to do. Broward County Schools has prepared us for this situation and still to have so many casualties … for me, it’s very emotional because I feel today like our government, our country has failed us and failed our kids and didn’t keep us safe.”

It sure seems that this is the “new normal,” and that indeed our government, even our country has failed us.  It is insane, incomprehensible, completely beyond sense or reason.  How have we had 18 school shootings in 45 days and absolutely nothing is being done to stop the insanity.

The Cause

I can tell you why – because the problem goes way beyond anything that we might want to point at as the “cause.”  The cause is not gun laws (or lack thereof), inadequate mental health attention and funding, bad parenting, lack of safety, protection or precautions in our schools.  While all of the aforementioned might contribute to the vulnerability of our schools to attack, in truth, they are only symptoms – symptoms of a system (or systems) that have failed.  But again, the failed systems are not the problem.  Failed systems all have one thing in common – broken people.  Healthy people don’t make broken systems. Broken people make broken systems.  In the same way that we cannot heal a brain tumor by giving the patient an aspirin for their headache, we cannot heal a broken system by treating the symptoms.  To heal a broken system, we have to first heal the people who made it.

In other words, the systems we want to point our fingers toward as the cause of school shootings (and every other human act of violence for that matter) are not the problem.  The problem is all the broken people who created and now make up these systems.  If we want the systems to change, we have to heal the people who made them.    Oh…..and those people who made these systems are you and me!

The Solution

Gandhi once said, “Be the change you want to see in the world.” This could never be more relevant as it is right now.  If we want to see true, authentic, enduring change in our world, it has to start with us.  In the most basic sense, these school shootings are merely a reflection of all that is broken in our culture (and in our world).  In order to heal what is broken, we have to identify the cause. The place we search for that cause is deep within ourselves.  What in the school shooters is present within ourselves?  Loneliness?  Isolation?  Feelings of being rejected?  Depression?  Hatred?  Prejudice?  Unmanaged anxiety?  Depression?  Devastating loss?  A feeling of not belonging?  What is it in the policy makers we want to hate that is present within ourselves?  Denial?  Greed?  Arrogance?  Gluttony?  Sloth?  Judgment?  Insecurity?  What is in the overburdened, underfunded and understaffed mental health system that is present within us?  The list goes on and on.  What we might judge as “wrong” or “broken” in these systems is also broken in us.  In order to heal/change the former, we have to first heal ourselves.  As Jesus said,

“Why do you see the speck in your neighbor’s eye, but do not notice the log in your own eye? Or how can you say to your neighbor, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ while the log is in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your neighbor’s eye.”  (Matthew 7: 3-4)

If not for yourself, please do it for the children! 

If we truly want to see non-violent, enduring and effective change in our world, we first have to change ourselves.  As we heal what is broken within us, we can then be a source of support for others who also want to be healed.  The rest, then, simply takes care of itself.  Healthy, whole individuals create healthy, harmonious, effectively working systems.  If this alone doesn’t make you want to seek healing…..then at least do it for the children. Please don’t let any more of them die because of a mess that someone else (we) created!

Authentic Freedom Academy provides a wide range of programs and services in support of your healing.  Changing the world begins by changing ourselves!  

 

Posted in Authentic Freedom, building the new world, Christ Consciousness, Empowerment, Forgiveness, Gratitude, Healing, Inspiration, self-actualization

No Reward for Being Good

A letter to all healers and change-makers

Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS
Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS

My Dear Sisters and Brothers,

Yesterday I was gifted with a startling realization – one that I believe applies to many (if not all) of the amazing women, men and children I know who are here to heal and change our world.  The roots of this lie within our childhoods, the roles we took on, our beliefs about those roles and how these beliefs have translated into our adult lives – specifically in our tendency to take the unique and special people we are and the gifts we bring to our world for granted and the physical manifestation (or rather, the lack thereof) of taking our gifts and ourselves for granted….which for many of us has translated into struggles over money. (UGH).

