In the journey of self-actualization and coming into our wholeness, old wounds often resurface so that another layer of healing and transformation may occur. Journaling and writing poetry are two of the ways I support myself in processing these wounds – in this case, the wound of betrayal. What are the tools you have used to heal from the many ways in which life has betrayed you?
Betrayal seems to me the most excruciating of all pain,
Perhaps more painful even than death.
For in death at least there is closure.
And we can bury our dead.
(Isn’t death, after all, a betrayer and a betrayal?
Perhaps betrayal IS the pain in death, more so even than the loss.)
But in betrayal, the betrayer becomes a living specter reminding us of our failure.
How could I not have known?
How did I not see it sooner?
Why did I put up with this for so long?
But alas, we likely knew and saw from the very beginning –
The signs and the red flags –
Heralds of truth we chose to ignore
for the sake of counterfeit love,
a relationship of convenience…
a means to an end.
Or because this was the only kind of love we had ever known.
The betrayer – forever taunting us in their ability to go on.
While holding our beating and dripping heart in their hands –
as a trophy.
Pride the betrayer’s sin.
Believing themselves above the laws of human kindness,
Ever justified in their righteousness.
Using our vulnerability as a weapon –
The soul we bared against us.
A cruelty beyond imagining.
No seeking after forgiveness.
In betrayal, the pure of heart are left to suffer
while the betrayer rides off triumphantly
seeking after another one to betray.
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In this week’s letter from Paul to Timothy, we can immediately discard anything exclusionary or rooted in privilege or separation. Jesus was about bringing people together, not tearing them apart. Jesus was about unity, not separation. Jesus did not come to start a new Church – he was trying to remind his community of the truth of Unity and Love hidden within their Jewish tradition.
But, we can embrace the deeper invitation in Paul’s letter – one that speaks to the hearts of many – the deep longing for a quiet and tranquil life – one rooted in contemplation and prayer, simplicity and ease. This is the longing that was explored in this week’s Authentic Freedom Teacher’s Circle gathering and one that draws many to this great work. It is a life drastically different from the life we have been conditioned to receive.
In the Western world, driving, striving, achieving, and doing are greatly favored over quiet tranquility. In fact, we are in danger of being judged as “lazy” for yearning for a gentler life. Quiet, tranquil and gentle are not the means to achievement and success – at least not as the Western world defines success. In our culture, achievement and success are defined by money, power and fame which we are told can only be attained by HARD WORK. You know……lots and lots of doing. We see it everywhere. In our schools. In our work environments. In our families. In our peer groups. On TV. Hard work = success. At least that is the capitalistic lie we’ve been told. Talk to any single parent trying to care for a family of 3 if they are getting rich on their hard work. 9.9 times out of 10, the answer will be NO.
Like those who believe Catholicism holds a monopoly on the Truth (as Paul would have us believe), we’ve been sold a lie. Hard work does not guarantee success. A bigger question arises in this exploration – do we even want success as it is defined by the Western world? If we have to kill ourselves to get there and if killing ourselves through doing doesn’t even guarantee success, is it worth it? For me, and many I know, the answer is no. No amount of driving to succeed is worth the physical, emotional, mental and spiritual cost of all that doing.
Here, Paul was right. We yearn for and have an opportunity to seek after a quiet and tranquil life. As he also hints at, it is in cultivating a quiet and simply life that we can find God. The Kingdom of God about which Jesus spoke can only be found within. We find it in our meditation, contemplation and prayer. We also find it in the simple pleasures of life – a walk in the woods; the meditative acts of gardening, cooking and cleaning; playing with our children; spending time with close friends; and any other activity that allows us to detach from our worries and concerns and find peace in the present moment.
Then here is how we are saved. Not by “proclaiming Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior” or declaring our path as the only path to Truth/God. Instead, salvation is found in those moments of quiet tranquility and where are one within ourselves, one with all around us and in this, One with God. This is the salvation Jesus promised. Right here. Right now. In this lived experience. For those who choose it.
In this, we are not the “chosen ones.” We are the choosing ones.
What are you going to choose?
Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS, is the author of seven books, most of which were given to her by Mary Magdalene. Directly given to Lauri or inspired by the work and mission of Mary Magdalene, these books provide the foundation and practices she learned through and with Jesus and which she was empowered to continue to share in his stead. If Mary Magdalene and the journey toward self-actualization are topics of interest to you, consider adding these to your fall reading list:
Song of the Beloved – the Gospel According to Mary Magdalene is a provocative retelling of the Jesus story from the perspective of Mary Magdalene. After fourteen years of suffering the debilitating effects of trauma, Mary is healed by Jesus. She then becomes his most enthusiastic and devoted disciple; later becoming his companion, co-minister, beloved and wife. Designated the Magdalene, Mary is appointed to carry on Jesus’ ministry after his death.
A great work of fiction, inspired by scripture, historical documents and ancient sacred texts, Song of the Beloved provides nourishment and inspiration for those in search of a relevant Christianity – with Jesus and Mary as two who lived the fullness of the human experience while teaching us how to love.
Authentic Freedom – Claiming a Life of Contentment and Joy transcends centuries of dogma to reveal the powerful and life-changing message at the heart of Jesus’ teachings and the universal truths at the core of every religion. The book’s unique approach offers an opportunity for the reader to heal the separation they feel within themselves, with God and with each other, ultimately revealing the truth of Oneness. Built upon the compelling integration of Eastern Energy Medicine and the 2000-year-old tradition of Christian, contemplative spiritual practices, Authentic Freedom reveals a Dynamic and unifying path of spiritual transformation that speaks to people of all traditions and beliefs.
Authentic Freedom is the process Mary Magdalene was led through and learned from Jesus. This is the process that empowered her to become co-equal with Jesus and which allowed her to assist him in rising from the dead and which made her worthy to continue Jesus’ work in his stead.
Only Love – the Secret Teaching of Mary Magdalene is a collection of writings received by Lauri Ann Lumby on behalf of Mary Magdalene. The ultimate purpose of these teachings is to support the world as it moves out of the fear that has held it imprisoned to the Love that is its original nature. Thank you for being a vessel through which you, and then the world, shall know that even in the human experience, there is Only Love.
“We are in an exciting time in the evolution of human consciousness. If you have found yourself drawn to these words, it is because you agreed to incarnate on the earth plane at this time to help usher in the age of Love. You have agreed to this on behalf of the Divine intention of Love and for the sake of all of humanity. As you know, this has been no easy task. In order to support humanity in its next stage of evolution you have first had to do it for yourself.”
Mary Magdalene is many things to many people, but to the initiated, she is the Beloved of Christ, his co-equal partner, and guardian of the mystical teachings and practices of the Western spiritual tradition. More than any other disciple, Mary understood the mystical, gnostic, and alchemical teachings of Jesus. Mary came to embody these teachings and was empowered by Christ to deliver these teachings to the Western world.
Union – a Year of Spiritual Lessons and Practices with Mary Magdalene is a collection of lessons which when diligently applied, empowers the reader to experience the truth of Oneness (Union) that Jesus taught and which Mary Magdalene came to embody. These lessons were revealed to Lauri Ann Lumby through her intimate partnership with the Magdalene/Christ and support the reader’s journey toward remembering their original nature as Love.
Below is an excerpt from my book, Authentic Freedom- Claiming a Life of Contentment and Joy. Authentic Freedom provides a comprehensive path and protocol for supporting our inner spiritual development, integrating the contemplative practices of the Judeo-Christian tradition with knowledge of the chakras. Learn more HERE.
In the beginning and middle stages of spiritual growth, it is helpful to perceive God as intimately personal and human-like and as something distinct from us. At the same time, these personal images of God do not begin to touch the vast nature of our Divine Source. Eventually, to truly embrace the fullness of the truth of Oneness, and of love as our true nature, we have to look beyond these personal images to something more infinite. Looking to the deeper translation of the term Abwoon that Jesus so frequently used to address God, we begin to get a glimpse of the vastness of the Divine.
O Though from whom the breath of life flows and is present in all forms of vibration and light. (Prayers of the Cosmos, Neil Douglas-Klotz)
It is difficult to grasp the transcendent, indwelling and infinite nature of God with our human mind, and so we have to reach beyond our minds to the lived experience in order to grasp this truth. The writings attributed to John best express the fullness of this lived experience. It is clear through these writings that the author had a deeply personal and experiential relationship with the I Am. It is through this experience that the concept of God as love itself is most clearly articulated.
