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Feed My Sheep

Today’s blog explores the topic of “Divine Call.”  How do we know what we are called to do in this life and how do we respond?

Ok, So Maybe I’m Weird!

For as long as I can remember, I have had a profound sense of purpose.  I felt like I was supposed to be doing something – specifically something that would help other people and have some sort of positive impact on the world.  Perhaps I felt his sense of purpose because of the time in which I was born – 1965 to be exact.  I was born too late to be a hippie, but that didn’t keep me from wanting to be a part of “The Revolution.”  Maybe it was because the first song I ever remember hearing was “The Age of Aquarius” which continues to be my all-time favorite song and the song that has been the guiding principle of my life :  Harmony and Understanding, Sympathy and Trust Abounding… Then peace will guide the planets and love will steer the stars.  Really, who doesn’t want that?  Maybe it is because I was raised Catholic and encouraged to believe in the magical, mystical, mysterious and impossible (you know, like turning bread and wine into the Body and Blood of Christ).  Or maybe I’m just plain weird and a little delusional.  At any rate, I have always believed I was put here to facilitate change and to work toward bringing more peace, love and harmony to our planet.  This belief, I have learned, was the beginning of what I would now call a “Divine Call.”  I have also learned, that this “Divine Call” is not unique to me, in fact, each and every human being on this planet is here to do the work of the Divine…..if we would only take the time to be quiet enough to hear what that call might be and courageous enough to break through the obstacles that might otherwise prevent us from living that out.

Bricks Can Fly Baby!

For me, the revelation of Divine call began with impatience, frustration and restlessness.   I found that I could never be satisfied in corporate America and went from job to job to job trying to find fulfillment and satisfaction.  Needless to say, I got nothin.  So, one day, in a fit of frustration I poured my anger out to God.  “What the heck am I supposed to do?  I went to college for four years for this?  I’m not making any money.  I hate my job.  Please tell me what the heck I’m supposed to be doing.”  The answer came in the form of a red brick that flew through the air and hit me square between the eyes.  Not literally, but it sure felt like it.  I can still hear Fr. Jeff’s voice ringing in my head, “If there is something you’ve always wanted to do and you haven’t done it….get off your ass and do it now!”  (PS  He really did say “ass”….he is a really cool priest!)  That brick led me into seven years of advanced education and formation in theology, pastoral ministry, adult faith formation and spiritual direction, and empowered me to enter active ministry within the Catholic Church where I worked for nearly 10 years.

Feed My Sheep

As my ministry work continued to grow and expand, I found that the Catholic Institution was too small to hold the expansive sense of the Divine that I had come to understand and that had been revealed to me in my prayer, meditation, contemplation and life experiences.  I found that as I tried to live out this sense of an expansive God within the Institution I kept hitting the wall created by doctrine and Canon Law.  So, apparently it was time to go.  So, I left, but I did not leave my faith or my relationship with Jesus behind.  In fact, in another moment of “Divine Revelation,” while sitting in quiet contemplation Jesus himself took me by the hand and led me down a long hallway.  At the end of the hallway was a door which he opened and invited me to enter.  I stepped through the doorway and before us stood a multitude of people….too many to count.  As I looked out on this sea of people, Jesus gestured toward them and said to me, “Feed my Sheep.”  I fell to my knees in humble awe over this invitation.  It is this encounter with Jesus and his words of invitation “Feed my Sheep” that has guided my ministry for the past seven or so years.  And it is this invitation that I respond to as we launch the Authentic Freedom Ministries’ Sunday Service this coming weekend.  I don’t know where it will all lead, or even what exactly it will look like, but I know that it will be about nourishment – giving those who attend the tools through which they can find the spiritual nourishment they crave while empowering them to come to know the Divine that lives within their own hearts, to know themselves more fully and to begin to explore what their own Divine Call might be.

Where are you feeling restless, bored, impatient, unfulfilled? 

How might that be the beginning glimpses of Divine Call?

How are you remembering love and living that out in your life in service to humankind?


Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries


I am a trained, professional Spiritual Director, Author and Hands-on Healer. I offer services, programs and classes that empower you to hear the voice of the Divine that speaks from within you. It is the voice of the Divine that leads us to our highest truth, to the discovery and cultivation of our gifts and to a life of Authentic Freedom where we know contentment, compassion and joy. Your truth will set you free!

5 thoughts on “Feed My Sheep

  1. Thank you for telling your story, Lauri; it sounds so much like mine, so if you’re delusional, join the club!

    I particularly appreciate your mention of restlessness as the first glimmerings of the divine call. The monks at the monastery where I’m an Associate ( often write and speak of that very experience. Often, once you meet the thing to which you’re called, the restlessness turns into peace–a settledness, as it were–and there’s your aha! moment where the call is revealed and understood.

  2. Happy New Year, Lauri!

    Just for today, I am completely “over” this discernment “process”. Yesterday I had a great conversation with a Deacon who I dearly love. He was…well really is – a really good pastoral. He commended me for the only thing, the most important thing I came to him knowing, just under a year ago. What I know is that there is really only one important questions for me to answer, and all other questions and answers need to be guided by that one. The question? Who is God to me, and what am I doing about it? I literally cried with gratitude for his patience and love.

    Today, I don’t have it for myself. I am not restless, certainly not bored, just raw and tired. Can I have a little hint here? Just a glimmer? Just a light so I know what direction the tunnel is headed? Please? I am honestly is a really good place. But squirming about it. It isn’t even the impatience that I used to feel. It is different. I’m doing things that I know will pay off for myself and others. I just have to keep doing what I’ve been doing right, and stay steadily on. *sigh.*

    You asked: How are you remembering love and living that out in your life in service to humankind?
    I use that prayer you quoted here (the Lord’s Prayer in Aramaic) almost daily to help me to remember the love I was created to embody and bring to this world.
    I live it out in my life by being as present as I am capable of being with every being I encounter, do my best to recognize Christ in every encounter (in each of us…we are Christ speaking to Christ) keeping me humble and grateful, and I bring the needy into the place I work by running food, book, toy and blood drives. I also volunteer regularly in the communities where I live: neighborhood, church, special interest groups.

    Amazing! I didn’t know I was doing much, really. Not that that is SO much, but it is more than I would have credited myself with to someone in person. Thanks for the question.

    1. Hello, Jessi,

      It sounds as though you’re doing some great things. One thing you said really plucked a chord with me:


      I love, love, love this question, and I wonder how deeply into the divine will it could take us if we just lived with it for a while–not trying to answer it consciously, but rather being present to it and letting ideas emerge. Thank you for putting it out there.

  3. Whoops. I didn’t realize the question wouldn’t show up! This is the one I was talking about:

    Who is God to me, and what am I doing about it?

    1. Yes, John. Thanks. I knew that the question was there for me.

      On my good days, I live with it on a post-it on the inside of my forehead. The answer is almost always right before my eyes, in the faces before me, in the work I have yet to do. Then, one thing at a time, I just have to DO what I am there to do. Not always easy. I don’t always get it right.

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