It begins in our childhood and in the roles we took on within our family of origin and then brought forth into our life experiences.  For many who become healers/changemakers, these childhood roles include: protector, peacemaker, mediator, “good girl/boy,” caretaker, approval seeker, the responsible one, etc.  These roles become so much a part of who we are that they are often taken for granted.  “Oh, that’s just how (insert your name here) is.”  While on one hand it simply is who we are and what we do and likely the result of the gifts we brought into this world, no one thinks anything of it. Never is there recognition or reward for the effort we put in (often internally) to assume these roles or the inherent gifts we were given that allowed us to take on these roles in the first place. Additionally, there is no acknowledgment for the gifts that come forth out of these roles, which for many include: courage, self-sufficiency, discipline, foresight, empathy, compassion, kindness, the desire to help and to serve, etc. What we take away from these lived experiences is the understanding that there is no reward for being good.  Even more devastating perhaps is the understanding that there is no value to who we are or what we do because “it is simply who and how we are.”

This understanding then follows us into our adult lives.  As we found our calling to be healers/changemakers and understand that this IS who we are and WHAT we came here to do, our past experiences color our beliefs and feelings around this.  If it is simply who and what we do and who and what we are has always been taken for granted, then what value/reward/recognition is there for the gifts we bring into the world to make the world a better place?  We see the manifestation of this is our struggles with money – in our struggles with charging for our services, for asking for an adequate exchange for sharing our gifts in the world, etc.  We also see it in the constant struggle of getting our names and our gifts and services out there…. It often seems as if what works for everyone else simply doesn’t work for us, making us wonder if we’re simply invisible!

When we take our gifts for granted, others do too.  When we fail to see our true magnificence, others will also fail to see it.  The remedy to all of this has already begun in the demon being named – the false belief that there is no reward for being good. The next step is believing in the unique gifts we bring to the world and that what we bring IS TRULY UNIQUE!  To help you/all of us with this, I share the following meditation:

Place yourself within your own body for a moment….go deep within yourself and REMEMBER.  Remember the magnificent gifts you brought into the world that allowed you to become the person you became in your family of origin – protector, peacemaker, mediator, etc. etc. etc.  Remember the gifts that already existed within you that allowed you to become who you became – courage, tenacity, patience, creativity, empathy, self-sufficiency, independence, responsible, deep listener, observer, rememberer, playful, entertaining, discipline, etc. etc. etc.  Remember that your mission and purpose were already present within you at the moment of your birth and reflect on how that mission and purpose was informed, developed, cultivated through your childhood experiences (good and bad).  Remember how your gifts are unique from those of your peers.  Remember how you were set apart as (or thought of yourself as) different.  Remember the moment you became aware of your calling and everything you have done to pursue and fulfill that calling.  Remember every training, every class, every experience that supported the development of your gifts and your calling.  Remember ALL THE HARD WORK and everything it took within you, every sacrifice you have made to get where you are today.  Recognize that you are unique in having pursued your calling!  Recognize what you had to leave behind in order to fulfill this calling.  Acknowledge all those who have had the opportunity to pursue their calling and were too afraid to continue.  Recognize the courage, tenacity, patience, faith, stubbornness that got you to where you are today.  SEE the brilliant star-like presence that lies within the center of your heart.  This is the Light of the Divine that dwells within you and which IS your soul’s calling.  See this light pulsing and glowing and shining forth into the world from within you.  Watch as it reaches out into the farthest reaches of space, bringing forth your light and love into the world.  As it reaches out into the world, observe as it draws toward you all those who are in need of your unique gifts – gifts only you can give them.  Watch as those who need your gifts reach toward you in acknowledgement and gratitude for your gifts and know in your heart that only you can fulfill this need within them.  FEEL the recognition of your gifts as seen through their eyes and FEEL the value of the gratitude they feel in receiving your gifts.  FEEL the value of who you are and what you bring into the world. FEEL the value of all your hard work, years of study and practice, etc.  KNOW that what you have is special and unique and that there are thousands, if not millions, clamoring for your gifts.  KNOW that as you believe in the value of your unique giftedness so too will the world.

As we commemorate the birth of love into the world in the person of Jesus who became Christ,  this is my prayer for you:  That in 2018 you REALIZE the magnificence that you are and experience the abundant reward in being good.

Merry Christmas,

Love,

Lauri

 

 

Posted in Beloved Partnership, building the new world, men, world changes

Inviting the Men to Join Us

Yesterday I wrote an article about Feminine Rage and the injustices that have been done to women at the hands of the current structure of our world which is rooted in fear, power and control.  While yesterday’s blog spoke on behalf of women, today I speak to (and hopefully for) the men.

