Surrendering is a topic I have written about before as it is the invitation that shows up over and over and over and over in our journey toward the Soul. Whether we are asked to surrender, let go, or we find ourselves in a free-fall, SURRENDER is a persistent theme. This is natural considering that we have been conditioned to believe (and many new age and new thought circles enforce these beliefs) that the circumstances of our lives are somehow in our control. You know the routine – think the right thoughts and you will get what you want, working hard leads to reward, no pain no gain, it is by your efforts that you will be rewarded, your value is dependent upon how hard you work and what you accomplish, yada yada yada. The stream of conditioned thoughts are endless. Throw in our religious conditioning including the misperception of “faith” (believe you will be healed and you will); and the immigrant work ethic and we have a one mell of a hess!
The truth is, very little of what happens in our lives is within our realm of control. (GASP!). We are told that we have free will, but do we really? This is a question I have explored with many of my clients, students and colleagues. It seems that the closer we get to our Soul, the less we are allowed free will. In short, no matter how hard we work, no matter how strongly we believe (or think we believe) no matter how much we strive toward what we think is our Soul’s calling, our Soul’s purpose, our Soul’s mission…..if it is not our Soul’s calling, it will fail. (and sometimes when it is our Soul’s calling it still fails because it is what the Soul intended). And we can know that it is not our Soul’s calling when in spite of all our efforting, belief, “faith,” wishing hoping and dreaming, all we come up with is a bloody forehead from beating our head against the wall.
The Divine path is easy. The effort comes when we are allowing the ego to drive instead of our Soul. The Soul says, “Let Go! I got this.” The ego pleads, “BUT I NEED TO BE IN CONTROL. I need to know what is happening, why it is happening and how. I need to be able to decide, to choose, to see the road ahead and what will happen as the path unfolds so I can make plans.” The Soul says, “Um….no, you don’t. If you saw where I am leading you, you would freak the f-out and say NO! You don’t need to know and you don’t get to know and while you are busy making plans, I am unraveling them for you.” God is kind of an asshole that way – but only because the Divine plan is better than what we could ever imagine, hope or dream of – but NOT from the limited perception of the ego – only from the infinite and expansive wisdom of the Soul. In this the Soul can see the good in suffering, sorrow, betrayal, loss and pain. Even death – especially death – serves the greatest and highest purpose….but to all of this the ego says NO!
Surrender is such a frequent theme because of the ministrations of the ego. The ego wants to be in control and believes that being in control, it is keeping us safe. But at the end of the day, are we ever really safe? Death, as we know, can come at any minute. We can be taking our favorite route to the yoga studio and get hit by a semi. We can be eating all the right foods and thinking all the right thoughts and still get struck down by cancer. We can be enjoying a friendly game of soccer one day and find ourselves in the ICU hooked up to life support the very next day. Life (shit) happens and we have NO CONTROL over it. If it is the intended path of our Soul it will happen no matter what we do to try to “make it happen” or avoid it.
This is perhaps the toughest pill to swallow in our human journey. We are not in control. The Soul will do what the Soul came here to do. Period. Jesus proved this. Jesus came here to be and show love. He came here to show us all how to find peace (the kingdom of God) within. He healed the sick. He gave sight to the blind. He counseled the hurting. He nourished and fed the spiritually hungry. And then he got killed for it. Jesus did everything right. He listened to the calling of his Soul. He did what his Soul asked of him. He was “obedient unto death.” And then he died – a slow and painful death on a cross. And there was NOTHING he could do to stop it – because it was the path his Soul intended. And at the end of it all, Jesus did what we are all invited to do. He surrendered it all unto his Soul, “Into your hands I commend my spirit.” The very same path his mother traveled before him, “Let it be done to me according to your word.”
Complete and total surrender is what the Soul asks of us. To meet each moment of every day with the understanding that what is showing up to meet us is EXACTLY what our Soul has intended for us to experience in this life. We are not to know the whys or the hows, but to simply surrender. This is especially true when we don’t really like what is coming for us – illness, poverty, suffering, pain, disappointment, (perceived) failure, etc. We need to LET IT GO. And when we are human (which we will always be), and we find ourselves struggling and all our efforts seem to be in vain, the invitation is there again – complete and total surrender as the Soul reminds us, “Let go. I got this!” And then, we let Her!