At the juncture between what has been and what is coming into form, it is not uncommon to experience a “Life Review.” I have experienced the life review as a flood of memories and feelings of where I’ve been. I think of it as the final purge before a new life is ready to begin. The best response to a life review is to be with it – allowing the memories and emotions to flow through – without getting attached to or hung up on them, but simply allowing them to move through. Sometimes there is an emotional release (rage, tears) that come through the life review – and that is also ok. We need to feel our past in order to let it go. The following is a poem I recently penned while experiencing my own spiritual life review:
As the life review presents itself, I let it wash over me –
Feeling into where I’ve been
And where I am today.
A wholly different person.
Cleansed of my resentment, hatred and rage…
No longer fixated on changing a broken and dying world.
Secure in who I am –
a unique expression of God’s love in the world.
I am love.
Sent to bring forth a new world:
One built on love – not fear.
Knowing the journey begins within.
The change starts with me.
Healing myself of past
In forgiving my past, transforming shame into Love.
Witnessing all the ways I’ve been told I had to be
Anything other than me.
And letting that shit go!
Freeing myself of the patriarchal world’s definition and formula for success;
Knowing the only real success is in being myself –
A little bit broken.
One who finds meaning in the simplest things:
An autumn walk in the woods.
The scent of a baby’s head.
The quiet of winter mornings before dawn.
A warm cup of coffee.
The loving embrace of a friend.
The laughter of my children…
and who wishes only to be Love and to walk gently through this life.
Where have you experienced your own life-review? What tools have you used to support yourself in that review? What were you able to glean from that experience?