I am courageous
A brave warrior
and a shrinking violet.
while relishing thoughts of karmic retribution.
while imagining a horrendous demise.
and jealous of another’s success.
while holding steel-clad boundaries.
while harboring resentment.
yet filled with hate.
while sheltering a broken heart.
but easily discouraged.
and excruciatingly predictable.
while remaining comfortable in my routine.
Open to learning
but cruel when crossed.
Generous with my heart
and selfish with my time.
Accepting of our humanity
while being completely intolerant of imperfection.
while building walls of division.
copyright Lauri Ann Lumby