As we journey toward the birth of our most magnificent, true self, we frequently come up against resistance. Resistance is the voice in our head that tells us we are not good enough, capable enough, worthy enough to enjoy the life of fulfillment and joy that God intended us to know. As a spiritual obstacle, resistance can only be conquered through spiritual means.
Wake Up Wake Up
Our soul, the greatest, magnificent, most amazing truth of who we are and who God made us to be, seeks to be known and seeks to be made known. As the tiny voice or raging fire within, our soul tries to WAKE US UP to who God made us to be and provokes, challenges, cajoles, urges, whispers, draws, kicks our butt until we PAY ATTENTION. While the soul is trying to wake us up, we are usually working really hard to stay asleep….or run away. Spiritually, this is the battle between our true self and the ego – the latter trying to keep us small, the former hoping to make us INFINITE! I much prefer the idea of being infinite….the ego, however, definitely has other plans.
The Face of Resistance
To the ego, KNOWN = SAFE and since the journey of birthing the soul is anything BUT known…..the ego fights like hell to keep us “safe” and in the world of KNOWN. To keep us there, the ego whispers in our ears, all the reasons we should NOT explore the longings of the soul:
- You’re not worthy
- You’re not loved
- You’re not capable
- You can’t do it
- People won’t like you if you do …
- You’re not attractive, talented, gifted enough
- You’re nobody special
- You’re fat, too skinny, ugly, stupid, etc. etc. etc.
- There’s not enough time, money, support, love, etc. etc. etc.
While the ego is busy whispering evil things into our ears, it is stirring up our anxiety which we then respond to in a myriad of ridiculous ways. Resorting to our instinctual nature, we fight, run (flight) or freeze in the face of the fear stew the ego is busy concocting, but since most of us don’t live on the Serengeti plains, we choose other ways to fight, flight or freeze –
Freeze is the easy one……we stop and drop in our tracks through all the ways that we numb ourselves: drugs, alcohol, food, TV, prescription medications, unhealthy relationships, over consumption, shopping, sleeping….and if our soul isn’t acknowledged, all of these eventually turn to DEPRESSION.
Flight consists of all the ways we RUN RUN RUN away from our truth and our path. Flight encompasses all the things we distract ourselves with that take time away from tending to our soul and our gifts – too many activities, too many unnecessary obligations, FACEBOOK, social media, internet, TV (again), aimless striving, aimless seeking, pacing, restlessness, thinking about all the other people around us and their needs that we think are OUR JOB to take care of.
Fight tells us it is SOMEBODY else’s fault that we are unhappy, unfulfilled, that our life lacks joy, love, peace. In fight, we stand with our feet planted and our index finger pointed outward in anger and resentment at all the people who we think stand as obstacles to our happiness. Guess what……the only person that can make you happy is YOU and the only person that can make you unhappy is YOU! It is no body else’s fault but your own if you are unhappy and unfulfilled because you haven’t taken the time to heed the calling of your soul!
Sit Down and Shut up!
All the restlessness, longing, sense of being unfulfilled, unhappy or unloved is quite simply, the SOUL, your deepest spiritual truth, trying to get your attention. She just wants to be known, acknowledged, heard, nurtured, cultivated, engaged and eventually, shared in the world. (SOUND FAMILIAR????? How many times have YOU said, “I just want to be heard. I just want to be acknowledged. I just want to be valued and taken care of.”) Your only job, when the soul comes calling is to SIT DOWN AND SHUT UP so that the tiny, at first tentative, voice of the soul can be heard. And the voice of the soul cannot be heard as long as you are fighting, fleeing or numb. So if you are looking for meaning, purpose, fulfillment, contentment, love, joy and peace in your life, then be quiet. Sit still…and LISTEN, and the soul will reward you because the destination of the soul is the birthing of your magnificence, or your unique giftedness and the place where you will know INNER contentment, fulfillment and joy. And you will know you have arrived because it will feel like HOME.
What does your soul want you to know?
Authentic Freedom Ministries