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Waiting in the Mystery

Today’s blog explores dreams, hopes, faith and trust and the invitation to wait in the mystery as part of our process of spiritual growth.

Seeing with a prophet’s eyes

This is a truly strange time for me as I pen this blog from the Batcave (my current temporary abode, thanks to the generous hospitality of a friend) and observe the goings-on of my life, especially as it relates to my own process of spiritual growth.  I am immediately reminded that this is my “40 days in the desert” and as such, the terrain will feel foreign (yet oddly familiar); sometimes lonely (but accompanied by the assistance of angels); there will be opportunities for learning, growth and most importantly, temptation; it might seem as if nothing is happening when in fact something HUGE is happening.  All I can do is surrender to the process and try to see with a prophet’s eyes.  What that means is that I am being invited to be acutely attentive to everything that is transpiring in front of me and be open to where it all may be leading.  Most importantly, I am reminded NOT to give into the temptation to fear or perhaps even more importantly, to doubt what God seems to be showing me and what my heart continues to reinforce in me.

No doubting allowed

In this time of mystery, there are certain things that have showed themselves either through dreams, life circumstances, intuition or in my meditation and prayer.  These are the things I am invited to TRUST TRUST TRUST will all my heart and with all my will!  Some of these are as follows:

  • I was given a dream with a HUGE bat and invited to climb up on the bat and let her carry me through this time of mystery.
  • I was then given a dream in which I was eating bat wings.  The message?  I took it as an invitation to embody the death of what was so that I can be open to that which has yet to be revealed.  It felt very eucharistic to me.
  • I was given a dream in which someone gave me a house.  Now, I don’t expect someone to literally give me a house, free and clear, but I took this as a message that the way in which a house will come to me will be magical and effortless.
  • When I ask the question, “Am I supposed to be looking for a ‘real’ job”  The answer is NO and WAIT.  This makes no logical sense, but there it is.
  • I have been told for years that my book Authentic Freedom – Claiming a Life of Contentment and Joy will have a dramatic healing and transformative effect on the world and will put me where I need to be professionally, personally, financially.
  • I have been told that the basement dwelling situation is very temporary
  • I have been told that all my financial needs will be met in abundance

None of the above items make any logical sense whatsoever, especially when coupled with some of the items that I will present below, but this is what I have been told, especially, what I have been told to trust….REGARDLESS of what others may say.

Observing without Judgment

Then comes reality.  Life continues to throw me strange situations, challenges, etc. that could cause me to doubt, be fearful, frustrated, etc.  Instead, I am being invited to watch without judgment and again TRUST that all is leading to something magical and magnificent.  Here are just a couple of those items:

  • As I am in this time of desert, I am watching my business seemingly fade away.  My appointment calendar is sparce and several clients have been a no-show.  Only a few show up for our Monday meditation circle.  I feel no call to offer or teach any classes.  I could be fearful of this hard-reality, instead, I’m trusting that the universe has provided me with open space for other matters more pressing.
  • LIKE… father is facing MAJOR surgery – and the removal of both kidneys.  I need this open time to be in Minneapolis with my family and provide assistance where I can.

The Miracles

Trust, faith, belief is what I have been hanging on to as I move through this time of waiting.  And, I have not been disappointed in the results, in fact, the results have been nothing short of magnificent.  Money has shown up seemingly out of nowhere.  Angels in the form of humans have come forward with hugs, support, words of kindness and encouragement.  When I feel insane with my dreams and hopes, others have provided the assurance and encouragement I need to move forward.  All of this tells me to trust my crazy dreams, to be patient in the waiting and to believe that in this time of mystery, a magnificent, fulfilling, rewarding and abundant new life is just waiting to be born!  YEA!

How are you being invited to trust your dreams, heart-felt beliefs, hopes, visions, etc.?

How are you being invited to observe without judgment?

What are the sources of support that have shown up for you along the way?

Lauri Lumby

Authentic Freedom Ministries


I am a trained, professional Spiritual Director, Author and Hands-on Healer. I offer services, programs and classes that empower you to hear the voice of the Divine that speaks from within you. It is the voice of the Divine that leads us to our highest truth, to the discovery and cultivation of our gifts and to a life of Authentic Freedom where we know contentment, compassion and joy. Your truth will set you free!

One thought on “Waiting in the Mystery

  1. Hello Batgirl.
    Yogi Bhajan spoke of Five Sutras of the Aquarian Age. They have sustained and guided me through times of uncertainty:
    1. Understand through compassion; otherwise you might misunderstand the times.
    2. Recognize that the other person is you.
    3. When the time is on you, start and the pressure will be off.
    4. There is a way through every block.
    5. Vibrate the cosmos; the cosmos shall clear the path.

    It took me a while to process that last sutra. Actually, it took years. The first four sutras sustained me just fine. The fifth sutra sounded just a little too “new-agey.” On the surface, it almost seemed passive. As if one can leave their future to fate. I had to learn from the first four sutras before I was ready to understand the fifth. The cosmos is about action. It is about movement. It is about creation. When I was suffering a recent bout of self-doubt I asked for guidance, “How will I get through this?” The answer, “JUST KEEP GOING.” So, I keep going. Responding to what unfolds with action. Because to be a part of the cosmos is to be a part of the action.
    You Lauri, are a woman of action. Even from your desert, you are reaching out. Because in your heart you know that if one sits still in the desert they will be consumed by the sand.

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