Everyday, several people arrive at my website seeking answers to questions about twin flames, soul mates, happily ever after. Today, I want to respond to these questions directly….if for no other reason than perhaps to answer the question for myself.
Once Upon a Dream
Somewhere around twelve years ago, I had a dream that changed my life. The dream began atop a hill in the center of a circle of stones. I found myself standing beside an ancient-looking man dressed in white – a druid priest I presumed. He pointed me toward a path that led down the hill and into a village. “There is your heart’s desire,” he said. I went down the path into the village (it looked to be Elizabethan, and somewhere in Great Britain). I assumed I would find myself at the doors of a church (to learn that my heart’s desire was God), but instead found myself standing before the door of a row house. I opened the door and walked in, this was my home. I entered into the house and there was a man crouched down repairing a chair. He looked up at me with recognition, welcome and then, adoration. He stood up, and welcomed me into his arms and we kissed. In his embrace, I was home. I felt peaceful, secure, fulfilled. He was my beloved, my soul mate, my twin flame, my True One. And then I woke up.
The Recognition of Love
What I found in that dream was LOVE. For the first time in my life, I knew what relational love felt like, and that I was deserving of love and to know love like that. And then, I began a 12 year journey that continues yet today, for dreams are tricky, you see. At first, I believed I was being invited to find that kind of the love in the relationship I was in at the time of the dream. When that search proved fruitless, I decided that perhaps the dream was inviting me to find that love in God. I embarked on a passionate search for God and found support of this search through the Song of Songs in the Hebrew scripture, the modern day writings of Tessa Bieleki and the poetry of Rumi, Hafiz, Rilke and John of the Cross (to name a few). When I felt sufficiently full of God’s love, I found that this was not enough. I then turned that love toward myself. I worked long and hard at not only embracing God’s love, but learning to know and be that love within myself and in the world. The more I found myself rooted in God’s love and the more I came to love myself, the more I realized that the relationship I was in was not reflective of this love. After many twists and turns, that relationship came to a natural end and I turned once again to Divine and Self love. As those loves grew deeper roots, I found myself again seeking the relational component to the manifestation of love, sometimes in a needy, co-dependent kind of way, but more often, quietly waiting and trusting that as I was being the love God had called me to be, that the love that matches my love would find its way into my life, all the while continuing to deepen my love of God and love of Self.
Twin Flames, Soul Mates, True Ones, Happily Ever After?
After all this twisting and turning in search for the answer to my dream, I find I am left with more questions than answers. What I believe I can say with some certitude, however, is that the dreams of twin flames, soul mates, true ones and happily ever after have nothing to do with finding someone to complete us. Instead, the dreams of love that we all possess within our beings are
1) About God calling us home.
2) About being called home to ourselves.
3) About being the love we are called to be in the world and finding fulfillment through this being.
Then, when we are whole and complete within ourselves, we are free to love another freely and to enter into a conscious, loving, interdependent relationship that is rooted in mutual love and support, respect and co-creation.
Planted in Our Hearts
That being said, I also tend to believe that God plants within our hearts the knowledge of the person who will perfectly (or imperfectly….we are human after all) reflect this love. When we have done the work of showing up to ourselves, when we cease from striving, when we are finished with the needing, that person will show up (probably when and where we least expect it), and we will know them by a look in their eyes and in a recognition in our hearts.