This week we have been exploring the truth of Divine abundance and the fears and compulsions that keep us from remembering this truth – specifically, the fear that there is not enough and its resulting compulsion of gluttony. Working with one of my spiritual mentors and teachers yesterday, I became acutely aware of my own resistance to embracing and believing in the truth of Divine abundance. As we explored the current circumstances of my personal and professional life, my teacher held up the mirror to show me how recent behaviors have been reflective of my own fear that there is not enough. Taking a bite of humble pie, I was forced to examine my fears about food, clothing, shelter, money, support, etc. etc. etc. Then came the zinger……”You know Lauri,” my teacher said, “it seems you are being invited to live deeply the principles of Authentic Freedom as outlined in your coming book.” So, is this what I get for presuming to know anything about Divine truth? Crap!
So, it seems that in my fear that there is not enough, that I have been striving after “surety.” In this striving, I find myself feeling anxious, worried and trying to control the circumstances of my life through compulsive dreaming, visioning, planning and manipulating and trying to force action before its readiness. My teacher reminded me of the abundant flow of the universe and that all things will happen in their own time in their own way. She invited me to surrender to that flow and …….TRUST that all my needs would be met all in my highest good.
TRUST and FAITH it seems are the virtues I am being invited to embrace as I surrender to this process. In this I have been reminded of the profound value of having spiritual teachers and guides to help us along the way. Spiritual Directors, authors and program facilitators need guidance and support too and for those who have been vessels through which the gentle voice of the Divine has pierced through the veil of my own fears and false perceptions, I am eternally grateful.