Today I explore again the human search for fulfillment. What are the things that give us a sense of contentment and how are we invited to give them our attention.
I am the wind
Which blows chaos into
Prying free the twisted,
Fingers of complacency
Tossing them into the air
To be cleansed,
Tumbled topsy-turvy on my breath
Towards new life,
Unleashing the creative genius
The universe has given me an amazing gift this week – three whole days to do nothing but write! In this wide open space of creative exploration I have been reminded of the one activity that leaves me feeling true contentment and peace – and that is writing. (throw in some time to rock out to Disturbed and have coffee with friends, and my life is COMPLETE!) It strikes me that I have spent the last 45 years (I’m not afraid to share my age) relentlessly searching for the fulfillment that I have rediscovered in my writing craft. And unlike the non-fiction writing that I have done in the past, this is bold, silly, ridiculous creative writing – something I remember enjoying in grade school but for some reason left it in the dust. So here I am at mid-life enjoying the gifts of creativity that I left behind so long ago.
I think that fulfillment is the one desire that we have in common as human animals. We long to know contentment, peace, a sense of groundedness and completeness. We seek relentlessly, usually outside ourselves for the magic pill that will make us feel whole. It sometimes takes our entire lifetime (and sadly, some never come to find it) to realize that this fulfillment does not come from outside of us, but resides somewhere within us, usually deep in our hearts. Born a multi-tasker, I have found that fulfillment comes to me in various forms. In meditation and prayer. In singing and dancing. In cooking, playing with my children, listening to people’s stories, teaching a class, spending time with friends, enjoying a great cup of freshly brewed gourmet dark roast coffee (I know, I’m a total coffee snob) and writing. I know it seems that these activities are happening outside of me….but in truth….these are all activities that are springing forth from the deep well of contentment and joy that reside within.
Making a choice
So, here is the thought I am entertaining: What if in discovering these experiences of fulfillment, we are being invited to indulge in more of the same? What if life is not about the drudgery, about doing all those things that suck us dry of our very life blood, but is actually about finding those things that give us life? What would life be like then if we actually gave ourselves permission to embrace and indulge in those activities that give us joy, help us feel peace and facilitate our ability to be loving, compassionate and merciful beings? HHHMMMM We might have something here!
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