God is love, and whoever remains in love remains in God and God in him. In this is love brought to perfection among us, that we have confidence on the day of judgment because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment, and so one who fears is not yet perfect in love. We love because God loved us first. 1 John 4: 16b – 19
As the author of John experienced, God is love. Applying this expanded understanding to our existing relationship with God, it stands to reason that if God is love, it is in fact, love that created us. As such, the love that is God lives in and through us. In this way, not only are we loved, we are love itself. Love is, in fact, our rightful inheritance, our true nature, our identity. We are able to live out of this true nature when we remember that we are One with God and hence, one in love.
HOLY VIRTUE – Compassion
As we accept the truth that we are One in love with God we become content in the love that we are and we no longer feel compelled to seek that love outside of us. This love-filled contentment invites us to explore the rewriting of our fairytales. As we (the protagonist) come to know the love that is deep within ourselves, we exponentially increase our ability to live in the truth of this love. Knowing that we are comprised of love, we no longer need to build defenses around ourselves, and the fortresses around our hearts begin to disintegrate and we find that we can trust ourselves and others. Understanding that conditional love can never be a source of fulfillment, we no longer find ourselves compelled to seek the handsome prince or beautiful princess that will be able to give us our happily ever after. Love, we remember, is who we are. As we grow in this confidence, we are able to go out into the world reflecting the love that we now know within ourselves. It is here that we shall experience the truest expression of the virtue of compassion. It is here that we shall find our happily ever after.
Authentic Freedom is also available as an online course, facilitated by Lauri Ann Lumby. Learn more HERE.
This is for all those I know who are way beyond the co-dependency currently favored in the western relationship model. We are no longer looking for completion – we are looking for mutual honor, respect and an equal partnership of shared and complementary gifts. We are looking for Beloved Partnership and Self-actualized Love.
I don’t care how much money you make,
What car you drive or where you live.
I want to know your Soul.
But for me to know your Soul,
You must know it first:
Have you died and lived a thousand deaths?
Tell me how your life has brought you to your knees.
What did you learn about yourself in the process?
Who have you found yourself to be on the other side of lying prostrate?
Have you walked through the fires of hell
and made friends with your demons?
How do you treat the broken and fragile things of this world?
Are you friends with your own vulnerability?
Is there room in your heart and your actions
For foreigners and immigrants?
The mentally ill and disabled?
The aging and the ailing?
The homeless, abused, neglected, forgotten and ignored?
Those who struggle day to day just to survive?
Is there room in your heart for “they?”
How are you walking kindly and gently upon this earth?
Can you see the earth as another living thing in need of our love?
Are you moved to tears by both the beauty and the horrors of our world?
Can you laugh at yourself?
Are you strong in the face of danger and
Weak in the Presence of Love?
Are you able to be alone…and quiet…and still?
Do you find comfort in silence and inspiration in song?
Can you hold space for one who is breaking –
Especially when the broken one is You?
Copyright Lauri Ann Lumby
For support in your journey of love – moving beyond “You Complete Me” to “Beloved Partnership, read and entertain the activities in my book:
Twilight visitations: Yesterday morning while in meditation, I was visited upon by a Presence. It appeared first as a flash of light, then as a star, hanging just outside my window. The “star” was filled with the Presence(s) of Knowing and Truth. Then the star began to speak – not in the language of words, but in the language of knowing. Delivering to me what I need to know in this moment – a message I am now being asked to share with the world.
We are here to change the soul and vibration of our world.
I already knew this on some level, and I’m certain you do too. But in this most recent transmission, the fact became even more clear – along with the method.
The method is not about doing. Doing is the work of a dualistic world. Instead, the method is in our BEING. It is by our very presence that the energy of our world is being transmuted from fear into love; separation into union. Simply in being ourselves, the vibration of our world is changing; but even more so when we add intention to our being.
As a “transmitter,” this is my mission and purpose on this plane – to simply BE and Transmit the new vibrations that are needed so desperately in our world.
The same is true for you, in your own unique soul gift, mission and purpose on this plane.
We did not come here to be human. We’ve seen what human beings have done to their world. We are here to be love and in being that love, changing the very fabric of the world, along with what it truly means to be human. While it may not seem so at times, the world is changing simply because of our presence because this is what we came here to do (oops….BE).
Click on the image below to learn about all the ways you can connect with others, also here to change the vibration of our world.