I am writing today with a deep sorrow in my heart. We have come upon a time in our human evolution that is painful for all. And it’s not over yet.
As the pandemic rages and it seems the U.S. in on the brink of “The War on Terrorism Part 2,” (just in time for the 20th anniversary of 9/11) more and more truths are being revealed – truths that may be painful to witness. Some are collective, and some are deeply personal. Let’s start with the collective:
The War Machine
This morning as I was preparing my coffee, it hit me how deeply insidious is the “war machine.” As I posted on FB this morning:
I understand the value of the military and I am grateful for those who have made sacrifices to serve the cause of peace. I sometimes wonder, however, how much is actually for peace and how much is to fill the pockets of rich white men. How many young men have to die so that the corporate war machine can continue to make their CEO’s and shareholders wealthy?
The next question that hit me is, “Who all is involved in this?” When I asked this question, a really old white man for whom I cast my vote, presented himself before me, swiftly followed by an old white woman who I was glad hadn’t won the nomination. I have become increasingly convinced that none of “them” are innocent.
I will leave this here simply as something to ponder. This is indeed an existential question – how deep and how wide is the corruption of the system that (for example) keeps us in a constant state of war?
The next question arises in response to the pandemic. What the actual F..k? To date, 38.6 million Americans have contracted Covid-19 and 635,000 have died. And still we are fighting about vaccines and masks? Without going down the rabbit hole of collective finger pointing, I will simply ask this question: WHO BENEFITS FROM A PEOPLE DIVIDED? The short answer: follow the money.
Now let’s look at where the collapsing veils are hitting us in the most personal of ways….
People Showing their True Face
As the outside world grows increasingly strained and people are reaching their last nerve, their true faces are being revealed. Many are stepping up to the plate and proving their mettle. They are reaching out for support when in need and are being open and honest about their anxiety, frustration, and fear. For the authentic, and willing to be vulnerable among us, their true strength is being revealed.
Such is not the case for many/most. Instead, what is being revealed is a whole range of defense mechanisms that will eventually prove to be their downfall. Defense mechanisms like: secrecy, deception, betrayal, an attachment to control, guilt as a weapon, manipulating through victimhood/martyrdom, giving over their power to an outside perceived authority, looking for fulfillment outside of ones self, hoarding their perceived security, self-centered narcissistic behavior, deflection, blame, and soooooo much more.
It’s one thing to witness these behaviors in strangers, it is another to realize these as long-standing patterns in people close to us. As we continue our movement toward the collapse of the world as we have known it, peoples’ true natures are becoming increasingly apparent.
We cannot control whether people are willing to do the work necessary to deal with their shit. We can, however, deal with our own. WHEN we are triggered by those far from us and those close who are engaging in unhealthy defense mechanisms, first we deal with the wound in us that is being triggered by that behavior. Then we grieve. We grieve for our own loss of innocence (isn’t it a lot easier NOT to see people’s true face?). We grieve over what this new found knowledge might mean as it relates to the relationship in question. We discern a change in boundaries if necessary while holding the other in compassion. Then we move on to continue to do our own work. As the airline safety manual tells us, we have to put on our own oxygen mask before we can help others with theirs. This is the model we must follow if we hope to survive what is yet to come as the world continues in its collapse.
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