Men, if you are not angered over the injustices that our world has heaped upon women (people of color, the disenfranchised, the sick, the poor, the elderly, etc.) then you should be. If not for the women, then you should be angry for your own sake. Because as much as women have suffered under the hands of a culture rooted in fear, power and control, so have you.  If you don’t believe me, ask yourself a few questions:

  • Where and how have you felt supported for your sensitive, vulnerable side?
  • Where have you been forbidden (or condemned) for expressing tender emotions – fear, sorrow, anxiety, love?
  • Where have you run from intimacy, fearing the vulnerability that comes with it?
  • Where have you been told to “stop crying,” or “boys don’t cry?”
  • Where have you been forced into situations of competition, violence, bullying and how did these experiences cause you discomfort?
  • How do you feel about picking up a gun and going off to war?
  • How do you feel about putting a gun in your son’s hand and sending him off to war?
  • Where do you feel pressure to drive, strive, succeed, achieve, and where do you feel as if your only value is based on how much money you make, what kind of car your drive or what neighborhood you live in?
  • Where have you been supported in exploring/cultivating your creative yearnings? Where have you been told, when entertaining your creative dreams, “There’s no money in that….”
  • Where have you experienced support and a vehicle for expressing all the inner areas of conflict within yourself?
  • Where have you been molested, assaulted, taken advantage of by one in a perceived position of power over you?

My dear, sweet men, you have a right to be angry about all the places in your life where you have been denied or felt as if you had to suppress your truth. The hierarchical/patriarchal/consumeristic/capitalistic world has done you as much harm as it has done to us – maybe more. As much as you have been told to “be tough,” “keep a stiff upper lip,” “be courageous and strong,” and that your value is dependent on what you have achieved (as it is measured in the terms of our society), this is not the whole of what it means to be a man.  While the Holy Masculine is about provision, protection, action and support, in order to experience wholeness, one also needs to experience the feeling of being supported, protected and provided for……and this is the role of the Divine Feminine.  This is the Holy Balance that our Creator intended and what we all long to experience in our world – if we are truly honest with ourselves and about the deepest longing in our hearts.

Men, this is what we as women long to be for you – the Divine Feminine to your Holy Masculine. As women, we have the potential for creating the space in which you might feel safe to lay down your sword and set aside your armor.  Where you are supported in feeling and expressing fear; where you are honored for your strength and your vulnerability.  Where you are uplifted, nourished, nurtured and restored so that you might go back out into the world to do the work you came here to do.  And while we do this for you, we long for you to do the same for us.

We are in this together….but we live in a world that seems to have forgotten this. Instead, we live in a world that has pitted men against women and women against men….and sadly, this is a world of our own making – not directly, but due to thousands of years of conditioning, and we are complicit in allowing it to continue.  Men are guilty for enjoying the benefits of male privilege, and women are guilty for allowing it while enjoying the benefits of powerlessness.  BUT it doesn’t need to be this way.  We have the power to change this, but we can only make this change TOGETHER.  Women acting alone cannot bring about a new paradigm of human partnership and collaboration without the men acting right here beside us.

So my dear sweet men, I offer you a question, an invitation and a question:

The Question:  What kind of world do you want to live in? One rooted in the Unholy Masculine defined by fear, power and control or one rooted in the Holy which honors and uplifts the unique giftedness among all human beings and draws from those gifts?

The Invitation:  If the world you would like to live in is not the world you are living in now, what would you like to do about it?

The Question: If you feel called to a more Holy expression of our world, who are the women you would like to stand beside in bringing this about?

Posted in building the new world, women, world changes

Feminine Rage

Yesterday while sharing on Facebook the cavalcade of emotions that have been running through my body of late (anxiety, panic, deep grief, depression, paralysis, irritability, all-out rage), it seems I hit a nerve.  An outpouring of women responded with similar feelings.  Yes, all who responded are empathic and sensitive to the energies of the world, but beyond this, I believe we were speaking from the place of our own disgust, disappointment, hurt, frustration, feelings of helplessness, impatience and flat out anger over the state of the world in which we are living.

The way our world is today SUCKS.  As women (along with the men who are walking the way of the Divine with us) we know there is a better way and we are DAMN tired of being ignored, threatened, silenced, put down, punished, beaten, raped and even killed for speaking and trying to live what we know.  We KNOW that the hierarchical/patriarchal world based in fear, power and control doesn’t work.

