Yesterday I mentioned the spiritual practice of Recapitulation. In today’s blog, I will explore this practice and how we might all be able to apply this to our own journeys of spiritual growth and spiritual healing.
Not an Expert
I want to state right off the bat, the idea and practice of recapitulation is new to me, so I am in no way an expert in this process. I wish merely to share with you my own personal experience with this process and point you toward resources that may be helpful to you if you feel called to incorporate this process into your own spiritual journey. (Wheel of Initiation by Julie Tallard Johnson is one such resource!)
What is Recapitulation
Recapitulation is a spiritual practice through which we name and reclaim the lost parts of ourselves. Specifically, it is about calling back the energy that we have lost to specific emotional dynamics or agreements. Recapitulation as a spiritual practice comes to us through the Toltec traditions of Mesoamerica. Through the recapitulation process we intentionally, consciously, meditatively and ritually name all the places our emotional energy has been taken away and we invite that energy to return to us so that it can be redirected toward positive, life-giving intentions and activities. Recapitulation acts as a vehicle through which we are able to be more fully restored to our highest and most original nature and be empowered to live more authentically and enjoy greater inner freedom.
The opportunity for recapitulation came for me on the heels of the atomic explosion I mentioned in yesterday’s blog. I experienced a HUGE conflict and had to face my part in the devastation. After the dust settled, I named and took responsibility for my role in the drama. After doing so, it struck me that some recapitulation may be in order…I just didn’t know what was being recapitulated (reclaimed). Well, yesterday it showed up. It became apparent to me that the place where I lost my emotional energy in the atomic explosion was around the idea of punishment. Specifically, I realized that I had been punished for expressing my truth. Once I was able to identify this energy sucker, an entire parade presented itself before me of all the times in my life where I had been punished for speaking my truth. Here are just a few:
- When I challenged Fr. Doyle for his belief that priests got to go to heaven before “the rest of us” simply because of their ordination. He changed my A+ to a C for challenging him.
- When I dared to sponsor a class on Christian Zen meditation in a building owned by the Church.
- When 7 people came to a class I was teaching on the Lord’s Prayer with the intent to attack me personally and sabotage the class.
- When I tried to share Reiki as part of my ministry in the Catholic Church.
These are just a few examples from my professional life, and there are many more like them from my personal life as well.
Now that I had identified the energy sucker, I could begin the process of recapitulation. The cornerstone of the process is the intention itself. What is the intention I wanted to set for my recapitulation? Here is what I came up with:
“I am getting my energy back from all the times I was punished for speaking my truth”
Then through a process of visualization, connecting with Source and intentional breathing, (yogic breathing works here), I was invited to imagine all the places (or at least the ones I could remember) where I had been punished for speaking my truth. Then I was to invite the energy lost to those punishing experiences back into my own body. After calling the energy back, I was then invited to state a purpose for all of this reclaimed energy. This was the purpose I established:
“I redirect this reclaimed energy to fuel my creative gifts and projects. “
For you see, this is what recapitulation is all about in the first place. When we lose our energy to emotional dynamics or agreements, we are deprived of the energy that we need to support our highest self and our purpose for being here. When we reclaim that lost energy, we get it back to fuel the things that are life-giving and supportive to our higher purpose. How cool is that!!!!!?????
To what emotional dynamics and agreements have you lost energy?
How are you being invited to call that back?
How might you explore a formal process of recapitulation (see Julie’s book!) to support you in your own journey of spiritual empowerment?
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