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Anxiety, Depression and Panic Attacks


I am one who has experienced and suffered from depression, anxiety and panic attacks.  Compared to many, I would say that my panic attacks and even depression have been mild.  Anxiety, however, seems to have become my constant companion.  In the thirteen years of actively seeking healing, support, tools for dealing with and managing depression, anxiety and panic attacks, I have come to an interesting theory which I pose here as a question:

Are my anxiety, depression and panic attacks a result of suppressing and withholding my magic?


I often think it is.  Another way I have described it when working with clients is that in many cases, anxiety, depression and anxiety seem to surface as a result of suppressing (not expressing) our truth.

The only thing I have to support my theory about the link between our magic/our truth and depression, anxiety and panic attacks is my own personal journey of healing along with the healing experienced by many of my clients as we have done the work of accessing their truth and empowering their ability to give voice to their truth.  Not willing to infringe on client confidentiality, I will use myself as an example.

Somewhere around 14 years ago, the universe fell in on me and a few years later, it fell in on me again.  Depression, anxiety and panic attacks surfaced in response to these events.  In the aftermath, I have worked diligently in search of the remedy to the subsequent symptoms of depression, anxiety and panic.  While I did resort to medication (for a duration of 18 months) after my panic attacks became a nightly event, the most profound and enduring remedy to anxiety, panic and depression has been doing the work of identifying my truth, my needs, my magic and finding ways to express them.  The work of identifying my truth, my needs and my magic has included:

  • unraveling from deeply held patterns of co-dependency
  • learning how to identify and work toward getting my needs met
  • grieving unhealed losses, identifying and transforming unhealthy behaviors and defense mechanisms
  • learning to discern the voice of truth from the voice of my fearful self and then acting on it
  • incorporating mindfulness based practices for managing anxiety as it arises
  • exploring my gifts, nurturing, cultivating and sharing them
  • making the decision to leave an unhealthy marriage (not without first trying to make it healthy)
  • learning how to set healthy boundaries
  • coming to know myself – warts and all and learning how to find the gift in all of it

As I learned to take care of myself, my own needs, my gifts, talents and passions and became more comfortable in sharing these with others, my symptoms of depression significantly decreased, anxiety became manageable and panic attacks were all but eliminated.

Along with these measures, I have taken a preventative approach by cultivating a daily spiritual practice and making dietary, exercise and wellness decisions which help to support physical, emotional, mental and spiritual wellbeing, all of which help decrease the incidence of anxiety, depression and panic.

I’m not saying these approaches are the be-all, end-all, cure-all, but coming to know our magic and sharing it freely in the world goes a long way in reducing incidences of anxiety, depression and panic.  If nothing else, it doesn’t hurt to try.


I am a trained, professional Spiritual Director, Author and Hands-on Healer. I offer services, programs and classes that empower you to hear the voice of the Divine that speaks from within you. It is the voice of the Divine that leads us to our highest truth, to the discovery and cultivation of our gifts and to a life of Authentic Freedom where we know contentment, compassion and joy. Your truth will set you free!

One thought on “Anxiety, Depression and Panic Attacks

  1. I think you’re on to something here, Lauri. In the past few weeks, I have experienced more stability and more wholeness as a result of paying attention to my feminine side, which I have long cherished but not cultivated as much as I might have liked. I hadn’t thought of that as my “magic,” but that’s an apt word. Really important post.

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