We also know that that world is in the midst of its own collapse and that a new world is seeking to be born.  We know what the new world looks like and how to build it, if ANYONE WOULD LET US SPEAK!

Instead, we’re accused of being crazy, shit-disturbers, heretics, blasphemers, witches and whores for carrying the vision of a better, more loving, kinder, gentler world.  Or worse, we’ve been patted on the head for having such silly, frivolous visions, because “everyone knows the only way to live in this world is through force, conflict, violence and war….it’s always been this way and it will never change.”  To this we say BULLSHIT!

We know that it has not always been this way.  We know that is doesn’t have to remain this way.  Deep in the center of our beings (and in the center of YOUR being if you are paying attention), we know there is another way.

For where has this hierarchical/patriarchal/capitalistic/consumeristic world gotten us?  It has gotten us to exactly where we are today, “enjoying” a world in which for everyone but the 1% of the 1%, everything SUCKS!

  • The world itself is dying from the violence we have done to her.
  • We live under the constant threat of global war.
  • We are living in a constant state of war right here on our own shores!  The violence we are waging against each other is worse than any terrorism that might come from a foreign shore.
  • Millions of people are without access to quality healthcare.
  • Education is dying.
  • Millions of people are starving, homeless, struggling just for basic subsistence.
  • Our economy sucks.  Billions of people are in debt and will likely never recover from that debt.
  • Despite what the news says, unemployment and underemployment are more than serious concerns.

I could go on and on, but you get the gist.  There are no benefits in a world based in fear, power and control unless you are the one in the position of power.  As women we know that not one among those few are women.  For people of color, the realization is even more dire, for not only are there no women holding these positions of power, there are no men.

Again, we know a better way.  But, we live in a world where no one cares to listen.

First among those who are deaf to our pleas are those who benefit from the current culture of fear, power and control – rich, white men and those living under the umbrella of their privilege.

Second are those who know things are bad, who feel the sense of unease over the current state of the world, but who choose to look away lest they be called on to do something about it.

Third are those who feel the extent of their powerlessness and have become paralyzed by a culture which has made them this way – the poor, immigrants, people of color, those who have become marginalized because of their ancestry, gender, orientation, religion, etc.

This is why we are pissed!  We are tired of living in a world rooted in fear, power and control where only those who hold the gold make the rules and only those in power benefit.  We are tired of living in a world defined by conflict and violence.  We are sick to death of living in a world where our value is determined by what we have produced, how much money we make, our position of status or power.  As women, we are tired of being valued only for what we do for (or how we look on the arm of ) our men.  We are sick of cultures and systems that do not value the sacred earth on which we live – the very planet upon which we are dependent for our survival.  We are tired of living in fear.  We are tired of having to scream, shout, beg for our own needs to be met and the needs of our children – basic human needs for food, clothing, shelter, access to quality healthcare, a good education, meaningful work and GODDAMNIT…..SUPPORT!  We cannot do this alone and we are damn sick of doing it alone!  Women are pissed and we have a damn good reason for being pissed!

We are tired of not being valued for our uniquely feminine way of moving about this world.  We long for a world free of violence, hatred, ignorance, fear and separation.  We long for a world where every human being is honored and valued for who they are as uniquely gifted individuals.  We cry out for a world that supports (rather than tearing down) people in knowing what their unique gifts are and for a world that empowers them to live that out.  We yearn for a world where things are gentle – where we can walk softly upon this earth and find that tender balance between nurturing ourselves and our own needs, enjoying the company of family and friends, meaningful work, and exuberant play.  We crave beauty.  We want opportunities for learning.  We want to be happy, healthy and whole.  Sadly, none of this is possible in the current world we are living unless you are one of the privileged few.  And the privileged few and those who benefit from the world they have created want us to believe that this vision we hold of a kinder, gentler world are simply the ravings of a mad woman.

Damn right we are mad!  And it’s likely that you should be too!  Is this seriously the world you want to live in?  If not, goddamn it, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!  Put the energy of that rage into action. Start working for change.  POSITIVE, NON-VIOLENT change.  Gather those of like mind.  Support each other is speaking and acting out.  Uplift each other for your unique gifts.  Do the world of BEING and LIVING love in our world.  Because, if you/we don’t do it…..who will?