Our Heart’s Desire
Whether we admit it or not, each of us are in search of our heart’s desire – the quest of the Soul to fulfill its mission and to be the person God/dess made us to be. Being the person God/dess made us to be leads us to a life that is fulfilling, joy-filled, rooted in contentment and peace, compassion and love. For many of us, the search for our heart’s desire is most acute during midlife, mostly because up until now, we have suppressed this desire. If midlife arrives and we have not yet obtained our heart’s desire, the Soul shows up to stir things up, making our lives messy enough that we begin to question, search and explore the origin of our seemingly insatiable restlessness, impatience, frustration, resentment and even rage.
Finding the Answer
The answer to the question, “What is my heart’s desire? What is the mission of my Soul,” is not to be found outside of us, though that is where, for many of us, the search begins. Neither is the answer to this question discovered in or through our intellect. Nay……the answer to our heart’s desire is safely protected in the hands of God (Goddess, Higher Self, Higher Power, Presence, Essence, Bliss….whatever name you use to identify that which is beyond). Only the Divine has knowledge of our highest self, of the purpose for which we were placed upon this big ball of mud, and the life that will make us feel fulfilled, joyful and content and through which we are called to serve the betterment of the world. Only God knows who and what God made us to be. That is, however, until we ask. But simply asking is not enough, for once we ask, we have to listen, truly listen, then we have to BELIEVE and RESPOND.
Asking to know our heart’s desire, the mission of our soul is comprised of a simple formula: SIT DOWN…..SHUT UP……LISTEN. 🙂 In other words, we find the answer to our heart’s desire through meditation, contemplation and prayer. In order to hear the still, small, voice of God, we have to quiet our restless minds and our troubled hearts. We need to be quiet and patiently wait for God to speak. And when God speaks, we need to listen.
Listening for God’s voice involves the skills of discernment. Discernment is the process through which we distinguish the voice of God from the voice of our ego/false self. The voice of God is recognized in feelings of peaceful expansiveness. The voice of the ego is cloaked in fear. God speaks of love, contentment, fulfillment and joy (though our ego may respond in fear to God’s voice.). The ego desires for us to remain in status quo – to remain content in the perceived surety of the known and familiar. God calls us to grow and to change.
The greatest obstacle, once we have heard God’s voice, is doubt. We wonder, “how can I know for certain that what I think I’m hearing is actually God or truth?” The hard truth is that we don’t. All we can do is try it on for size. Believing God’s voice requires a leap of faith and what I have come to call, spiritual obedience.
As Mary said to the angel Gabriel, “Let it be done to me according to your word,” this is the attitude we must embrace if we are to truly find our way to our heart’s desire and the fulfillment of Soul. If we wish to know contentment, joy, love, compassion and freedom in our lives, we have to set aside the desires of the ego, and be open to the path of our highest good, which comes from God. Spiritual obedience invites us to listen to the voice of God, trust it is God speaking and then act….sometimes with blind obedience. Most often, we do not know the outcome of Divine directives, all we know is how we are being invited to act IN THE MOMENT. We have to trust the direction given, and blindly adhere to this, having no attachment to the outcome, but knowing and trusting that it will lead us on the path of our highest good. Mary, believed and trusted in the angel’s instructions and accepted the invitation of her Soul, knowing that it would be a controversial and difficult decision, but trusting it as the path of her highest good. And thank God she did because otherwise we wouldn’t have Jesus – one of the greatest spiritual teachers to ever have walked this planet. And speaking of spiritual obedience, Jesus was obedient, even to the point of death, so that we too would one day have the opportunity to know the truth that Jesus came to know and the truth that eventually got him killed. Jesus refused to recant on his knowledge of his Oneness with God – the same state of Oneness he hoped we would one day also come to know. We are invited, like Mary, to let our lives be done according to God’s word….not ours. And like Jesus, we are invited to strictly adhere to the truth that God would reveal to us, regardless of what the outside perceived authorities might want us to do.
No one said it was going to be easy
No, the path of our heart’s desire, the fulfillment of our Soul is not an easy path. Accepting the path of the Soul sets us outside the fold and asks us to overcome not only our fears, but the very force of our Ego – that which we spent half a lifetime creating and clinging to. If, however, we want to know peace, contentment, freedom, fulfillment and love within ourselves and if we want to help to serve the betterment of the world, our heart’s desire – the path of our Soul is the only choice. “Let it be done to us according to God/dess’s word.”