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A Poem for a Time of Waiting

Will This Game Ever Come to an End?

Copyright Lauri Ann Lumby

Sitting in the discomfort of unknowing.

Nervous, edgy, impatient.

Irritated and annoyed by the smallest of thing.

Unable to focus

Or to find anything to hold my interest.

Pacing the room

and the corridors in my mind.

Afraid to exhale –

Not knowing what may come

in allowing myself to breathe.

With nothing else to cling to or to occupy my restless heart,

thoughts become addled with

unfounded guilt and self-doubt.

In the midst of the unknowing

the demons come out to play.

Internal compass spinning

in the vain attempt to locate magnetic north.

Will the roulette wheel ever stop spinning?

Or are we doomed to an eternity of waiting –

always in anticipation of when

the next ax is going to fall.

Author:

I am the founder, owner of Authentic Freedom Academy and the Spiritual Director of the Order of the Magdalene and the Order of Melchizedek. Our mission is to provide education, community and support for those seeking to become self-actualized. Authentic Freedom (dot) Love is our learning community.